A lot of people have given their opinions on me writing some Izuo...and most of you who objected did so soley on the grounds of being sad if I did, but I'm not going to force anyone to read it you know . Besides, I though of a way...I are teh clever, so because the plot bunnies refuse to leave me alone, I will do it! But the first chapter won't go up until I finish making it something I can post without saming myself...in the meantime Shizuo and Izaya are gonna be more Tsundere this chappy. Enjoy~!

Warning: Crying Izaya

Shizuo

Mine. She's really my daughter…whoa, wait, hang on, I'm a Dad! I wonder if she knows it…probably not, why the hell would the flea tell her that? I hear a clatter and look behind me. Vorona seems to have passed out, and really, I don't blame her at all…I passed out too. Tom doesn't seem too stable either.

"H-hang on…" He mumbles, his voice cracking. Izaya scowls suddenly.
"Yuzuki-chan, don't listen now~" He says it joyfully like he says everything and gently covers her ears.
"Aww…'kay mommy" She still watches everything, assessing the room despite her age.
"Sh-she said Heiwajima," Tom finally stammers. Then it hits me again. I'm a Dad…and she's beautiful!

"Hmm? Tanaka-san, you're just catching on? Shizu-chan's her Daddy, but shh, don't tell~. It might be too much for her, we just moved back after all and she's still adjusting,"
"Hang on though…y-you both…he IS a dude…right…Shizuo-san?"
"Uh…yeah" I nod, he was definitely male…I remember.

"Heh, don't tell about that either Tommy~! Not that anyone will believe you, but yes…I am a man…although I did have to pretend for a while ne~? How many pregnant men wander around daily after all? On that note Shizu-chan would you pick Kanra over Vorona?" He asks. I turn red.

Izaya

"How the hell do you know about Kanra? She was after you left!"
"Hmm? I didn't leave when I said I would Shizu-chan, I left after Yuzuki was born, and I was determined you name her, even if you didn't know about her."

"What does it matter, Kanra dumped me years ago," He grumbles, his eyes averting though tell me enough.
"Oh ho~! You would pick her if you could wouldn't you? Don't worry, I won't tell the blondie on the floor there…" The hell I won't!

"You've already said, you won't 'let' me be in a relationship anyways, so who the hell does it matter who I pick? Besides, I don't know what happened to her, she could be married for all I know! She didn't even like me!"

"Ne, Shizu-chan. I liked Kanra just fine…better than Vorona anyways, and as for Kanra…well, I can tell you where she is…she does miss you terribly after all~" Ha! This is almost too much fun! I do love torturing Shizuo like this, revenge really is sweet.
"Wh-what?" He looks surprised. Ahh, maybe I should tell him. Really you'd think he'd have figured it out by now right? I did tell him I would only let him be in a relationship with me and then I say Kanra is okay…silly Shizu-chan.

"Fine flea," He glances at Vorona to make sure she really is out cold, "I'll meet her, that's it. And you can't be there!" I chuckle at that.

"Oh don't worry, I will be~"
"Flea I swe-ah, ahem," He stops talking when I lift my hands off Yuzuki's ears. Her big golden eyes look up at me curiously and I smile at her.
"Mommy, I want milk…" She whines and I chuckle. She is so much like Shizuo…

"I told you not to be here flea," At least he isn't throwing anything.
"Hmm? Well you did want to meet Kanra right?" I ask with a small grin.
"Yeah, so scram,"
"Aww, but if I'm not here, Kanra won't be either~" His eyes widen behind the darkly tinted sunglasses. It's almost October and he still wears them? Not to mention those silly clothes. Really, after eight years one would think he'd wear something new!

"What do you…you don't mean…?"
"Hmm? Ah, busted~! Yes Shizu-chan, I'M Kanra, believe me, it was hard work acting so feminine all day…ugh, and don't get me started on the clothing…though I am totally hot in a skirt~" He stumbles and sits on the bench and I frown.

"I wouldn't have told you if you picked Vorona, but you picked me, how could I not?" I shrug like this was obvious.
"I DIDN'T PICK YOU!" He roars, but he doesn't attack either.
"Hmm? Yes you did…you just don't know it…" I stalk over to him, but for once he lets me. I straddle his hips then, sitting in his lap and look right into his eyes, gold and red opposed, though in a much different way.
"That wasn't much of an act…it was really me Shizu-chan…except I called you Shizuo, ne? I changed my speech a little, I raised my voice, I wore different clothing and put on make-up. I cross dressed, but then I let myself act the way I've always wanted to with you, Shizu-chan." He frowns a little as I say this, but he makes no movement to get me off him either.

