A/N: The beginning of this chapter is M-rated! This chapter is a little more drama. I hope everyone likes it! Let me know what you think!
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Chapter 10: The aftermath
The next morning they woke up when the light came through the curtains. It was 8 am and Hotch had to go home before Haley would be there. JJ opened her eyes and she put a soft kiss on Hotch's chest. JJ was slowly waking up and she gave Hotch a soft pound against his shoulder to wake him up. Hotch's eyes fluttered a bit but his eyes fully opened when he felt JJ's lips on his in a soft kiss. JJ climbed on top of him and she tried to climb off him to get off the couch. Hotch pulled her back and she fell on top of him. Hotch turned them over and he was on top JJ again. He pulled the shirt open and he kissed her breasts. He looked at JJ and she saw what he wanted.
''Well, I didn't figure you as the a morning person, Aaron'' she said.
''I am the morning type. Especially when I am looking at a beautiful girl, sweetheart'' he said as he stood up to pull his sweatpants and boxers down. He walked to the bedroom and he took a condom. When he came back, he saw JJ laying in the same position. He hovered over her and he noticed they were both excited already.
''I don't have to do much to get you excited'' she teased and Hotch groaned at her words.
''Thinking about you makes me excited, let alone being on top of you'' he said.
Hotch pulled aside JJ's panties and he entered her hard and he trusted into her deeply. JJ was caught off guard by his move and she moaned out. She knew noticed that he was definitely the dominant type of guy when it came to sex. Hotch started moving and they both came after a couple of minutes. Hotch rolled himself of JJ and he pulled her with him to the floor. JJ laughed out when she fell on top of him.
''I have never had so much sex in one day'' she said.
''Me either. I am sorry if I was a little too rough'' he said softly, hoping he didn't actually hurt her.
''It was my pleasure. I have to take a shower. Maybe we can eat some breakfast. I have classes at 9.30 am''
''I have to be at work at 9 am. Why don't I join you in the shower. We can eat breakfast after were fully clothed again'' he grinned.
''Sounds like a plan to me'' she replied happily.
After Hotch and JJ had taken a shower and ate breakfast it was almost time for Hotch to leave. They were sitting on the couch when Hotch noticed the time. JJ was straddling his lap and Hotch was kissing her.
''JJ, I have to go, sweetheart'' Hotch said as he groaned.
''I know. I just don't want you to'' she said softly while moving her hands towards his pants. to the ''Oh god. Don't do that. I won't go if you keep teasing me''
''Fine by me'' she said and she pulled her hands away from him to let him go.
He gave JJ a quick kiss on the lips. JJ moved away from his lap and she followed him to the door.
''You can come by whenever you want'' she said.
''I will. How about tonight?'' he asked. He knew Haley was back in his life but he didn't want to let JJ go. She understood him like no one ever had before.
''I can't wait'' JJ said and she gave him a soft kiss on the lips.
''Bye'' he said and he walked away with his briefcase in his hands. He didn't realize he forgot to take his cell with him.
''Bye'' JJ said and she closed the door behind her.
JJ went to her bedroom to put her books together for school and she freshened up. It was almost time for her to go. She walked into the kitchen to clean up the plates when she heard a phone ring. She knew it wasn't hers. She walked towards the coffee table and she saw Hotch's phone on the table. On the little screen she saw Haley's name appear and she could read the text. She took the phone in her hand and she sat down on the couch.
Haley Hotchner: Aaron, I will be home in twenty minutes. I missed you. I hope you're home and not at the office.
Haley
At first JJ thought it was the first time Haley let Hotch know she was coming home. She believed Hotch when he told her that Haley didn't answer any of his phone calls. Her curiosity got the better of her and she started scrolling through his texts. She knew she shouldn't have done that but what she was reading made her doubt herself. At first she noticed texts between Rossi and Hotch from four days ago when Hotch was still staying with her.
D. Rossi: Hey Aaron. Just checking in to see how you're doing. Did you get lucky with the hot blonde already? I know you need to get laid. I know you're married but a young thing like that might help you get more relaxed. Maybe you have to wait a few days before she is fully recovered from her injuries and the fun can start after that. Just let me know something!
: No, Dave. I didn't get lucky. Will you stop stalking to me about this, please! I am pretty busy right know. I need to get her better.
JJ read those two texts and she didn't want to read the rest of it. She felt her stomach turn. It was like her heart was slowly being torn apart. She wanted to cry but she could just control her tears.
