Endless Memoirs
Wake me up inside (I can't wake up) Wake me up inside (Save me) Call my name and save me from the dark Bid my blood to run Before I come undone Save me from the nothing I've become.. Frozen inside without your touch Without your love, Daring only you are the life among the dead. All this I, I can't believe I couldn't see Kept in the dark, But you where there in front of me I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems Got to open my eyes to everything Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul {Don't let me die here} There must be something more.
I don't know how it got so crazy
But Ill do anything to set things right
`Cause your love is so amazing AJ rested his oh so heavy head in the palm of his hands. Memories of endless hours spent talking, merle enjoying Relena's company flashed before him. Her laughter, her smiles, her tears, her words, her rebuffs, her eyes, her jokes, her sent, her taste, her grace, her dignity, her innocence, her love that she would only give to one.
'Damn him' AJ silently cursed. 'Damn him to eternal hell!' That lump of coldness AJ forlornly called brother was the cause of everything. All because he stupidly couldn't c what was there all along.
But he did c now. He saw more then what should rightfully be there. AJ shouldn't have these feelings. It just wasn't done. One doesn't develop feelings for the love of ones brothers' life. AJ hade betrayed his brother by pursuing those feelings but Heero hade dun something far worse. Thru his cold demure and ignorant behavior, he hade almost killed the one he loved. It was quit possible after all that Relena was dead. One did not simple kill a man in cold hearted rage and come out sane. One did not go thru what she hade and have the capability to remain. And that's what frightened AJ the most. Relena wouldn't be ok; she would never be ok again. Their was a high provability that she hade perhaps lost her sole, or worse, died in all but body. And even if thru some grace of god came out of this with some scrap of sanity, the knowledge that she would never have children would finish her off.
Frozen inside without your touch Without your love, Daring only you are the life among the dead.
Relena smiled brightly as if she were the sun incarnated. "What is my dream?" She giggled innocently. "Ill tell u if u promise to keep it a secret."
AJ nodded seriously and she spoke again. "My dream is to live happily ever after with the man I love and are children."
AJ was taken aback by the seemingly childish wish. But he new that for Relena it wasn't childish, it was the would to her.
"And who might that man be?" He asked teasingly.
Relena appeared startled by the question but smiled again.
"Why it's Heero, it's always been Heero."
"DANM HIM!" "Relena will be fine. Sally wouldn't lie" The comforting, yet oh so wrong voice of Wufay met his ears. AJ just shook his head. He shouldn't after all place all the blame on the ideate. Derrick shouldered most of it any way. Or rather, he at one point did. When his head hade actually been ON his shoulders.
So now AJ place the entirety of them blame on him. But in reality, all three of them sheared in at least part of it. Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now I dare u 2 move Like today never happened
Today never happened before Between who you are and you could be
Between how it is and how it should be Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here.. Heero clutched her hand within his as he cringed at the sight of the IV. He had been so foolish all these years. She loved him, or at least she did. He wouldn't blame her if she never forgave him for his antics. Hell, head never blame her for anything let alone something that was interlay not her fault. Regrettably Relena hade experienced what Heero hade tried, subconsciously and consciously to avoid. Yet Relena's hands would never be stained for she hade not killed a man, she hade killed a monster Heero shuddered in remembrance.
"Sally?" Came Heero's questioning voice. Sally sighed like one with unpleasant news. "I don't know Heero. Physically, besides her reproductive organs, she's fine. Nothing life threatening. But mentally, her brain patterns indicate the she was not in a state of un-aware. Her conscience did not shut off. Relena's a strong woman; if it were any one else it would be different. Normally when exposed to extreme trauma the mind simply shuts dawn, u run on auto pilot basically. The mind does this as a survival technique. But Relena was fiscally and mentally aware of every thing during her abduction. But just because she was aware of it doesn't mean she could handle it completely. She couldn't, that's y she snapped. All though I am surprised it took her this long to do so. At the vary least she will be scared 4 life." Heero took a moment do digest Sally's words before he spoke again. "And what about her reproductive organs?" Their was a pose were it seamed like the vary room held its breath. "She'll never be abele to have children."
All this I, I can't believe I couldn't see Kept in the dark, But you where there in front of me I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems Got to open my eyes to everything Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul {Don't let me die here} There must be something more.
Emotions churned within Heero's self proclaimed black sole. It didn't have to be said that he blamed himself. If he hade only followed his emotions like he was taught to do. This would have never happened. He would be with her now, eyes bright and shinning with the glow of happiness instead of dead and lifeless. And now because he hade not taken that advice given to him so long ago Relena would never be the same.
