Two months later…..
FPOV
So today's the day. January fourteenth, and we're finding out the sex of the baby! Sam's trying to control her excitement, but I know she feels it. God she's gotten big, but I love it. She's five months and I love rubbing her stomach and talking to the baby, and telling it stories about the world. Don't really tell it stories about my life, don't want to traumatize it before it gets here.
She's beautiful, I mean just glowing. Okay so I'm being really girly, but I'm finding out if I'm having a boy or a girl! A son or a daughter! I can't wait! I'm antsy and trying my best not to rush her. It's not really working 'cause she can since my antsyness, and she's getting irritated. She gets that way easy these days, I just thank God the morning sickness is over.
I had a dream a few weeks back, and the baby was a girl, but I donno if it was a slayer dream or not. So I'm pretty excited to find out. T and Red are having a boy, they found out a few days ago. Everybody is all excited, and shit, it's really cute.
"Babe we're gonna be late, you're beautiful and gorgeous and really, really gonna be late if we don't hurry up." I finally holler down the hall.
"Do I even get to piss in peace anymore?!" she hollers back. I smile and shake my head. "Besides, your child is giving me those damn slayer kicks." Ouch, yeah those things really hurt her. She's always wincing in pain when it gives her a big kick.
She blames it on me 'cause most of the time it's after we've fought or something. I'm trying not to fight her on a lot of this, but I can't just let her go out by herself after dark either. Nor can I let her train the girls. I mean one could accidentally hurt her and I'm not saying they'll do it on purpose, just…shit happens.
"I'm sorry babe, but we're gonna be late," I tell her. Finally I see her in the hall way.
"Okay, just don't yell at me!" she says and I can tell she's about to cry. Shit, damn fuckin hormones! I step forward and wait for her. Once she's close enough I wrap my arms around her.
"I'm sorry babe. I'm just so damn excited to know if we're having a boy or a girl. And make sure you're okay. I wanna ask him about that shortness of breath."
Sam sighs, "I'm fine, don't worry so much about me. And I know it's your job but I hate that you worry so much. And yeah I am excited too."
"Then lets go find out." I kiss Sam. "I love you so much you know that right?"
Sam smiles and nods, "Yeah I know it. You're not gonna be disappointed if it's a girl are ya?" She's kidding right? I'll be perfectly fine with a girl, I'll love a girl!
"I don't care what it is, I just want to know it's healthy and happy and all that."
"Ouch," Sam puts her hand over the spot the baby's kicking, "Happy isn't exactly something I would say. Damn this kid kicks hard."
I gently rub her stomach feeling the baby kick. It knows we're antsy, and it's giving her hell. Gently I lead her out our door and lock it. We're both pretty quiet on the ride over.
I take her hand as we head up to the place where we have to get the ultrasound done, she's having a regular exam too. She hates those, 'cause they gotta do a pelvic which believe me is just as bad as it sounds. Sam clinches my hand and I know she's nervous. So we go upstairs, and we sign the thing.
Finally she gets called back and I just have to set back and watch as they do the exam. I hate that part 'cause it hurts her and I just want to tell the doctor to fuck off, but I can't. Finally they finish up, and bring in the ultrasound machine. I get up and make my way beside Sam.
"This is going to be cold," the doctor says, as he puts the jelly on Sam's stomach. Sam groans, "I know I'm sorry."
"I think you froze the shit," Sam grumbles, I try not to laugh.
"I'm sorry, but you'll get to see your baby soon." The doctor pulls the probe out and turns the machine on, the first thing we hear is the baby's heartbeat. "Sounds strong." The doctor says. Okay what the fuck? Why is everything blurry? Oh, right tears in my eyes. I look down at Sam who's smiling up at me, and can't help the tears in the corners of my eyes. Yeah, yeah, I'm a fuckin sissy, what the hell you gonna do about it?
So anyways, I look back at the screen and there it is. That's my baby, the baby that Sam and I made. It's beautiful, the most beautiful sight I've ever seen. Okay it ranks up there with Sam but damn. I reach down and kiss Sam passionately.
"Do you want to know the sex?" the doctor asks looking over at us. We both nod, I don't think I can use my voice right this second. She looks back at the screen. "Okay well there's the head, it's sucking its thumb and flipping us off."
