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It seemed to spread quickly between my group of friends that Rachel had "broken up" with me, even though I didn't say anything to them and I could only assume that Rachel wouldn't have said anything either. When I got to school the next day, Brittney and Kurt were waiting for me at the door and I automatically assumed that it was all because of them.
"I haven't done anything so if you're here to accuse me of something, don't bother." Was my automatic, bored reply as I walked straight past them. They instantly ran after me.
"We weren't going to accuse you of anything. You're so touchy." Kurt shrilled, both of them rushing to try and catch up with me.
"So what do you want?" I asked, stopping in my tracks and turning on my heel. This surprised them and they almost walked into me.
"We heard what happened." Brittney told me.
"Of course you did. You're Rachel's best friends. I'm guessing you told Puck, Sam, Artie and Jesse?" I asked.
"Well I told Jesse, he is my boyfriend. I guess he told the others because I didn't." she told me.
"Fantastic." I muttered darkly under my breath. "So what do you want then?" I asked.
"To say sorry. We see how you look at her. You may have tried to keep your feelings under wraps with the others but you can't fool us." Kurt told me.
"Well it's over now. She wants Finn and not me and like you've told me before, I can't force her to do anything."
"No-one can but she'll figure out the right thing for herself." Brittney told me soothingly.
"You told me that before and then she went and told me she wanted Finn."
"It can take her a while." Brittney defended.
"Or, she's figured out that Finn has always been the right one for her. I have to face the facts, we're over." I said sadly before walking away from them both.
The rest of the day seemed to pass in a blur. I was there but I wasn't and everyone noticed…..especially Rachel.
I was walking down the hall during my free period a week later when I saw Rachel walking towards me. "We need to talk." She demanded when she'd got closer.
"I don't think so." I muttered, turning on my heel and attempting to walk in the opposite direction but she grabbed my arm before I had a chance to get very far.
"We need to talk." She repeated more furiously and dragged me to an empty classroom.
"What do you want Rachel? We haven't spoken in over a week and now you want to talk to me?" I asked when we were safely in a deserted classroom and she had shut the door behind us.
"What the hell do you think you are doing? You can't walk around acting like this!" she screeched. "You're acting like a lovesick teenager and it needs to stop. Do you think people aren't going to notice the way you have been staring at me for the last week? Other people are going to start getting suspicious. What's going to happen if Finn finds out?" she asked, starting to panic.
"Maybe your precious boyfriend should find out what you've been up to. He needs to know that his sweet, innocent girlfriend isn't so innocent after all. I bet you don't moan when he makes love to you." I taunted. I immediately regretted it, especially when I felt her hand slap me.
"How dare you Blaine Anderson. What my sex life is like with Finn has nothing to do with you."
"I'm sorry Rachel, I shouldn't have said something like that. I apologise."
"It's going to take a lot more than that Mr Anderson. No wonder I chose Finn over you." She yelled furiously before leaving the classroom.
What the hell did I do? I'm such an idiot! As soon as I'd taunted her, I knew I'd done wrong and now I was never going to get a chance with her. What is wrong with me? I should have known that talking about her sex life wasn't going to go down well with her.
I decided to try and run after her so that I could apologize but when I left the classroom, she wasn't around. I kept trying to find her during the rest of my free period to no avail so I went straight to my next class. I sat through the class daydreaming and barely listening to anything the teacher was saying. All I was interested in trying to find Rachel and making it right.
When the lesson finished, I continued to search for Rachel on the way to my next lesson. Instead of spotting Rachel however, I did spot Kurt.
"Kurt!" I shouted in order to get his attention. He turned towards me and thankfully he didn't look angry so I hoped that Rachel hadn't had a chance to tell Kurt or Brittney what had happened yet.
"What?" he asked.
"Have you seen Rachel this afternoon?" I asked him.
"Not since this morning. Why?" he asked suspiciously, his eyebrow raised.
"I did something stupid and horrible. I realised it was wrong as soon as it happened. Can you please tell her I am sorry?" I begged.
"What did you do?" he asked.
"That doesn't matter! Can you please just tell her that I'm sorry?" I begged. Before he could give me an answer, I left and went to my next lesson.
I didn't see or hear from Rachel for the rest of the day and since we didn't have Glee, I didn't even have a chance to catch her in the choir room. After school I went straight home, even though Puck, Sam and Jesse had almost begged me to hang out with them for the afternoon. Unfortunately, both my parents were home.
"You're not usually home so early darling. Is anything the matter?" my mum asked me in a soft tone. She had no idea what time I usually come home since she was never here, something I usually enjoyed.
"Nothing mum, I just wanted to come home and chill out. I have homework to do, I'm going to go upstairs." I said, brushing her off and heading to my room.
"Blaine, dinner is ready." My dad called up the stairs almost three hours later. I hadn't come down since I'd gone upstairs. I wasn't usually interested in spending time with my parents unless I absolutely had to, something which stemmed from my parents not wanting to spend time with each other. That's why both my parents opted to work away from home; they hardly ever had to spend time in the same room together and I didn't have to listen to them argue constantly. I was surprised they spent all this time together without killing each other.