She scrolled to Haley's texts and what she read made her even angrier. She read the text from Haley telling Hotch she was coming home. JJ knew that Hotch knew Haley was coming home before they slept together. All the three times they had sex he knew that his wife was coming back. JJ couldn't believe she fell for his act. She felt used and broken at the same time. JJ put the phone in her bag and she left for school.
Hotch never noticed his missing phone. He pulled up into the driveway of his house and he stepped out of the car. He walked inside and two minutes later he heard another car pull up in the driveway. He was just in time to change his shirt because he knew the other was smelling like JJ and he also knew Haley would notice something like that right away. He saw Haley picking up Jack from the car. He opened the door and he ran towards them.
''Hey, honey'' he said as planted a soft kiss on Haley's lips. He picked Jack up from Haley's arms and he pulled him tightly against him.
''Hey. I missed you Aaron. We still need to talk'' Haley said.
''I missed you to. Both of you. Oh, little buddy. You're back. I love you buddy'' Hotch said while holding his son in his arms.
''Dadda. Home. Dadda'' Jack exclaimed.
''Yeah. You're home little guy'' Hotch said while he followed Haley inside.
They sat down in the kitchen and they talked for a bit. Hotch was holding Jack the entire time and he was happy to see his son. He was also happy to see Haley but he felt a lot different around her now. They talked for some time until Hotch had to go the office to do more interviews with applicants.
JJ finished her classes and she decided to go by the BAU to confront Hotch. She knew he wanted to come by her apartment that night but she wasn't going to let that happen. She felt like she could kill him. She was so mad but the feeling of betrayal and hurt was worse. Everything came rushing back to her when she reached the BAU floor. Kelly's body, her attack and the funeral. She ran into the closest bathroom and she started crying. She didn't even notice the woman walking in. She was next to JJ and she put her hand on JJ's shoulder. JJ jumped at the touch.
''Oh sorry'' the woman said.
''No, it's okay'' JJ said while wiping away her tears.
''Are you okay?'' the woman asked carefully. She saw JJ crying and she was worried about the blonde.
''I am fine. Just some trouble'' JJ replied.
''Are you here for the interviews? I just had one. Wow, it was pretty hard. The Unit Chief was drilling me. Oh, maybe I should introduce myself first. I am Emily Prentiss'' Emily said while she shook JJ's hand.
''Hey, I am Jennifer Jareau. Everyone calls me JJ. I am not here for the interviews. I am actually still in college'' JJ said while she pointed to her bag with books in it.
''Oh, sorry'' Emily said.
''It's okay. Did you say Unit Chief? Is he still interviewing?'' JJ asked.
''No, I was the last person. It was nice to meet you JJ. I have to run. Bye'' Emily said.
''Bye'' JJ said while Emily walked out of the bathroom.
JJ got herself together and she walked out of the bathroom. She walked through the bullpen doors and she saw Rossi walking towards her.
''Hey Jennifer is it, right? Are you here for Aaron?'' Rossi asked with a grin. He had been telling Hotch that he thought JJ was very pretty but it was just to tease him.
''Hi, agent Rossi. Is he in his office?'' JJ asked calmly. She wanted to yell at the man in front of her but he wasn't the one who really hurt her.
Rossi turned around to look into Hotch's office and he saw him sitting at his desk with the phone in his hands.
''Yeah looks like it. Is everything okay? You look a little pale'' Rossi said while looking at JJ.
''I am fine. I just need to talk to him'' JJ replied and she walked away from Rossi.
Rossi walked back towards his own office and JJ was standing in front of Hotch's office door.
JJ wanted to run away but she felt like she had to do this. She knocked on the door.
''Come in'' Hotch said softly.
JJ walked into his office and she saw the surprise on his face. Hotch noticed the different look in her eyes.
''Hey beautiful. What's going on? You look a bit flustered'' Hotch said and he stood up to walk towards JJ but she held up her hand to keep him at a distance from her.
''Just sit down'' JJ said softly.
''Well, who's the boss now?'' he asked with a grin, still not knowing what was going on.
''Stop, please'' JJ pleaded.
''What's going on, babe? Do you have any regrets?'' he asked curiously.
''Don't call me babe. And I don't know yet. Well I might but… Do you have regrets?'' she asked.
''No, I will never regret that. I had an amazing night with you JJ. I can't wait for the next time we can do that'' he said with a smirk.