Sam giggles, "Takes after its Momma." She smiles up at me and I smile right back broadly. Oh yeah this baby's gonna be a hell raiser.
"And there's the heart." We look back at the screen. "And it looks like we got a baby…..girl."
"A girl Faith. We're having a daughter," Sam says quietly. I look down at her and see tears in her eyes. I reach down and kiss her, wiping her tears. "She's beautiful."
"So is her Mommy," I choke out. "Thank you, thank you so much." I reach down and kiss her again, leaning my forehead against hers. I cry, yes I big badass rouge slayer Faith Lehane, am crying tears of pure happiness.
Third person POV the next day….
Sam looks over at Tara as they leave the daycare, she looks tired. They're working in the daycare today, and all the kids are super hyper.
"You okay?" she asks gently.
"I'm good just a little tired." Tara said. "Are you ok?"
Sam smiles at her, "Yeah I'm okay." She looks down at her stomach. "She's super active though."
"I know what you mean." Tara smiles and rubs her belly.
"How's Will doing?" Sam asks. "She said she went shopping the other day and came back with the wrong peanut butter or something." She shakes her head. "Anyways she came over and said she was giving you time." Tara looks a little embarrassed.
"I don't know what came over me. I mean it was just peanut butter." Tara said, "And she's good...after she came home we had a talk..." Tara smiled.
Sam laughs a little, "I threw a shoe at Faith the day before yesterday. Remember the black eye? Yeah she for some God forsaken reason decided that she wanted to paint the baby's room yellow." Sam laughs. "Yeah yellow isn't my color." She stops walking and takes a deep breath. "And apparently the baby doesn't like the idea of me breathing."
"Are you ok?" Tara asked watching Sam carefully.
Sam nods, "Yeah she's just got slayer strength I guess. Every once in while she gives me a good kick to lungs and takes my breath." Sam smiles at Tara reassuringly. "Don't worry about me, don't stress okay?"
"If you're sure..." Tara said still a little concerned. "I'm sure our boy is going to be magical but he hasn't done anything to prove us right. I'm sure he's waiting for the right moment." Tara smiled.
Sam smiles, "I'm sure he'll show us all soon enough." She bends down closer to Tara stomach. "Ain't that right? I bet you're just waiting until nobody expects it, and then you're gonna shock the hell outta all of us." She laughs a little when he kicks her hand.
"I'm sure it'll be nothing too big." Tara said, "At least I hope. Willow and I take turns reading to him. Willow said that it's never too early to start his education." Tara smiled thinking about it.
Sam laughs, "Yeah Faith kinda talks to her, telling her stories, but I gotta watch it though. She told her one about vamps the other night and she wouldn't sleep for three hours, which meant I didn't sleep, which meant I bitched and Faith didn't sleep. And a cranky Faith is not a good thing." Sam looks around. "Well this is my stop. I'll call you later okay? And if you need me I'll be right here. I know Will's gonna be late tonight so just let me know okay?" Sam asks putting the key into her door.
"Yeah he likes to kick Willow when I have my stomach up against her back." Tara smiled. "Ok, I might come over if you two aren't going to be busy...Willow doesn't really like the idea of me staying alone but I can understand if you and Faith want to be alone."
"Oh we aren't busy, she'll be cooking, but that's about it. Oh, you should come over for supper, she's making spaghetti and meat balls, and let me tell ya it's wonderful! Why don't you come over about six tonight?" Sam asking knowing Tara doesn't want to be alone, and also knowing that Faith won't mind. Tara spends most of the time Willow's gone with Sam and Faith.
"No absolutely not. I'm not going Giles!" Faith says into the phone. She's frustrated Sam can tell, as soon as she opens the door. "I'm not leaving my pregnant girlfriend to do some damn mission, send B." She listens. "Then send Ken, she can do it." Again she listens, sighing heavily. "What the hell kind of mission takes five slayers? Two being the originals?" Again she listens. "Fuck!" She looks behind her seeing Sam. "I gotta go G-man. I'll call you back later." She listens and groans. "I will, I promise."
"Something wrong?" Sam asks when she's hung up the phone.
