Chapter 10: Was it the right choice?

It will only be a matter of time before Charlie and Renee realize I have gone, so what ever Edward wants he will have to make it quick.

I was feeling excited about going to see Edward. As I reached his house, the front door was already open, so I just walked in.

"Edward. It's me."

I couldn't hear him at all, but then as I turned into his dining room I saw a table, neatly laid with a red table clothes and two brightly lit candles placed either side of the bread basket.

"I knew you would come."

I heard Edward's voice come from behind me so I turned around to face him. He was dressed in a black velvet suit and looked more perfect than ever. All I was wearing was a pair of jeans, and a purple strappy top. Great.

"If I'd have known you were going to dress up then I would have made an effort."

"No need, you already look beautiful," and then he leaned in and gave me tender kiss. I didn't back away, it felt perfect.

"Edward, what is all this?"

"Well seeing you today in the park, made me realize how little time we spend together, I mean we are friends aren't we, we should spend time together have fun."

"Is that how you think of us? As friends?" In a way I was hoping he would say no, but it would be wrong if he did.

"Do you think of us as friends?"

I shifted away from the conversation quickly.

"It all smells lovely, what have you made?"

I heard him chuckle under his breath because I had totally changed the conversation.

"Pasta with a ham and cheese sauce. Hope your hungry."

"Um…yes. Look Edward I really shouldn't be here, I mean Charlie and Renee will be getting worried they don't even know I have gone out."

"Well why don't you give them a call, tell them you have gone. We need to spend some time together Bella."

He was speaking in such a calm and peaceful voice. The voice that gave me shivers and the voice I love to hear everyday.

"I can't. They will be so mad to find out I have gone. Dad gave me specific orders not to go and to stay with mum. He will be furious."

"Well I suppose we won't get to spend time together tonight then. I guess you will have to go."

"Wait, wait. I will just tell them I went to stay at Jessica's which was the original lie."

I had to spend the night with Edward. I know it is wrong, but I just didn't want to leave. Being with him made me feel happy and safe.

I got out my mobile and dialed my home phone number. I could already feel the fury in dad's voice even before anyone had answered the phone.

"Hello." I heard dads voice.

"Hi Dad, it's me, Bella."

"Bella. You had me and your mum worried sick. Where on earth are you? I told you specifically not to leave this house, you have had your mother in bits."

"I know Dad, and I'm really sorry, but I am at Jessica's house. Please just let me stay. Mum won't mind I will apologize to her later.

"Seeing as you are there you might as well stay, we will talk when you come home."

"Thanks dad. Bye."

I expected Charlie to be way more frustrated with me and tell me to come home. In a way I was glad though, because it meant I got to spend time with Edward. I just felt bad lying to Charlie and Renee, but I will make it up to them some time.

"So are you staying then Bella?"

"Yes, Charlie bought the whole story and thinks I'm at Jessica's, so I can stay for a long as you want me to."

"Let's start with dinner shall we." He sounded so smug yet very happy that I could stay. I felt that this was going to be a very delightful evening.

As I sat down at the table, Edward brought out two plates of very tasty looking food and it tastes as good as it looks.

"This is really nice Edward, you didn't have to do all this."

"Yeah, but I wanted to. Look Bella, I just have to tell you, the way I feel about you I have never felt about anyone before. I know we haven't known each other very long, but I feel as though I already know you. I know you're with Jacob and I shouldn't say all of this…"

"Actually, Jacob and I are kind of going through a rough patch."

"Oh that's terrible."

"Oh please, sympathize more, that's great."

"I'm sorry. Really, I know how much you must love him."

"See that's the thing, I don't know if I do anymore. He told me about Rosalie."

"Oh, I wondered when that story would come up." He put down his knife and fork and stared me in the eyes across the table as if he was about to have a long important conversation with me.

"When he told me I couldn't believe it. I became scared of him. I didn't want to be but I just did. I felt I had to be with someone who would make me feel happy and safe. That's why I came here tonight. Otherwise I wouldn't have come if I hadn't of known."

"Who are you kidding Bella, it was inevitable that you would come here tonight."

"Oh and how can you be so sure?"

"Because even if you do love Jacob, you can't seem to hide the feelings you have for me."