When JJ heard what he was saying, she just lost it. The look in her eyes was filled with anger and pain.
''Just stop it!'' JJ said while looking at him.
''JJ, what…'' he tried to say.
JJ slammed his I-phone onto his desk and she was ready to walk away but she realized she deserved at least an explanation.
Hotch saw the phone and he realized why JJ was so different. He wished he had never said the things he said a few seconds ago.
''JJ…I can..'' he said, knowing that he had been pretty stupid.
''Explain? Was I really someone for you to just screw with? Is that what you do when you meet a witness at a case. You take care of them and you make them trust you'' JJ yelled out.
''No. No. Never. I never wanted to hurt you, JJ. I still don't want to hurt you'' he said while walking towards her but JJ stepped away from him.
''No. It's a little too late for that don't you think? Why? Why didn't you just tell me? Is this what you do?'' JJ asked with the tears stinging in her eyes.
''No, that's not what I do'' he replied.
''You could have stopped it yesterday when you knew your wife was coming home. You lied to me about everything. I read the texts Rossi send you. You were actually planning on just sleeping with me? What were you going to do tonight, huh? The same thing and then you would have told me a couple of days later that Haley was coming back and that you couldn't leave your son, right? '' she asked with a tears dropping from her eyes.
''No, JJ. Rossi was just joking around. I never was planning on sleeping with you, JJ. It just happened, okay'' he said while looking over at a hurt JJ.
''I can't believe that this is happening to me. How could you…. Why did you lie to me?''
''Because I realized I love you, JJ'' he confessed, not knowing if it would do any good.
''You bastard'' JJ said a little louder and she stormed out of the office.
Hotch ran after JJ. JJ ran into the elevators and he was just in time to get in. There were two other agents in the elevator, so neither of them talked. Hotch knew JJ was going to ran away as soon as the elevator would stop at the lobby. He walked over to JJ and he grabbed her by the hands. JJ looked around in astonishment and with an angry face.
''What are you doing?'' she yelled.
The two other agents turned around and looked at Hotch with questionable faces.
''Oh, just ignore her. I need to handcuff her because she runs every time'' Hotch lied.
The two agents stepped out at the lobby. JJ wanted to run out to but Hotch pulled her back with force and she collided with his chest. He pushed the bottom of the parking garage and let go of JJ when they were walking out of the elevator into the parking garage.
"I am sorry, JJ. I knew you were going to run and I want to explain. What I said is the truth. I love you. I fell in love with you in two and a half weeks. I never thought any of this would happen'' he said.
''You're lying'' she yelled back at him.
''You have to believe me, JJ. I forgot what it was like to be myself and to just have fun with another person. I forgot what it was like to feel passion and desire. Then I met you'' he explained.
''No, it doesn't change anything. You still lied to me. You made me the other woman. If I had known that she was coming back to you, I would have never have done any of it'' she said. Her anger started to change in tears.
''I know JJ and I am so sorry. But you have awakened something in me, JJ. Something I never thought I had in me. You filled a void that has been there my entire life. I never believed in true love but I do now'' he said while he was looking at a crying JJ. He wanted JJ to forgive him but he knew she couldn't. He knew she wouldn't trust another man in a long time because of him.
''I want to believe you'' she said.
''Then let me proof it to you'' he said and he stepped closer to her. JJ didn't take a step back. Hotch let his lips land on JJ's lips. She pulled back when she realized what he was doing.
''No, Aaron. I am not going to do that. Just stop it'' she said as she pushed Hotch away from her.
''JJ please'' he pleaded.
''No, Aaron. It's too late. I don't want to see you or hear from you. I am done. But you do get to know that you broke my heart. If you are telling the truth than I know you have to live with that'' she said and she walked away.
Hotch ran after her and he pulled her back by the wrist. JJ turned around with an angry gaze.
''What do you want from me, Aaron? Just let me go'' she yelled at him.
''No. I can't. JJ please listen to me, okay'' he pleaded again.
''Aaron, are you going to stay with your wife? Are you going to tell her what happened?'' JJ asked.
''I don't know''
''Well, there you have it. I am going. Just leave me the hell alone'' JJ said as she pushed the button on the elevator. JJ stepped inside when it opened and that was the last time Hotch thought he would ever see her again.
JJ wanted to break down but she kept herself together. She thought she was making a mistake because he told her he loved her. JJ knew she loved him too but she couldn't be with someone who was married and wasn't sure what to do about his situation. She left and told herself not to doubt her decision.