"That was G-Man and they need my help with something." Faith replied.
Sam raises an eye brow, "Why do I feel like this conversation isn't going to end with you saying you're turning him down?"
"I shouldn't be gone long..." Faith began watching Sam closely. Why did Giles have to make things so complicated?
Sam sighs, "Gone where Faith?"
"L.A." Faith answered.
"L.A." Sam moves forward setting her bag down on the coffee table. "Faith, what's going on? You're being very vague, and the baby knows you're upset 'cause it's kicking the shit outta me. So just tell me okay, baby?" Sam moves to Faith and wraps her arms around her waste.
"There's a demon problem and Giles needs me to go help with it." Faith answered.
Sam lays her head on Faith's shoulder and sighs, "Can't they just send Buffy. I don't want to sound like I'm being clingy 'cause I'm not but...okay I am being clingy and I need you." Faith wrapped her arms tightly around Sam.
"I don't want to go but Giles said they need me." Faith said, "Besides B's already goin'."
Sam sighs, "Damnit, I can't believe he would seriously ask you to go. I mean I know I'm always saying that I'm independent and all that shit, but I'm not Faith!" She snuggles closer to Faith. "Ouch." She takes one hand off Faith's back and rubs the spot that the baby is kicking so hard.
"I'm not the only one goin'...B's gonna be there and Ken, Vi and Rona." Faith said. Faith pulled back and looked at Sam's stomach. "Listen here kid, stop kicking your mom like that. Everything will be fine...they just want some extra back up."
Sam looks down at her stomach, "She takes after you already." She leans her forehead against Faith. "Why didn't Angel call me? I mean you aren't going are you?"
"I have to go." Faith said looking into Sam's eyes. "You won't be alone...Red and T will keep you company until I get back and I'll call."
Sam huffs loudly, "What you knock me up and then just leave all because there's some fuckin demon? I swear I hate this job!" Sam pulls back and rubs her stomach, looking very annoyed.
"Sam calm down ok...I'm not leaving forever." Faith replied. "I'll be gone a week tops...we go in track it, kill it and I'm home where I want to be."
Sam glares, "And you're just dying for a kill aren't you? You can't stand the fact that you're not out there with them. Well, I'm so sorry I'm holding you back!" Sam crosses her arms over her stomach and glares at Faith.
"What? You're actin' like I signed myself up for this...Giles called me." Faith said trying to remain calm. She knew it was just Sam's hormones. Faith attempted to pull Sam into a hug.
Sam pulls back, "But you are aren't you? I mean you go slaying, but I know you haven't had a big kill, and I know it's getting to you, and I can't stand the fact that I can't keep you happy." Tears spring to Sam's eyes and she finally allows Faith to hold her. "Damn hormones." She finishes with a sniffle.
"Please don't cry." Faith said giving Sam a kiss. "You do make me happy...you make me happier than I've ever been in my whole life."
"And I'm happy, really I am. But I'm just freaking out about this baby, and how I'm not sure I can do it ya know?" She pauses. "Some days I'm fine, I can remember everything about having Ally in the house, how she used to smile at me, how she could pick her head up when she was only a couple weeks old. But then other's I think about the being up every two hours and the diapers, and the crying because she's teething and there's nothing I could do. And then on the really bad days, I just think about how I wasn't enough. How I let her just fall and it scares me. What if I screw up somehow?" Sam looks up at Faith tears streaming down her face. "What if our daughter hates me?"
"You won't be alone...you have me and I'll be right there through all the diapers and teeth and first steps..." Faith said as she wiped Sam's tears away. "She won't hate you...she'll love you. If she hates anyone it'll be me when I tell her she can't date until she's 30." Faith smiled.
Sam laughs, "30 huh? She's gonna come back with the fact that I'm nineteen and knocked up you realize that?" She thinks it over. "Oh yeah she's so not dating till she's 30, think it would be cruel to lock her in her room? Home school her?"
"Let her get 16 and then we'll talk." Faith smiled as she took Sam's hands pulling her toward the couch. Faith sat down and pulled Sam down with her.
