Summary: Set in 2014 (5x04). When a twenty year old girl arrives at the camp, Castiel is assigned to look after her. As time progresses they grow closer, and in the end of times, they both need someone to hold. Please review!

Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural or its characters, 'cause they all belong to a genius called Eric Kripke *Blesses him in a shower of cookies for giving us such a wonderful series*

Pairings: Dean/Jo, Castiel/OC, Chuck/Becky.

Someone to Hold

Chapter Ten: My Flaws

"Seriously…?" Dean asked raising an eyebrow, "Are you insane?"

"No!" Castiel replied, "I'm not insane! I'm far from it, and besides, she's happy to keep seeing me so what's it matter?"

"Cas…" Dean said with a sigh, "She's twenty…the poor kid's been brought up to be this flawless goody-two-shoes who no fucker seems to like around here spare a few of us…"

"So she's twenty and that makes us wrong?" Castiel countered, "Look, Dean…I know there's a fair few years between us but I lo…I like her a lot…and I don't wanna lose her, okay?"

Dean shook his head and looked to the floor as Castiel continued.

"She just needs someone she can trust with something like this, and she only really seems to trust me."

"Are you seriously considering trying to initiate some kind of…well…sex-ish activity tonight?" Dean asked, "Dude, I've seen the way she kisses you and even that seems to scare her."

Castiel sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose.

"I know she gets scared…damnit I'm scared. I don't deal with virgins much, you know that."

"Don't deal with virgins much?" A small voice piped up, "So was Tara right?"

Castiel closed his eyes and sighed, knowing full well who that voice belonged to and damn did he know that she'd walked in on the one part really she didn't need to here.

"Lily…" he began, turning to look at her, "I don't normally sleep with virgins, but it's because there aren't many here at Camp Chitaqua, you know that."

The kid had tears in her eyes now, and Castiel felt a flash of pain rush through his system at that.

"Do you understand why I was brought up like a flawless goody-two-shoes who, I'll agree, no fucker seems to like?"

That's when the table fell over. The girl just stood there, looking pretty pissed at both Castiel and Dean before waving her hand at the door and locking it shut.

"Is this normal?" She asked, trying, really trying to keep her anger under control, "Really?"

The two men shook their heads, earning a truly bitter laugh from Lily.

"No, you're right it isn't damn normal, so my parents kept me away from everyone when I couldn't control it. I only learned to control it a couple of years ago," She spat, Dean and Jo's bed flying into the wall while books fell from shelves, draws and counters opened and closed, "And still they kept me shut away!"

The movement ceased for a moment and Castiel kept looking at Lily who had tears pouring down her face now.

"They shut me away and even performed a fucking exorcism on me…did you know that?" She sobbed, "I'm not a flawless goody-two-shoes, far from it! They thought I was sent by the Devil…not that I was their daughter…do you know what that feels like? To be locked away and treated as though you're poisonous by your own parents?"

Dean actually kinda did, but it was best to just remain quiet at the moment. The cabin door swung open, much gentler than before when it slammed shut, and Lily walked out. Quite where she was going was anyone's guess but no-one went after her, which she was grateful for. She needed some alone time right now. She felt a little better for getting that secret off her chest, but maybe that could've been done more delicately.

"Ugh! I'll never get the hang of boundaries…for the love of God! Why do I mess everything up?"

"Wow…that conversation took a real good spin-off didn't it?" Dean breathed, shaking his head at the mess that Lily had just made, "Jo's gonna flip when she sees this!"

He and Castiel started picking the stuff up.

"Did you see her face…?" Castiel asked as he pulled the table up.

"Oh yeah, I saw her face," Dean replied, "I was scared she'd rip my head off or something."

"No…I mean, when she'd come out with it all…her face sort of lit up…" Castiel said, "Her eyes washed over with this wave of what looked like relief to me…and her shoulders relaxed too."

"So what are you saying?" Dean asked, earning an incredulous look from the former angel.

