AN: Well hopefully this isn't as shitty as I think it is. Lots of screaming and cursing coming right up. Thanks for all the review I appericate them. I found this chapter to be underwhelming and kind of sucky but I didn't want you to wait any longer. 11 should be up Monday or Tuesday at the latest. MAYBE (And I really mean maybe) late Sunday night. Please review sorry of this is total shit show. Avery and Logan go at it!

"Ten weeks?" Her voice was cold. "What the hell do you mean the tour is ten weeks?"

Logan shifted slightly. "The tour's an extra four weeks, there's this a-award show and Gustavo added on-"

"I don't care about that!" She cried. "You're missing her birthday?"

"Yeah and I'm sorry about that. I really am." He said quickly. "But things are going so well. They had been so good that day. We had breakfast that morning and I got her dressed. We were a family."

Avery's face blanched. "Wait. You mean you've known for almost a month?!"

Logan cringed, he shouldn't have said that. The look on Avery's face was a mixture of rage, disappointment and complete sadness. He searched for words, anything that would make her stop looking at him like that.

"You have to understand I had just got back into your lives and I didn't want to ruin it."

"You horrendous asshole." She hissed. "You've been lying to me!"

Logan rolled his eyes. "You never asked me if tour was longer."

"Because I assumed you would tell and me and not keep this from me! What the fuck is wrong with you?"

He frowned, she had a point. She never asked because she trusted him. "I didn't want to make you upset."

She laughed humorlessly. "So naturally you thought not telling me was the answer."

"Ave, I was going to tell you. I was scared but the guys talked me into telling you."

"I must have looked like such a dumbass in front of them." Avery scoffed. "Acting like we were a happy family."

"Baby we are. We are a happy family." He said desperately. "I begged them not to tell you when they came over the other day."

"So when exactly were you going to let me know? The day before? Or were you just not going to come home?" She questioned him as she wrapped her arms around herself. "You are unbelievable Logan."

"I let you know right now. I'm so sorry." Logan whispered, the guilt surging forward. "I'm sorry Avery."

"You're always so sorry about something Logan! You're missing her birthday and didn't even have the decency to tell me until tonight!" Avery was red and she picked up her empty wine glass threw it to the ground, causing it to shatter. "What have the past few weeks been, huh?"

"I j-just wanted to spend time with you. T-They've been amazing, I love being here." He touched her arm. "I missed you."

She wrenched back as if his touch burned. "So did you finally decide to tell me now that we've fucked? Can't get any more use out of me so you finally come clean?"

Logan frowned at this. Sure, he may have been wrong for not telling her but would never use her like that. She was a person, a friend. Not an object to be used and then tossed out.

"A-Avery no." He shook his head. "No I love you, it's not like that at all."

"So now you love me? You think that's going to make everything okay? She's a baby Logan. She's only three, you understand that right? She's going to be so disappointed."

Logan tried to swallow the lump in his throat. "I love both of you. And I know she'll be upset and that kills me."

"You're nothing but a liar Logan. You always make promises and then back out of them!" She was shouting now. "I cannot believe this. I am sick and tired of being walked all over by you."

"I walk all over you?" He asked indignantly. "You're the one who does nothing all day but sit around and expect me to come running whenever you call."

"What the fuck? I sit around because I have to watch my daughter because her dad is a fucking deadbeat. I don't expect you to do anything. How could I all you've done is knock me up, force me to keep everything a secret and leave me alone."

Logan's face was warm and probably red. He hated this, things had been going so well. The anger in the room was almost tangible.

"She's my daughter too Avery! I'm providing for you and work hard on tour and you just spend money!" He pointed at himself. "I work so hard to make sure you two are taken care of, I always have. And it kills me that I'm not around for the two of you. I know she'll be sad, but I try to keep you happy."

"By what throwing money at me so I stay quiet?" She reached into a drawer of the coffee table and pulled out a thick wad of bills. "That extra money you leave me? I haven't spent a single cent of it! All $5000 is right there! You started leaving it after I moved in here and I haven't spent it because money doesn't replace you!"