Sam laughs, and leans against Faith, "She's gonna be slayer, you realize that right? I'm telling you Faith, this kid is strong. I mean she's super strong, and she isn't even here." Sam takes Faith's hand and places it over her stomach. "Feel that?" she asks.
"Yeah" Faith said. "It's still hard to believe she's really in there ya know."
Sam nods, "I know, but believe me, she's in there." She smiles up at Faith. "And I'm really glad. I mean scared shitless yeah, but I'm glad. And I know that you're only going because Giles is sending you, and you're not telling me everything because you don't want to scare me. But be careful okay? We need you." Sam reaches up and kisses Faith gently on the lips.
"Don't worry I can't leave my two favorite girls forever." Faith said, rubbing Sam's stomach. "The sooner we find the demon and kill it the sooner I get to come back here, with you." Faith said kissing Sam's shoulder.
Sam giggles, "Don't you dare tease me tonight Faith. You know how I get when I'm teased." Sam reaches up and kisses Faith passionately.
"Who says I'm teasin'." Faith said, kissing Sam while her hands creeped up the front of Sam's shirt. Sam smiles against Faith's lips, moaning slightly. She pulls back slightly for air.
"Not here," she says standing and leading Faith to the bed room, removing her shirt as she goes. Sam turns when she gets to the bed, seeing Faith look her over. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing, just can't keep my eyes off you." Faith said before capturing Sam's lips in a kiss.
Sam plays with the hem of Faith's shirt, slowly moving it upwards to her head. Faith helps her take it off, and Sam smiles seeing Faith without a bra.
"Ya know I got a reason what's yours?" kisses Faith's earlobe, gently stroking her breast.
Faith backed Sam up guiding her toward the bed. Faith kissed Sam before trailing kisses down her neck. Going lower she took Sam's right nipple into her mouth swirling around and then flicking it with her tongue. Sam moans out as Faith gently lays her back on the bed. Her breath quickens and she gently nibbles on Faith's neck.
"Gentle, they're still sore," she says against Faith's skin. She gently rolls one of Faith's hard nipples in her hand, her other hand in Faith's hair. She moans again.
Faith kisses a path over Sam's stomach. Faith ran her tongue along the band of Sam's pants smiling when she heard Sam moan arching up toward her.
Sam plunges both hands into Faith's hair pulling it, but not to hard. She helps Faith remove her pants and screams then the feels Faith's hand teasing her entrance. Faith makes her way back up kissing Sam as she goes finally reaching her lips. Sam tries to remove Faith's pants, but needs help.
Faith leans back kicking her pants off. She admires Sam before kissing her deeply.
Sam slowly sneaks one hand between her and Faith, tickling Faith's thighs.
"Now who's being the tease?" Faith said as she slowly slid two fingers into Sam.
Sam smiles, but sucks in a sharp breath, "Oh" she bites Faith's shoulder lightly, and enters her with two fingers, slowly finding a rhythm.
Faith lets out a throaty growl when she felt Sam's teeth on her shoulder. She started a slow rhythm speeding up slowly.
Sam keeps up with Faith, slowly and gently stroking her. She knows that Faith is close, but she wants to tease her just a little bit more. But when Faith hits the right spot she screams out and plunges harder into Faith.
"Sam..." Faith grunts out as she comes. Sam feels Faith come, and can't help but smile. She moans a little.
"Faith," she whispers as she comes. She breathes hard, closing her eyes and arching her back, "Oh!" She feels Faith remove her fingers and roll off of her, they're both breathing hard.
Three days later……
Sam's POV
I'm setting at Willow's. Faith left three days ago to go to LA and help with a demon problem, and it's been two nights since I slept. The baby just won't sleep without her, and if baby don't sleep Mommy for sure don't sleep. I sigh deeply, and Tara once more looks over worriedly at me. I give her a small smile just to let her know I'm okay and rub the spot the baby is kicking.
"Sam," Tara says gently moving to the side of the chair I'm sitting in. "Do you want to stay here tonight? We have an extra room." I smile, and think it over. Do I want to stay here tonight? I sigh again.
"Thanks Tara, really, but I couldn't impose on you. Besides, I kinda just wanna pass out in my own bed."
Tara nods understandingly, "I know you're worried about her, but she'll be okay."
