Fearless Chapter 10: That's the way I loved you, a shugo chara! fanfic

Moon-chan: So I've gotten off my butt and written another one, this series will be over soon. I said that this series was based off Taylor Swift's Fearless album and this is one of the last tracks. After I finish this series it may be a while until I come back to Shugo Chara. But I would like to state here and now, I do not own Shugo Chara (if I did there would be a concrete Amuto ending!) and I do not own any of the songs used. Love you all!

That's that way I loved you

Amu was trying not to think about Ikuto and was failing miserably due to the fact that she couldn't forget everything that had happened with him, and she couldn't forget that she loved him, and she still did. She was dating Tadase right now in an effort not to think about the man that she actually wanted to be with.

He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous
He says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better
He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says you look beautiful tonight
And I feel perfectly fine

Amu was sitting in a restaurant with Tadase (A/N: I hate TadAmu, but to make this story work I feel I have to.) waiting for something to happen, but nothing did. Amu sighed softly as she got home from another date that she had done all the expected things on, but she knew that the relationship would not go anywhere considering the fact that Tadase still called her Hinamori-san, he couldn't even call her Amu-chan like everyone else. Once she was in her room again she sat on her bed and held her pillow to her chest as she thought about the man that she really wanted, but couldn't have because he wasn't there. He had left her to find his father.

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

Amu sat in her room as she thought about the navy haired pervert that had been there for her whenever she needed him, no matter the time. He had also been there to hold her when she had a nightmare or when she thought that no one cared for her. She knew that he was there for her, but now… now he wasn't there. I was really early in the morning and she was missing yelling at him and stammering whenever he got too close. She sighed again. 'I've been doing that a lot lately,' she thought as she closed her eyes and muttered a curse under her breath, "Damn it Ikuto why do I love you?"

He respects my space
And never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He's close to my mother
Talks business with my father
He's charming and endearing
And I'm comfortable

Amu knew that Tadase was a sweet guy, but she just couldn't shake the feeling that she could be happier than she was with her current relationship. She wasn't happy actually she was more on the content side. She wasn't taking any chances and neither was anyone else. Her mother and father thought he was a nice guy and they got along with him and everything, but her mother knew where her heart was even if she didn't and her sister did too for that matter. Her father was kind of oblivious to everything.

Amu smiled at a picture that she had gotten from Utau. The picture was of Ikuto sleeping, and he was smiling ever so slightly as he lay on his bed. Utau also knew that Amu missed Ikuto more than she let on, and she was still in love with him even though she hadn't seen him in nearly seven years. She was a nineteen year old pining away for a man that she hadn't seen since she was twelve. She thought about him the most in the early hours of the morning when she used to wake up to him sitting at the foot of her bed looking at her before he left to attend to something. She missed seeing him even now when she had just gotten in from hanging out with her friends.

He can't see the smile I'm faking
And my heart's not breaking
Cause I'm not feeling anything at all
And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating intoxicating
Complicated, got away by some mistake and now

Amu forced a smile a lot when she was around Tadase of late considering that she was getting tiered of lying to herself that she could stay with him. Not too soon after they had been going out for two years Tadase broke up with her and she didn't shed a tear when she saw him the next day out on a date with Lulu. She was too busy visiting the places that she had forbidden herself to go to. She went to all the places that she remembered held a special meaning to her and Ikuto. She gave a watery smile as she sat down on the bench where she had once eaten ice cream with Ikuto, resistant at the time, but she now treasured that memory just like all the others.

I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
It's 2am and I'm cursing your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you

She went to the amusement park next and gazed at all the closed rides for a few minutes and then she left tears leaking out of her eyes as she continued to walk around the town, her eyes finding every spot that she remembered Ikuto used to haunt, even the trees near her old elementary school held memories of him.

Breaking down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you oh, oh

When she got back to her room, the place where she had seen Ikuto the most, she started to cry, her heart was breaking, she was not happy not in the least, she missed her neko. She missed her confidant, and the man who never failed to make her blush when she needed to get her mind off something. She knew that someday, if he was the man she thought he was he would come back for her. She fell asleep that night with tears still coming from her eyes.

And that's the way I loved you oh, oh
Never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

Ikuto snuck into her room that night, he had just gotten back in town, and as soon as he had walked in the door his sister had looked at him with a 'what-the-hell-are-you-doing- here' look. "Ikuto, shouldn't you be somewhere right now?" she asked her amethyst eyes looking at him hard. It was at that moment that he knew what she meant. The first place he should go wasn't home, or where he was going to be staying, but the person that he loved. Ikuto had nodded as he dropped his bags and ran back out the door.

When he had entered through the balcony door, after telling Midori, Amu's mother, what he was up to, he was shocked to find that Amu was crying in her sleep. He immediately went over to the bed and gathered the fragile girl into his arms and started to rock with her in his embrace. She made a soft sound as she came awake in his arms. Her amber eyes blinked a few times before she realized who it was and then she grabbed his face with her hands so that she could stare into his eyes without him being able to move. "Strawberry, what are you doing," he asked as he met her intense gaze.

"I'm making sure that this isn't a dream, I've had too many like this to make me not be wary of whether I'm asleep still or not," she whispered not even taking her eyes off him as she blushed.

"I assure you that you aren't dreaming Amu," he said as he tightened his hold on her. "Want me to prove it to you?" he asked with the mischievous smirk she had fallen in love with plastered across his face. Amu nodded as she stared at him unblinkingly. Ikuto leaned down so that he was at her level and kissed her long and deep. When he released her he asked, "Does that prove that I'm back, Strawberry?"

Amu smiled, but instead of replying she pulled him down to her again and kissed him in return. "I love you, my neko," she whispered when they came up for air.

"I love you too, my little strawberry." Amu smiled as Ikuto lay down on her bed with her still in his arms. She snuggled into him her head on his chest, and fell asleep to the comforting beat of his heart in her ear.

Fin