I know it's been forever and I'm so sorry this took so long but I've been really busy with work and school. I hope you like this chapter. I'll totally admit that I started crying while I wrote what Rose said, just a warning.

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Chapter 10: Anger, Pain, and Tears That Won't Ever Fall.

Previously on My Personal Sun…

…I couldn't breath. I looked right at Esme with pleading eyes. Then I started loose consciousness. I felt two small steal arms catch me right before everything went black.

Esme POV

I felt so helpless as I stood there watching these to boys rip my Bella to shreds emotionally. She just stood there between the two men she loved the most as they argued over her, over her affection. Making choices about her whole life without even so much as a look her way. If they had they would have seen what it was doing to her. The louder they got, the more my sweet girl seem to get hurt.

Just when it seemed like she couldn't take anymore, she look straight into my eyes pleading me for help and fainted. I ran to her and caught her just before she hit the ground. I checked instantly to hear that she was still breathing and her heart was beating. Her mind just couldn't handle everything and did the only thing it could to protect her. I held her to me like a baby. The boys must have notice what happened because the next thing I knew they were at my side, first worried then blaming each other.

I couldn't take it anymore. This was their fault, both of theirs! They messed with my youngest daughter, and now they were going to feel her mother's wrath. I spoke without looking away from her face.

"Shut up. This is your fault, BOTH OF YOURS! You two fighting over her like she's a toy. For men who claim to love her so much neither of you even stopped to see how this was affecting her. But that's one of the problems, your not men your little boys who can't seem to keep their tempers and testosterone levels in check for one minute!"

I started to step away when Jacob stepped in front of me.

"Jacob Black I know that you're worried about her but right now she needs to rest. I would never hurt her, she is one of my daughters and as her mother I'm telling you to get the hell out of my way before you end up flat on your back."

He looked into my eyes and must have seen not only anger but love and concern because a second later he stepped aside.

I heard Edward snicker like a child from behind me and I whipped around to face him.

"I wouldn't be so cocky if I were you, Edward Anthony. You've caused her more pain than anyone! You may be my son but I don't care because right now to me you're just one of the two boys that are hurting my daughter." The cocky grin he had on his face was wiped off and replaced with a frown.

"Now I'm taking Bella back to the house so she can rest and if when she wakes up she wants to talk I will be here for her, but I won't try and persuade or make her decision for her. And neither of you are allowed anywhere near her until she decides otherwise. In fact you're not even allowed in the house! And Edward if I even so much as feel you trying to pry into my mind or anyone else I will have Rosalie rip your Aston Martin to pieces."

I turned and walked to the rest of my family who had wide eyes and slacked jaws.

"Emmett, Jasper and Carlisle I want you three to stand guard outside of the house and if either of them try to go inside, you have my permission to stop them anyway you see fit. And before you say it, No Emmett you may not rip Jacob to shreds because he won't heal like we do. No committing murder. Let's go girls."

And with that I walked ahead with the girls flanking me to the house.

We walked inside and straight up to mine and Carlisle's room. I laid her down on the bed so she could rest comfortably. I sat on the end of the bed and watched her for a little while. She was in so much pain and it was only going to get worse because she was going to have to make a decision. I said that I wouldn't influence her decision but that was partly because I didn't know who I wanted her with. She looked so peaceful while she slept; her face and body had finally relaxed. I now knew why Edward loved to watch her sleep so much.

Finally I turned around and faced my girls. They were sitting on the couch against the wall.

"Now I know you both have your opinions but I need you to keep them to yourselves. Bella needs to make a decision that is going to affect the rest of her life and she needs to do it all on her own. We're here to help her but not influence her one way or the other."

"Esme, I don't think I can just sit here and let here make a huge mistake." Alice said, "She belongs with Edward, to be a member of our family. She is supposed to be with us forever."

"Alice, she is a member of our family, whether she is with Edward or not. Do you see something in Bella's future that you're not telling us?"

"No Esme, I don't see anything and that's what scares me. I don't know if it's because she's chosen the dog or if it's because she hasn't made her choice yet. She's supposed to be one of us, I've seen it! She's happy with us and I just don't know if I can loose her again…" Alice said as the tears welled up in her eyes that would never fall.

I opened my arms and she ran into them. I held her to me, comforting her.

"I know, sweetheart. I don't want to loose her either, but I don't think if she chooses Jacob that she's going to exile us from her life. She loves us and even if he tried to tell her she couldn't see us, she wouldn't listen to him. She's too stubborn and strong willed for that." Alice and I giggled a little about that because we both knew it was true.

"I think she should choose the mutt." Rosalie said softly from the couch. She had been quiet the whole time.

"What?" Alice and I said at the same time turning to look at her as Alice moved to sit next to me on the bed.

"I know she and I haven't ever really gotten along, and that's my fault, but she doesn't deserve to be damned like us. Bella's a good person and as much as I would like her to be an official member of our family, she deserves more. Yes, Edward would love her with all he has for eternity and we would be a family together, but that's all she would ever have. With the dog she could have everything. She could keep her family, have friends other than just her bothers and sisters, get married and become pregnant, watch those children grow as she grows old and then drift off to heaven with the man she loves. We can't do that because we're stuck like this!" She said motioning to her body, "Having to move around all the time and being forced to repeat high school over and over again as the outsiders. Esme, I know that you love us and Carlisle, but if given the chance to have your own baby, wouldn't you take it? Wouldn't you want her to have it?" She said motioning to Bella who was still asleep behind us.

Rosalie started to shake because she was crying tearless sobs. Alice and I both went to either of her sides and wrapped our arms around her. Everyone knew how much Rosalie hating being what she was, but she never showed anyone how much it really hurt her.

If I were being honest with myself, before this conversation with the girls had started I was hoping she would choose Edward and be with us but after hearing everything Rose said, I wasn't so sure anymore. Of course I wanted her in our family but Rose was right, I wanted her to have everything she could possibly ever have. We would give her the world if she wanted it, but we couldn't give her the things that only Jacob could.

We sat there for a while, just being close to each other and watching Bella sleep. Suddenly Alice leaped up and ran out of the room and down to her own. She came back up a few minutes later with a red button up, short sleeved shirt.

"Alice, what's that-" I started but stopped once I heard Bella stir on the bed and then open her eyes…

Ok, you know what to do. Make me happy. Tell me what you want to see happen.