Recap

Before I knew it, I started running out of the concert hall and out the back door. I looked to my left and right before running to the right to the main parking lot. I turned a corner and spotted Jackson and Chantel talking. They parked next to each other and they looked like they were enjoying themselves. I stopped running and just stood there, watching them as Chantel flirtatiously touch Jackson's arms.

"Ja-" I started, but froze as I watched the two lean in for a kiss…

Chapter 10

Confusion and Arguments

I shook uncontrollably feeling my heart shatter to pieces. My eyes stung as my vision blurred. I bit my lip, feeling warm tears trickle down my cheeks. I quickly spun around and started running off back to the building. I couldn't see where I was going, but the next thing I knew, I was back in Miley's dressing room, wrapped up in her arms, tearing my eyes out.

I couldn't tell Miley what happened yet. I was just to upset to talk about Jackson. I just wish this was just another stupid nightmare and not the reality, but it's not. I have to accept the fact that I may have lost Jackson for the rest of my life.

I can't do this, I can't cry over some stupid guy, but I can't. I'm too in love with Jackson to not. Even if he hurt me by kissing that slut, I just don't know what the hell to do now. The fact that he did this in just a few days before our actual 3 month anniversary just sucks even more. I hate him but I love him. Why would he go behind my back and kiss her like that? Damn it.

"Come on Lilly, what's wrong?" Miley asked as she rubbed my back.

"Can we just go home?" I muttered, trying hold in the tears, but didn't succeed. It was just too much for me to handle. If I wasn't such a wimp, I would've just told Chantel that Jackson's mine. If I knew it would lead to finding them kissing like that, it just hurts.

"Okay, I'll get my dad to bring us to my hou-" She started, but I pulled my head away from Miley's shoulder, frantically shaking my head.

"No, not your house, your house is the last place I want to go to." I replied softly and pulled myself off of Miley. She slung an arm around my shoulder and rubbed it. I lay my head on her shoulder as we made our way toward the door.

"Okay, at your house." She said, asking nothing more, knowing that she would get out the story from me when we go to my house.

We walked out and we spotted Mr. Stewart eating a doughnut. We told him we were going to take the limo back to my house while he drove to his own house. He noticed how distressed I was and just let us go, knowing when not to butt into a girl's personal life.

We left the concert hall through the back way with Miley holding me tightly as I tried my best keeping in my emotions until we got home. When we finally arrived at my house, I went inside, gnawing at my lip and finally broke down right there on the floor of the living room.

Miley pulled me up, helping me to the couch, and set me down. She wrapped her arms around my shoulders as I buried my face into her shoulder. Nothing can feel as painful as this is. My heart ached as these mixtures of emotions flooded my mind; hate, torture, hurt, rejection, and mostly lost. It just didn't seem fair.

Why did it have to happen like that? Why was he kissing her? Why did everything have to end like this? Just… why? He said he loved me, he said that they were only friends, but why was he kissing Chantel if they were only friends? I really doubt that they accidentally did that, how can you accidentally kiss someone? And the one main question that makes me wonder, why didn't Jackson tell her that he already had a girlfriend?

It almost makes me regret doing all the things I did with Jackson. I shook my head calming down a bit. I need to tell Miley what happened. I need to let this out. I sighed deeply and lifted the bottom of my shirt, wiping my face with it.

"Now, do you want to talk about it?" Miley asked as she rubbed my back.

I slowly nodded, crossing my arms over my chest, and I leaned back onto the couch and Miley pulled her hands to her side as she stared at me.

"I…" I sighed and closed my eyes. "I saw Jackson kissing Chantel." I mumbled as I bit my lip waiting to hear Miley's reaction.

"No way…" She gasped and I nodded once again.

I put my hand over my eyes. No guy is worth crying over if you're hurt like this, but it's hard. Whoever made up that saying should seriously rethink it. Some guys are worth crying over, but then again, are the cheaters the ones that are worth it?

"I swear… Jackson is the dumbest piece of shit I've ever met." Miley hissed, as I felt her hand over my hand on my knee.

