All characters belong to E. L. James. Story line is mines :D

I feel desolate as Ana walks off into the bathroom; I see her slender frame heave with the sobs she's trying to hold back. It breaks my heart to know that I have wounded her so deeply.

I did tell you 'If you play with fire you get burned' you're an ass hole. You had her Grey, you had everything and it still wasn't enough to stop you from fucking it up. You don't deserve her, you never did.

I sit waiting outside the bathroom; I just want to know if she's okay? I sit there for another ten minutes and I can still hear her sobs. Suddenly there's an almighty smash and I grab my car keys as the lock is one that you can open from outside, I suppose it's for when someone passes out in the bathroom. I shake those thoughts and use the side of one of my keys to turn the lock, and pull the door open. I look around the room and it's trashed. The mirror is broken; glass all over the place, everything that was on the counter is lying on the floor. Ana is curled into a ball, naked on the floor with lots of sharp shards of glass all around her. I bend down and pull Ana into my chest, kissing her hair, reassuring her that we'd get past this; we have to get passed it. I can't bear the distance between us.

"Baby I'm sorry. I am so fucking sorry. Forgive me please. Don't fight me." I was desperate.

Ana pulls away from my arms and starts beating the shit out of my chest incoherently wailing about my betrayal. After she's got it all out we both cry holding each other until I notice blood on the floor and all over Ana.

"Do you think we can get off the floor baby? I need to see where you've cut yourself, there's blood on the floor and on the towel."

She simply nods and I scoop her into my arms gently. I have to see where she's bleeding from. I press the buzzer to get the nurses attention. She comes right in and looks over Ana whilst I repeatedly apologize for my outburst, and that I'll pay for the damage and add a few more zero's on to their usual check. The nurse leaves after treating Ana's minor cuts.

"Why did you do that Christian? Why did you tell them that it was you who trashed the bathroom?"

She looks so confused. She should know why I did it, and I'd do it again in a heartbeat.

"I did it because I love you and I need to protect you, keep you safe."

She rolls her eyes and immediately my palms are twitching.

"Ana, I need to know if there is even a remote possibility of us getting passed this. I know I've hurt you terribly - I'd die if the shoe was on the other foot and you had been with someone else. I can't even imagine what something of that magnitude would feel like. Just please know that I regret it, and that I love you - I never stopped loving you and I never will. I'll love you until I take my last breath, and probably beyond it. I... I'm sorry okay. Please just tell me what I have to do to show you how sorry I am?"

"Christian. I love you so much and that's why this hurts even more. If I didn't love you with every fiber of my being I wouldn't be in so much pain. It hurts to breathe, everything hurts so much. Please just leave, give me time to get my head space sorted out. I can't tell you if we'll get passed this because I don't know if I can forgive you. God, yesterday I was blissfully unaware - and even though I know what you were doing I wish I could turn back the clock, anything not to feel this pain. Just please leave."

"I love you Ana." She doesn't look up at me, just stares at the floor in tears.

"So you keep saying. I wish that I could believe you. If you love me at all you'll do as I ask."

"I haven't even got to hold my daughter yet and you're asking me to leave." As soon as the words leave my lips I regret saying them as Ana's head springs up and she looks at me with pure hate in her eyes.

"SHE WOULD STILL BE INSIDE ME IF IT WASN'T FOR YOU. GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE AND DON'T COME BACK. I SWEAR CHRISTIAN, LEAVE. NOW!"

I slowly get up and walk out, leaving my heart and soul with Ana in her room.

What do you think so far? Am I still making Ana strong, but not like over-dramatic or anything? Please review if you have time :D

-Susie xoxo