Spring
Okay this was getting ridiculous. He really had to stop doing this. He had so many embarrassing scenarios he would be mortified if anyone knew. He would read a date and think that this day could one day be an anniversary. He would walk home and find the perfect flower shop near his apartment that he could stop by and buy a bouquet for her. One day they were working a DOA in the park, he could hear the sounds of children on a distant jungle gym and he instantly had a vision of them together watching their own children. They would have her big eyes and his cheeky smile. He would often wonder what their names would be. Did she have any relatives that she would want to name them after? Could she be happy raising their nonexistent children in the city?
These types of thoughts would make him so crazy that sometimes he would scour the newspapers for a brownstone in need of fixing up. Maybe by the time he convinced her that they belonged together that he would be done with its repairs. But maybe he'd never be ready to tell her, he had only just admitted to himself that this is what he wanted, and that he was completely in love with her. What if he accidentally let it slip that he already had them married with two kids in a brownstone in Brooklyn? She might want to have him committed right there or at least file a restraining order.
He was beginning to lose his mind. Between the anniversary flowers, the two kids, the brownstone, the golden retriever, he was already very invested in the idea of their future together and he had never even asked her on a date. An awful thought crossed his mind, what if she already had a boyfriend? He looked across the room and saw her flatten her hand across her stomach; he was instantly transported to one of his favorite fantasies. It was a beautiful spring day, the kids are playing with the dog, and a smile graces her face as she grabs his hand and places it on her swollen belly just in time to feel the baby kick.
He really needed to ask her on that date, he looked at the calendar; this would be a good day for an anniversary.