Logan picked up the bills and flicked through them. He regretted implying that she was a gold digger. Of course, she wasn't. "None of it?"

"No because I hate feeling like a mistake that you have to keep quiet."

"You're not a mistake." He put the money on the table. "I just want to make sure you and Kennedy are okay."

"And I appreciate that but you l-lied." She rolled her eyes which were watering. "You always let us down. But hey, like father like son right?"

"Fuck you! You know I try to not be like my dad!" He screamed at her, not caring when she jumped. "I try every damn day to be different."

"Well you are different." She admitted quietly. "At least he made it until you were in third grade you couldn't even make it until her fourth birthday!"

Logan shut his eyes and let out a breath. "Avery, shut up."

"No it's true! You're a pathetic excuse for a dad, you think you're making a difference but you're not. Three weeks doesn't make up for the almost two years you missed!"

"At least I try! I'm sorry about the extra tour dates. I didn't want this to happen, don't act like I'm happy about this. This is exactly how I didn't want you to react"

"And how should I react? Should I be happy that you're missing another chunk of her life? Because I'm not going to do that."

"I get it that you're upset but you know I have no choice." He tried to reason, softly. "I h-hate this. I do Aves."

He could see that he was losing her. She was blinking back tears and shaking her head. She wrapped her arms around her tighter, trying to hold herself together. She let a few tears slip down her face.

"You k-know what the worst part is?" She questioned, her voice breaking. "I wouldn't even be that upset if you didn't treat her like a mistake."

"I don't treat her like a mistake. I love her."

Avery shook her head. "You treat us like skeletons in your closet. You hide us and never mention us. God, you can't even take her to the park like a normal dad."

"You know I have no choice." He ran his hand through his hair. "I have to hide you."

"People hide mistakes Logan!" She walked away from him. "She only knows you through emails I read to her and Skype. She barely knows anything about you."

"I know it's not perfect. But it's something right?" He grabbed her arm and tried to give her a small smile. "I'm trying."

"Don't touch me." She pulled away. "I can't even look at you."

"Well I don't want to look at you either but here I am! God you are such a bitch sometimes. I try my hardest to do something nice for you and you complain."

Avery's back was to him. "Well god forbid you do something nice for the girl you got pregnant."

"Would you chill out about that? It takes two to make a baby, and you didn't exactly think about protection either."

Avery turned around. She was crying. "You're leaving again. You're never here. Do you know how scary it was to raise a baby by myself when I was seventeen? I needed you and let me d-down."

"It wasn't easy for me either." He fired back at her. "I was just as scared."

"Stop making yourself the victim in this! You got to leave, you were on tour for most of the pregnancy and when she was an infant. You barley even got her in the middle of the night and made me do it! Don't act like we were in this together. It was all me you were just in the background!"

Logan rubbed his fist against his eyes. He was boiling with anger and he was drunk just like she was, he couldn't help it. The words just fell out of his mouth.

"You know what Avery? You are just some bitch I fucked at party one night because I was horny. I love our daughter but I hate being attached to you!" He screamed at the top of his voice, causing her to step back. "I n-never loved you and you're right maybe a small part of me just wanted to fuck you the other night. But I did care about you, I do now but you make it so hard. You're not even worth trying for anymore because nothing is ever good enough for you. I try so hard and you're just raging bitch about it all the time. Maybe you're so pissed because you finally realize I don't love you enough to stay!"

Avery's lips were trembling and she stared at the floor. Blood was soaking into the white carpet. Logan's screaming had caused her back up against the wall. She stepped on the shattered wine glass. Tears stung her eyes and Logan's words hung between them. His lips were buzzing and the words settled over them like a thick fog.

"S-Shit, Avery I'm sorry." He said after a moment, he felt ill. He hadn't meant that. "I'm sorry."

A strangely calm look washed over her, she looked back up from her foot.

"I don't think this is w-working."

