Hey Guys another chapter and sorry and I'm sorry it's not a very long one, I'm not very good at writing long ones. But in this one you get to see more into Bella's past! So enjoy:)

I laid Perfectly still, trying to bask in the complete feeling buzzing through my body.

While trying to ignore the heavy body panting on top of me.

I felt hair tickle my forehead and breath blow across my face.

''Open your eyes love!'' Came the voice above me.

I reluctantly opened my eyes to be met with a pair of golden ones.

After giving me a breath taking smile Edward lowered his head down to nibble my ear.

'' So what would you like to do now my little minx?'' His canine tooth grazed my lobe, causing me to yelp. ''Because I wouldn't mind spending the day in bed.''

I felt nauseous. Reality hit me like a rock, We had just given each other our virginity and I didn't even like him let alone love him.

''Um..Actually I would like to spend time with Alice today.'' I quickly let out. Spending the day bored out of my mind was better than doing god knows what with a psycho path even if it did feel amazing.

He growled. '' FINE, but I'm not letting you out of my sight!'' The look he gave me was furious and left no room for questioning.

I gulped. But was thankful that I had gotten my way.

After gathering my clothes Edward let me take a shower before we went to see Alice. It was my suggestion that we clean up first soon as we both smelt like sex. He reluctantly agreed with saying he wouldn't mind everyone smelling me on him.

'Well I would asshole'

As the water came cascaded down my body I couldn't help thinking of the one person I thought I would be doing this with when I was human.

My eyes opened to clear skies and tree tops. But something felt off, it was all to clear.

I could make out every individual leaf and colour. I could smell every thing around me, the eucalyptuses and bark smell of the forest, the dirt of the ground the warm scent of the little wildlife surrounding us, and then some horrible wet dog smell.

Once I fond my bearings I heard voices.

''What do we do now?'' came a gruff voice that sounded familiar. ''We can't let her live!''

''I don't know, but what I do know is that were not going to kill her, Embry.'' Came the second voice. But this one I recognised immediately. Jake.

''Well you know Sam isn't going to let her live Jake, don't get me wrong I really liked Bella, but the thing over there isn't Bella Jake! It's a killing machine.''

''NO! She may be different but its still Bella even if she is the one thing we hate the most its still MY Bella.'' He took a deep breath. ''Lets just wait until Quil gets back from burning the prick, ok.''

''Fine, I'll go check on him.''

I heard footsteps leading away. Then a second pair coming toward me.

I stiffened, resisting the erg to attack. Which became even harder when a hand swept the hair away from my face revealing Jake.

His face looked pained as he stroked my cheek.

''Bella, you have to run, please. I don't think there's anything I can do for you now. so please get away from here, far away. But always no I love you and will never hurt you.'' Tears leaked out of his eyes and fell down his beautiful face.

My heart broke, I wanted to cry so badly but the tears wouldn't come.

A sound startled us from behind. Jakes head whipped back to me, eyes pleading.

So I did the only thing I could do. I ran.

I felt my chest rise and fall with inner sobs. The showers water making a good substitute for tears, making my pain feel more natural.

Jake had kept his promise, he never hurt me. After I ran away so did he. He ran in the opposite direction out to the Alaskan boarder.

I understood. There was nothing he could do, the tribe saw me as the enemy now and I would have to be destroyed. But even though Jake wasn't apart of them now, the rest were still once my friends. Quil and Embry were apart of them but they never attacked me. Which I was grateful for. I guess it was there way of showing they still cared for me a little.

I would be lying if I said I didn't love Jake, because I still do but there doesn't seem to be any hope for us now.

And with these thoughts I am so glad Edward can't hear my mind!

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