"Come on guys, time to eat." Willow calls behind us, and we both smile. I love hanging out with Will and Tara 'cause it's like I got two big sisters. Willow's twenty three, and Tara is twenty four. Slowly I lift myself up and follow Tara into the dinning room. "Hope you four are hungry." Willow smiles brightly. I roll my eyes.
"So how did things go today?" Tara asks sitting down.
"Oh fine, they went fine. I'll be glad when Buffy and them get back though. I can't believe they took Kennedy, Vi and Rona with them." Willow lets out a small sigh.
I fidget, "I'm sure they'll be back soon and Buffy and them will go back to training, why don't you let me help you tomorrow?"
"NO!" both Tara and Willow yell. I wince when the baby gives a big kick.
"Okay, okay, just don't yell. She picks up on that shit." I say, normally I don't cuss in front to Will and Tara. I don't know why, I just don't. I'm much softer with them; I guess I just feel like I should be.
Willow takes a deep breath, and reaches out and takes my hand, "We're sorry, we didn't mean to upset the baby. We just worry about you and we don't want you to hurt yourself or the baby. So no training the girls alright?" I nod my head and sigh. Will's voice is soft but firm. "Look up from you're plate Sam," Will says and I do, she's looking right in my eyes, "You know we just worry about you. You're our little sister or something." She smiles and I laugh a little.
"I'm not a child though, and I don't want to be treated like I'm helpless. I just…" I sigh when the phone rings. Will gets up and answers it. "What?! How bad?" Will says, she's panicking I can tell by her voice. She lowers it. "Okay, no she's over here. She's having dinner with us." Will goes quiet for a moment. "No, I think it's best we know everything before we tell her." I look over but Tara apparently can't here Will. Sometimes I hate slayer hearing. "Just keep us updated Buffy. You'll call us if Faith wakes up?" My heart stops, and the baby gives a big kick.
"Ouch!" I grab my side and Tara is instantly on her feet, but I push her away. "I'm fine." I look up to see Will standing the doorway. "What's wrong? Don't lie, I heard you Will."
Will looks sadly at me, "Sam…."
"Don't sugarcoat the shit Will. Tell me what's going on!" My voice is angry and Will flinches a little.
"There was an accident..."
"What the hell kinda accident Will?!" I look her dead in the eye.
"The demon was stronger than Buffy thought..." Willow began trying to swallow the knot in her throat. "They were all beaten pretty badly but Faith was thrown through a wall while she was saving Buffy..."
My breath catches in my throat, "She..." I can't breathe. I feel Tara wrap her arms around me. "I gotta get to LA." I say. I feel the panic rising, and I don't know how to stop it.
"Don't worry I'll get you there...but you need to calm down. You don't want to stress the baby..." Willow said in an attempt to calm me.
I take a deep breath, "You're right, she's already kicking and it hurts like a bitch." I take a couple more deep breathes feeling Tara rub my shoulders gently. "I'm ready Will, please just take me." I look up at her my eyes begging.
"Will you be ok baby?" Willow asked Tara.
Tara nods, "Call me when you get there. Let me know she made it okay." Tara says kissing Willow before she leaves.
"I will…I love you." Willow said before taking Sam's hand. "You ready?" Willow asked Sam.
"I love you," Tara says.
I take Will's hand, "You don't want my honest answer." I say. Honestly, I'm not ready. I don't want to go to LA. I'm too afraid of what I'll find, but it's not like I can stay here either. Not when the love of my life, the mother of my child, in LA dy...I can't even say it...I won't think it.
"Hold on tight." Willow said and we disappeared from the living room. We reappeared in a back alley behind a hospital. "Are you ok?"
I blink a few times and the baby gives a big kick, I wince, "Ow, hmm, baby doesn't care for that." I smile slightly up at her to let her know I'm okay. "Lets just see about Faith." I say and allow her to lead me out of the alley.
"A lot of people don't care for the teleportation thing." Willow said, "Actually I was afraid you'd be sick." Willow walked into the front doors of the hospital looking around for any familiar faces. I raise an eyebrow; Will's going into babble mode.
