Thank you for replying so quickly to my last chapter,
I've had an insane amount of homework and revision to do so I'm sorry for not updating but hopefully another chapter should be coming soon.
I hope you enjoy this one because I worked insanely hard for you guys as usual.
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Truth
Dear Diary,
Okay Mia so we agreed that we would write notes to each other in each other's diaries just for laughs...so here it is, don't be pissed at me even if I have read your diary...;)
Oh. My. Gosh. Mom is amazing! She is so funny and awesome and beautiful and just...wow. I can't believe that I never knew her in my life because she is freaking AMAZING! Mom's at the theatre now so It's just me wondering about how you and Dad are doing in Lima but New York is awesome, just as I suspected. Mom is perfect, enjoy Lima, I'm gonna read your diary and read about your MENTAL crush on this "Jeremy"
God, life is amazing right now,
Love Alex
Xx
Rachel felt tears welling up about to explode and stream down her face in seconds, she had to pinch herself, was she hallucinating? Was all the guilt of giving up Alex finally paying her back? All of these questions imploded into her head as she could hardly believe what she was reading, she didn't even think it was real and when her daughter called her name and she whipped her head around to see her daughter, she was still confused except this time both Rachel and her daughter looked rather scared.
"Mom..." Alex gasped as she saw her mother with Amelia's diary in her hands,
Rachel knew that it was inconceivable that Alex would be here, and now looking at Amelia, it broke her heart as she knew that Alex would be identical, her heart just tore and she couldn't face Amelia, as she already knew that her "guilt" was making her hallucinate.
"Amelia, I've..umm, I've gotta go, I just got a call from the theatre so I'll see you later...tomorrow, we'll do something...promise" Rachel blurted out, lying through the grit of her teeth and then trying to make up for it even though she didn't like leaving Amelia.
"Mom, I'm busy tomorrow, I've got something to tell you..." Alex sighed knowing now that she would have to tell her Mom because she didn't believe the diary.
Rachel and Alex sat down next to each other on the couch, fear both striking them in their eyes even though it was for completely different reasons, even though there wasn't so much distance between them now.
"Holy shit, are you pregnant?" Rachel blurted out holding Alex's hands in support just in case she was but to her delight Alex responded with a giggle that eased the tension nicely.
"Good...just checking..." Rachel smiled at her daughter.
"Mom, the thing is that I have to leave New York tomorrow..." Alex started and sort of trailed off as Rachel raised an eyebrow but soon piped up in humour.
"Okay," she elongated her words, "Why?" Rachel giggled stroking a piece of Alex's long brunette hair.
Alex took a breath, she knew now was the time, now was the time that she had been waiting for, for her whole life. Her Mom was looking at her for the last time as Amelia and Alex hoped to God that Rachel looked at her the same way when she realised that she was Alex. What if she hated her? What if she was so mad that Amelia was in Ohio that she would forget about Alex?
"Mom, I have to leave New York to go to the McKinley Reunion..." Alex slowly said as Rachel was shell-shocked that she even knew what McKinley was,
"I have to go to McKinley to see my Dad, Finn Hudson." Alex whispered trying to peep out the last words of her sentence, Rachel gasped as she had never told Amelia anything about her Dad, it hurt too much, for both of them and now all of a sudden she knew...but how?
"Amelia..." Rachel began as memories of her past came flooding back to her, the bad ones.
"Mom," Alex interrupted, "I'm not Amelia..."
Rachel clasped her hand over her mouth, her heart beating as much as the tears were welling up in her eyes and were now spilling onto her petite fragile cheeks.
"...I'm Alex." Alex simply said as she needed to know her Mom's response
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She remembers the last good day she can remember, the last day when everything was just...perfect.
She can smell the scent of perfume that she sprayed on her neck, she remembers the identical smiles that Amelia and Alex have on their faces not really knowing it's their first birthday, she remembers kissing Finn as soon as she wakes up and then the two of them feed one of the baby each while talking, laughing, smiling at each other.
