I was very cooperate today. I did what was commanded of me without hesitation, and even kissed Ray on the cheek before skipping off to my room. It was sad that I was happy for what I was about to do. I calmly slid open the window, leaning out and looking up at the moon. I smiled up at the full moon, than turned back to my room.

I practically skipped to the bathroom, locking the door behind me, and filled the tub with room temperature water. Stripping down so the only thing I was wearing was my bra and underwear, I grabbed the medicine bottle, set it on the side of the tub, and lowered myself into the water with my bra and undies on.

Lying back in the water, I took the medicine bottle, emptied the white pills into the palm of my hand, and popped them all in my mouth. I slipped back into the water so that only my head was above, and closed my eyes, wishing to be back in the dream that seemed so real.

As my eyes closed, I imagined the sound of the tides washing up on the shore.

Warm hands caressed my face as a slow smile crossed my lips. I hope this was heaven. I hope as when I opened my eyes, it will be the person I want to be. But, life never turns out like that. I stayed as still as I could, savoring the tingling sensation.

"What are we going to do? We have to leave now?" Came Seth's worried voice from the window.

"Bring her with us." Sam responded, and someone sighed.

"We can't. He'll come after us. It's too dangerous." Jacob's voice came from the direction of the doorway.

"I won't leave her." Paul growled, and he pulled me tight against his warm, bare chest. I listened to the conversation, my eyes closed, wondering what kind of heaven was this. It was stressful.

There was silence for a few minutes.

"She took the whole bottle of sleeping pills. She was trying to kill herself." Seth whispered. More silence.

"What if we pretended she killed herself. Then no one would come looking for her." Sam muttered to himself.

"The Puppelbenri leaf." Jacob agreed.

"Where do we get it?" Seth's voice asked.

"The small woods we saw on the way here. Jack, Embry, Quil, come with me. Seth, stay with Paul. I'm going to tell Leah to keep guarding the door and window. Try to wake her. It'll be easier if she was awake." Footsteps disappeared from the bathroom and into my bedroom.

"Wake up baby." Paul whispered into my hair, rocking me back and forth. I turned my face into his chest and smiled against his stomach muscles. He chuckled, running a warm hand across my cheek bones. As I opened my eyes, I looked up in his beautiful eyes, and my eyes filled with tears. I missed him so much.

My heart swelled with love as I silently cried into him chest. He pressed his face to my hair and rocked me back and forth, letting me cry. I clutched him so tightly, I wouldn't be surprised if he had bruises afterwards.

Finally, he pulled me away from him and helped me sit up. I glanced down at myself and noticed I wasn't wearing and clothing, but at that point, I didn't care. The only thing I cared about as I had my Paul, even fro a few minutes.

He helped me to my feet. But because of my ankle, I couldn't walk. He seemed to realize that when he looked down at my swollen, black leg which wouldn't even let me put it straight without pain.

He draped me over his shoulder and pulled me into my room, setting me on my bed. Leah sat on the window seal, staring out into the darkness. When she glanced over at me, she frowned as she took in my appearance, then went over to my drawers, frowning deeper when she saw there was nothing in there. She looked through all my drawers, then pulled out my only piece of clean clothes, which was a large, oversized t-shirt. She helped me put it on with my broken wrist, then sat down beside me. Seth sat on my other side, and Paul leaned against the wall. They didn't say anything, but exchanged loaded glances.

I leaned against Seth's shoulder, and dozed off till Sam and the others got back. Sam walked me through the instructions, explaining this drug will make my heart drop so low it's as if I'm dead, and it creates the impression my body was decaying. I laid back in the bed, pulling the covers up to my chin, and swallowed the soggy leaf in one gulp. They left through the window, assuring me they would stay close. Paul kissed my lips softly, whispering he loved me before disappearing into the night with the others. I couldn't keep my eyes open as I felt my heart rate drop.

(Thanks you Kyori Uchiha of the Sand for your advice, but sadly, my internet was down and I didn't get your message before I wrote the next two chapters. (which, I haven't posted for that reason). But, please, if you think I should change anything or have any good ideas for future chapters, or what should happen next, please tell me!)

Thank you to EdwardandBella4eva8101 and Kyori Uchiha of the Sand for putting me on your favorites and alerts, and thank you Blondie 24-7 (hey, I know how you feel. I have more blond moments than most blonds. My friends say it's because I'm smart most of the time, so I have to have the side effects worse than the stupid blonds ) and mzfam99 for putting me on your alerts, too. I really appreciate it!