Warning: BoyxBoy~~Dun like? Then Dun read! I no like complaints!
Pairing: KevinxDouble D
Disclaimer: I don't, have not, and will never own Ed, Edd n' Eddy. If I did Kevin and Double D would be together! :D
A/N 1: Sorry! I know I take to long! Now that midterms are over I have a chapter for you! I hope you'll enjoy it. You rviews have really kept me going strong with this story and through some tough times! Thank you so much for keeping me smiling! I know it's kind of short but please enjoy!
Double D's P.O.V.
Kevin had left minutes after his confession, no, declaration. His mother had called him yelling about him being late, and the trash not being taken out. He hung up the phone and chuckled. "I have to go D, I'll come by tomorrow." He kissed me so lightly I hardly felt it, and left, making me feel lonely and needy. I didn't really want him to go. If I asked him would he have stayed with me? My mind was racing and I couldn't capture my thoughts. I'll take the sticky notes down and go to bed.
I absentmindedly worked my way around the house pulling down the little yellow papers I had placed on the pale walls. I kept my mind blank so it would not wonder, but no matter how hard I tried one question slipped into my thoughts. What will I tell him? I pushed it away. But again like water slipping through cracks there it was. What will I tell him? I pulled the papers off the wall faster every time the question came to me. What will I tell him? I didn't want to think about it yet. I pushed it away and continued my work. Halfway done again it was back. What will I tell him?
"I don't know!" I yelled allowed to silence the repeating question. "I'm too scared to think about this…" I rested my forehead against the wall, and closed my eyes. How can I talk so openly like him? I'm too much of a coward for that. I took a deep breath in with my eyes shut lightly. What am I going to do? I'm not sure how I feel about all of this. I was confused. Everything was thrown at me in a just the last few days. I know I have feelings for him, but are they the same he has for me? I was afraid to deal with things that I have never dealt with before. I'm so scared. I took another deep breath and stood up straight from the wall. I'll finish taking the notes down, and then think it all over in bed.
After a painfully long hour each pale yellow paper was off the walls and in the garbage. I had finished. I told myself I would think this over when I was done, and had no more to do. I can't put this off anymore. I have to figure this out. He deserves that. Emotionally exhausted I made my way heavily up the stairs. In my room I changed and readied myself for bed, but I knew I wouldn't be sleeping much.
A laid down and covered myself. The reality hit me. Someone knows my secret. That same person is I love with me, and I'm not sure if the feelings I have for them are the same as what they have for me. I don't want to be hurt…
"I don't think I can do this." It was a whisper, a shaky whisper that penetrated the stillness of the shadowed and icy room. The moment the words broke the silence I felt my heart shatter. The pain flowed into every nerve and vein in my body. Then my heart reformed, it was stronger than before, but still full of fear and uncertainty. What I feel for him is love. I can't doubt that. I felt myself filling with warmth. I can do this. I will tell him. Not uttered out loud, but just a powerful as the will of a dying man. My reform is made, and I will go through with it. The how will come later, but for now I will sleep.
My head swam with the memories of the day; the truth, the declaration, his touch, his...kiss. I lightly touched my lips. It was my first kiss. I shuddered at the thought. Kevin was my first kiss. I remembered every touch and caress then. He meant everything he said to me. The warmth from before was back, caressing me and wrapping around me tightly. The comfort from it soothed and coddled me, and soon my thoughts ceased. I drifted into a deep, luxurious, and dream filled sleep.
A/N 2: I know I said it would end with chapter 10, but the story ran away from me and I have a few more ideas! Please tell me if you liked it!