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Dimitri's Point of View. Italics are flashbacks.

Standing from the chair I wipe the tears from my cheeks, I kiss her on the forehead then turn to leave the room. I walk for what seems like hours before I reach on old bench, sitting on it I pull out an old worn photo. The creases are visible showing just how much use it's gotten. It's Rose from back in the days before I ruined her life, she's concentrating on her work for once and she looks adorable. I managed to snap a picture without her knowing and I'm glad I did. This picture is what's gotten me through the last five years. At first Tasha and I tried having a relationship but we could both tell that my heart was somewhere else. She never asked why and for a while I didn't tell her but that night I got the call I decided she deserved to know why we would never work.

"Dimka." My head shoots up and my eyes meet Tasha's. "How is she?" She asks the concern evident in her voice. I open my mouth to answer but the words won't come out. Running a hand through my hair I sigh. She sits down beside me before speaking again. "She's a fighter Dimitri. She's always been a fighter. She will wake up and everything will be just fine. It's only been a day; she just needs time to heal."

"You didn't see her Tasha. She looks so small in that hospital bed. She has all these wire running everywhere."

"I've heard that she has two very important reasons to wake up Dimitri. She won't leave her kids all alone. Those two they give her a very important reason to wake up."

"Their mine." I whisper.

"Who are?" She asks confused.

"Kyleigh and Aleksandr they're my kids."

Her body stills and she turns to look at me. She looks astonished but hell anyone would be. It shouldn't be possible for them to exist but they do. "How is that possible? You're both dhampirs, it's impossible. I don't understand."

"As far as anyone knows it happened because of some genetic change she underwent when Lissa brought her back. She was able to conceive with another dhampir, with me."

"Why didn't she tell you?" She sounds a little angry and I would be too but Rose had tried to contact me but I just wouldn't listen.

"She did. I never answered her calls. I ignored her. I thought if I cut all contact that it would be easier to forget her, that it would hurt less."

She sadly smiles at me before laying her hand on mine, "You never forgot Dimitri. I heard you at night. I listened to your nightmares. I saw you fall asleep with her picture clenched in your hand."

I watch her hand fall to the side as I stand up. "I have to go. I have a long day ahead of me and it's late. Do you need me to walk you to your room?" She shakes her head no and walks in the direction of her room. Turning I walk to my, I mean Rose's, room. Opening the door I walk onto a sheet of paper, bending over I pick it up and begin to read:

Dimitri,

It's nice to see you again old friend. It was pleasing to watch you suffer over the last five years. Forcing you away from her was the most pleasing thing I've ever done. That pain you've endured will not in any way compare to the way you will feel if you do not leave her now. I will ruin your entire life if you choose to stay. You deserve all that I've done to you. Leave them or else!

Five years ago

"Do you know how dangerous that move was?"

"Yes I do but guess what it worked." The attitude oozes from her voice. My eyes find hers and I'm sure the disapproval is evident. What she did was stupid and reckless.

"What if next time it doesn't? If you die then Lissa dies. Is that what you want? You're not acting like a guardian Rosemarie."

"What the hell Dimitri you aren't a strigoi! I wouldn't try that move with one so chill the fuck out." Her voice never rises above a normal tone but the venom is easy to hear. I turn to look at her my guardian mask down and I'm sure she can read me like a book. "What's wrong Dimitri?"

"Rose I'm leaving to guard Tasha." A look of sickness passes over her face. She searches my face for emotion but she wont find any. I watch her crumble to the ground. Looking up from the ground her eyes meet mine.

"I can't do this without you." The weakness she's showing doesn't even seem to bother her for once but it's killing me.

"You can Rose. That's what you just showed the entire academy. You've learned all I can teach you and now I have to go." I say my voice emotionless.

"Please stay." Her voice sounds so broken and unlike her that it catches me off guard.

"Don't make this any harder Rose. Please." For once I let the weakness in my voice show causing her eyes to tear up. Standing up she walks towards me.

Then in a fashion completely unlike her she says "Goodbye Comrade." She places her hand on my arm before she turns and walks back towards her dorm.

"Goodbye my Roza." I see her turn and watch as I crumble to the ground. Turning she continues to walk away. "I love you." Footsteps in the woods cause me to stand. I watch as he steps out of the woods. He's my worst enemy and the reason I just broke the heart of my love. "I did what you asked. Now leave her alone." I snap barly refraning from snapping his neck.

"You made the right choice Dimitri."

"Choice? I had no choice. You made me leave her." I yell at him stepping closer.

I watch as he steps back and clears his throat, " I gave you the option of leaving or ruining both of your careers."

Breathing in heavely I ball my fist up at my side. "That isn't a choice. I don't care about my career but you will not ruin hers. I swear if you try and ruin her that I will hunt you down and kill you with my bare hands. Do you understand me!" I never raise my voice above a normal tone but I still manage to make the color drain from his face.

"Come near her again Belikov and I will ruin you and her." I watch as he walks back into the woods. Crumbling to the ground I let the tears fall.

Balling the paper up I throw it across the room. This can't be happening again. I won't let it happen again. I can't lose her again. I can't lose them.