A/N: Sooo, thanks to a new reader of mine I have felt the need to write some more today. Thankssss! Well, since yall know me so well I have a song that goes great with this chapter… just like all my other ones, lolz. The song is called, Falling Slowly By Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova. I liked the idea of putting up polls now on my storys, (all two of them. XD) Sooo, feel free to post your vote alright!
Chapter 10 Falling slowly
R POV.
Why am I even doing this? Why am I just throwing away what we have just because I like some soccer snob?! Life is sooo unfair!
I was walking up to Alexander's house thinking about why I wanted to do this. I had made a nice list in my head while walking over here. (A/N: she still has Ayden with her…)
Trevor can see me any time unlike Alexander.
But Alexander is a freaking Vampire! I'v always wanted to be one too…
BUT Trevor loves life, and his smile like the sun brightens my day.
So that was my small list. For now, it would have to do. Oh god! I didn't want to break up with him, but how can I say "I love you" to someone when your also filling new feelings with someone else?!
Luckily Ayden started crying in time to help mommy out. I didn't need to think this out too hard. I might go crazy!!
As soon as I was at the door I knocked hard. I just had to get this over with before I made any more trouble being the heartbreaker that I am.
"Yes raven may I help you?"
"Oh, umm is Alexander awake yet?"
"Yes… Would you like to come in and wait while I get him?"
"Sure."
I walked to the sitting room to the right as soon as I walked in. I couldn't sit down though; I was getting this very uneasy feeling inside my tummy.
I held Ayden in my arms to keep me from showing how awkward I felt.
Just at that time Alexander walked into the room and gave me a sweet smile.
Ughh, I can't do this!
"Can we talk about something sires?" I looked him deeply in the eyes. I knew later I might regret doing this but I couldn't get myself to react to it.
"Yeah sure raven. Ummm… what about?"
He grabbed my free hand that wasn't holding Ayden and pulled me over to the nice couch.
"Alexander… I… I don't think…" then with a rush of fresh breath I spilled it out. "Idon'tthinkthisisworkingout, !" After that I got back another big breath.
"uhhh, what was that again Raven?"
"Alexander I cant be with because its just unfair to you that you love me, and only me yet I think I love two people…"
……………….
"Well…?" I asked and my voice squeaked.
"I cant believe this… I cant believe you would dump me for some one who has picked on you most of your life!"
"Calm down please? I know Ayden is not real but he can still hear us you know."
"What ever! Just ell me this, one little thing okay?"
"Alright…" I was too scared to even think about what he wanted to ask me.
"When you kiss him, do you get butterflies, or more like bats for me… Do you?"
"Alexander please don't make me hate myself more than I already do… please?" I had tears in my eyes already, but I was too chicken to let them fall in front of him.
I couldn't answer that, because the first time trevor ever kissed me I felt like I knew he always just wanted to play games with me. But now that I knew it was much more I felt as if me and him have never even kissed before.
"I have to… I have to get out of here." I rushed the words out as I stormed out of the room and hoping that he wouldn't try to stop me.
Hours later at raven's house in her room.
I have been crying for hours now, and I sadly had to have my parents look after Ayden right now because I was just too messed up right now.
All of a sudden I heard the phone ring.
I sprang up and ran toward it, but as soon as I got to it, I was scared to answer it.
Finally I picked it up, and with a shaky voice I said," Umm, hello..?"
"Hey raven, look I don't want things to be awkward now from what happened last time, but we really need to work on our project some more together because its like, due in two more days!"
I chuckled a little after hearing him stress out about all of this.
"Sure… right now? At night?"
"Yeah, my parents totally understand so its all good. Look im not gonna try to jump your bones or anything alright so calm down." I could pretty much HEAR the grin on his face from the phone.
"Sure… I'll be right over in a min. see ya."
"Alrighty, bye monster girl!"
A couple of mins later at Trevor's house. In his living room.
While we were filling out some sheets of info for our baby we had only one source of light coming from his lamp by the couch. The small amount of light gave off a deem look on all the white walls around us.
"Are you sure your parents still don't mind me being here?" I haven't seen any of them! I think they were upstairs….
"Yesh, im pretty sure. Hey, do you want to listen to some music?"
"Umm, sure. But nothing too sad alright?"
"Oh, and why is that?"
Oh god! He was sooo not trying to drag this out… yep, he was!
"Ummm… I kinda told Alexander that I needed some time to myself… in other words we aren't together anymore." I frowned while saying this.
"Oh, well I'm sorry raven." He did sound pretty sorry too. Then he reached over and turned on some music from his iPod.
Suddenly a slow song came on. The being sounded so pretty. I was wondering why Trevor had THIS on his iPod!
I don't know you Take this sinking boat and point it home
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
At first I thought It was a sad break up song but I soon listened to the words and realized it was a secret love song. And by Secret I mean that the two singers were talking about secretly falling in love but thought the other wasn't.
Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won
After I heard that part I noticed Trevor staring at me in the eyes deeply. He reached over slowly and turned out the lamp. My heart was ponding so hard in my chest. I bet he could hear it…
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
But what happened next really shocked me. Trevor was leaning in closely and tilted his head near mine. I closed my eyes waiting for what ever was about to happen. I couldn't even barely hear the music my heart was beating so loudly.
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along
At the ending where the music was all that was left in the background I felt soft leather touch my lips softly and sweetly. I soon opened my eyes and realized it was his freaking lips! I gasped and hurrlyed kissed him back. I closed my eyes again and just gave in to this heaven. Our kiss probably only lasted about a couple of minutes but it felt like it was forever! One of his hands reached up and cupped my face while the other slid slowly behing my neck.
Just as soon as I was getting into this kiss A familiar cry broke us apart.
Breathing hard, we both looked at Ayden from the couch. Trevor turned on the light and walked over and changed Ayden. I cursed myself for not putting Ayden in a different room at the time… he he
After Trevor was done with Ayden he sat down next to me again and just simply looked straight ahead at nothing really; just the wall.
I scooted over slowly and rested my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes. I was hoping that this would never end. All that night all I could think of was that whole scene again and again.
A/N: good enough ending? HA! Not for the story sillys! But this chapter is now my fave. I really like that song, and recommend you to listen to it while reading that one part. I was swooning the whole time! Lolz Keep those reviews comin! Give me more ideas yall! And don't forget to vote on my new poll!