"Boy, you do think highly of yourself don't you!"

"You and I both know it's true. And we both know that you will not be safe with Jacob."

"You can't just judge him just because of one little mistake."

"One little mistake! He beat my sister Bella. She was scared for months. She was too frightened to leave the house because of what that bastard did to her."

"Hey don't talk about him like that. He promised he wouldn't do anything like that to me and I believe him."

"Oh Bella come on. He is going to do exactly the same thing he did to Rosalie to you whether it be because you were with some other guy or because you haven't been calling him or something stupid."

"You know this is crazy. All I did was come here to get away from all the stupid stuff and be with someone who I think I can actually talk to. This was a mistake, I'm leaving."

As I headed towards the door I could here him pacing after me. Just as I was about to turn the door knob he pulled me back.

"Look Bella, I'm sorry, just please don't go, this was going to be a really good night and we can't let your ass of a boyfriend ruin it."

"Your right, it was going to be a great night. Shame you had to go and spoil it."

"Bella."

I slammed the door behind me, yet somehow I could not find the will to move from his front door step and head home. Instead I found myself turning round to face his front door and my hand began to reach for the doorbell. Before I could ring it, the door opened and there was Edward standing on the other side.

"Bella, I'm so sorry."

"Just shut up and kiss me." I didn't care what he had to say, I just wanted to kiss those perfect lips of his. As I felt his lips against mine, I could feel the shivers going up my spin.

"I really am sorry Bella."

"Shhh. Lets not talk about it any more, lets just enjoy this evening together. How about we go back and finish off the food yeah."

As I was about to step into the dining room, I felt his arm pull back my arm.

"You know, we could always go upstairs instead. I mean if you want to."

"Oh, urm are you not hungry?" I could feel my heart beating, did I really want to go upstairs with Edward?

"Oh. I'm sorry it was stupid suggestion."

"No. Lets go upstairs, I'm not feeling so hungry either."

I wasn't just saying that so Edward didn't feel upset. I actually wanted to go upstairs. I mean whether anything will happen I don't know but I just assume because you see it in movies all the time.

"Wow. Your upstairs is huge."

"It's not really that big, it's only because so many of us live here."

"So, which one is your room then? I mean you don't have to show it to me or anything. I was just wondering because…yeah."

Oh god. Sly Bella. Sly.

I heard him chuckle under his breath.

"It's this one just here." And he point to the room directly in front of us.

His room was massive. His walls are covered in posters. I don't even know who half the people on them are. Probably some bands I have never heard of or something.

"Your room is really nice. Oh wow, your bed looks so cosy."

Did I really just say that. Your bed looks cosy. Oh god, he could take that the wrong way. Did I just give the impression that I want to get in his bed. I hope not. Oh no what if I did, oh god.

"Thank you. You can lie on it if you want?" I turn to look at Edward and he is giving me a very seductive grin.

"Oh urm… I think ill just stand here thanks. I wouldn't want to mess it up."

"There nothing to be so nervous about Bella. It just a bed."

"I'm not nervous at all. I mean if you really want me to lie on it then fine I will."

I walked over to his bed and sat down on it. Then I gradually floated back. As I was lying there, I saw Edward slowly tilt back to lie next to me.

"So what do you think then Bella?"

"Yeah… its urm…comfy."

"Glad you like it"

I was just lying there, staring at his posters on the wall in front of me. I turned to stare at Edward.

"Bella, has anyone ever told you how beautiful you are."

"Thank you."

"No seriously I mean it. You are so beautiful." Then he leaned in to kiss me. I love the feeling of his lips against mine. I could feel his hand move slowly up my waist. I felt myself backing away.

"What's wrong Bella? Do you not want to?"

"No it's not that. Believe me I do. Its just, well, I've never… you no… before. I'm just nervous that's all."

"Don't worry Bella. Everything will be fine. Trust me."

Then he kissed me again and I felt his hand brush against my body, I didn't back away. Edward stopped for a second.

"Bella."

"Yes Edward."

"I love you."

"I love you too."

As Edward began to kiss me again this whole thing just felt right. I loved Edward. He loved me. Your first time is supposed to be with someone you love. I wouldn't want it any other way.