Chapter 10: Call I'm Angry

Amu hadn't fully realized the situation that was developing right under her nose but she knew that she couldn't keep going back and forth with him. She could feel his grip around her waist increasing which was enough for her to push away from him.

She shook her head and ran her fingers through her hair letting out a slow sigh. She could feel his eyes wondering over her carefully slightly confused of her actions.

"Do you want me to leave?" He asked gazing towards the window.

She shot a glance back towards him and instantly regretted everything that had just happened. "No it's okay. It's just… weird is all."

A sad smile came across his features. "We went from friends to something more and now we-"

"It's been awhile since we have been just friends." Amu said nodding in agreement.

Kukai walked over to the girl and grabbed her hands placing a soft kiss over them. Her face flushed from the touch and remained still.

When he looked back, he made sure their eyes locked. "But I don't think I should be here right now with just me and you, alone."

He noticed her eyes beginning to glisten with impending tears. The next thing he did was pull her into a tight embrace allowing her to melt into his form. He gently whispered into her ear.

"I should leave for now and let you cool off."

Amu's heart sank immediately after hearing those words but nonetheless she nodded against his shoulder agreeing with his choice.

He continued whispering. "It's not you I don't trust. I can't trust myself being alone with you." His grip tightened around her letting her know he was sorry for hurting her again.

Eventually Kukai let go and felt Amu step away from his body. He already missed the warmth from her body but smiled anyway as she quickly wiped away her tears. When she had done the best she could for her face, she gazed up at Kukai waiting for him to say anything else.

"Do you want to walk me to my car?" He asked holding out his arm for her to take.

Amu didn't even wait for him to repeat his question. She latched onto his arm and led him back down to his car. Once outside they said their goodbyes and awkwardly hugged again without the passion they both deeply wanted back.

They just weren't willingly enough to say it out loud for the other to hear.

I watched her in my review mirror as I drove away. Every single emotion coursed through my veins such as relief, sadness, confusion and the biggest one being anguish.

Why didn't I kiss her when I had the chance? I should have been on my knees begging for forgiveness! I wanted her to know everything that I regretted for the last few weeks. But every time I went to tell her, I come up with another excuse.

I slammed my hands against the steering wheel as a surge of frustration dominated all my other emotions. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket and retrieved it out glancing at the screen.

"Utau?" I whispered and flipped the phone open.

Hey Kukai! I haven't heard from you in a few days… wanna hang out today?

So she was still in town, eh?

Sorry about that I've been busy. What do you wanna do?

It didn't take long for her to answer back. Come meet me at the hotel and we can go from there! :)

As I went to type a response I felt a sense of worry overcome me. This just didn't seem right but what else could I do?

Yeah no problem. See you in a few.

Can't wait! ;)

….

I feel stupid. What the hell am I doing in a hot tub with a half- naked girl? This isn't right. I should get out and make up an excuse to leave right now.

I watch as she moved closer, her violet eyes growing darker with mischief. I open my mouth in which she gently rubs my thigh smiling softly. But underneath that smile I know what she is thinking.

As nicely as I could, I brushed her hand off and tried to smile. "So when are you supposed to be back at work?"

She frowned at the question and her happy face turned into a scowl. "Are you trying to get rid of me?"

I held up my hands. "No I would never do that, Utau. It was just a question."

Utau eyed me carefully and scooted away obviously pissed off. She let out a sigh and looked towards the pool where we were previously swimming. I followed her gaze and watched the ripples in the pool hit against the sides.

I rested my hand on her shoulder earning a quick glance from her before she turned away again.

"I'm sorry, Utau. I'm just a little…"

"Uncomfortable?" She added keeping her eyes on the pool.

I said nothing and gazed down at my lap. "I'm not uncomfortable just needing my space."

"Did your brother hit you again?"

I swallowed hard. "I'll be fine." From the corner of my eyes I could see her shaking her head.

"If you don't do something soon, I will."

Our eyes meet in an intense stand- off neither of us saying a word, only communicating by seeing who will look away first.

"Nobody deserves to go through what you are going through. Can't you see that?"

"No I guess I don't see that. Things will get better soon."

She snapped her head back towards me. "You are so stupid, Kukai! If I could hit you right now I would!"

That's when I snapped. "Oh yeah? Well come on over and do it! Think I can't take it then look at my shoulder and see another nice bruise I got last night!"

Utau recoiled.

That's when I stood up and grabbed her wrists as she tried to push me away. "None of this is fair! You think I like being beat on every single day? No I don't!"

"Stop it Kukai!" She screamed trying to pry my hand from her wrists.

"I hate them! All of them! They act so normal like nothing is going on! We're fake!"

"If you hate them so much then stop acting like them!" Tears streamed down her face and suddenly I let go falling back down into the hot water.

I could only gape at her as she wiped away her tears and rubbed her wrists trying to comfort them.

I met her violet eyes seeing her anger seething just underneath the surface.

"I'm sorry…" I mumbled never waving from her face.

She stood up so fast water splashed off her body and hair and landed right on me. I wiped my eyes as quickly as I could and saw she was staring me right down.

"If you ever do that to me again or to someone else, like Amu, I will personally take you down, you got that?" She shivered but didn't let up on her glare.

I got up again and wrapped my arms around her waist bringing her up against my body. She melted into my form, just like Amu would, and squeezed hard.

"You're lucky, Kukai."

"Why do you say that?" She pushed away from me and I notice the heat had risen up to her cheeks. "Utau?"

"Amu!" She blurts out suddenly. "Amu is very lucky to have someone like you. You're strong and such a gentleman." A small smile formed on her face. "Even if you're hardheaded sometimes."

I smiled back at her when she gave me eye contact again. "I think I will take those as compliments."

She turned away and crossed her arms. "Good because it's true. All of it… is true."

I left the hotel feeling like total crap. I let my anger and frustration get the best of me. Now I was going home right back into the line of fire. I parked the car in the driveway and cut off the engine staring straight at my shaking hands on the steering wheel.

I shook my head trying to erase all the racing thoughts in my mind and got out of the vehicle, locking it behind me.

Walking into the house I noticed nobody was home yet. I looked around the kitchen and decided on eating some left over mac and cheese. I took a seat on the couch and began stuffing my face.

A sudden thought surfaced into my mind. There's a dance coming up. As a matter of fact it was junior prom coming up which meant that I could ask Amu to go with me. That's it! That's how I was going to get her back! Take her out for a nice meal, dance and confess. A smile formed on my face.

"It's for the best isn't… Amu?"

"Well what do we have here?" Those slurring words could only belong to Kaido. "Where did you decide to go after you high jacked one of our three cars?"

I got up from the couch and turned to face him. "A friend needed me so I went to see how I could help."

"That's a really stupid excuse. Were you out getting drugs or hooking up with your girlfriend? What's her name…Amu?"

My eyebrow twitched as her name left his mouth. He made it sound ugly with his horrible slurring. "No to both of your accusations."

He grunted back. "Better go to your room I'm having a couple of my friends come over to hang out." He set two large cases of beer on the floor.

"Why would I have to go to my room if it's just a few friends?" I asked bravely.

Kaido stepped forward and eyed me. His hand came up to my face to brush my bangs out of his way. I flinched immediately. It didn't go unnoticed either.

"What's the matter Kukai? Got a problem?" His voice was rising.

"No there's no problem."

He crossed his arms. "Good now do as I say and don't come out until they're gone, unless you have to pee or something."

I nodded and quickly followed his directions not even bothering to clean up my food. The so called 'get to together' lasted until two a.m. that night. I had a feeling my family life was about to get ten times harder to solve than my love life.

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