Hotch didn't know what to do. JJ had every right to be upset with him but it was like she took a piece of his heart with him when she left. Hotch walked back into his office and he slammed his hands into his desk out of frustration. He didn't notice Rossi standing in the doorway.
''You seem angry'' Rossi joked.
''Just shut up Dave. I am not having a great day'' he said.
''Well, you better get it together. Tomorrow the new team will be here together for the first time and we all are going to need you. You are the unit chief, right?'' Rossi said.
''Yes I am. Did Strauss already post the names of the three agents?'' Hotch asked, hoping that Strauss also considered his judgment.
''Yep. Agents Morgan, Prentiss and Reid will be joining us tomorrow''
''Wow, Strauss actually listened to me. That's something new'' Hotch said with surprise.
''What happened with JJ? She came into the office and she looked a bit off'' Rossi said carefully.
''Oh not much. She just told me she just found out her boyfriend was cheating and she needed to talk to me'' Hotch lied easily, knowing he was the one who broke JJ's heart.
''She had a boyfriend? What a shame. Well I am going home. Good luck Aaron'' Rossi said as he walked away.
Hotch sat down and started working on his paperwork but his mind kept going to JJ the entire time.
When JJ got home, she put on the TV and she started watching. She looked over at the other end of the couch and her memory flashed back to one of the last nights she spent with Hotch. It was one of those times when she just knew he was different. JJ was sitting in the exact same spot and Hotch was sitting on the other end of the couch. They just ate dinner and they started talking about their lives and what they hated or loved about it. It was just one those nights that she felt like she knew him her entire life. Now she didn't know if she ever really knew him. She was doubting everything they had shared together. JJ knew she loved him and to hear him say that, made her realize that she might be making a mistake. She just didn't know what to say or do about any of it. She felt broken.
Hotch left the office around 5 pm. He was thinking about JJ the entire time and he couldn't just leave it the way it ended that afternoon. He decided to go by her apartment to try and talk to her. He had no idea what JJ was going to do or say but he just needed to know that she was okay. He knew she was probably hating him right now. He drove fast and he pulled up in front of JJ's building in half an hour. He stepped out and he started walking towards JJ's apartment. He knocked on the door when he heard sounds from the TV.
JJ was startled when she heard a soft knock on the door. She had a feeling it was Hotch because she knew no one was planning on visiting her. She was still sitting on the couch while deciding what to do. After another knock the stood she stood up and she walked towards the door. She put her hand on the knob and she froze for a couple of seconds.
''JJ, I know you're there. Please, talk to me. I don't want it to end like this'' Hotch pleaded when he knew that JJ was standing behind the door.
JJ heard him talk and she slowly opened the door. She looked away from him and she took a step back when he wanted to come closer to her.
''What are you doing here?'' JJ asked confused.
''I just told you. I want to talk about this. I understand that you're mad but I don't want to lose you''
''You understand? You have no idea how I feel Aaron. You tell me that you love but you betrayed me last night to sleep with me. If you really loved me you would have told me that you knew your wife was coming back to you'' JJ replied angrily as she wrapped her rope tighter around her.
''I do love you, JJ. Last night was amazing and I didn't end it because I wanted to be with you so badly''
''Yeah, it was amazing. But I am not going to get involved in this anymore. I just want you to leave me alone and just stay out of my life. If I see you I know I won't be able to stay in control'' JJ said and she felt the tears stinging in her eyes. She was torn between two feelings in that moments. She felt like she could hate Hotch for the rest of her life for what he did to her but her other feelings left her with an ache for him.
''So, I will never see you again? We can't let that happen''
''Aaron, what do you want from me? I am trying here. I am so mad at you'' JJ said a little louder and the first tear fell down her face.
Hotch noticed that JJ was crying and he walked closer to her. JJ stood frozen in the same spot and she let Hotch come closer without doing anything about it. Hotch was standing in front of JJ and he let his hand go towards her face to cup her cheek. JJ shivered slightly when she felt his hands on her face and after a couple of seconds, she finally pulled away.
''Go Aaron. Please! I can't do this'' JJ pleaded while pulling his hands away from her face.
''Okay'' Hotch said to her for the last time and he walked out of the apartment. He had expected JJ to be yelling at him and he was surprised to see her eyes emotionless. He knew there was nothing he could have said or done to change her mind. He knew he hurt her but he still didn't want to say goodbye, even thought he knew this was probably the last time he would ever see her again.