Title: Androgynous me…
Fandom: Kuroshitsuji
Author: kira
Words: 300 words
Rating: OT
Summary: Getting ready for work, Grell briefly reflects on his life…
Warnings: none
Author's note: I have chosen to refer to Grell as "he" rather than "she" when describing him since he not only looks male, but dresses like one, despite feeling more like a woman.
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Grell sighed as he looked in mirror. Everyone thought he had a distorted view of himself, but he felt it was they, who did. He had always felt like a woman trapped in a man's body, even when he was alive. But now he felt it even more, after becoming a Shinigami with the freedom to express himself.
Picking up his hairbrush, he ran it over the long red strands of hair, smoothing out the tangles. Grell primped in front of his dressing table mirror, in much the same way a woman would, carefully trying to achieve his "best face," and settling for a somewhat androgynous look, expressing his feminine side with long hair, curled lashes, his favorite high heeled shoes, Madam Red's coat and his fey mannerisms.
While he was generally tolerated by his fellow Shinigami, the one he adored like no other, his "Sweet William," always viewed him with a painful mix of irritation and disgust. When he was being honest with himself, the other "love" of life, Sebastian Michaelis viewed him the same way. Undaunted, Grell put on a cheery smile as he got up to face another at the office, after giving his reflection a quick once over. Now that he was, as that cute Ronnie Knox once put it at an after hours office party, "good enough to eat," he felt confident enough to deal with whatever the job threw at him.
Sighing happily, Grell would consider it the best day ever if he got to not only work with William, but caught a glimpse or two of his beloved "Sebast-chan." And if reality refused to cooperate with him, Grell figured his rich imagination could always supply the necessary details. Donning his red coat, Grell left for the office and another day's work of reaping souls…