Sweet Child of mine
Chapter 10:

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Battle Creek, Michigan

There was an unavoidable tension in the air between Dean and Lisa.. They ate dinner in silence and then as soon as dinner was over, Dean jumped up to clear the table and do the dishes, "Do you need any help babe?", Lisa asked softly, her brow creasing a little. He shook his head as he turned to look at her, "No.. You need your rest sweetie". He said as he went back to the dishes. Lisa had brought her ipad down and began scrolling through her facebook page, She had no idea why she agreed to make an account, but here she was.. addicted to it. "You got a facebook account babe?". She asked as she looked back at him. She had tried to find him, but all these stupid wannabe fan-girls from the supernatural book series had made accounts making it difficult for her to find him. She even had to contact facebook so she could verify her own account as there was fake accounts going around with her name as well.

"No.. I never really had a need for it to be honest", He said chuckling softly. Sam had facebook and had tried to convince Dean to make an account of himself as well, but so far, he had not been bothered to make one. "It is interesting and fun". She said as she went back to her news feed and smiled as she saw a photo her neigbour and close friend had put up of Ben and his friends, "Well it looks like Ben is having fun", She said as she held her ipad up for Dean to see. He smiled as he finished the last of th dishes, "Well, that is good. He deserves to have a little fun". Lisa was trying to keep the mood light and happy between them, but she couldn't help but feel there was this tension, She hoped he couldn't see through her. She didn't really want to mention the phone call but she couldn't stop herself from having a really a bad feeling about it.

She couldn't stop the nagging feeling deep inside that was questioning who this Cas was.. and why it sounded as if this person was crying. She wanted to ask him, but she didn't want him to be angry or upset and then walk away again. Everything had just started to feel right now that he was back home where he belonged and she didn't want some person.. especially this Cas person to ruin it and take away Dean who was the father of their daughter. While she was lost in her thoughts, Dean had begun to make them her a cup of tea and himself a bourbon and pulled the pie out of the fridge for desert. He heated the pie up and cut it up, putting a big piece on a plate, bringing everything over to the table and sitting down. He looked over to her, seeing she was in a different world and chuckled, asking, "Penny for your thoughts". She finally looked up and smiled, "I'm sorry.. I was just thinking about everything that we have to do for the baby".

She noticed the tea and the plate sitting there with the forks and smiled wider, feeling guilty now that she lied, "Thanks babe". He nodded and reached for a fork and took a bite, "You're welcome sweetie". She took the second fork and begun to dig into the pie, her mind trying to push away those thoughts she had. Dean was here with her, not with this Cas person and she needed to remember that. "So I was thinking maybe we could watch a movie tonight.. and then tomorrow I could show you what I would like to do with the babies room". She said as she took a sip of her tea. Dean nodded as he took another bite of his pie and waited till he swallowed to speak, "That sounds good, So.. Do we even know what we are having?". He was trying to think of anything other then Castiel and right now.. He was finding it hard to do.. He had thought back to their earlier phone call and his heart ached a little. He wondered what they were doing now.

Meanwhile in New Orleans.

"It's getting late.. I think we call it a day and try this tomorrow", Sam said as he stood up and walked over to the little kitchenette in the apartment, putting his salad container in the bin, and grabbing a cup and filling it with cold water. Bobby nodded and slapped his hands on his thighs before standing up as well, "Sam is right.. We should get some sleep and then we can better deal with this tomorrow.. I think you should try Dean again in the morning too Cas". He said as he looked towards Castiel. The angel nodded and sighed hoping that the hunter and not Lisa would answer this time, although he told himself he would be strong and just ask for him this time if she did answer. "Are you really sure about this Bobby?", Sam asked, still not really convinced this was the best idea. Castiel spoke up, looking at Sam, "It is what we must do.. Dean deserves to know Sam".

