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Note: For flashback: Normal text: Koenma
Bold text: Botan
Italics: Characters' Inner thoughts
YES OR NO
"I have to go…"
"…"
"Botan please…"
"…"
"I know you understand"
"I don't understand""Botan…"
"I don't want to understand…""Botan please listen…"
"NO!…. No… I don't want to listen… stop it""But…"
"I can't understand why you have to leave…
Why can't we continue…?
Why can't we be together anymore…?"
CHAPTER X: What if?
He slowly opens his eyes and watched her. She looked so happy and content. Her smile was so beautiful and mesmerizing and her gaze was full of hope and love.
"Do you take this woman as your lawfully wedded wife, for richer and poorer, till deaths do you part"
"I do" he answered. The acting priest continued.
"Do you take this man as your lawfully wedded husband, for richer and poorer, till deaths do you part"
He observed her as she blushed looking at the people urging her and turned to him with a lovingly smile.
"I do"
He heard her answered. Everything happens so fast, the next thing, everyone cheered for them to kiss well not most. She blushed furiously and tried to reason out.
He cupped her cheeks between his hands and slowly tilted it. Their eyes met. He whispered something to her making her relax and her sweet smile returned. Everyone cheered on as he very slowly lowered his face to her.
He saw her close her eyes and that's the time he chose to close his own eyes too. He doesn't want to see it. He doesn't want to see her kissing someone. Someone that is not him, but what can he do, she doesn't belong to him anymore, he let her go a long time ago.
The burst of applause signals him to turn around and leave. He must leave to think and try to forget. He should be happy for her. He promised a long time that he would. It's so easy to say it, but when it actually happen, it was hard. Can he really do it for her happiness, is he willing to just stand there and watch doing nothing while she's being drag further away from him. He questioned himself.
He doesn't understand anymore, he was so confused, very… very confused.
'Was my decision all this time wrong?'
Botan's POV
Botan can hear the loud thumped of her heart inside her chest. She was thrilled, happy and nervous at the same time. She can't believe it after over an hour of exhausting run away from her fans, lost in deserted area, miraculously found by her prince, run again only he was carrying her and next here, in the audience of so many people being watched as she waited for the kiss.
It is her first real kiss, since Koenma just kissed her if not on her forehead it will be on her cheeks or sometimes the most intimate kiss he gave her was at the side of her lips. She didn't complained, Koenma after all was a gentleman and they were quite young at that time, so she was contented.
But now it's different…
She will be kiss…
Not just any kiss…
But a kiss coming from none other than the most after guy in their school
Minamino, Shuuichi
She swear along with the cheering voice and cat-calls she can hear someone's crying, no actually she think they are wailing.
She can't help herself from letting out a giggle thus making him stop and look at her funnily.
"So kissing in public is funny to you" Shuuichi accused but his voice has hint of teasing.
She opens her eyes and grinned sheepishly at him.
"No, actually it's…" She started but being cut off when he suddenly closed the gap between their lips. Her eyes widen surprised by his sudden action especially when he pulled her closer into his arms deepening their kiss. Botan after a few seconds relax in his arms and closed her eyes, surrendering and enjoying the moment.
At the background the on watchers cheer more loudly, though some were crying and some were cursing their lack of luck.
Koenma stopped walking and looked around, recognizing the place, he can't help himself but sighed heavily and somehow he found himself chuckling for the irony. Here he was trying so hard to forget and clear his mind but every where he went, every where he looked, he was kept reminded by their past. He was currently in the cherry park, the park where he told her he was leaving.
FLASHBACK (Koenma's reminiscing)
"I have to go…"
"…"
"Botan please…"
"…"
"I know you understand"
"I don't understand""Botan…"
"I don't want to understand…""Botan please listen…"
"NO!…. No… I don't want to listen… stop it""But…"
"I can't understand why you have to leave…
Why can't we continue…?
Why can't we be together anymore…?"
"Botan" Koenma paused first and turned Botan around so she was facing him "I don't want you to tied yourselves in this relation"
"Koenma-kun its okay… I can wait and…"
"No Botan, I don't want you to wait for me"
Botan eyes starting to watered "Koenma-kun is there another…"
"No of course not, you know that you're the only one"
"Then why, why don't you want me to wait for you?"
Koenma smile sadly at her "Because I want you to be free"
Botan eyed him questioningly "I don't understand"
Koenma sighed and run his hand through his brown hair. "I don't know when I'll be returning or if I can return"
Botan gasped "Koenma-kun"
"Botan I want you to be free, to live happily with or with out me, do you understand?"
