Kankri== Go to a party?

On your way back from the date with Cronus, you felt your phone vibrate, and according to Gamzee, there would be a party at the Strider's residence. You knew that they threw the best parties of all time, but you had never been. You had always had an excuse as to why you wouldn't go. It was always something, excuses, excuses, excuses.

You thought for a moment as you watched Cronus tap his hands against the wheel as he lip synced along to a song on the radio. After smiling and giggling softly at him, you decided that you would go to the party, but only if Cronus went with you.

-Alright Gamzee. I'll go to the party, but only if Cronus can come.

-That is a mother fucking miracle. Of course he can come. It's tonight at the usual place. Party starts at 8. See you there Kanny."

-See you.

You had to tell Cronus what you just put him into, otherwise he would be very confused when he arrived at a party.

"Cronus."

"Yes Kan?" He turned the radio down so you didn't have to raise your voice.

"Uhm… Well, my friends often throw parties. I've never been to one because I felt like an outcast every time I went. I agreed to go if you went with me."

He smiled, and kept his eyes on the road like he always did, "of course I'll go."

"Thanks Cronus," you were quiet for a moment and he nodded in response, "Hey Cronus, have you ever drank before?"

"Of course I have, chief. I've done a lot of things, some of them are things I'm not proud of."

"Like what?"

He was silent for a moment, as if he was carefully choosing what words he should use.

"Cocaine, heroin, crystal meth. I was a mess. After I left your middle school I started drinking and that led to me doing drugs," he sighed, and you could tell that talking about this brought back bad memories, "I kicked the habit before I met you again. I actually attempted suicide, but as you can probably figure out, I failed at that."

You must've triggered Cronus terribly, and in turn that made you feel even worse.

"Cronus I'm sorry if I trigg—"

"It's not your fault. I just thought you needed to know about my past, especially about the bad things."

Cronus had drove back to his house, and you cheered up a bit at this. His house smelt like him, like warm sand and salt water. It made you feel relaxed, so relaxed in fact, that it made you feel sleepy.

"I hope you don't mind if we hang out here until the party. If you have to though, I can take you back to your house." Cronus turned his car off, the night feeling isolated as the purring of the car ceased. The absence of this sound made the atmosphere feel empty, and you didn't quite like this feeling. You quickly hopped out the car, taking Cronus's hand, allowing him to lead you up to the front door.

"Since we are sharing secrets, I should tell you something Cronus, it's only fair."

"Shoot for it, Kanny."

"I'm neutrois."

"Kanny I'm not smart like you. Define neutrois."

"Neutrois; having a null or neutral gender, being neither male nor female, and having or seeking to have no or reduced signs of physical sex. This term is not used very often, therefore not many people know what it means. It is similar to being genderqueer."

Cronus opened the door, and you were hit with a wave of Cronus's signature smell.

"Would you like me to change the pronouns I use for you?" He raised an eyebrow.

"If you want, I honestly don't really mind. I just don't like to associate with any gender personally. I think I am more masculine neutrois than anything. For example, I don't mind being called male pronouns, but I do not identify myself as having a gender."

"You are a confusing troll, Kanny. You should've told me before, I don't mind what gender you are, or aren't." He smiled and ruffled your hair, bending down a bit to kiss your forehead.

"I don't even know if there is a gender identity for that," you mumbled softly, crossing your arms as you blushed.

"Of course there is Kankri, you just have to do some research. There are plenty of gender identities to fit the way everyone feels." Cronus smiled at you and picked you up bridal-style, carrying you over to his black leather couch.

He sighed, sitting down as he held you in his lap. Cronus buried his face into your neck, which caused you to blush horribly.

"You okay Cronus?"

He didn't respond, instead he nuzzled his nose against your bare skin, pulling the neck of your sweater down a bit.

"Cronus?"

"Your vwarrm…" His voice was heavy with an accent, the pitch of it quivering as he spoke as if he was holding back tears.

"Please tell me what's wrong…"

"I just hate my fins and stuff, ya' knovw?"

You had almost forgotten that he had dysphoria over anything that made him feel inhuman.

"If it makes you feel better, I think you are just as human as any regular human that we see on this world." You ran your fingers through his hair, trying to help him feel better.

