Sorry it's a little short, i managed to squeeze out of work to wrie for you lovelies!
and as promised.. it's looking up! I shall write a decent length part tomorrow as i have the day off work!:)
thank you to everyone, remember that reviews make me write faster... idk why, just gives me some direction of what you guys want to read!
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October 14 th 2009
I now understand why girls are constantly moaning about boyfriends and just boys in general. To think i used to be backing boys up saying 'they're not all the same blah blah blah,' well they are. They're all assholes and i'd rather be straight than have to worry about boys all the time. I don't even know why i'm thinking about Blaine; that door is closed. He made it very clear that i meant nothing to him when he walked out. Why am i even that bothered? It's not like i'm in love with him or anything... Why did my brain shut up after that? Is my brain trying to tell me something? Now i'm arguing with myself. I might as well be put in a home now and save the world from myself... Wait, what was i talking about? I'm backtracking again...
"Hey guys!" Kurt beamed as he came to sit with the glee club. They all gave Kurt an extremely weird looks, considering for the last few weeks he hasn't said more than about 3 words to anyone.
"Get laid again last night Hummel or was it a cheeky blowjob at the back of the classroom?" Santana smirked as she placed her chin on her hands and looked over at Kurt.
"No Santana, believe it or not, you can be happy without sex." Kurt rolled his eyes and Santana looked away, not interested since there was no sex involved.
"Why the sudden change of weather?" Mercedes said as she placed her hand on Kurt's forearm and smiled sweetly at the boy.
"I don't know, i just haven't thought about him in a while." Kurt smiled as he poked his fork into his salad a few times before raising some to his mouth.
"I bet i can change your mood in... Oh i don't know, 2 minutes?" Puck grinned as Kurt put his fork down to give me a blank expression.
"Kurt... C-can i talk to you?" A voice sighed from behind Kurt. He knew that voice. That was the one voice he really, really didn't want to hear. Kurt placed his hands calmly on table either side of him, closed his eyes and let out a deep sigh.
"You have 2 minutes." Kurt stood up, not looking anyone in the eye and walked out the lunch hall. Blaine shortly followed like a little lost puppy. The 2 boys reached the empty halls and Kurt lent against the locker, Blaine stood opposite looking at him with those beautiful hazel eyes that could be mistaken for golden in the right lights. Kurt took his phone out his pocket and looked at the time. "1 minute 30."
"Okay, okay." Blaine took a deep breath and put his hands in his pockets. "I don't know what i'm doing. I never do, like ever. Whenever something even remotely good starts to happen in my life; i panic and push it away. You were that good thing Kurt. I ruined it before it even started and now every time i even so much as i look at you, it feels like someone kicks me in the nuts, then when i see the way you look at me, like i'm just some peasant that doesn't even deserve a second of your time. But it's true, i don't. I deserve fuck-all from you. I don't even deserve these 2 minutes but you're letting me have them because you're such a nice person, you're just everything Kurt... Now i'm rambling." Blaine stopped and swallowed hard and looked away from the taller boy. Kurt continued to stare at Blaine, trying to find Blaine's gaze.
"Basically Kurt, i want you. But want sucks even more than anything else in the world is that i can't have you, i never will have you. I fucked up the once chance and i just though you should know how sorry i am, if i could re-arrange the stars for you Kurt i would, i really would." Tears buzzed in Blaine's eyes, he didn't realise tears had made tracks down Kurt's face.
"You're a good person Blaine, i'm sure you are. But it's going to take more than a few words to make me forgive you." Kurt near whispered as the lump in his throat broke his voice.
"I'll do it, whatever it is, i'll do it." Blaine sounded desperate.
"Okay, okay." Kurt backed the boy up a little bit since he'd gotten a little too close. "Let's start this again." Kurt gulped as Blaine gave him an uneasy look. Kurt stuck his hand out for the boy to shake. "Kurt Hummel." He smiled sweetly.
"Blaine Anderson." Blaine took his hand and smiled. That touch sent a shock all up his body, his eyes met Kurt's beautiful coloured eyes and smiled back.
"If you'll excuse me, i promised my friends 2 minutes and i believe it's been so much longer than that." Kurt laughed slightly as he walked back towards the door of the lunch hall. As he got to the door, he turned back to give Blaine a small smile. Blaine continued to watch Kurt walk through the doors. How the hell had Kurt agreed to give him a second chance? This time he was going to do everything right, even if that meant dropping his bad boy act.