"Coming dad." I called back downstairs. I walked downstairs to both my parents already sitting at the dinner table. Neither of them were looking at each other but neither of them had started eating, instead waiting for us all to be at the dinner table, a rule that had been in place since I was a child when they actually loved each other.
We were all half way through dinner when the doorbell rang. "I'll get it." My dad said and instantly rose from his seat. My mum let him instead of scolding him about how rude it was to leave the dinner table when he hadn't finished his dinner, something she would have usually done.
"Blaine, it's for you." My dad called to me. I looked towards my mum as if to ask permission but I said nothing. She gave me a simple nod and I also left my place at the dinner table. "Rachel?" I asked in bewilderment when I got to the hallway of our house. I didn't think I'd see her again tonight.
"I'm not staying for long." She promised. "I saw Kurt at the end of the day. He told me you'd apologised for what you said. He didn't know what you'd done of course but he told me you felt awful for what you'd done. I'm guessing he was telling the truth?"
"Of course he was. I knew as soon as I'd said it that I shouldn't. I care about you and that wasn't the way to show it." I told her sincerely.
We stood there for a few moments internally debating of what to say to each other next. Gradually I then started to hear voice coming from the dining room and gradually the voices got louder and louder. Apparently my mum had decided to voice her opinion about my dad leaving the dinner table after all. "Can we talk outside?" I asked desperately, not wanting her to leave yet but not wanting her to hear my parents arguing. She simply nodded and I led her outside to the patio. "Sit down." I told her, leading her to a wicker two seated sofa. She did as I asked and I sat down beside her.
"Are your parents always like that?" she asked in a whispered voice. I hung my head, I knew she probably had heard them but I hated the fact that she had.
"Usually they are both out of town at the same time so they can't argue. They usually hate being in the same room as each other, I'm surprised they are both still alive to be honest." I said, chuckling weakly.
"Do they not miss you?" she asked. She sounded almost scared of the answer.
"To be honest, I don't think they do. When they go away for weeks at a time, they'll both ring me at least once a week and they both keep my bank account stocked up so I can look after myself and the house but other than that, I don't see or hear from them until they come home and even then, they'll be gone within the next couple of days. It's the same month after month."
"That's the same for me." She admitted. "My dad's both go away all the time and they both earn a lot of money so they can give me whatever I want. They both want the best for me but I have to pay the ultimate price. That's why I surrounded myself with Kurt and Brittney from a young age. For the longest time, they didn't know I was alone all the time and then after a couple of years of knowing them I told them both at the same time and since then, they hardly leave my house or I hardly leave theirs. They are both my family." She told me.
"I guess we have more in common that we thought."
"My dad's love each other though." She said with an edge to her voice, looking at me for the first time since we started this conversation.
"Are you sure about that? I don't mean to insinuate anything but I thought my parents did until one day they both came home from their business trips at the same time and all they did was argue and threaten each other. That was when I knew things were always going to be this way."
"You don't understand, my dad's don't ever spend time away from each other. My dad will go on business trip and my daddy will go with him and when that is over, it'll switch. Then they get to come home and they both spend time with me. Like you though, it's never for long before they're off again." She said bitterly. "I thank them every day for everything they do for me but I wish I could see them more." She said in a small voice. It broke my heart.
"I was meant to meet you." I told her suddenly. She looked at me surprised. "We both go through the same thing every day, every month, every year. We were meant to meet so we could help each other through it." She turned away from me quickly to try and hide her embarrassment.
"Why have your parents never got a divorce?" she asked, completely ignoring my statement. "If they are making each other miserable, as well as you, why not cut their losses and find someone to make them happy?"
"They think they'd be failing me if they got a divorce. They think it's in my best interest to live in a two parent household. They don't seem to understand that I live in a no parent household."
She seemed to digest this for a little while, she turned away from me again but I could see she was thinking. Then suddenly she stood up. "I have to go Blaine. When do your parents leave again?"
"Either tomorrow or the next day. I can never remember."
"I'll come back to keep you company." She told me. I looked at her surprised.
"You still want to hang out with me?"
"You said you were sorry and I believe you were but you can't say something like that to me again." She warned. "We can't ever be a couple Blaine, but I would like to be your friend, if that is something you'd be happy with? In public and everything." She grinned.
"I'll take it." I told her. If this was the best I was going to get then I was going to take it. Having her in my life as a friend was better than nothing at all.
She smiled and starting walking towards her car. "I'll see you tomorrow Blaine. Let me know when your parents leave and I'll come over when they have to keep you company. You can do the same for me too." She said, lightly chuckling. Her laughing was the best sound in the world as far as I was concerned and I vowed to make sure that I would always hear that sound from her.
The end of another chapter, sorry it took so long but I had to make sure I planned it right and I'm happy with this chapter. How long do you all think Blaine and Rachel will last as friends? I thought it was important to show some of Blaine's home life and Blaine's loneliness will become a central part of the story from now on.
Hope you all enjoyed and remember to review to let me know what you thought.