Lost It All Chapter 10, a naruto fanfic

Aoi: You all are going to kill me... this is the end... this is the last commentary of my beloved self. I love you all! Thank you for my wonderful reviews! And if you like Harry Potter check out my other story. This story and the Harry Potter story are my only original character stories, don't worry. I'll be writing a sequel to this (spoiler). (Another spoiler) there's more Itachi coming... hehe. Go READ! :D

Chapter Ten

"Kakashi-sama." I heard Gaara's voice. "Sasuke?!" There was panic in his voice. I heard his footsteps approach the couch. Sensei moved and Gaara took his place. "Are you okay?!" He looked me up and down and placed his hands on both of my cheeks, making me look at him.

"Yeah..." I choked on my words. I was still shaking. I would probably hyperventilate if I had the ability. "Just a little pissed."

"A little?" Gaara looked at Sensei. "What the hell did you do?"

"It wasn't Sensei, Gaara! Don't be so fucking rude!" I pushed him off me and hugged my knees. "He opened my fucking eyes!" There couldn't have been anything worse that could have happened to us. I just yelled at Gaara. Gaara was so confused. Sensei was just standing there. My life got worse. I was fearing that any minute Miyavi would be at that door, ready to fight Gaara. What could be worse?

"SASUKE! ARE YOU IN THERE?!" I froze completely. "SASUKE, I NEED TO TALK TO YOU!"

"THAT BASTARD IS NOT AT OUR FRONT DOOR!" I immediately looked to Gaara. His eyes looked like fire. He was so upset. So so upset. I closed my eyes and swayed a bit. My heart was racing.

"Gaara... don't." I said quietly. "If we're quiet, he'll leave." I leaned forward to grab him. But it was too late. I opened my eyes and Gaara was no longer standing in front of me. "Gaara, NO!" I turned and saw Itachi at the door with Gaara's neck in his fist. "ITA-" My mouth was covered and I tried to squirm but someone had me in a death grip. I manaaged to turn a bit to see who had a hold of me. I bit his fingers to speak. "Sensei?!"

No sooner did I say this, a cloud of smoke engulfed me and I choked. I pushed away from my captor and jumped off the couch, landing on the floor by my television. The smoke cleared and Itachi was right beside me. "SHIT!" I yelled and pushed back from him. He was staring at me. I noticed Miyavi was now behind him and Gaara was knocked out over his shoulder.

"Are you really that much of an idiot, little brother?" Itachi's voice was cold. It shot a shiver up my spine. I hated how I trembled at his prescense. I wanted to kill him. I wanted him to stop breathing. But... I always froze. Always.

"What do you mean?" That's all I could say.

"You go and get attatched to someone. Oh, and on top of that major life decision, you don't even take the time to notice that your little Sensei was really Miyavi." He grabbed my chin. I winced. He made me stand with him. Once I was standing he let me go. I stepped back from him. "Why do you run from me, Sasuke? You've had so many opportunities to destroy me it's ridiculous." I looked away from him. I just stared at Gaara. "HEY!" I didn't look at him. "SASUKE, I AM FUCKING TALKING TO YOUR DUMB ASS!" SMACK. I winced. I lost my balance a bit and let my body hit the wall behind me. I covered my cheek where he hit me.

"Now are you going to look at me?" I slowly turned my head in his direction. I couldn't feel my expression. The whole right side of my face felt swollen, warm, and numb. "Don't look at me like that. All afflicted. How could you think anyone could really love you?" My stomach was so tight.

I looked over at Miyavi. He was grinning. "Miyavi's with me, Sasuke. Always has been. Always will. He never loved you. This Gaara doesn't even love you. You're weak. You can't even kill your own blood."

There are just too many times that people have tried to look inside of me, wondering what I think of you and I protect you out of courtesy.

I dropped my hand.

"It's all a lie, Sasuke."

Too many times that I've held on when I needed to push away, afraid to say what was on my mind afraid to say what I need to say.

My body felt lifeless.

"How could you think Gaara wanted anything more from you?"

Too many things that you've said about me when I'm not around, you think having the upper hand means you gotta keep putting me down.

I wanted to die.

"You're pathetic. You're just a piece of ass to fuck with."

But I've had too many standoffs with you it's about as much as I can stand so I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine.

I cringed.

"Like now, you're not even defending yourself. Nothing. Just standing there."

My heart stopped beating.

It must have.

Because I couldn't feel.

I was so angry.

So upset.

So furious.

Enraged.

Vengeful.

I wanted him to...

"Die."

I said it. That word came right out of my mouth. I slowly looked up at him. "What? What did you say, Sasuke? Say it louder."