"I was a bit worried when Erika recognised me, but she was silenced easily too, I couldn't fight you when I was pregnant after all, and if you found out…well, you would have killed our perfect little baby, wouldn't you?" My voice is cold, harsh. He flinches but he doesn't deny it either.

"But you see, Shizu-chan, I'm not really all that evil either. I don't like when other kids tease my baby for only having one parent, I don't like it at all. I don't like telling her that her father doesn't know she exists, and I'm not looking forward to telling her all about how her Daddy tried to kill her Mommy either, but…I don't have to tell her that last one…I don't have to tell her how her mommy loves her daddy and her daddy hates her mommy. After all, there was something we had…wasn't there?" I need him to say yes. I need him to acknowledge that there was something there, that he felt something for ME when I was Kanra.

"I didn't know it was you," He says, still trying to protest it. He can't even look at me, his gaze averted and locked solidly to the ground.
"No, but you do now. And still you would pick her, am I right?" Please let me be right.
"I love Vorona," He growls, but it sounds off.

"Are you trying to convince me or you?" I chuckle a little, then I rest my head on his shoulder. He blinks, his head turning now, his eyes on me.
"Flea?"
"Ah Shizu-chan…I really do love you, you know. I just wish I could show you that you love me too," I say happily. Hah, as if. Inside I'm a swirling pool of doubt and fear. What if he really does pick her over me?

"If you love me so much why did you wait until now to say anything?"
"Hmm? You never would have believed me Shizuo. Face it, you'd have laughed it off and then tried to punch me. Flea's don't love, ne?"

"I thought you hated me. It's you always going on about how you love all humans…but I'm a monster," He blushes a little.
"Exactly. I love all humans equally, and not a single one can have me. But you're a monster, and yes Shizu-chan. I do hate you," hah! His confusion is so cute~!
"But you just said-?"
"Hmm? I love you and I hate you. I love you for reasons I myself cannot begin to comprehend, but I hate you because you won't love me back! You…" Shit, don't cry, don't cry! I feel something warm on my cheek…DAMN IT!

"You make me feel l-like this a-and you don't…you—" Stop crying, come on!

Shizuo

So close up he's kinda cute. And crying he's…fuck, he's adorable! I sigh and wrap my arms around him now, pulling him in so our foreheads touch.
"Sh-Shizu-chan?"
"Shut up flea," I mumble, frowning. I can't say I hate him…I mean I do, but there's something else now too. If he was Kanra and Kanra was how he wanted to act near me then…maybe this was worth a go after all. Of course I'll have to dump Vorona…and then if he's lying to me that path is closed for good to me…damn it, what was the right thing to do?

He could be lying for gain, he could even be doing it because that's what he does, he toys with people and their hearts as a hobby…but then…he's crying too. If he were faking I imagine he wouldn't be trying so hard to stop them. His face buries into my chest then and I sigh as he shakes quietly for a minute. I might think he's laughing if it weren't for the odd sniffle and my shirt getting a bit wet.

"Flea…hey, come on, stop crying already would you?" Yeah, he's definitely crying. His whole body is trembling and they stream readily from his eyes. His nose is even starting to run and even though crying is ugly as hell he's still cute somehow. Damn it. I tug his face into mine to kiss him. Well, his body stops shaking anyways.

"Sh-Shizu?" He mumbles, hiccupping a little…
"Damn it all…fine! But so help me flea if you were lying about ANYTHING just now…" He grins, but his eyes are still tearing up.
"Y-you'll crush me w-with a vending machine I kn-know," He sniffles, wiping at his eyes with his sleeve.

"Yuzuki doesn't know yet does she?" I ask and he sniffles again.
"I-I'll tell her. Sh-she deserves to know, b-but…"
"But..?"
"I don't know how…I w-wanted you to l-love me so b-badly. A-and Sh-Shinra said…" Fresh tears bead in his eyes, quickly leaking out again.

"What did Shinra say?" I ask, irritated by the doctor.
"H-he said you were going to propose…to Vorona…" Oh yeah…crap. Why do things have to be so complicated? Damn it, this pisses me off!

Seliphra: More lemons coming soon~! Also...we're nearly at the HALF WAY POINT~! YAAAAY!
Izaya: This is only HALF? WTF!
Seliphra: Yeah, I DID say this story would be long...I'm working on chapter 15...I'm thinking this'll be say...20?
Shizuo: Not more than thirty though...right? I dunno how much of this I could take...
Seliphra: We'll see where the plot bunnies take us, besides, I'm enjoying the Vorona torture I'm writing. If you want to see it too though, you're going to have to REVIEW! Eh heh...