This is the last chapter I am going to do! I hope that you guys like it! :[ sorry for the long wait. But I never had an idea for the next chapter, so we are going to skip ahead and get to the end. Okay? Sorry for the disappointment everyone! :( I hope you like this chapter and the ending though!

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Sierra~~

(Thank you KayDee-DesignerExtraordinare for the suggestion on the next chapter! It means a lot! :) I actually really liked the idea! :)

Sonny's POV

I can't believe it... today is the last day to open the letters. To open up Chads heart. I woke up this morning with a knot in my stomach. I will not open the letters, not right now. I can't. If I do I know that I will cry, I know that this will be the last time to read his... life. I couldn't help but get butterflies in my stomach every time I would read or even think about the letters. I loved him, I have always loved him.

But I don't have him

I never had him.

I will never have him.

And that breaks me... knowing that breaks my heart.

That is why I cry... that is why I can't go a day without crying, because of Chad.. because of you chad.

I took out my pen and paper though, to write him a note before I even read this one. The last one. I set the last note, which seemed kinda thick, on my desk while I wrote my note.

Dear Chad.

I miss you. God I miss you, so much. I wish that you were here with me, but you aren't. And it is breaking me apart. I miss your smile, your hair, your eyes. I miss everything. I miss your laugh, I miss you making fun of my show even. I miss all of it. But most of all I miss our friendship. I know, we didn't really have a good friendship, not that it was bad, but it was forbidden. So we were friends, but we were more friend-enemies. Which I am okay with. Because it made my life more of an adventure. I miss going to work and seeing you, I miss wanting to go to work because of you. You were my life, even though you didn't know. I didn't know that you liked me. I wish that you would have told me. I wish that I have told you. I wish that we would have been together, because then you wouldn't had to come see me to tell me how you felt, you wouldn't have died for me... that is weird. Saying that you died for me, sounds like it came right out of a fairy tail. I don't think you actually died for me, but you wouldn't have died if it wasn't for me. So it was my fault. So you didn't die for me. You died because of me. I just realized that honestly. I just really honestly realized that. Chad I cry every day wanting you here with me. Chad I wont give up on us. Even though you are gone, I know that sounds weird, but I cant help but wonder where we would be right now if everything was normal, if everything was okay. If we would be together. Would we grow old together? Would we be happy together?

Chad I wish you were here.

I can't take it anymore..

Sonny oxoxox

Its true.. I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't take not being with... the love of my life.

I have no doubt in my mind that chad was the love of my life. I don't have any doubt what so ever.

I picked up the letter, my chest heavy. My heart racing. My hands shaking. I didn't want to open it.. but I wanted to open it so bad. I wanted to know what was the last things he wanted to say to me.

There was at least 2 pages in here.

So a lot to read.

My hands to shook while I opened it.

I pulled out the pages and slowly opened the letters.

I read the first words.

Sonny, read this page first. Don't skip ahead, okay? This is really important.

Okay Chad...

Sonny.. I have a lot to say in this letter, but its hard because I have pretty much said it in every other letter that I have wrote to you.

Sonny. I want to tell you WHY I love you, okay? So here I go. This might take awhile because there is so much to love with you.

Sonny, I love your smile, your eyes, your hair. You are beautiful, smart, sexy, pretty, amazing, talented (like seriously you can sing), you are crazy (but in that good way) you are different, original-different, you are a really good cook. Like when you made me those pancakes, DELICIOUS.

I started crying, he told me the pancakes were horrible. But he was with his 'friends' at the falls.

Sonny, I love you because you aren't afraid to be you. What you see is what you get, and you are just all around amazing. Sonny, you can have any guy that you want, you can have anyone. But I hope out of everyone that you choose me. I had to find a brilliant way to tell you how I feel, and have a way for you to tell me how you feel, if you have been writing, so I came up with letters. I have a secret, I write in a 'diary'. Okay, its not really a diary, but, its kinda like one. But if you go through it.. its mostly about you. Its mostly about everything you do that just... makes me smile.

Sonny. I don't just like you, I can never say that I have ever just liked you. Because the first time that I put my eyes on you, I loved you. I am in love with you Sonny.

The page ended. I slowly closed my eyes and went to the next page.

There was only 5 words on this big page.

Sonny... Will you Marry me?

I just about died reading that.

Sonny... Will you Marry me?

I read them again

Sonny... Will you Marry me?

And again

Sonny... Will you Marry me?

And again.

I looked at the letter, for a really, really long time.

"Yes... Yes I will... but I can't." I said, sobbing into my hands. I collapsed to the floor. "I can't." I repeated. I want to be with chad. I want to be with the love of my life forever, but I don't know how.

Other then to die..

But how much will I be loosing if I die?

Tawni.. my best friend..

my mom.

Neco

Grady

Zora...

So random

Everything that I have here.

Do I want to get rid of all of this for Chad...

Yes...

I would loose everything if it just means I could be with Chad...

Forever.

Do I really want to do this?

I think so. I think so...

I easily got up. My feet rubbed against the carpet.

"This is the last time I will walk on these carpets." I whispered softly to myself.

"Hey Sonny! Do you want some eggs?" My mom yelled from the kitchen. I didn't know that she was awake...

"No mom... that's okay. I am not really hungry." I started to sob again, silently.

This is the last time I will talk to my mother.

Do I really want to give her up? I heard my phone ring, back inside my room. I ran back in, before going to the bathroom.

"Hey girl! You wanna hang out tonight? We can go to the club!" -Tawni-

I didn't respond.

I threw my phone against the wall and ran into the bathroom.

Pills...

I opened the medicine cabinet.

Pills...

I took out bottle after bottle. And swallowed them down. I turned on the shower, so my mom wouldn't come looking for me till well after I am dead. I always took long, long showers.

I sat next to him. And he hugged me. Telling me that I made the wrong choice, but that he was happy I was with him. But that I hurt everyone that loved me down there.

So I told him that the love of my life was up here, so I needed to be here.

"But do you really think it was worth it? You would have been with me sometime, you could have found somebody that you loved more." He whispered to me, still hugging me.

"That is not possible. And even if it was, I wouldn't want to risk it. I just want to be with you. Its not like I am not with them, they still have me in there hearts."

"But I wasn't not with you. I was in your heart."

"I love you." He said, then kissed me on the lips. Making my heart melt.

My non beating heart.

But with that he grabbed my hand, and we walked off to heaven.

Wow :) You like? Lol :) Review? :] I hope that you guys do like this. Seriously. Sorry that I ended, but I was excited to give you guys the ending. And I didn't want you guys to wait 4 months for me to figure out how to play out the rest of the story.

I love you guys! Thank you for sticking with me!

It means so much.

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God Bless

Sierra~~