"Die." I grinned slowly at him.

"Louder, Sasuke, Miyavi missed it."

(One minute you're on top) The next you're not watch it drop (Making your heart stop) Just before you hit the floor (One minute you're on top) Next you're not missed your shot (Making you're heart stop) You think you've won (And then it's all gone)

"How about you just listen? I said, fucking die." I kicked my leg against the wall. A piece of the broken ceiling tile above fell it my open hand and I lunged forward at Itachi, grabbing his neck and pressing the sharpened edge into his stomach. My action felt like it took twn years to do but it was a matter of seconds. Itachi winced a little and grabbed my neck with his free hand. I felt a warm pain shoot up through my stomach to my chest and neck. We were both trying to get the other down but he managed to win that struggle. Height.

"Oh little Sasuke." He pressed me harder onto the ground. I felt my back pop. "So little." I grunted and twisted the tile in his stomach and shoved it in deeper to where I couldn't hold it anymore. Blood poured all over my hand and he gasped a little. My breathe was taken as well when the kunai he had in my stomach scooted deeper.

"FUCK YOU!" I used both of my hands to grab his shirt and throw him across the room at Miyavi. Miyavi dropped Gaara and grabbed Itachi. Gaara hit his head on the window, cracking it a bit, before landing on the ground beneath it.

"Are you okay, Ita?" Miyavi touched his stomach.

"This is not over." I jumped at Itachi. Itachi turned around and caught my stare. I seemed to be frozen in time. We kept staring at each other. Soon I felt my body drop to the ground and I was in another place. I looked around. I was in my bedroom. No Miyavi. No Itachi. I looked to the side of me. Gaara was sleeping peacefully beside me. I was in a cold sweat.

Gaara woke slowly and looked at me. "Good mor- Sasuke are you okay?!" He leaned up and pulled me closer to him."

"Where's Itachi? And Miyavi? What happened?" I was so confused. So lost.

"You must have been dreaming. It's just me." He hugged me. I relaxed a little. "I love you so much. It's alright." My breathing began normal. I cuddled up to him. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep.

"Sa..su...ke..."

"Gaara?" I looked up at my beloved and his face was completely scratched. He had blood all over his face and body. I scooted away. There was dripped blood all over where he was touching me. "Gaara! Gaara, what happened?!" I pulled him closer and touched his face.

"You fucking did this, Sasuke! You did this!" I looked at my hand again and there were two kunai in it. I looked at his body and there were cuts and holes all over.

"Gaara.. I didn't..." I threw the kunai and tried to pull him closer to me again. "Gaara I..."

"NO! YOU TRIED TO KILL ME! I HATE YOU SASUKE I HA-" Gaara choked. Blood was gushing from his wounds and mouth. He fell backwards and flipped onto the floor.

"Gaara! Rakun! No.. baby.. no!"

I felt my body drop to the ground and I was in another place. I looked around. I was in my bedroom. No Miyavi. No Itachi. I looked to the side of me. Gaara was sleeping peacefully beside me. I was in a cold sweat.

Gaara woke slowly and looked at me. "Good mor- Sasuke are you okay?!" He leaned up and pulled me closer to him."

"Where's Itachi? And Miyavi? What happened?" I was so confused. So lost.

"You must have been dreaming. It's just me." He hugged me. I relaxed a little. "I love you so much. It's alright." My breathing began normal. I cuddled up to him. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep.

"Sa..su...ke..."

"You fucking did this, Sasuke! You did this!" I looked at my hand again and there were two kunai in it. I looked at his body and there were cuts and holes all over.

"Gaara.. I didn't..." I threw the kunai and tried to pull him closer to me again. "Gaara I..."

"NO! YOU TRIED TO KILL ME! I HATE YOU SASUKE I HA-" Gaara choked. Blood was gushing from his wounds and mouth. He fell backwards and flipped onto the floor.

"Gaara! Rakun! No.. baby.. no!"

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"Sasuke! Kekun! Wake up! God, Sasuke, please wake up!" I heard Gaara's voice faintly in the darkness. I slowly opened my eyes and squinted them again. It was too bright to open them. "Kekun...?"

"Gaara...?" I felt a body over mine. There hands were holding my right hand. I felt them now. I could feel. There was a sharp pain in my stomach still. What had happened? Was I dreaming?

"Kekun, talk to me."

It was Gaara.

"Rakun..."

I squeezed his hands.

"That's right, baby, keep talking. Squeeze my hand again."

I obeyed.

"Are you okay? Does your stomach hurt?"

"Yeah..."

I slowly opened my eyes. "It's so bright, Rakun."

"I know, I'm sorry. It's a hospital. Not much I can do."

