Chapter 10: Cynical

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Um, ya...sorry for the long update, folks...um, that's it. Thanks for your support!

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Wake up, are you alive

Will you listen to me

I'm going to talk about some freaky shit now

Someone is gonna die

When you listen to me

Let the living die, let the living die...

Voices, by Disturbed

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KAKASHI'S POINT OF VIEW:

I was patronizing myself. Telling myself lies that Sasuke would be okay. I guess those lies are the ones that kept me going, even though it gave me a false hope. I knew I was about to lose a son...My only child. I didn't want him to find out that I was his father since I promised his mother, that and it was for the best, and I really didn't want him to find out from his brother. I should have known this would happen.

Itachi could never leave Sasuke alone. He had to be the only child, he always had to have it all. And Sasuke was the one to pay for it all, for his mother's mistake, for Itachi's mistake, and most importantly, my mistake. What am I saying? Sasuke wasn't a mistake, his birth was but not him. I just didn't want to see my flesh and blood in pain.

Here I was, in a dark, damp room holding my dying son - every parent's nightmare and I am living it. My river of tears were falling on Sasuke's blood stained face. I couldn't stop the bleeding, I couldn't, I tried but he must have hit his jugular vein.

(The jugular vein is a main vein in the neck - you can live if it is punctured, but only if you are treated right away. Carotid is the other main vein in the neck, just for your info. You can tell I want to be a nurse, lol.)

I knew he didn't have much time. I hope help arrived soon that I called for. I put my ear near his nose to check his breathing - he wasn't breathing.

No, he can't die now! I won't let that happen. I put Sasuke on the cold floor. I closed his nose with my left hand, opened his mouth with my right hand. I put my mouth on top of his and started breathing into him. I gave him three sharp breathes then I started pumping his chest with my hands, hoping to start his respiratory system again.

"Don't die on me, dammit!" I cried out.

About five attempts of repeating CPR procedure, Sasuke let out a sharp cough.

"Sasuke!" I cried out with tears of now happiness flowing through my eyes.

At least he was still in the world of living.

I turned him onto his stomach, still holding him so he wasn't on the ground as he threw up some more blood. He cried in pain. When he was done, I wiped off the puke of blood off his face with my sleeve, not caring about the blood. He was pale. So pale. His lips were turning blue, his eyes barely open and was shaking so bad in my arms. He was cold, but I had nothing to warm him up but my own body heat since my jonin vest was on his neck in a futile attempt to stop the bleeding. I put his head on my shoulder as he cuddled up to my neck for warmth. I pulled him in a big hug.

Ergh, where is the back up squad I called for?!

Then my prayers were answered. Running for the door was was Guy, Sakura, Naruto, and Shikimaru.

The group of four said nothing. They knew they had to hurry. It's like they were reading each others thoughts on what to do. Shikimaru put down an orange blanket on the floor. Guy picked up Sasuke from my arms, even though I was hesitant to let go of my son, I knew I had to. Sasuke whimpered in pain and discomfort being taken away from me. Then Guy put Sasuke on the blanket and Sakura went to work. Naruto, reading Sakura's thoughts, handed her some gauze's and giant white bandages. I was no medical ninja, so I personally had no clue what Sakura was doing, just her letting healing chakra into Sasuke. Sauke looked at me the whole time with despair in his eyes the whole time. Sasuke was shaking so much. Sakura was worried he was going to do more internal damage to himself so she got Shikimaru to do shadow possession jutsu to keep Sasuke still.

It all looked good until Sasuke began screaming on the top of his lungs.

Shikimaru, in surprise, let go of his shadow possession jutsu. Sasuke started shaking so terribly.

"He's having a seizure!" Sakura cried out.

Naruto went to hold Sasuke still, but Sakura stopped him.

"Idiot, when someone is having a seizure you have to let them finish it. Just make sure he doesn't hit his head on anything."

Sakura timed the seizure. She knew it was serious if it lasted more than a minute. fifteen seconds later he stopped, breathing so hard. He was unconscious again. When Sakura took his temperature, he was 104.2 degrees.

"No wonder he had a seizure," muttered Sakura, "it's common when someone has this high of a fever."

About five mintues later, Sakura sighed. "This is too advance for my training. I know it's dangerous to move him when he's unstable, but we have no other option. I bandaged him up and stopped the bleeding the most I could, but I don't have the equipment here for his condition. We just have to move him carefully."

I was about to pick up Sasuke, but Guy stopped me.

"Kakashi, my rival, I can see you're too tired and emotionally exhausted," said Guy, "I'll take him. In your condition, you'd drop him!"

I hestiately agreed. Guy put the unconscious Sasuke on his shoulder, his black hair waving in the wind at me.

I wondered how Guy could be so happy and optimistic in such a dark situation. No time to think about that. We had to get to the Leaf Village, and fast.

We got outside, look like we were flying from the trees we were running so fast.

All I could think as we were running for Sasuke's life was wondering is we were already to late and if Tsunde could save him.

TO BE CONTINUED...

Cynical: To look at the dark side of things.

xxdarkness' kidxx