"You really think so…?" He looked up at you, taking his face out your neck.

"Yes Cronus." You smiled and kissed him softly, you wanted to help him feel better, you wanted him to know that you saw him as whatever he wanted to be in life.

"We should do something," you said after pulling away from his lips.

"Like vwhat…?" His voice sounded a bit sad, but you noticed that he looked better than he did a few seconds ago.

"Hmm… What about truth or dare?" You raised an eyebrow, letting him know that you were unsure if this was a good idea or not.

"Sure," he smiled, sitting up. He left you in his lap. "You go first. Truth or dare?"

"Truth."

"That was an easy decision for you, huh?" He giggled softly and took a moment to think about what he would ask you.

"When you walked in on me… getting it off… were you unable to look away because you were in shock or because you liked what you saw?" He wiggled his eyebrows, and you felt your face get hot.

"I liked what I saw…" You deliberately said it under your breath, hoping that he couldn't hear you. Then again, you didn't really want to repeat something like that again, it was quite triggering to you.

He laughed softly. He had obvoisly heard you. "I won't forget that, chief."

"Alright. Truth or dare."

"Dare." He didn't even take a second to think about it.

"I dare you to dance to any song I choose."

"The vwhole song?" He was blushing a bit, a light purple spreading across his face.

"Yes."

"I guess I hawve too, huh?"

You nodded. Sighing, he went to retrieve his iPod that was hooked up to the surround sound system in the house. He reluctantly handed it over to you, and you went straight to youtube. You knew exactly which song you wanted to watch him dance to.

"Oh and one more thing Cronus, you have to dance like a stripper."

"Kanny this is so unlike you!" He was now blushing horribly, and he wasn't even attempting to hide it from you.

You smiled softly, "I have to learn how to live a little."

"Alright, if you wanna 'liwve on the edge, I'll be right back."

You crossed your arms, letting him know that you were unhappy with waiting. Thinking back on it, you would consider this situation extremely triggering. You didn't mind how much you changed. You only acted this way with Cronus, he was… different.

He came back wearing tight leather pants and black suspenders. You felt yourself blush terribly, and he crossed his arms, pouting.

"Alright, here is the song you have to dance to." You went to youtube and searched up 'Kehlani – Jelous ft. Lexii Alijai (no sleep remix) when the song started to play Cronus had obviously knew the song.

"Thank Gog. This is going to be great." He had already started to dance, and he rolled his stomach slowly, as if it took no effort. His hands were delicately placed onto his hips, and he was rolling that part of his body as well. You watched as his hands slowly went up the sides of his body, and he bent his knees, lowering himself halfway to the ground. This is when he bit his lip, and it was the most perfect lip-bite you had ever seen. After he was done with his dance, he plopped down on the sofa panting. His skin was glistening with sweat, but he didn't smell bad, I fact, he just smelled like he always did; like the ocean and warm sand, maybe a bit of axe here and there.

You didn't like axe but you never told Cronus that because it smelled good on him for some reason. He was never one of those guys to use too much of it, he always used a touch here and there, and it was never overpowering.

"Truth… or… dare…" He was still panting a bit and you didn't blame him; dancing like that used a lot of muscles at once, and the hard part was controlling them so they did just what you wanted them to.

"Dare." For the second time in your life, you picked dare, the other time was when you went camping with your friends and ended up getting pressured into picking dare.

"I dare you…" He took a breath. "To…" He smirked softly. "Say the most triggering thing you can."

You crossed your arms, you would do nothing of the such, not to Cronus.

"Kankri do you know what happens when you refuse a dare?" He looked horrified, and he bit his lip.

"W-what?" After a few minutes you became worried, and you wanted to know what would happen to you.

"I don't think I can say, Kanny." He waved it away, then continued by saying, "Oh vwell, it was fun vwhile it lasted."

"Tell me Cronus!" You were bouncing on the sofa, you wanted to know what would've happened.

He sighed, and reluctantly sat back down beside you. "I'm gonna warn you, it's very triggering."

You continued to look at him pleadingly, you really wanted, no, you needed to know.

"You can choose between 10 punches from each player, or a chicken slap from each player. Since there is only you and me playing, I guess you're lucky."

"Chicken slap?"