Castiel was wishing not to get into an argument again, "Please.. We settled this already.. If he comes.. It is his decision.. If he wishes to stay with Lisa and Ben... then that is his decision as well". He added as he sighed crossing his arms over his chest. Sam sighed, knowing once again that Castiel was right, "Okay Cas.. anyway.. I will see you all in the morning", He said as he walked into the bedroom which he had claimed for himself. "We are doing the right thing by informing Dean aren't we Bobby?". Castiel asked in a low voice. Bobby sighed, shrugging a little.. "I think it is.. I mean I know if it was me.. I would be pissed if I wasn't told that my family was embarking on a dangerous and risky hunt". Castiel nodded as he looked at Bobby, "I know Dean would be.. especially since it would be Sam undertaking a lot of the most dangerous part of the mission", he replied. "I'll keep an eye out on things since I don't sleep".

Bobby nodded and headed off to his room which left Castiel and Garth out in the living area, "Well.. I guess I should go to bed too.. ". He smiled a little and retreated to his room without saying another word. For some reason the angel scared him, even though Garth wasn't easily scared. He was just concerned, He thought for a better lack of words. He didn't fully agree with Castiel or Bobby on the Dean issue, but he didn't necessarily fully agree with Sam either, so he decided the best he could do was to keep his mouth shut about things that didn't really concern him. Castiel sat out in the living room sighing softly to himself. He had no idea what he would say to Dean the next day or even how he would react at either him joining them again or deciding to stay with the Braedens. He just hoped that Lisa did not answer his phone. He really was beginning to dislike her for taking his hunter, his charge away from him. How was he supposed to protect him now? He thought to himself as he settled down onto the couch drinking another beer contemplating everything.

Back in Battle Creek, Michigan

Lisa wasn't sure what she should say to Dean about what they were having, She had wanted to tell him in a really special way. She sat there silent for a few moments as she sipped on her tea and then looked at him, "Well, I know what we are having.. I was going to ask you if you wanted to know actually", She said smiling softly as she rubbed her belly.. He was still thinking about Castiel, hoping everything was going okay. He didn't like Castiel going up against Crowley but he knew the angel could hold his own so he tried to push the thoughts out of his mind. "Yeah, I would love to know Lis", He said as he smiled, taking her hand and caressing it with his thumb gently. Even though Ben wasn't his own child, he still thought of him as his son and deep in his heart, though he would never tell anyone.. He secretly longed for a daughter.

He could just see himself with a little baby girl nestled up in his arms, looking back at him with love and knowing he could never love anyone or anything quite as much as he loved his little girl. He was a big sentimentalist at heart, of course he would never show that side of himself to anyone other then Lisa and Ben, perhaps Castiel at times as well, but he always did dream of having a family and ever since he first met up with Lisa.. He could feel he would be happy with her. He had thought Cassie Robinson was his one great love, but even she didn't come anywhere close to how he felt for Lisa or what he was now starting to feel (albeit that he didn't fully realize yet) about Castiel as well. Maybe that was why he never managed to catch up with Cassie after their last meeting, because he knew what they had was finally over and he could then move on from her.

"I was planning on telling you in a special way", She said chuckling a little as she entwined their fingers together, "Anyway you tell me will be special", He said as he looked into her eyes smiling, excited to hear if he was having another son or if he was having a daughter. Lisa knew that his deepest dream was to have a little baby girl and she was so excited at being able to tell him that she completely forgot about the phone call she had taken earlier in the afternoon and concentrated on telling him their news. She smiled wide as she spoke, her hand still holding his tightly, "I know this is something that will make you so happy.. We are having a little baby girl". Dean's face lit up and he grinned wide as he repeated, "We're having a daughter". His heart was racing with joy and he had never felt as happy about anything in his life.

"We are Dean", She said smiling wider, his reaction warming her heart. "I can't wait to meet her", He said as he leant over the table and brushed his lips against hers ever so softly. "Me either". She replied back to him as he stood up to clear their empty dishes. "It will be different having a little girl.. Do you think you will be more protective of her Dean?, She asked softly. He chuckled and nodded, "I think I will be more protective of her... "So what should we watch tonight Lis?". He asked as he rinsed the plates and put them in the dishwasher and did the same with their glasses. "I was thinking of La Bamba". She knew he liked that movie and as much as he would never admit it, She knew he loved the music from that era as well, so she thought it was a good choice. He finished cleaning up and smiled, "Sure, that sounds perfect babe".