She picks up Alex as Finn fed Amelia in the kitchen and she simply dances round the nursery in absolute joy, gently humming Happy Birthday to her daughter as they both bob up and down, smiling at each other. She shares a loving glance with Finn as he brings back Amelia into the room and places Amelia along with Alex in the playpen and then Rachel nuzzles her head into his neck before getting ready to go on a Birthday Picnic for the twins in Central Park.
They get to the park and Finn and Rachel find a spot for their Birthday picnic as they plant Alex and Amelia down on the leafy green grass. The parents play with their children trying to amuse them, but a constant distraction keeps occurring.
Rachel's phone.
It goes off.
She ignores it.
Rachel goes back to playing with Amelia and Alex, quickly checking if they needed changing or if they needed food by giving a slight piece of Birthday cake to each of the twins.
The phone goes off again.
She ignores it.
Finn glances at Rachel in a sign of confusion, as he picks up Amelia to make sure that she doesn't burst into tears as she hates the sound of phones ringing.
The phone rings yet again.
She can't ignore it now.
Sheepishly, Rachel glances at the phone, after sharing a disappointed exchange with Finn, she checks the phone and sighs,
"It's work..." she pleads with her husband.
Finn shrugs as he pretends it's nothing as Rachel skips down the path trying to get some distance away from the family before taking the call, Finn continues to play with his daughters who seem to enjoy the company of their father.
Rachel comes back with a slightly less skip in her step, looking down at the floor as she comes back to her husband and her two beautiful children. Finn looks at her with confusion as she manages to whisper out her words;
"I just got fired..."
Tears start to flow from her tear ducts as the picnic soon end and the four of them make their way back to the apartment where an argument starts to break out between Finn and Rachel after they put the twins in the nursery. Suddenly the world became a little less perfect.
It continued that way until Rachel and Finn were having arguments every day...
It continued that way until she hardly saw her family...
It continued until the day her heart completely broke and her husband and one of her daughters were taken away from her.
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Rachel almost remained breathless as she looked at Alex, her Alex, fourteen years on, beautiful and sitting in front of her.
"Just please don't be pissed..." Alex began, tears welling up in her deep hazel eyes, "...It's just I wanted to know you for my whole life and me and Amelia, well, we met at Nationals, became friends and then we sort of figured it out, and because I wanted to meet you and Amelia really wanted to meet Dad so we sort of, umm, we switched places and I came to New York and Mia went to Lima..." she finished, blurting out her sentences to a mind-blown mother who now had tears streaming down her face.
There was a brief moment of silence between the two of them after Alex let out a sigh but then only to be surrounded by Rachel's petite arms that held her, as Alex for the first time. Tears splashing onto Alex's brunette hair, Alex could feel the love that radiated from Rachel.
"You have no idea how much I love you or have missed you..." Rachel cried holding her daughter in her arms for the first time in over a decade.
"Mom, I love you so much..." Alex whispered slowly pulling away from the embrace that she didn't want to end, she pulled away to her Mom, her fringe still perfect but her cheeks stained with tears.
"I've loved you your whole life and I've never stopped thinking about you..." she reassured her daughter, holding Alex's hands for the first time in fourteen years.
"I guess this means you probably have to switch us back now..." Alex sniffed wiping away her tears meeting Rachel's equally hazel eyes.
Rachel unfortunately and humbly nodded, "Well we have to tell your Dad somehow..." Rachel bit her lip staring straight into Alex's eyes.
"Mom, please can you just like promise me something?" Alex sheepishly asked with an immediate nod coming from her mother,
"That I don't have to leave you and not see you for ages because, I don't think I can do that..." Alex whispered back as she came into yet another embrace with her Mom.
"Me neither, I promise you that, that won't happen." Rachel smiled as she realised that she was holding her daughter who she knew returned her unconditional love.
Alex nuzzled her head into Rachel's neck as Alex let out a slightly awkward giggle that came to the confusion of Rachel,
"What?" Rachel asked, a smile gaping onto her face,
"Okay, this is gonna sound strange – but, I've pictured meeting you and you meeting me as me at least a billion times in my head per year and now that I've met you and told you, I don't know what I'm gonna think about..." Alex blurted out facing her Mom now coming out of the embrace and having an equally big smile.
