Hey everyone! I just wanted to let you know that I finally updated Tormented. enjoy!
An annoyed tone of voice rings through my ears, and I could feel myself getting shooken. Is that Tegans voice? Her voice doesn't sound like that though, but who else would it be
"Teeegaaannn stop, five more minutes" I mumbled, too tired to even move
I heard a groan. That was definitely Tegans groan. I was suddenly aware of the body still molded into mine. It wasn't Tegan who was shaking me
"Lindsey! Wake the fuck up, we've gotta be checked out of the hotel in 20 minutes," I opened my eyes, realized that it was Sara trying to wake me up. Oh god….she's seen me and Tegan like this…wait, why would she care?
"Okay, we'll be ready, thanks," I sleepily told her. She walked out of the room without saying anything else
I looked down at Tegan, who was curled into a ball, face still buried in my neck
"Tegan get up, we've got to leave," She didn't do anything
"Tegan come on," I backed away from her and she grabbed onto my shirt moaning something
"No don't leave…." Despite her protest, I hopped off the bed.
"Sara said we've gotta be checked out in less than 20 minutes." She finally popped her head up, and rolled off the bed onto her feet.
"What time is it?"She asked
I checked the clock for her "4:56"
"It's too early to function, my god." She groaned and then started looking around the room for any items to pack, I did too.
"You can sleep on the bus, so the quicker we get packed the quicker we can sleep"
"Yay," She cheered, too tired to put any excitement in her voice. Sleepy Tegan is adorable
15 minutes later, we all met down in the lobby. We all stood like zombies holding our suitcases, waiting for Piers to open up the bus for us.
Once opened, We all sleepwalked on. I followed behind Tegan, who was walking especially slowly. She opened up her curtain and set her suitcase beside her bunk. I walked past her and she smiled at me "Goodnight, again, LB."
I opened up my curtain and put my foot on the bottom bunk, preparing to climb onto mine. I looked behind me and down at her
"Goodnight, again, TQ," I saw her smile before I hopped into my bunk. I reached over to close my curtain when I see Sara walk past, eyeing me. What was that about?
I popped my headphones in, and listened to soft indie music as I thought about my day with Tegan. If I'm not mistaken, we had a very flirty day yesterday. My stomach got butterflies as the thought that Tegan may like me popped in my head. I fell asleep with those butterflies.
I woke up at 11, and hung out of my bunk, still super tired. I was scared to hop down onto the floor because I know the bus was moving and I was still half asleep and if I try to jump like this, there's a good chance I might fall.
I heard the curtain at the start of the hallway of bunks open, and Tegan greeted me with a smile.
"How's it hangin'? " She teased,
I looked at her and then back down at the ground, still too scared to jump.
I looked back up at her, and her eyebrows were creased
"What's wrong?" She asked, stepping in front of me.
"I don't want to jump, I know I'm gonna fall," I told her
She smiled, and held her arms out.
"Jump, I'll be right here to stop you from falling."
I hesitated, and she picked up on it.
"Don't you trust me?" She asked
"I do," I told her. I got a leap of confidence
"Then jump!" I lifted my arms off and jumped, Tegan grabbed my waist and caught me, but I practically jumped on her, causing me to push us against the other wall of the bunks. Her back hit the other wall with a sickly thump, but she didn't say anything. Our faces were inches apart from each other, I had déjà vu from yesterday morning. However, our faces were a bit farther apart this time. Tegan began leaning forward, and I closed my eyes, invited her lips to join mine.
"Told you I would catch you,", her lips grazed against mine, tickling them, and then without warning, she grabbed my back pulling me closer and collided our lips. I only got to feel her soft, plump lips on mine for a quick second, because we both pulled apart at the sound of the curtain opening.
"Hey guys-woah….was I interrupting something?" Shaun asked, alarmed
"No! We were uh….we….well Lindsey was scared to jump off her bunks because the bumpy road and I had to help her…" Tegan told him nervously
"Ah. I see. I'm just gonna squeeze past here if you don't mind," Shaun said, walking past us. Tegan began walking away, and I followed. I turned around to look at Shaun, and when I did, he winked at me and I quickly turned back around, blushing. Shaun was being humble… I know he saw what happened.
I walked out into the kitchen, and I took a seat across from Tegan. She was looking down at her hand that was swirling a ponytail holder around on the table with her finger. I think she felt my eyes on her because she flicked her eyes up and looked at me, bit her lip, and then winked before looking back down at her finger. I couldn't wipe the giant smile off my face, I feel like a Barbie doll like this. I looked behind Tegan, to see that Sara was staring right at me. I don't care that she can see the giant smile on my face. I don't care that she knows Tegan purposely caused it. Tegan's not her girlfriend anymore, so why should it matter?
I need to mark this day down in a calendar. God, I'm such a little teenager.