Dean was still struggling a little with confidence in himself about being a good father.. He worried that he would not be a good Dad. He knew that he wouldn't be able to live this apple pie life forever and that he would be pulled back into the hunting life sooner then later and he didn't want to be a dead beat Dad like his father was to Sammy and himself, he wanted to be better then that.. There was no way his children would ever know anything about the supernatural life.. Ben had no choice.. He knew it existed but his daughter didn't have to know.. didn't need to know. He made them both a mug of hot chocolate and then made some popcorn. "Hang on babe.. Let me take this upstairs and then I'll help you up". He said as he put everything on a tray and then walked up stairs and placed the tray down on his bed side table. Once he was upstairs, he decided to quickly check his phone to see if he had any messages and missed calls..

Hmm.. He thought.. That is strange.. Dean had no nothing. No missed calls, no text messages and He wondered why.. He knew that Sammy, Castiel or Bobby should have called by now just to check in.. It had seemed that there was a bit of drama and news happening right when Castiel had hung up the last time they spoke, so he was a little concerned about why he hadn't heard from them. It was just after 10:30pm in Battle Creek which would make it only 9:30pm in New Orleans, so he wasn't sure why they hadn't called him. He was about to call Castiel just to check up on him when he heard Lisa's voice calling him, "Dean? You forget about me?". She said in a pouty voice. He got out of his contacts, putting the phone down on charge, sighing a little as he did and headed downstairs. "No.. I had to go to the bathroom". He said forcing a little white lie out as he walked into the kitchen and smiled. "You ready?".

She smiled and nodded as he lifted her up easily into his arms and carried her out into the hallway, turning the kitchen light off as he did and carrying her gently upstairs to their bedroom. As they got upstairs, She smiled at him, "Thanks babe". He moved his head forward and kissed her softly, "You are welcome Lis". He said as he then walked into the room and deposited her gently onto the bed. He quickly pulled his shirt and jeans off, leaving himself in boxers as he got the movie ready and then he crawled into bed with Lisa. It had begun to rain and he sighed softly loving the sound of the rain on the roof. They settled into watch the movie and gave Lisa her tea and set the popcorn next to them. He sipped his tea and watched the movie, his eyes gazing at his phone every so often, wishing for a text from his favourite angel.

Lisa had been noticing Dean's eyes moving from the TV every now and then to his phone. She couldn't help the sinking feeling in her stomach that he was waiting for a phone call from this Cas person whoever they were.. It made her feel a little insecure.. She wasn't totally sure if Dean had come back for her or because of how responsible he is and how he would want to make sure that he is there for the baby and to help her. It never crossed her mind that Dean wouldn't be available for him when she called him to let him know about what was going on. She was feeling scared and worried now that this Castiel person was someone really special and he would one day decide this life was not what he wanted. She sighed softly, snuggling into him more as she tried to reason with herself that he was here with her and for her to not worry about it or else it will land her back in hospital once more.

Dean had been feeling conflicted, He wanted to spend time with Lisa but he also wanted to speak a little more with Castiel and he was honestly worried about how not just Castiel, but Sam and Bobby and even Garth as doing up against Crowley. He knew he needed to just stop these thoughts and concentrate on being here for Lisa, Ben and the baby, but it was so hard to just switch off hunter life and turn on boyfriend and father life. He needed to find the balance and he was having trouble with that.. a lot of trouble. It was at this point, he realized he wasn't concentrating on the movie and he noticed Lisa nodding off as well, so he decided to switch the TV off and get some sleep. "Hey baby", He said softly... "Why don't we get some sleep". Lisa nodded sleepily and snuggled into him more, "Okay honey.. I love you". She whispered as she leant over to kiss him. He kissed her back and smiled a little, "Love you too".

He laid down and let her cuddle up into him, one arm under her head and the other arm was around her growing belly, her leg tangling up around his as her head rested on his shoulder, her nose nuzzling into his neck, her eyes closing slowly. He kissed her head and closed his own eyes, trying his hardest to ignore the little thoughts of Castiel that were running around in his mind, consuming his every thought and sighed, pulling the blankets up over them, both falling asleep with deep complicated thoughts of which neither one felt they could bring up with the other, trying their hardest to ignore the nagging feelings inside their aching hearts and enjoy each other's company, enjoy this time they had together as a couple and as a family.