"Yeah, I would stand with my legs spread and you would have to crawl between them, and I'd slap your butt. When it's played with a group of people it goes in a line and eventually starts to hurt at the end."

You were silent for a moment, unsure about what you should do with this new information.

"I choose the chicken slap… I don't want to be punched 10 times by you."

"I vwouldn't have punched you anyvway." His accent had been apparent for a while now, and you didn't know why. He didn't seem nervous or angry, not even sad. Maybe there was another emotion connected to his sudden accent changes.

Your phone buzzed and you realized that it was 8:10p.m. and you realized that the party started at one. It was Porrim.

-I thought you were coming Kanny.

-I am! Just got caught up in something is all. On my way now.

"Cronus I totally forgot that the party started at 8…" In response to this, he looked up at the clock to check the time.

"Alright, let's go then."

Your raised an eyebrow as he gathered up his keys and cellphone.

"You're going in that?" He was still wearing the outfit he had danced in.

"OH. I forgot I vwas even vwearing this." He laughed and rubbed his chin, he was deliberately letting you know that he was thinking.

"Vwell, do you want me to change?"

"N—Nah… It'll… Take too long…" He narrowed his eyes at you and winked after grabbing your hand and pulling you out the door.

"Mhmm." Was all he managed to say, and you could tell he saw through your words. Well, anybody would have, considering the way you said it.

Time skip – The Party.

Cronus== Feel exposed in this outfit.

It had taken a lot of courage to do that in front of Kankri. You almost chickened out until you saw how badly he was blushing.

But now you were going to a party in an outfit you almost forgot you owned. Why did I even get that? The answer had slipped your mind, and you guessed it wasn't that important anyway.

The two of you had been at the party for a while now, and you managed to find some whiskey no one had opened yet. Kankri hadn't noticed you drinking, in fact, you didn't even think that he noticed you were gone.

You were sitting in a room all by yourself with a bottle of the best damn whiskey you had ever had, and that was a lot of whiskey. You didn't bother pouring it into a cup, you liked it better when it came straight from the bottle. You loved the way it burned your throat and numbed painful memories. You were a calm drunk, you didn't lose your common sense, and you didn't act like a lunatic.

After about half an hour of lying there, letting the liquid fire burn in your stomach, Kankri found you, and he didn't seem very happy.

"Cronus, I've been looking everywhere for you where did you—"He stopped when he saw the bottle in your hand. "Did you just relapse after being alcohol free for a long time…?" It was a question, but the way he said it made it sound more like a statement.

"Yeah…" You had your head back against the sofa cushion, and you were looking at the ceiling.

"Cronus…" Kankri sat down beside you, and he sounded sad. He buried his face into your chest, which caused you to lift your head up and look down at him. He was crying.

"Hey… No… Don't cry—"You hiccupped, and decided to try and hold your breath. It helped, but you realized you didn't need to talk anymore. Instead you just put your arm around Kankri and held him close.

"Cronus I don't want you ruining your life…" His voice was shaky as tears rolled down his cheeks.

"Kankri…" You sat up straighter and made him look at you, "I vwon't… because I have you in my life, and I promise I vwon't let you dovwn. I promise I vwon't let myself vwaste avway vwhen all you'wve done is savwe me… I know I'm drunk right novw, but I'll remember saying all of this to you. Especially this; Kankri, I lowve you." You looked into his eyes, and your head was swirling. You could feel everything ten times more than you would have at that very moment. You felt your heart beating against your head, and you remembered every breath you took. Kankri didn't say anything yet, and you took this moment to dry the candy red tears off his cheeks with your thumb.

"I love you too Cronus… I just wish you weren't drunk right now."

"Kankri, I knowv vwhat I'm sayin'"

"Promise..." It wasn't a question, in fact, he was demanding it.

"I promise. I promise I'll remember this wvery moment. I'll rememba' the vway you cried, an' the vway your voice shook vwhen you talked. I'll rememba' feeling like my throat was on fire an' my stomach vwas doing flips. I'll rememba' how hard my heart was beating. I'll rememba' it all, Kanny." Your accent was the thickest it has ever been in a long time.

You weren't letting Kankri go, not ever.

Don't worry, the story isn't over yet. I promise that they still have a lot of things to do ewe