Chapter 9

Bella's POV

"It's not a flash light Isabella." I could feel him grin into my hair.

I squirmed around until I was facing him and looked right into his eyes; they were a beautiful shade of emerald green but they looked almost black in the darkness.

"I swear I didn't put up the picture of you in those Spiderman Pajamas. I would never be that cruel...Even after all that shit with Lauren I..." I sighed and shut my eyes, preparing for the pain that would come with my next words. "I loved you, Edward...I wouldn't have hurt you like that."

He kissed my nose. "I'm sorry I was too stubborn and bitter to not realize that. I don't even know why I jumped to the conclusion you did it. I just saw you and Alice and..." He looked down. "I'm sorry I hurt you, Bella. Can I ask you something?"

"Sure?" I bit my lip nervous as to what he would ask.

"Tell me about Max." He looked reluctant but determined to find out about the other man he thought was in my life.

"Oh...Max." I sighed and he stiffened at my side like maybe he thought he was overstepping the mark being here in bed with me. "Max is a friend." I answered.

"A friend that you hug? Or a friend that you...kiss?" Again he seemed filled with apprehension. That was Edward's way of asking if it was just friendship or if we had sex.

"Kind of friends with benefits." I filled with self hatred when I thought about it like that.

"Oh..." He fell silent for a moment. "And now your friend..." He probed.

"Wants more than just the benefits." I sighed as I dared to look back at him; expecting to see disgust or anger but there was none.

"And you don't?" He tried to smile.

"No, I can't afford to give my heart away." I answered honestly; knowing I'd have to elaborate. He pulled his eyebrows together so I continued. "I got my heart broken a few years ago by an amazing guy that I loved with all my heart. He didn't feel quite the same but it was too late. He had my heart. I foolishly broke up with him and everything changed for the worse. I vowed after that to never give my heart away again. That way it would never break again like it did then. I can still feel it trying to heel even now."

The look in his eyes turned to one of sorrow and pain. "Maybe he had felt the same."

I ignored him and continued my explanation.

"I mended enough to get on with my life but I never ever let myself fall for anyone. I set down ground rules...Wow it sounds so bad when I put it like that!" My mind wondered to all the times I'd met someone and set out the rules first. "Max had been broken by his ex and he needed the same thing I did. Everything was good. He knew my deal and he accepted it. But now he wants more and I can't give him it. I won't."

"I really fucked up." He finally spoke in barely more than a whisper.

"I think we were both to blame, Edward." My voice mirrored his.

I felt tears falling from the corner of my eye and they created a damp patch on the pillow below me. I closed my eyes.

His warm lips kissed them away.

I didn't want to fight with him anymore. I just wanted to be with him.

Here and now.

And I didn't care if he went back to calling me a shrew tomorrow.

I pushed my forehead to his and we spent a moment just looking at one another. We both seemed to be struggling with the urge to kiss; making slow, exaggerated, little movements with our heads.

I took the decision away from him and brushed my lips to his. He did the same and we carried on our baby steps for a while before I felt him apply more pressure to his kisses. I started to kiss him back with the same effort.

His hand came up to brush my hair back and cup my face as his mouth sought access from me. His tongue slowly and gently swiped across my bottom lip begging me for entrance.

I'd already gone dizzy and having his tongue swirl around with mine sent me crazy; causing me to moan into his mouth.

"Oh, God!" I breathed as he started to pepper ginger kisses down the column of my throat.

"You're so fucking beautiful, Isabella Swan." My heart didn't feel to be in any pain as it usually did; like Edward was its cure. But I knew I couldn't get over my head here. It would be a bad idea to fall for him again and my heart couldn't take being broken by him a second time.

But for now I didn't care.

He rolled himself above me and my hands roamed the defined planes of his shirtless chest. I wasn't the only one that had filled out in all the right places.

His hands roamed up and down my sides and hesitantly found their way to cupping my breasts, causing my back to arch slightly. We kissed with more fervor and pressed our bodies together in delicious ways.

The storm was still rumbling lowly in the distance but my attention was too occupied with feeling the amazing sensations running through it. He moved back to my side as he started to unbutton my pajama top, looking into my eyes the entire time like he was waiting for me to stop him.

I should be stopping him. But I wouldn't...I couldn't.

I sat up letting him push it back off of my arms before throwing it off the bed.

Humphrey huffed and I figured he was now wearing it.

Edward sat up and pulled me over his lap, pulling me close and burying his lips between my now bare breasts; my head fell back at the contact.

"Holy shit!" I gasped as he took one of my nipples into his warm mouth and swirled his tongue across the tip. He smiled into me and I ground my hips down hard onto his erection and he growled at me in gratitude. He used his other hand to palm my lonely breast while he kept the other one firmly in his mouth. I circled my hips along his length and he threw his head back moaning more.

"Fuck, Bella!" He seemed shocked at my behavior but then I remembered the last time we were in this kind of position.

It was new to both of us.

Now though, I had a feeling we'd both learned a few new tricks since then.