"Just leave it. I can figure this out by myself. You don't need to worry." I sighed and she squeezed my knee.

"Don't worry Lilly. He's my brother. I would think that you're the last person that he would do this to. I would've thought that Chantel would know your relationship, since you two were pretty obvious with it. I still don't understand why Jackson would do this to you."

I removed my hand from my face and watched as Miley shook her head, looking disappointed.

"It's so hard. I regret not telling Chantel about us and as much as I don't want to say this, I regret…"

"Don't say it Lilly." Miley stated as she patted my leg.

I shrugged. "I don't know what to believe anymore. The more I think about it, the more I'm afraid that everything will fall apart and I'll just be boring Lilly that has no one except herself and her friends, you know what I mean?" I replied and sucked in air, closing my eyes once again.

"Yeah, I do."

I'm so confused. As much as I don't want to believe what I saw, I have to. They were so close to kissing and I don't even know if I really did see them kiss. Maybe I'm just reading into this. As much as I don't want to go see Jackson, I have to. He's the only guy I know that understands me and not to mention he gave me my firsts, it's just hard letting go.

Are we really going to break up and forget we ever happened? Am I thinking too much of this?

I sighed loudly as a single tear slipped down my cheek.

"Lilly, don't cry again, he's not worth it." I could hear Miley say as she gently shook me.

"I'm not going to cry, don't worry." I placed my legs on the couch and lay down with my head on Miley's lap. I bit my lip hard, trying to refrain myself from crying, and tightly shut my eyes. I never thought I would cry over a guy, especially a guy like Jackson.

"Lilly?" Miley asked as she started to stroke my hair.

"Yeah?" I asked and looked up at her. She looked angry, tired, and worried. I never seen her like this in a really long time, and I wonder what she's thinking about at this moment.

"What's going to happen between you two?"

"I have no clue whatsoever."

"I really think you should talk to him maybe it was just a mistake or an accident?" She asked with her shoulders slightly lifting up.

"How can you accidentally kiss someone and Miley, I thought you were on my side?" I snapped feeling a little shocked at what she said. Why would she even suggest it was an accident? This was just too weird.

"I am on your side, it's just… I have to think. You two have gone through a lot on the past few months and Monday you reach 3 months. I thought that you two were going to last forever and maybe… you would really be my sister in the future or something." Miley smiled down at me as I shook my head.

"That's cute… but I don't know anymore. Jackson… I hate him for doing what he did, but I still love him. I'm too afraid to talk to him…" I could feel my chest tighten and I started to frown.

"It just happened tonight Lilly, think about it." Miley lastly said and then reached for the remote on the table next to her, turning on the TV.

We were watching TV as I tried my best to forget about the night when we heard the front door and with a voice following it

"Is anyone home?"

"We're in here." Miley shouted once we realized that it was my sister.

Leah popped her head in the doorway and looked at the both of us. She then stared at me, squinting her eyes, and walked into the living room.

"Were you crying Lilly?" Leah asked as she walked up to the couch. I removed my feet from the couch and sat up to make room for Leah.

I sighed and slowly nodding at her. She took the seat next to me and studied me for a second.

"What did that idiot do to you this time?"

I moved to sit up and pulled my legs on the couch, crossing them, and shook my head.

"He kissed another girl…" Miley started and told Leah what happened for me.

Leah stayed quiet most of the time as she stared at Miley, listening to the story. The only thing she would do was gasp and nod, taking in what she said. I too, was listening and the more I heard the story, the more it made me think. It made me think things that I never thought before and maybe it was a mistake to start a relationship with someone older than me. Maybe the only thing that Jackson used me was for the one thing that did start this relationship. It's really confusing me, I never thought that I would have to deal with something like this before.

As soon as Miley finished her story, Leah sat there in shock. Miley told her practically everything, even things I haven't told Leah about. Leah looked as if she didn't know what to say to me, when is it where she couldn't say anything at all? She usually had the answers to everything. Maybe today is just a stupid and bad day for me.

"I'm sorry Lilly." Leah finally said after a few moments of silence. She pulled me into a hug and I held onto her tightly.