-Dream-

Dean was in the shower, singing to himself as he washed his body. He felt happy and he wanted the world to know the reason he was so relaxed and happy and care free all of a sudden. It had everything to do with one person and that person just opened the door to the bathroom, chuckling as he heard Dean's singing voice. Dean had not heard the door open and continued to wash himself as he sang, unaware that his lover was currently undressing and slowly sliding the shower door open, stepping in and closed it again. He only realized someone was in the shower with him once he felt strong arms wrap around his torso and a low deep voice whispering in his ear. "Don't quit your day job Dean". Dean chuckled softly and turned around to face his lover, pressing his body against the wall, "You love it baby.. I know you do".

His lover smiled and chuckled a little back, "It turns me on actually". He said, looking into Deans eyes for his reaction, loving how his lover's eyes dilated and clouded over with lust. "Well, in that case", Dean said as he began singing the lyrics to 'Can't fight this feeling', by REO speedwagon. His lovers eyes shot up, his heart racing as he remembered the night Dean serenaded him with this song, the night they admitted their feelings for each other. Dean pulled his lover ino his arms, smiling as he wrapped his arms around his love and began dancing under the water. His lover's eyes lighting up as they danced together under the water and in the safety of their own home. It felt so good to have a permanent home with the love of his life and as Dean closed his eyes, their bodies moving together, He knew that he never wanted to be anywhere else in the world. There wasn't anything overtly sexual about this situation they were in now in the shower, but that Dean could just dance and not have it turn sexual was all the proof he needed that this love was for real. "I love you Dean", came a whisper into his ear as he held him tighter, Dean whispering back happily, "I love you too Castiel".

-End Dream-

With that Dean sat up in bed, beads of sweat dripping down his head and his back. When he looked down at his groin, he silently cursed as he noticed himself spotting a major hard on. He looked over at Lisa who was sound asleep still and he felt a little guilty. He had no idea why he dreamed of that.. why he dreamt of Castiel and himself in the shower.. He still was trying to deny just how badly he missed him.. In his waking state, he would also deny his attentiveness to Castiel, but obviously in his sleeping state, his dreams would act out what he really wanted. It was only four in the morning, so Dean decided to slip into the shower and take care of himself. He slowly and quietly got out of bed and headed towards the en-suite, his hard on aching for attention and as he got into the shower, he allowed the water to run down his body as he took care of himself, his mind wandering back to that dream, biting his lip to stifle his moans, his heart racing as he got closer to his climax, his thoughts solely on one man.. correction.. one angel and as he climaxed, he moaned Castiel's name, breathing in deep as he slide his back down the wall, his body shivering as the warm water turned to coolness.

After he finished, he cleaned himself up and washed up, turning the shower off and smiling softly, his heart still racing as he thought of Castiel and what he would have thought if he had been in his mind as he slept or when he was in the shower. He dressed and then headed back into the bedroom, deciding to go for a quick drive to stretch baby's legs and go an grab a morning paper and maybe some breakfast back. He left a note for Lisa in case he wasn't back when she woke and kissed her forehead softly smiling to himself as he walked out of the bedroom and down the stairs, grabbing the impala keys and then headed outside. Unbeknownst to him, Lisa had woken when the shower started and she heard him moaning and calling out a name.. a name which sounded familiar to her.. and then she realized it was that Cas's name he was moaning. She didn't know quite what to think or do, so she decided to stay under the covers, her eyes closed as if she was still sleeping, her eyes welling up with tears, her heart slowly breaking at the thought he wanted another woman. She needed to speak with him, she decided and let him go if that is what he wanted.. She just didn't know how or when.. or if she could let him go.

I'm sorry for the sad ending to this chapter.. My own heart was aching as I was writing it.. It will get a little better for Dean and Lisa.. not sure when.. but it will.. I hope you all enjoy it.. I have to say.. I have no idea what the ending will be for this yet.. if Dean and Lisa will stay together or if he will be with Castiel.. I like not knowing right now.. makes me exciting for me too.. I hope you are enjoying it..