Chapter 10 Sweep
Ravens POV
When I got up again I got straight to work, I wanted this over and I wanted it over now. I knew that it would be a long process but I was determined to start. Looking at my watch for the eighth time I decided it was now or never. Picking my crutches up I headed inside to Randy. He was on the couch playing Phantasy Star IV, his concentration going into the game.
"Wat is more effective for killing off sandworms" I said pointedly not being able to help myself. If your going to play Phantasy Star then you have to play it right.
He jumped at the sound of my voice and I expected that cold voice again instead it was friendly. "Thanks for the advice." He moved his stuff "Take a seat and get off Charlie"
"Thought it annoyed you that I called my leg that"
"Nah I was being an idiot" Randy laughed his eyes still on the game.
Sitting down next to him I finally gathered my courage despite the fact that I really wanted to play Phantasy Star now. "We need to talk"
He saved the game and put the control down "About what?"
"Everything." I clicked the tv off and turned so I was facing him. "I want to get better but before I can I need to get some stuff thats been haunting me out of the way"
"Ok, I have the feeling that this is going to need coffee. Lots of coffee"
"Hurry it up Orton I need to get this over with I'm tired of dancing"
He gave me a chuckle as he clicked the jug on, he already had two cups waiting. "So what did you wanna talk about?" Randy asked putting two cups down on the table before sitting back on the couch facing me.
"I have things that need I need to get out of the way so I can get better." I took a deep breath
"Well stop beating around the bush because the suspense is killing me"
"I just need some honest answers and I'll do the same for you" Another deep breath "Why did you give me a concussion?"
Randy just looked at me confused "Why do you want to bring that up?"
This was way back before we became friends, it was something we never spoke about but I wanted to know now even more than I did back then.
"Please just tell me Randy"
"Because I didn't want you competing with us, I didn't think you were good enough"
That was better than what I was expecting to be honest even though I had no idea what to expect. "Ok, why did you kiss me?"
"When?"
"The night your marriage fell apart, you came here and you kissed me"
He gave a strangled sigh "It was the only way I would have the courage to do it, I only had the courage when I was drunk"
Now it was my turn to sigh "I'm sorry that I said that sleeping with you that night was a mistake. It wasn't at least to me it wasn't but you woke up in the morning and said that we shouldn't of done that and it was wrong. That broke my heart"
He grabbed my hand and held it gently, "I'm sorry Raven"
"Well its all out there now so now we can move on thank God"
"So you know about Jezzie?"
"Jezzie?"
"We were speaking on the phone before, she was my girlfriend"
"What! How could you have a girlfriend and not tell me!"
"You already knew didn't you?"
"Yeah I overheard, I'm sorry"
"Don't be, I'm glad that I chewed my leg outta that bear trap"
I had to laugh at that "See I miss this"
"What?"
"Us, just hanging out and talking and laughing"
"As long as we're doing that why do you always confide in John and not me?" His blue eyes raged with hurt.
"Because back then I didn't care if I lost his friendship. Don't get me wrong I love that man, I do but back then it wouldn't of mattered to me if he suddenly stopped talking to me, it was your friendship that I didn't want to lose, your respect that I wanted"
"You know John misses you too"
"I know but before I can rejoin the Cenation I want to get better and I'm hoping that you will stay here and help me"
Randy pulled me into his arms and turning me slightly so my back was resting against his chest and his large arms wrapped around me like a blanket. "I will always be here Raven"
"Apart of me knew that from the start" I whispered softly wondering how someone as smart as me could be so fucking stupid.