Okay, in this chapter, JISBON starts again ;)

Chapter 10

'Rigsby, you should stay at home!' Van Pelt said when her ex-boyfriend appeared on Monday morning in CBI HQ.

'Oh, I felt like already having missed so much' he answered and sat down at his desk. 'So, any news?' he asked and sighing Van Pelt started to tell.

Exactly when she was finished explaining news, Lisbon came in and said that they would have a new case.

'Where's Jane?' she asked when they walked toward the elevator.

'No idea' Van Pelt admitted and they entered. Lisbon took out her cell phone and called Jane's number. 'Hey, where are you? We've got a new case' she asked and received a tired moaning as response.

'Jane? How much have you drunk this night?' she queried angrily and then looked over to the other agents who looked very irritated at her. Lisbon ignored them and waited for a response.

'We shared two bottles of whiskey…She drank most of it' Jane admitted and Lisbon heard how he got up from his bed in the motel he was mostly staying in.

'How the hell could you walk home then…or at least to any bed?' she asked surprised.

'Well, smoking anything damps the effect of getting drunk' he explained and it sounded as if he was walking against a wall.

'You…what?' Lisbon screamed when the elevator doors opened and the people waiting stared at her.

'Just one drag' he explained.

'You smoked weed?' she asked.

'Only one drag…I didn't know what it was anyway' he said. 'Where's the body?' he added.

Lisbon sighed and gave him the address. She put back the cell into her pocket and ignored the other agents staring at her.

It was an easy case to solve and the victim was already on the way to Autopsy, right where Carina and her sister Franziska Johnson were laying, too. Jane sighed when he saw the body of the young girl being carried away, killed by her jealous boyfriend. The team went eating together and during the whole day, Lisbon and Jane didn't speak another word with each other.

It has already become evening again and the CBI agents were leaving HQ one after another. Van Pelt and Rigsby were the last ones to go, arm in arm, because he was still not very fit and she wanted to care for him. Lisbon looked up when somebody knocked at her office door. 'Come in' she said and was surprised to see Jane walking to the chair in front of her.

'Sit down…what's up?'

'I wanted to apologize.'

'For what?' she was amazed, he never apologized for anything.

'For…what I did' he tried to explain. 'I have really been a bit stupid but I needed distraction from…what we're going through at the moment. I just have to think about Sabrina all the time. She must be walking through hell right now…'

'Her own father killed her mother…and he's a serial killer. It must be really hard for her to know on which side to stand. She doesn't want to betray her biological father but she also wants to do the right thing. She has pity with you and I fully understand her' Lisbon answered.

'I haven't slept with the next best bitch' Jane answered but didn't want to mention that he had had sex with Sabrina.

Lisbon sighed. She didn't know how but she somehow forgave him. She looked into his crystal clear blue eyes, deep like an ocean, an ocean she wanted to drown in. She had felt this for so long, she had always…she shook her head.

'Jane' she started but didn't know how to go on. She stood up and walked toward him. She leaned at her table and looked to the ground.

'What's up, Lisbon?' he asked and stepped closer. Lisbon thought about her. Yes, what was up. She didn't know it herself. Perhaps it was time to tell the truth.

'Jane…when…I found out that you have slept with Lorelei and that you have been lovers…'

'She means nothing to me. She works for…'

'Jane! I know…but you must have felt something for her or you wouldn't…I felt…hurt, when I found out. Because I…' She stopped and remembered what he had said before he had shot her. 'Good luck, Teresa. Love you' he had said.

She remembered it right now and she knew that he thought about this moment now, too.

'I love you, Teresa' he muttered silently.

'What?' she asked surprised and looked up. But before she could ask any further, he gave her the answer with stepping forward and pressing a large, gentle and soft kiss on her lips. She felt his mouth, so tender and tasted him. It felt so good, he smelled so good.

She breathed deeply and enjoyed the long kiss. He stopped and looked into her eyes. She knew that it was wrong, but why the hell should she always care about doing the right thing and so she got on tiptoes and responded his kiss, even longer. Like that it was going on and she didn't know by herself how they finally landed in her house and in her bed, cuddling there with each other, not thinking about anything, about any danger that could and would appear, they just lived their lived as it came and so they ended up arm in arm lying in her bed and thinking about how it should go on.

'It has been a mistake' she suddenly said.

'I know' he responded. 'But I don't care.'

She turned her head and looked at him. 'It is wrong' she stated.

'Why?' he asked and fondled her cheek. He could be so gentle and so nice.

He suddenly smiled. 'You don't know herself.'

Lisbon closed her eyes and kissed him again. It only felt so good, why haven't they done this earlier.

'Come on, Teresa' he said. 'You want it, I want it. There is nothing that could stop us and nothing we can regret' he said and closed his arms around her.

She huddled against his chest which felt so warm and shaven what she liked very much and she nodded. He fondled her long, deep brown hair and kissed her head. They both didn't know how wrong they were thinking that this wouldn't have any consequences for them. Especially not, when Stiles would watch any step Jane made.

What Jane didn't know that it was his own mistake that made Red John able to hurt him more than he would have ever dreamed of…