She shook her head repeatedly while backing away "No"
"Botan listen" Koenma reached for her pulling her closer to him "You still young and I know that you will meet someone greater than me, someone that will not leave you, someone who will not hurt you, someone that will love you and someone…" He choked "someone that you'll going to love more than you love me"
"Never" Botan exclaimed stepping back "I will not love anyone more than I love you"
He shook his head not agreeing with her though he was touched "Please don't say that Botan" He pulled her again in his embrace "that's exactly the reason I want us to separate"
He pushed her a little to looked at her stunningly watery amethyst eyes "When I leave I don't want you to stay loyal to me, I want you to date another man, to love again and please don't feel guilty because you're not betraying me in fact that's what I want"
Botan sob this time, the tears hanging around her eyes finally drop down "I don't think I can do that Koenma-kun" He smile at her before embracing her again in his arms.
"Shhh… I know you can do that" He kissed her forehead "Cause you're one stubborn girl" He chuckled when she hit him on his chest. 'I Love you Botan'
End of Flashback
Koenma sighed again sitting on one of the benches in the park.
'I still love you'
Back at Festival with Yusuke and Shuuichi
"They didn't broke up because they didn't love each other anymore" Shuuichi looked at his side wondering what Yusuke saying. "Botan-chan and Koenma they didn't broke up because they didn't love each other anymore" Yusuke repeated.
Shuuichi averted his gaze away from Yusuke and focus his eyes again towards Botan who was currently trying her best to fish the water balloon out but failing making her pout and Shuuichi smile.
They are currently standing not far from where Botan and Keiko. After the marriage thing ended, Shuuichi's fan girls and Botan's fan boys decided to let them be for tonight. So, there they are talking while the girls are playing.
"Why are you telling this to me Yusuke" He inquired his eyes still on Botan.
"Just thought you'd be interested to know" Yusuke answered and trying hard to observe his friend's reaction.
"That's on the past" Shuuichi replied shortly
"So you're not threatened?" Yusuke asked teasingly
His answered was a smirked. Yusuke shook his head disbelievingly, sometimes his friend was an ass, have an ego the size of Mt. Fuji. But as a friend he needs to warn him though.
"Even if it's on the past, you can't be assured that she don't love him anymore" He started
Shuuichi looked at Yusuke's serious face.
Yusuke continued "Sometimes when you thought you're already going to win that's the time something or someone will intervene" He smirked "You'll never know what's to happen but with just one blink of the eye everything you have will be gone, you loss with out even fighting and you can't do anything about it" He looked at Shuuichi's face finding him frowning, he grinned. 'Aha, at last I somehow got to him' but that grinned wash away from his face when he saw the smirked finding it's way to his red haired friend's face.
"I kept that in mind" Shuuichi said then walk away towards the pouting Botan.
That left Yusuke pondering and scratching his un-itched head. He watched them as Shuuichi carefully but skillfully demonstrated to Botan how to lift the water balloon. She clapped happily and beamed at him as he handed it to her. He wanted to make Shuuichi confuse or even a little bothered but it seems it was useless seeing how his sweet little cousin react around his friend and Shuuichi knows that fact too 'damn him'
Shuuichi's POV
Truly Yusuke's words bothered him and he didn't even know why.
'What if she still loves him…?'
'What if the affection she's showing right now is just an infatuation…?'
'After all Yusuke said they didn't fall out of love when they broken up… there's this big chance that they might get together again…'
'WTF I'm thinking this thing…'
'I don't care; she's just an annoying president of my stupid fan club… I still denied its existence…'
'Yeah, I shouldn't care right…?'
'Then why I being like this…?'
'Why I am entertaining this thought…?'
'Damn Yusuke for his damn words… it keeps taunting me…'
He look at the beaming girl besides him, she's now playing with the red water balloon he gave to her. She acts like an innocent child and he found it 'cute'.
She looked up at him and grinned. "Neh, Shuuichi-kun, Yusuke said something about a lake around here" She bounced in front of him, it's so sudden he almost lost his footing. "Let's go there, they said it's romantic and all" She batted her amethyst eyes at him, he felt lost and before he can answer "Thank you" She grabbed one of his hand and dragged him towards the direction of the lake.
Once there she released her hold on him and run ahead. He heard her gasped as she gazed around.
"Really nice place" She muttered. Her eyes dancing with delight.