"Nope not sick." I look around Cordelia is the first person I see. "Will, over here sis." I steer Will toward the elevators Cordelia's waiting beside. I step up beside Cordelia. "Sis?" I say and startle her. "Wow, slow down!"
"What in the hell, how did you get here?" she looks behind me and sees Will. "Tell me you did not bring her here!"
"Yes..." Willow replied. "Where is everyone?"
Cordelia makes an irritated noise, "Upstairs she's upstairs."
"Then lets go, and I was the one who suckered her into bringing me." I say, and climb into the elevator. "And right know I need to see Faith, and Will is keeping calm, or at least she's trying to so just shut up and deal with your issues."
Cordelia raises and eye brow and looks at Will, "She always so hormonal?"
"She's calm right now." Willow said stepping into the elevator with Sam.
Cordelia looks form me to Willow, "Calm?" she almost chokes out.
I roll my eyes, "Just get push the damn button."
Cordelia reaches out a shaky hand and does as I ask…..
Third person point of view….
Faith Lehane is many things: girlfriend, mother to be, big bad ass slayer, ex-convict, demon fighter, friend, and unconscious at the moment. Yes, she acts all big and bad, but even she looks withered and broken while in a coma. Buffy slowly reaches out and caresses her cheek in friendly manner. A sigh escapes her, as she looks down at her friend. She looks up when she hears a strangled cry from the doorway, she sees Sam standing there, Willow and Cordelia holding her up.
"Sam…" She starts, but Sam's eyes shoot fire at her. Buffy recoils slightly.
"You promised you would take care of her, that you wouldn't let anything happen to her. You told me you'd bring her back safe." Sam yells, pulling away from Willow and Cordelia. "You lied to me Buffy. You let her run out and save your sorry ass again. But that's the way it isn't it? You screw up and Faith saves your ass?"
Buffy frowns, "Sam I'm sorry she got hurt, and yeah it's partly my fault but…"
"But what?" Sam asks, "You treat her like shit when she first moved to Sunnydale, you treated her like an unwanted flea when she came back to help fight the first, and now look!" Sam points toward Faith's bed. "You're just not going to be satisfied until she's dead are you?"
"How could you think that?! I wouldn't wish that on anybody, and I would never take the mother of your child away from you. You weren't there Sam, you don't understand what happened. And until you do then don't even think about talking to me about this. Faith is finally doing good, and yes that is mostly thanks to you, but what about me? Huh? Didn't I help a little? I mean, yes Faith and I have a past, and no it's not the best, but..." Buffy trails off sighing deeply. She closes her eyes. She isn't ready to deal with Sam that much is for sure. She glances down at Faith once more, truth be told, this is always how it seems to go. Faith pays the price for her.
Sam's glare moves from Buffy to Faith. She takes a deep breath and moves closer to the bed, setting down in a chair beside it.
"Baby?" she whispers, "I'm here okay? And I need you to wake up, 'cause I seriously need you. The baby she's been kicking like a bitch, and I know she knows something's wrong. She needs her Momma." Sam attempts to hold the tears back, as she slowly reaches out and takes Faith's battered hand. Gently she runs her hand along it, not taking her eyes off Faith, "Could you give me a few minutes?" she asks the room in general.
"But…." Buffy is about to protest when Cordelia lays a hand on her shoulder. "Fine, we'll be outside."
Sam nods, letting them all know she heard Buffy. She moves closer to Faith's bed, and sits there silently. She can hear Buffy, Willow, and Cordelia outside the door. She can feel them as well. But mostly she can feel Faith, with that same tingle that runs along her spine. And more importantly, the baby knows Momma's around and she's finally settling down.
Sam isn't sure how long she set there before the sobs took over, but the silent tears that were running down her cheeks have turned to sobs that she can barely control. She feels someone enter, it's Kennedy she knows that much. Kennedy is the last person Sam wants to see her like this. Yes they get along, but only 'cause they kinda have to. She's surprised when Kennedy sits down beside her and pulls her into a hug, rocking gently.
Kennedy is crying as well, not as hard as Sam, but she's crying. Together they sit for a long time neither of them saying anything, Kennedy slowly rocking Sam. Eventually Sam falls asleep, but Kennedy doesn't move. She still sits cradling Sam as though she's the one connection left to Faith.