Logan was pulling at his hair. "I love you and I'm sorry. I didn't mean any of that. I love you more than you know. I'm trying."

"I want full custody."

"What?" He whispered.

She was shaking so badly that it was struggle to get words out. "I-I don't want you to see her a-anymore."

"Avery no!" The fear gripped him. "I love you, I'm sorry. No please don't take her away from me."

"You don't love me enough to stay so why should I let you? Far be it from me to force you to stay with the family you can't stand."

He grabbed her hand. "Baby I love you so much. I'm sorry I just wanted to upset you because you hurt my feelings. No, I love you and Kens so much."

"I can't trust you." She whispered as she continued crying. "I can't be let down anymore."

Logan was beginning to hyperventilate. "No, no. You can't do this you can't take her away from me."

"We d-don't have a custody arrangement because I thought you would be there. But you lie, are never here and don't even act like you have a daughter."

"I am here though. I always want to be here, I love you so much."

Avery was crying even harder now, from the reality of the situation and the pain in her foot. "L-Logan I love you too. But you've hurt me and let me down I can't do it anymore."

"Kennedy needs her dad!"

"Not if he is a fucking liar who makes her cry. I'm the mother they'll favor me."

Logan crossed his arms. "I h-have money, I'll get a lawyer."

"And so will I. Finally all that guilt money you left will come in use." She sounded smug but also exhausted. "Anyways how will you exactly take me to court? Your name in all those documents for a custody battle? Not exactly a good way to keep a secret baby a secret."

He felt like he was going to puke. "What do you want from me? You want me to be in her life more but you want full custody? What do I have to d-do Aves?"

"Not be a liar." Avery exhaled as she stared down at her bleeding foot once more. "Don't miss her birthday, actually give a fuck about being a dad. Stop treating her like you regret having her."

Logan held her hand tightly in his grip, keeping her close to him. "I'm never gonna lie to you again." He vowed. "B-But her birthday, I'll be in Germany and I can't get out of it. I care so much about her and I want to be a good dad. I really do, I swear. I have never regretted her a day in my life or you. Avery I love you and I love Kennedy more than anything."

Avery struggled but freed her hand. "I don't want you seeing her! You're never here and it's starting to hurt her. When they talked about fathers at school she came home and cried. She doesn't understand why she's never allowed to mention you. She says that she loves you and wants to tell everyone how great you are but she can't!"

Logan looked up at the ceiling and sighed. "I feel exactly the same way! I hate not being able to tell people how great Kennedy is or how proud I am to have to her as a daughter. It makes me sick that I have to sweep you under a rug. When interviewers ask us who would have kids first I always think about holding Kennedy for the first time but can't say a fucking word. When we get asked about having feelings for anyone my first thought is you! I never wanted to hurt you guys, I was just scared and agreed to the secrets because I knew I'd be able to support you. You have to believe me."

"I want to! I want to believe everything is going to work out. But how can I trust you after knowing that you lied to me all this time?" Avery shook her head, looking devastated. "She's my daughter I have to protect her."

Logan was indignant and fumbled for words. "Protect her? From me? Avery for fuck's sake I am her father! I deserve to be in her life."

"And she deserves to have a dad who can be around and do stuff with her in public. I hate how you make her feel. She cries and I hate it, she always ask why does Daddy have to go away so much?"

"Then don't take away my custody! You're a fucking idiot, you get pissed that I never see her and then try to get full custody."

"Of course I am! I want you to see her all the time not just for a few weeks here and there I want a full commitment Logan! But until then I won't have you coming and going! I want her to have a stable family and maybe that's without you for now."

Logan didn't know what to say, she kind of had a point. As much as he hated to admit it maybe him waiting to be a dad until he could actually be there was a good idea.

"H-How can I fix this? I'll do anything."

"Don't miss her birthday or go public about us. I can't handle both of those right now. I can't have her sad on her birthday and feeling like a burden."

Of course she would ask him to do the two things he couldn't. "I can't do that."

"At l-least try?" She whispered.

"Avery I can't do either of those. You know that."

