I leaned in automatically not taking in the fact of the situation and who I was in the situation with, my mind was on the smell of vanilla and jasmine and my body could feel the heat emanating from her. I closed my eyes waiting for the moment when our lips would touch when I felt the bed shift and shake me out my trance. There was silence as I looked around forgetting that I couldn't and wouldn't see her.

"Bella?" I questioned.

I heard her sigh before she spoke "I'm sorry I'm not usually so forward but I've thought about kissing you so much" she whispered.

I couldn't see her but her words had an effect on me and I wanted to turn her thoughts into action.

"What's stopping you?" I asked.

"When I kiss you I want you to see me fully and I'm afraid that won't happen soon" she said.

Her words hit me bringing me from the daze I was in as I remembered the situation we were in and as I remembered I can't just kiss anyone when my heart wasn't in it. When my heart was in forks and when I thought of her in forks it didn't hurt much, it was the emotional pain but it lessened.

"I'm sorry stupid of me to think that you would want to kiss me" she said bringing me from my thoughts and moving to leave.

"No I wanted to kiss you and it surprised me because it's not something I usually do" I admitted.

It was strange knowing what I knew now and not being able to tell anyone, it was the biggest secret I had to keep but I couldn't help but wondering if I could still tell someone. Someone I trusted and someone who would believe me without any questions. I avoided my parent's phone calls for fear I would tell them accidently, it was too soon and I could feel Bella watching my every move.

She didn't trust me enough yet and for some reason it bothered me, she avoided me for days after the revelation and it mattered to me too much, I found myself wanting to spend time with her at every turn and I still had so many questions. Every creak of the stairs and every whoosh of air felt comforting to me now and I found myself staring at her pictures memorizing every feature.

I knew what she looked like but I didn't know at the same time, I wondered did she change or age? How did she live for so long? Didn't she get sick or hungry? How did she go about the town living her everyday life? Some days I would start for the third floor only to come back unsure of what I wanted or what she wanted.

The silence haunted me and the only way I didn't go crazy was when jasper found me a promising job with construction work, it was a good distraction but my mind would always come back to Bella. When I come home from work and find the kitchen lights on and food on the table, it was still strange because she acted like a ghost and yet she wasn't.

I thought she would be herself around me now that the truth was out and I longed for her company and when I hear her wandering the house I feel a sense of sadness and sometimes I can hear her cries late at night, it hurt but comforted me at the same time because she felt what I felt.

She had company but she was lonely still and I could understand all too well and it was comforting knowing we were the same.

I decided that today the avoidance would stop and I would finally approach her, I didn't have to work today but I needed to run some errands. I needed new clothes and we were running low on food so I went into town with the promise of a quick return. It was crowded more than usual and it seemed everyone was out at this time running errands. The lines were long and the streets were filled with cars and people along the pavement.

It seemed to me that they were sticking close together than usual and it was strange, they gave furtive glances and jumped at every loud noise. I left the small outlet mall with new clothes and entered the local market, it was almost close to sunset and I hoped to be home before.

The market was the most crowded and it took me hours to get everything I needed, I stood in the last line tapping my foot impatiently as slowly the store emptied and people rushed home. I was the second to last and was surprised to see I had the same cashier as before but she wasn't as friendly as before even though she gave me a small smile and started quickly ranging up my items.

When she's done she hands me the bags and quickly moves from behind the counter at the same time the owner Carlisle comes from the back shutting down all the lights. I'm confused it seems to be a little early for the shops to close.

"You should get home son" Carlisle says firmly as he and rose walks to the door.

As soon as I arrive home and open the door I hear hurried footsteps coming down the stairs across the floor and before I know it I've ran into something solid. I hear her cry out and feel her body against mine before I step back hurting just a little bit.

"I was looking for you, I woke up and you were gone!" she speaks.

She sounds slightly hysterical and worried and through my bewilderment I feel a strange sense of acceptance at her concern.

"I went to run errands I was coming back" I reply.

"I'm glad you're okay but you can't go back out until the day after next" she says.

I'm very confused now, first Carlisle telling me to hurry home and now Bella telling me I can't leave the house. I'm confused and I wonder if I should be worried or scared, but I have no idea what's going on.

"Bella what's wrong?" I ask warily.

"Let's go upstairs first and then we can talk" she says and I hear her move towards the stairs.

I follow her willingly up the steps until we reach the third floor and enter the kitchen, I can feel her eyes on me as I put the food away and it's no longer unnerving but welcoming.

"Are you going to tell me what's going on?" I ask.

I hear movement across the room and then she's opening a box of pop tarts and sitting down.

"We can eat first" she says avoiding my question.

I would have agreed but I couldn't because I hated being in the dark and the way she seemed almost hysterical made me think something was very wrong and not only that she practically avoids me for days and now she's speaking to me and worried. It's all too much and if I admit it I'm a little hurt that she was avoiding me.

I groan as soon as the thought hits me, here I am getting invested again with the potential to get hurt.

"No I need to know now" I say firmly sitting across from her.

She makes no movement or sound and for a minute I think she's left when she finally speaks.

"Tomorrow is the day my life was taken from me and everything else I cared about" she says softly.

The anniversary of her would be death but I'm still confused about why it has her worried and the whole town so worried.

"I don't understand"

"The witch who made me this way, she always come into town close to this day and we've learned to stay out of her way, they suspect her and the last time someone confronted her well… we never saw them again" she explains slowly.

I feel a shiver go down my spine after she speaks and I slowly begin to understand why she's worried and why everyone was in a rush to get back in their homes.

"No one can know the truth and now that you do…. If she finds out then she'll come after you"

Sorry for the very late chapter