"I'm saying that she's finally got that off her chest after God knows how long, and perhaps she'll loosen up a little now, you know, prove to people she's not a Little Miss Perfect that everyone thinks she's is." Castiel said, "Damn, with a power like that we could take her on raids. Do you understand how much help she'll be? We can deal with the Croats while she helps load the trucks up, do you see what I mean?"

"Yeah," Dean replied as he put the books back on the shelf, "Question is would she be willing to?"

Castiel and Dean were in Interrogation. No-one went near that building but Lily and another girl named Ali had been assigned to work in the Mess Hall about two minutes away on foot.

"Shit…we've run out of salt… " Ali breathed, "We'll have to let Dean know."

"Well he's in Interrogation right?" Lily asked, "We're not supposed to go in there are we?"

That's when the shouting sounded. The person they were interrogating had gotten loose and was heading into the camp. The girls ran out of the Mess Hall to see him running their way with dead, black eyes that were just like black beads in the guy's head. Castiel and Dean shot him but he didn't go down, just kept running. He stopped and saw Lily.

"This your whore, angel?" He asked, Castiel stopping dead in his tracks and stopping Dean too by grabbing his jacket, "Wow…you did pick a pretty one."

The guy didn't get within an inch of Lily before she screamed and his head just popped off, blood spurting from the gaping hole in the neck before the body fell to the ground. The body stood back up but then its limbs and torso just ripped apart before the completely dismantled body unleashed its demon, the black smoke rippling through the air and away from the camp. Everyone who saw just gaped in shock, while Lily looked at Castiel with damn guilty eyes that were just leaking tears. She actually looked like she was going into shock, so Castiel took the gun off and the ammo, passing them to Dean before moving forward slowly and telling Lily it was okay.

"I-I'm sorry…" she stuttered, her body wracked with sobs and hiccups as she cried her heart out, "I just didn't know what to do…I panicked…I'm sorry."

Castiel pulled her towards him for an embrace, shielding her from the death glares she was getting.

"Man…you really are a freak…"

Castiel growled and turned, still holding Lily close to him before scowling at the owner of the voice.

"Tara, can't you just let anything go?" He asked, "Don't you think she's been through enough without you adding to the fucking load?"

Dean grabbed Tara by the arm and dragged her away, but not before shouting to the others.

"Back to work! Show's over!"

As people left in little clusters, Castiel knew that Lily would get a hard time now, but his main focus at the moment was hushing the poor girl who was still crying her eyes out into his chest.

"See…" she whispered, hiccupping as she tried to hold back a sob, "I'm not Little-Miss-Perfect am I?"

Castiel sighed and kissed her forehead tenderly before tightening his grip on her.

"And that doesn't matter," He said softly, "Do you know what an amazing gift you have?"

Lily pulled back and turned her gaze upward towards the former angel. It had never been referred to as a gift before, always a curse.

"Lily, what you have will be able to help so many people around here," He continued just as softly, "They should be grateful that you stopped the demon when you did, rather than treat you like a…well…"

"A freak?" Lily finished bitterly, wiping her eyes and running a shaky hand through her hair, "I hate being…well…so…so pure and untainted…I hate it!"

"What are you saying?" Castiel asked, tilting her head to make her look at him again.

"Teach me how to be free…"

Well that was a damn odd request.

"I want to progress my relationship with you, I want to get drunk, I want to try and have fun even in these times where nothing's going right, and I want to learn how to fight so I can come out on raids with you…I want to be like the others here, I just want to fit in!"

If a little shocked by the outburst, Castiel managed to show a small smile.

"Okay, I want you to go and calm down, get back to work and tonight I'll see what I can do, alright?"

Lily beamed up at her partner (finally! A smile!) and they shared a tender kiss before Castiel left to speak with Dean.

Maybe training Lily up wouldn't be a bad idea. A power like that could come in very handy outside in the danger zones. Croats wouldn't stand a chance if she could rip bodies apart that way.

-TBC-

A/N: Btw I'm sorry if you guys think Lily's a bit of a Mary-Sue, but I'm trying to do a Sandy from Grease and get her to be a little more fun and outgoing. THANKS FOR READING!