"But you can lie to me?"

"I'm sorry I lied. Just don't take custody from me. I have rights!"

"Rights to what? A secret baby that you won't mention because a band is more important to you? Figure out your priorities Logan."

July 2000

"Jo I have rights!" Steven bellowed as he slammed his fist on the countertop. "He's my boy too!"

Joanna crossed her arms. "You have rights? Rights to ignore your son and not do anything with him because beer and other women are more important to you? Jesus, Steve get your priorities together."

Logan fidgeted and tried not to cry as his parents screamed in the kitchen. He was sitting at the dinner table alone, trying to block out the noise. They had been fighting more and more lately. His mom had weird purple skin around her wrists that he didn't understand and his dad had been dizzy and smelt funny.

"Maybe I wouldn't need other woman if you weren't a bitch all the time."

"You don't even try to be a good father anymore. Does he mean anything to you?"

"Of course he does. Logan is my son and I love him. You can't keep me from seeing him!"

Logan watched his mom take a deep breath. "Of course you do but shouldn't you be mature enough to realize he deserves better than you? A father that keeps disappointing his child and is never around isn't healthy. Don't you see that you need to not be around until you're ready be a dad that is always there and doesn't lie?"

Steven pushed past his wife, new beer in hand. He cracked the can open and sat at the table across from his son.

"What are you crying for?"

Logan flinched and wiped at his eyes with his small hands. "N-Nothing. Are you gonna be home for my baseball game?"

"Sorry buddy, I have to work."

All the hope in the six year old's body deflated. He was missing another game because he had to work. He was always being let down. "Again? You're always gone."

Steven rolled his eyes. "You'll understand one day."

Logan swallowed down his tears. He hated being let down like this, it was the worst. "Okay."

His dad gave him a thumbs up before drinking again. "Joanna where the hell is dinner?"

November 2014 – Present

"The two of you are my biggest priorities can't you see that?"

"Logan I want to see that. I do. But you lied to me about something huge. It's going to take a while to get back from that."

All he could do was nod. "You're not going to take my daughter from me."

"I'm not taking her from you, you're the one who is leaving again for ten weeks."

Anger flared inside him again. "It's my job! I have no choice."

"Just like you had no choice but to lie to me right?" Avery limped to the door. "Get out."

"No! I'm not leaving until you say you I can see my daughter."

Avery gritted her teeth. "You can see her until tour. But once you walk out that door you are never going to see her again, until you grow up and act like a dad."

"Never going to see her? She's my kid Avery! I have rights!" He shouted, praying that he wouldn't have a panic attack right now. "We're a family."

"And I have a right to make sure she grows up happy and not disappointed by her deadbeat father. And you say we're a family? Family doesn't lie to each other Logan!"

Logan snatched his jacket off the couch and stepped into his shoes. "You know what? Fuck you Avery I don't want to be here right now. I'm not going to be bitched at for one mistake."

"Fine walkaway Logan. God knows you're good enough at it."

He bit down on his lip and got close to her face. "I'm keeping my rights. You're not stopping me."

"We'll see about that." Avery opened the door. "I'm not going to let you hurt her."

Logan gave her the finger and stormed down the hall. The door slammed behind him and he let the panic overwhelm him. He stumbled into the stairwell and slid down the wall. Tears escaped from his eyes as his chest tighten and his heart raced. He fucked it up, he fucked it all up. Avery would never forgive him. He knew she'd get full custody, he couldn't even put up a fight.

"I'm s-sorry. I'm sorry." He mumbled as his breaths grew shallow. "I fucked up, I can't lose y-you."

AN: Well the second half of this turned out to be shit but hopefully I entertained you enough to review. Do you think Avery has a right to full custody? Who do you think was right in all of this? You saw more of Logan's childhood what did you think of that. Next chapter is Logan angst which is my fave. 11 should be up Monday or Tuesday! But maybe by some miracle tomorrow but we'll see. Please review. Also I need advice on how to end chapters! Thanks for reading!