"It's okay; I still don't know what I'm going to do. I've noticed we've been slightly drifting apart… maybe its time to…" I started and Leah shook her head.

"Give it time, talk to him. I've never seen you this happy with anyone before. Just wait and see what he has to say about it." Leah replied and I pulled away from the hug.

"I told her that too!" Miley piped in and I half smiled.

"Yes you did."

Just then the door bell rang and Leah stood up to go answer it.

Miley and I started to talk about next week with the sophomore banquet coming up and what she was wearing when we heard Leah shouting. We kept quiet; listening to what Leah was saying and finally realized that she was shouting at a boy.

"You want to check who it is?"

"Sure."

I stood up with Miley and she walked in front of me. She made it out the door, but soon pushed me back into the living room.

I lifted my eyebrows, about to ask why she did that when she put a finger to her lips, and pressed herself against the wall, listening to what Leah was saying.

"Why would you think I would let you see my sister after what you did?" Leah said and I dropped my mouth, realizing who she was talking to.

"What are you talking about?" He asked, sounding confused.

"Are you okay?" Miley whispered and I nodded, walking over to the edge of the living room door so that I could clearly hear what he was saying.

"Yeah right… How could you kiss another girl when you're with my sister? You think she wouldn't know about these things? You don't know how hurt she is… God you're such an idiot."

"What? I didn't… What exactly did Lilly see?" Jackson said with determination in his voice. I leaned against the wall, just waiting for everything to be over with and him out of here.

"You know what you did and you don't need me to tell you what Lilly saw. Just get-"

"No, let me see Lilly, now." Jackson said, nearly shouting as he pounded on the wall of the house.

"Get out of here Jackson, give her some space. You screwed around with her mind for one night, just let her go." Leah snapped.

I peaked through the doorway and watched as Leah tried to close the door. Jackson looked confused and pissed off. His face scrunched up not believing my sister as she tried, once again, to get him to leave, but he didn't. He had his hand on the door, keeping it opened as he stirred an argument with my sister, continuously asking her what he did, but she didn't answer.

I could feel the anger within me rise and finally I came out of hiding. His face lit up once he saw me, but I glared at him, giving him the dirtiest look I ever gave anyone at all.

"Lil-"

"Shut up Jackson." I snapped and he was taken aback. I couldn't make out his feelings by the way he was looking at me. He just looked confused.

"Wha-" He started, but I shut him up as I started to yell once again.

"Just leave Jackson, I don't want to see you nor talk to you ever again. You're the biggest jerk I've ever met!"

"But I l-"

"I hate you Jackson just leave!" I finally shouted. You could hear the hurt in my voice. My throat tightened as my eyes started to well up again. I really don't need this right now.

His face stiffened as his eyes glossed over.

I suddenly regretted what I had said, but he did deserve it. He hurt me by not being honest with me. He didn't tell me about his date tonight and I had to find out about it on my own. It seems like he cares about other things way more than he cares about me.

He dropped his hand that held the door open to his side and stared at me. I finally gained the courage and walked up to the door as Leah walked away, giving us space.

"Bye Jackson." I said and pushed the door closed, locking it.

I stared at it for a while, and felt two hands on my shoulders. I looked behind me seeing Leah with a frown upon her face.

"I'm sorry." She said and I sighed.

"Don't worry." I shrugged. It didn't matter anymore. I told him I hate him and he probably never truly loved me, like he said he did.

"You okay?" I hear Miley say as she walked out of the living room and to me.

I nodded. "Don't worry about me, I'm fine." I assured them and threw on a fake smile. "I'll be right back." I then bolted up the stairs, feeling my heart fall and the tears streaming down my cheeks.

Maybe this is the last time Jackson and I will ever talk to each other, or even be in this relationship.

A/N Can you smell the drama coming up? LOL just kidding. What did you think about this chapter? Hope you liked this chapter. :)

I'm really sorry for not updating sooner. I really don't know when the next time I will be able to update. I am so behind in my classes and I really need to catch up. I'll try to update as soon as I can.

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