He pushed me down and climbed back above me reaching his hand towards my treasure. At first he was content to rub over the fabric covering me but soon got frustrated and made quick work of removing my lower garments. He buried his face into my hair as he ran his fingers over my soaked core.

"Shit!" He groaned when he realized he'd made me so wet.

His mouth found my skin again and started to trail kisses down my body; leaving me with goose bumps all up my arms.

"Oh God! Edward!" I bit my lip as I felt his mouth close around the bud of my heat. "Fuck!"

He chuckled at my reaction and the vibrations sent me soaring.

He moved slightly and allowed his tongue to swipe widely across my hot flesh and I shuddered at the feeling. I'd had this done to me before but with nowhere near as much skill as Edward had. He only had to flick his tongue in one spot and I grew wetter by the second while moaning his name.

His movement increased in pace and I could feel the tell tale building tension in my stomach… this was so much more than I'd ever had. I grabbed his hair and couldn't help the need to push him into me more. He pushed his fingers into me too and I exploded with no further need for his actions. My eyes rolled back and my body arched up off the bed.

"UUUUUUUNNNGGHHHHH EDWARD!" I panted as he waited for me to come completely down before moving from his spot between my legs.

"You ok?" He asked worriedly.

Why the fuck would he be worried?

"Are you kidding me? Fuck Edward. How hard did you want to make me come?" My chest heaved as he smiled at me.

"Well because the thunder has turned up its volume again?" He glanced to the window.

"Is it still thundering? Fuck you're good. I hadn't heard any of it for a while." I smirked back up at him.

"Do you have any idea how much of a turn on it was hearing all those profanities coming out of your mouth while I was doing that?"

"Huh...Hot you say...? Well my mouth does other things that might turn you on too." I bit my lip and his eyebrows shot up as I pushed him back; pulling his pants off in one quick swoop.

"Holy shit fuck!" He growled as I took him between my lips.

Oh yeah! He'd definitely grown in places too.

He lifted his head to watch me and I knew I had to make this good. I'd never done this to him before and I wanted him to enjoy it. I used my hand at his base as an aid and lowered my mouth around him, applying a little suction to begin with, increasing my pace and vacuum.

"Bella...uuunggghhhh...God, Bella!" His eyes became hooded as he struggled to keep them open to watch me. His hand brushed my hair back off my face and he held it out of my way while I continued my ministrations on him.

I could feel him starting to twitch and his hands tried to pull me away but I stayed put. His breathing came in pants and his eyes were screwed tightly shut as my name and a string of profanities escaped his lips and his come escaped into my mouth.

"FFFFUUUUCCCCCKKKK!" It was his body's turn to lift off the bed and writhe like he'd made mine.

I swallowed everything he gave me as he slowly came back down from his high.

"I've waited a long time to do that to you." I offered.

"Wow! Fuck I mean...WOW! I should never have stopped you last time when you wanted to..." He chuckled.

I giggled as he rolled us over and stalked above me with hungry eyes. He leaned down and kissed me with a new passion and I allowed our tongues to dance again while reveling in the feeling of his hands on my skin.

Apparently grown up Edward didn't take long to recover either, because his 'contentment' was once again ready and waiting.

He looked down into my eyes and an emotion I'd never seen in him stared back at me but I had no idea what it was, just that it made me want to cry. Of course I didn't.

"I want you, Edward," I breathed as we kept our gaze locked. He smiled and lowered himself to me and gently pushed open my legs with his own. He settled between them again but took a moment to kiss me. After a moment he pushed into me and my toes fucking curled...I shit you not!

"Uuunnghhhh Edward." I groaned as I dug my finger nails into his shoulders, making him hiss.

"Fuck you feel even better than I remembered," He panted as he withdrew and ploughed into me again.

Every thrust sent me higher and higher.

"Edward, I need you to fuck me harder! Please?" No sooner had the words left my mouth he propelled himself with more force and I raised my hips up to match his thrusts.

"Fuck Bella you keep cursing like that and I'm not going to be able to keep this up much longer! UUuuungghhhhhh!" His body was glistening with beads of sweat; his hair damp and his skin flushed to match any of my blushes and I could feel the heat radiating between us. His body grew tenser as did mine.

"Fuck Edward! FUCKING HOLY HELL...SHIT!"I screamed like I had never screamed before under the influence of a man. I'd never let myself go with anyone before, not even with him our first time.

"UUUUNGGGHHHHHHHHHHH BELLA! SHIT I CAN'T HOLD IT ANY LONGER THANKS TO YOUR FUCKING DIRTY MOUTH!"

That was it, I exploded internally. I screamed his name over and over while he shuddered above me until he'd given everything he had to give. My body continued to shake and writhe as I came down too. I didn't just feel the fucking earth move...the whole God damn universe just exploded around me.

"Never has there been such sweet music to my ears than hearing you come and scream my name." He panted as he moved back to his spot behind me, pulling me close to him once more and holding me until we both fell to sleep.