The next week flew by. There's been 6 shows that all passed with a blur. I didn't even really pay attention to much; I was too busy trying to get Tegan to kiss me again. Throughout this week, we've been so flirty with each other….and I mean flirty, flirty. Lots of late night walks consisting of talks, pouring our hearts out to each other and venting to one another. However, none of these heart-to-hearts ever included anything about the cut short kiss we shared. And ever since then, all I can think about is how I can make that happen again…how to make us touch again. I know she wants to…and I've made it clear that I want to too, so why won't she do anything about it?
My thoughts were interrupted by a loud voice.
"How many more hours 'till LA?" Emy asked
"Six. Six more freakin' hours." Piers told her
Woah, I completely forgot that we're going to LA next. I can visit my apartment.
"How long are we going to be in LA for?" I asked
"3 days 3 nights….don't you have an apartment in LA?" He asked me
"Oh yeah! You do, don't you?" Tegan jumped in
"Mhm,"
"You must be excited to sleep in your own bed instead of the plastic scratchy hotel ones, huh?" She asked
"Oh my god, yes. I can't wait" I told her. I wonder if she'll be up for staying with me instead of getting a hotel like everyone else… how am I going to ask her, and when am I going to ask her? I have six hours to do so…..better do it now so I wont have to spend the rest of the six hours worrying about it
"Hey Tegan?"
She looked up at me from reading her book flashing me a quick gummy smile before speaking
"Yeah?"
"Would you maybe-" Her phone vibrated loudly on the table, and we both turned our attention to it
"Ooo! It's Dallas!" Tegan called out. They're supposed to be meeting up and playing a few shows while in LA
She answered it with a big smile on her face, obviously excited. She's so cute
"Hey Dally!" She Squeled.
"Put it on speaker phone!" Sara came up behind Tegan and reached around and took the phone out of Tegans hands, and put him on speaker. Tegan's smile was instantly gone, just like it always is when Sara goes near her. Maybe that's why she won't make a move on me….Maybe she's still too hurt about Sara. It must be awful seeing her and Emy still in the gushy stage of their relationship. I know I would be.
I got up from the table, and went and scanned the fridge. I grabbed a pear ( which is one of Tegan's favorite fruits, along with green apples,) and took a small bite from it. I ate it in the kitchen while just staring off into space, not paying attention to the conversation going on between everyone and Dallas. After I was done with my pear, I went in the back room and went through stuff on my laptop for a few hours, giving up on trying to ask Tegan to stay with me. Even though I really, really want her to. God, I really want her to. It could be so much fun… I'll ask her. I'll do it right now, in fact.
"Hey Lindsey, we're about 15 minutes away from the hotel we're staying at. Do you want us to drop you off at your place? Or are you planning to stay with us at the hotel? Your choice, either is fine, just as long as you have your own transportation methods to get to the venues and stuff," Justin walked in and asked me just as I was about to confront Tegan
"If it's not too much trouble, it'd be great to get dropped off. I have a car so transportation will be no problem."
"Alrighty then, we're all set." I nodded and he left. I walked out of the room preparing what I was going to say to Tegan.
My planning was cut short when I saw Tegan in the sleeping quarters right outside the room I was in. I was hoping to have more time to prepare what I was going to say, but I guess that hope is gone. She was fishing through her suitcase, distracted. It was just me and her.
"Hey Tegan?" I said for the second time today
She looked up from her suitcase
"What's up LB?" Oh God, I love that she calls me LB. She gave me her own little nickname
"Instead of staying in a 'scratchy plastic hotel'" I quoted her, "You should come stay with me. I've got an exceptionally comfy couch, which I can assure isn't scratchy nor plastic in any way shape or form," I'm such a nerd. Shoot me
She bit her lip and smiled, "Wanna know what's funny?"
"What's funny?"
"I was seconds away from asking you if I could crash at your place,"
I smiled at the thought of her actually thinking of asking me. Now I won't have to feel as if she only said yes because she doesn't want to turn me down
"Seriously?"
"Weird right?"
"Totally,"
She slammed her suitcase shut, and zipped it up.
"Can't wait to rearrange your furniture,"
She winked at me and hauled her suitcase off into the living area. I Quickly grabbed mine off the bunk and then followed Tegan out. I sat on the couch and Tegan sat at the table next to AL.
"Hey Linds, point to which place is yours when you see it, alright?" The driver asked me.
I walked up to the front and sat down in the seat across from the driver When I spotted my apartment, I called out and he parked outside of it.
"Thanks, Greg," I went back to grab my suitcase and watched Tegan eye me and grabbed her suitcase and get up too.
" Tegan where are you going?" Sara blurted, blushing
"I'm staying with Lindsey."
I turned around to see Sara's reaction and she look scared for some reason. Does she know about my infatuation with Tegan?