Wake me up inside (I can't wake up) Wake me up inside (Save me) Call my name and save me from the dark Bid my blood to run Before I come undone Save me from the nothing I've become.. Frozen inside without your touch Without your love, Daring only you are the life among the dead. All this I, I can't believe I couldn't see Kept in the dark, But you where there in front of me I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems Got to open my eyes to everything Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul {Don't let me die here} There must be something more.
I don't know how it got so crazy
But Ill do anything to set things right
`Cause your love is so amazing AJ rested his oh so heavy head in the palm of his hands. Memories of endless hours spent talking, merle enjoying Relena's company flashed before him. Her laughter, her smiles, her tears, her words, her rebuffs, her eyes, her jokes, her sent, her taste, her grace, her dignity, her innocence, her love that she would only give to one.
'Damn him' AJ silently cursed. 'Damn him to eternal hell!' That lump of coldness AJ forlornly called brother was the cause of everything. All because he stupidly couldn't c what was there all along.
But he did c now. He saw more then what should rightfully be there. AJ shouldn't have these feelings. It just wasn't done. One doesn't develop feelings for the love of ones brothers' life. AJ hade betrayed his brother by pursuing those feelings but Heero hade dun something far worse. Thru his cold demure and ignorant behavior, he hade almost killed the one he loved. It was quit possible after all that Relena was dead. One did not simple kill a man in cold hearted rage and come out sane. One did not go thru what she hade and have the capability to remain. And that's what frightened AJ the most. Relena wouldn't be ok; she would never be ok again. Their was a high provability that she hade perhaps lost her sole, or worse, died in all but body. And even if thru some grace of god came out of this with some scrap of sanity, the knowledge that she would never have children would finish her off.
Frozen inside without your touch Without your love, Daring only you are the life among the dead.
Relena smiled brightly as if she were the sun incarnated. "What is my dream?" She giggled innocently. "Ill tell u if u promise to keep it a secret."
AJ nodded seriously and she spoke again. "My dream is to live happily ever after with the man I love and are children."
AJ was taken aback by the seemingly childish wish. But he new that for Relena it wasn't childish, it was the would to her.
"And who might that man be?" He asked teasingly.
Relena appeared startled by the question but smiled again.
"Why it's Heero, it's always been Heero."
"DANM HIM!" "Relena will be fine. Sally wouldn't lie" The comforting, yet oh so wrong voice of Wufay met his ears. AJ just shook his head. He shouldn't after all place all the blame on the ideate. Derrick shouldered most of it any way. Or rather, he at one point did. When his head hade actually been ON his shoulders.
So now AJ place the entirety of them blame on him. But in reality, all three of them sheared in at least part of it. Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now I dare u 2 move Like today never happened
Today never happened before Between who you are and you could be
Between how it is and how it should be Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here.. Heero clutched her hand within his as he cringed at the sight of the IV. He had been so foolish all these years. She loved him, or at least she did. He wouldn't blame her if she never forgave him for his antics. Hell, head never blame her for anything let alone something that was interlay not her fault. Regrettably Relena hade experienced what Heero hade tried, subconsciously and consciously to avoid. Yet Relena's hands would never be stained for she hade not killed a man, she hade killed a monster Heero shuddered in remembrance.
"Sally?" Came Heero's questioning voice. Sally sighed like one with unpleasant news. "I don't know Heero. Physically, besides her reproductive organs, she's fine. Nothing life threatening. But mentally, her brain patterns indicate the she was not in a state of un-aware. Her conscience did not shut off. Relena's a strong woman; if it were any one else it would be different. Normally when exposed to extreme trauma the mind simply shuts dawn, u run on auto pilot basically. The mind does this as a survival technique. But Relena was fiscally and mentally aware of every thing during her abduction. But just because she was aware of it doesn't mean she could handle it completely. She couldn't, that's y she snapped. All though I am surprised it took her this long to do so. At the vary least she will be scared 4 life." Heero took a moment do digest Sally's words before he spoke again. "And what about her reproductive organs?" Their was a pose were it seamed like the vary room held its breath. "She'll never be abele to have children."
All this I, I can't believe I couldn't see Kept in the dark, But you where there in front of me I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems Got to open my eyes to everything Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul {Don't let me die here} There must be something more.
Emotions churned within Heero's self proclaimed black sole. It didn't have to be said that he blamed himself. If he hade only followed his emotions like he was taught to do. This would have never happened. He would be with her now, eyes bright and shinning with the glow of happiness instead of dead and lifeless. And now because he hade not taken that advice given to him so long ago Relena would never be the same.