He had to admit she's right. The lake looks so calm and added to that the fireflies that served as their source of light plus the reflection of the moon on the lake makes it so mysterious. Looking a bit more on the surrounding suddenly makes him uncomfortable, finding that the two of them alone in such place. A boy and a girl alone… Not good.
Botan looked at him. Her eyes held a concern looked "What was wrong Shuuichi-kun, you looked pale?" She inquired.
He didn't answered just stared at her
"Shuuichi-kun…?"
A flashed of their shared kiss went in his mind
"Are you sick…?"
He stepped forward…
'What I am doing…?'
He reached out…
'Stop it…!'
Pulling the girl into his arms…
"Shuuichi-kun, what are you doing?"
He leaned down…
Closer…
Closer…
Closer…
He closed his eyes…
Their lips touched lightly…
And then…
"Hey, we've been looking for the two of you"
Yusuke's voice ruined the moment…
The next thing he knew… there was a loud BANG and Yusuke's whining…
"My sweet little Botan-chan, what did I do wrong?"
"Don't ask… I kill you…YUSUKE!" Botan make a battle roared
"Whaaaa… Keiko-chan Help"
Their feet faded away…
He sighed…
'Why did I do that…?'
'Am I falling for h…?'
'NO…!'
'It's that stupid booths fault…'
'It's just hormone…'
'YES that's probably it…'
Then Botan's beautiful face flashed in his mind…
He groaned…
'NO, that's not it...'
'It's pointless…'
'It's useless…'
'I'm just making my head ache…'
'I already fall…'
'She already caught me …'
He smirked this time…
'Yusuke's word really hit me hard… I should thank him…'
Then he remembered his father's grim face…
He frowned…
'I should really confront him…'
Back at Koenma
Koenma sighed for the nth times…
'I shouldn't have agreed with my father to continue my study abroad…'
'If I didn't…there will be no mess…'
'Botan and I…'
'Will still be together…'
'And very much happy'
'Botan…'
Flashback at the airport (Before Koenma's departure)
"Botan-chan please don't cry" Koenma smiled lovingly at the girl before her. He wiped away the tears that slowly cascading down her cheeks. "Seeing you like this makes my heart aches you know" He mocked wince, putting his right hand on his left chest to exaggerate his act.
Botan smile weakly, her amethyst eyes showing nothing but sadness "I'm sorry, Koenma-kun but I just can't help it" She sobs again.
Koenma pulled the girl into his arms and runs his hand on her silky locks to soothe her. "Hey, we talked about this before" He felt her nod meekly. "And you understand right?" She nods again "Then why cry?"
Botan looked up at him "Can we not do that Koenma-kun?" She asked hopefully but when Koenma gave her a solemn look she can't help but cry again.
"Shhh, Botan-chan, everyone are staring at us" He said playfully "Maybe they are thinking what a jerk am I to make a lovely girl like you to cry" That didn't do the trick cause she cried even more.
She knows he was trying his best to make her smile and lessen her sorrow but the more she think of the situation, the heavier she felt.
"All I want is to leave with your beautiful smile printed in my mind. Can you not show it to me?" He smiled gently at her, tilting her head up to face him with the help of his fingers under her chin. "Please, for the last time" He added.
Botan step away from him a little. Her head bowed down blocking his view of her face. She stays like that for a moment before raising her hands to her face to wipe out her tears. She makes a deep breath and slowly raised her head to face him. Golden-brown eyes meet Pink-violet eyes. And then she smiled. Her sweet lovingly smile that he loved most.
"Koenma-kun when you return and if we still not find our love ones, you'll marry me okay" She said and winked at him.
Koenma laughed and nodded.
"Promise…?"
"Promise"
End of Flashback
'I still remember that promise we made…'
'I wonder if it's not still too late…'
'Does she even remember it…?'
He knocked on the door and opened it when he heard someone said 'come in'
"Good evening sir" Koenma greeted and bowed showing his respect for the older man.
"Ah Koenma, It's so nice to see you" Mr. Daioh said. "You want to talk about the engagement right?" Mr. Daioh asked
Koenma just nodded
"Don't worry about it, everything is perfectly planned" Mr. Daioh said
Next on: Yes or No
Chapter XI: No way
I'm going to ask him now, it's now or never…
A/N: GRINNED WIDE… REALLY REALLY WIDE, I edited this chapter and try to make it a little bit confusing since all the reviews I received well they said that it's confusing… HEHEHE sorry guys…
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