Chapter 10
Bella's POV
I awoke suddenly, looking around. It was dark in the room but I was surprised that I could see everything. My eyes seemed as if they'd enhanced themselves, everything was more clear. I looked next to me to find my angel. Kneeling next to the bed staring into my eyes. He looked sad, full of remorse. I was too shaken, to ask what was wrong especially since I already knew the answer.
"Edward?" I said shakily. The voice that hit my ears when I spoke didn't even sound like it belonged to me. It sounded as if a symphony was playing a beautiful melody.
"Yes, my love." he replied getting up and sitting next to me on the bed.
Edward started to stroke my face when I realized, that he wasn't cold anymore. His touch didn't make me shiver with cold anymore, in reality, he was quite warm. I couldn't believe it. Even now that I was a vampire, his touch still sent electric currents up and down my body. It was nice to know that he still had an affect on me. The question was, did he still want me? Now that I'm changed, does he still want me?
"Edward, How do I look?" I had to ask.
"Bella, you are more beautiful then I ever thought possible." he said leaning down and brushing his now warm lips against mine. That answers my question.
I had to see for myself. I pushed up off of the bed and stood up. I carefully walked into the bathroom, I don't even know why I did it carefully. I knew I would be noticeably more graceful now that I was turned. I guess old habits die hard though.
I hesitated as I looked into the mirror. I gasped as I didn't even recognize the girl that looked back at me. She was slender and curvy. Her long auburn hair slightly waved as it cascaded down her back. But the most noticeable change was her eyes. They were a bright red color. It just added to her, or well, MY new found beauty. Edward then walked into the room and snaked his arms around my new perfect waist.
"So, What do you think?"
"Edward, I'm...I'm beautiful."
He turned me around in his arms.
"Isabella Marie Cullen" he took my face in his hands, "You have always been beautiful."
"No Edward, not like this."
He didn't reply, he just kissed me deeply and turned and turned on the shower, just the hot water and a little bit of cold. He then stripped the sweat covered clothes off of me and stripped his off also. We both stepped in. Edward never took his hands off of me as the sweat and grime washed off of me from the three days I'd gone without showering. He ran his fingers gently down my back but this time I didn't shiver from the cold. I shivered from the electricity of his touch.
I looked up into his beautiful amber eyes and kissed him deeply. I couldn't pull away from him and I didn't try. The best part, neither did he. He grabbed me by my now firm perfect butt and picked me up. I instinctively wrapped my legs around him. We made love again. Right there in the shower. This time it was noticeably less wavered. It was also noticeably more amazing than it had been the night before. Knowing that Edward had no reason to hold back for fear of hurting me. I was now as strong as he was. I was his equal and it was heaven.
After our long shower Edward and I decided it was time to try to go home. He gave me three bags full of human blood to drink before we left. It was hard knowing what it was but the burning in my throat before I drank it was overpowering and highly uncomfortable. Its just something I'll have to get used to.
Walking out the door of the room I felt Edward put his arm tight and strong around my waist I was confused as to why at first but then it happened. I smelled it before I saw it. A maid, just doing her rounds came around the corner of the hallway. I heard a rumble coming from somewhere and was surprised when I realized it was me. I was growling. Edward's arm tightened around my waist and he leaned over and whispered.
"Don't breathe."
"Easier said then done."
He just looked at me reassuringly and nodded.
I took a long gulp of air in through my mouth and held it there. It was extremely uncomfortable but I knew if I even chanced a breath as we walked within inches of this woman I would want to kill her. Even worse, I would kill her. Edward leaned over and began whispering little facts about this woman. No doubt trying to reason with the monster inside of me.
The woman was getting closer as we walked down the hallway and I could feel the burning in the back of my throat, though dull, but still existant. I felt myself try to pull away from Edwards arm but he kept it firm. We walked past her and she looked at us. Mostly at Edward, but then again, who could blame her. Call me jealous but even if I wasn't a vampire I would want to kill her for that. I heard an involuntary snarl come out and quickly silenced it.
Edward leaned over and kissed my cheek, still whispering little things about this woman. About how the reason that she's working is because she is caring for her sick mother and little things like that. It certainly made me feel for her but at the same time, something inside me wanted to drink her.
It got even harder still walking through the lobby full of humans. Edward now had to have two arms around me and anytime I would try to pull away he just tightened them. Of course we got our stares. But not because we were strange. But because we were definatly by far the most beautiful beings in the vicinity.
I held my breath, trying to make sure I didn't smell anything. It was more uncomfortable than I could have ever imagined but I had to do it. For my sake, and Edwards. We kept walking, and it wasn't until we were safely in the car with the doors locked and the windows up that I finally exhaled and began to breathe again. The smell was still there and I found myself reaching for the handle not to get out of the car, but rather to keep myself in. It was so hard. Every single human I saw, all I could picture was how I could kill them. I caught myself even imagining how they must taste.
The ride home was brutal. Especially when we were in traffic even through thick windows I could smell it.
But this is what I wanted isn't it. I'm Edward's equal now.
This is what I wanted.
Now I get to go home and start a new life. My new family, new friends. Its going to be hard.
But this is what I wanted... Isn't it?
Then Jake's face flashed into my mind and a sorrow came over me like a tidal wave. I'll never see him again. Never kiss him like I used to. (Not that I planned on doing much of that anyway... I don't think). He was going to be furious when he finds out... IF he finds out that Edward broke the treaty. Who knows, maybe the pack will understand the circumstances. Maybe they'll let it go since it was the only way to keep me safe. I'm sure Jake will understand. At least, I hope he'll understand. I wonder if there's anyway I would be able to go see him. Talk to him. Explain everything.
Jacob never knew anything about the Volturi. Maybe he'll understand. Maybe we can still be friends. If that's even what we were in the beginning. I just had to hope. Its going to be hard. I know.
But this is what I wanted... Isn't it?