"Are you okay, Rakun?" I slowly turned my head to see his beautiful face.

"Yeah, I'm okay. When I regained my senses I saw you laying on the floor behind the couch. Miyavi and Itachi were no where to be found." He smiled at me. "Everything's fine."

"I'm glad you're okay. I'm sorry I couldn't protect you..." I whispered. Talking loud made my throat hurt a lot.

"No, Kekun! I'M sorry I didn't protect YOU! God, you were so fucking brave and I was knocked out the first two seconds. I love you so fucking much. I'm so sorry I didn't protect you from them. I should've killed Miyavi. I should've kept you from getting stabbed. I should've saved you." I raised my hand to his cheek. Slowly. "I should've..." He trailed off.

"Do you really love me, Rakun?"

"What?"

"Do you really love me, Gaara?"

"Kekun, I love you more than anything or anyone in this world. If I could live only off of you, I would do it." He was so serious. I saw it in his eyes.

"Say it again, Rakun."

"What again?"

"Say that you love me again."

"I love you, Kekun."

"Again."

"I love you, Sasuke."

"Again."

"I love you, Sasuke Uchiha."

"Again."

"I love you."

"Okay, come here." I scooted over slightly and patted the space next to me. He smiled and lowered the rail to scoot in bed with me. He wrapped his arm around me and I cuddled up to him. "Okay, one more time, then kiss me."

"I love you so much, Kekun." He leaned in and kissed my forehead.

I smiled and closed my eyes. We sat there in silence for about an hour when I finally said, "I love you, Gaara."

"That's good. I was beginning to worry. I kept saying it and you never replied." He chuckled. Which, might I add, he rarely did.

"Well I love you a lot. More than anything and anyone. And... you know what I was feeling when I thought you were going to be killed?" I looked up at him. (By the way, I had managed to be on my hurt stomach, lying in between his legs after an hour. I wiggled. Alot. Anyway..)

"What?"

"That I had lost it all."

"What all?"

"Everything. Every purpose to live. Every feeling in my soul. Just everything."

"Well... I still think you lost it all."

"Why is that?"

"Well, you traded everything and everyone for me, because you love me, and I've become your everything, right? So, you've lost it all, but, you have me." He grinned.

"You're a sneaky dog, Rakun." I grinned back. "But I love you!" I leaned up and kissed him gently.

"And, Sasuke, I love you. Every single inch of you. For everything you are. And everything you will be. I am glad I lost it all and gained you."

I cooed and rubbed my nose against his. "What do people do with this kind of love, Rakun? Where you feel there must be a God because how the fuck else did two people so perfect for each other meet? I mean... your heart beats with mine. We're so in love. Even after this. I don't know if there is a step beyond this love."

"Oh there's a step." He grinned.

"Really?! What's the step?" I looked up at Gaara with childlike eyes. I was so content with that moment. I've never been so happy in a hospital bed.

"Hold on." He smiled. I watched him as he reached down and unzipped his pocket. Soon he was leaning up against the wall behind the bed and I was straddling him, watching as he slowly pulled out a small, black, square box. He looked at me. I looked at him. "Sasuke..."

"Gaara?" I realized what that box was...

I took a deep breathe as he slowling opened it.

Almost open.

The inside had black padding and cushion.

There. In the box. A beautiful silver ring. It was silver all the way around. There was a small diamond on the ring. It wasn't a man's ring. But I adored it. I stared at it for a second and then looked at Gaara. My hands were on his forearms. I wanted to scream like a girl. Right then. Right there. But I held it all in.

"Sasuke Uchiha, will you marry me?" Gaara was smiling yet so, so serious.

"Yes... yes, Rakun! Yeh fucking esss!" I grabbed his face in my hands and pulled him closer for a long, romantic kiss. We stayed in that kiss forever. I even ground my hips down on his. I loved him. I loved him so much.

He pushed back away from me a bit. "Here, let me put this on you." I handed him my hand immediately and he placed the ring on the correct finger. "A perfect fit."

"Well of course you'd know what size my fingers were..." I grinned and scooted as close as I could to him. "They're been in your mouth and up your ass countless of times."

"Ahh baby, I wanting to make love to you but you just ruined it!" He pushed me back a bit, teasingly.

I tried to pull closer. "Oh why?! Rakun!"

"Talking about my ass and my mouth and how you've made the two connect? Come on! That sounded like you don't wash your hands and make them.. ew!"

"Rakun! I love you! Come on, make love to me, BABY!" I pulled him back on top of me as I laid on my back. We kissed.

And when our kiss deepened. My clothes were off. His clothes were off. We were close. AND engaged.

Baby,

I lost it all.