"I've missed so much..." Rachel admitted to her daughter placing her petite hands onto her face in horror and embarrassment as she vowed to herself when her daughters were born, she was going to be there for them eternally, no matter what however it had seemed almost impossible considering the circumstances between Finn and Rachel.
"Mom, this is gonna sound crazy but I've always felt like you were there, like every time I sing, I practice in front of the picture of you that Dad gave me, and I've always know you were there..." Alex admitted shrugging slightly.
"Oh my god, I'm so glad you sing!" Rachel let out a massive laugh and sigh as she almost leapt onto Alex giving her the biggest hug known to man, it seemed that Rachel liked hugs...a lot...like borderline addicted, like a puppy but it was nice, it was warm.
"Mom, of course I sing, do you really think that I could have your genes and not sing..." Alex admitted tucking her long brunette hair behind her ears after the hug had finished.
"But between glee, school and wanting to go to New York, nothing much has happened in my life much...but life is awesome, but it's gotten more awesome in the last 24 hours!" Alex finished as she smiled at her Mom as they started an amazing day together...
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Dear Diary,
Assassination plans continued:
#39: Get Mom to give her a death glare
#40: Attack her with a fish
#41: Go all twin ninja on her butt
#42: Get Dad to have a semi-brain transplant so half of his brain is a pirate ninja and half of his brain is Dad so he knows what's going on but his instinct is to kill her...
Just as Amelia was about to carry on with her diary entry when her father knocked on the open bedroom door and interrupted her planning as he announced that his date was quickly approaching and that he needed her to come down so they could get going.
As Amelia put on Alex's plain and not designer black coat, she took a breath and she contemplated what was about to happen, and she contemplated how she could not go for "Rebecca's" throat the moment she saw her, she knew it would be hard.
"You okay?" Finn asked, sliding into the driver's seat of his car looking at Amelia's hazel eyes,
"Yeah, fine..." Amelia uttered trying to sound convincing but obviously failing,
"Liar." Finn coughed with a slight smile to his tone, he had always been a joker and loved to wind her up from time to time.
"What if she's a bitch?" Amelia asked thinking out loud to Finn's amusement,
"Honey, she's not a bi-" he began but didn't finish
"Dad, Dad – what if she's a serial killer?" Amelia dramatically pointed out, to this Finn didn't reply but laughed out loud as his daughter amused him like crazy,
"What if she's a bitchy serial killer?" Amelia dramatically acted literally mocking crying out loud.
"Alex, honey – Rebecca's really nice, you're gonna like her once you've met her and as much as your theories are hysterical could you try being a bit more optimistic?" he pleaded glancing back and forth between the road and his daughter who was frowning.
"Fine..." Amelia sighed flicking her chocolate bangs to the left side of her face
The rest of the ride was full of conversation that mainly revolved around food, which seemed to be Finn's favourite topic, Amelia realised that her Dad was awesome, he just needed him to fall out of "love" if that was what you called it with Rebecca and then "conveniently" get Mom to come to the reunion, they can get back together so everything will be...awesome! Amelia realised that her thoughts were running away slightly as the conversation in the car seemed to slow down, so she picked up the conversation as they pulled into the parking lot of the restaurant.
"Alex, be nice..." Finn whispered to his daughter pausing before getting out the car,
"Bitchy serial killer, just think about it Dad!" Amelia replied back, making her Dad pull one of his infamous crooked smiles as he checked his appearance in the side mirror and slid out of the car.
Amelia was quite annoyed, here goes nothing. Alex was gonna be nice, but he said nothing about Amelia...Dinner was going to be so fun!
Amelia and Finn walked side by side up to the restaurant, where a skinny pale blonde haired woman stood waiting for them. She was wearing a short, like really short black cocktail dress with ruby red lipstick that made her look a little like a whore if Amelia was completely honest, but she had to admit, she did have rather nice blue glistening eyes that sparkled, they didn't sparkle as much as her Mom's, but they still sparkled. And then she realised something, she was holding a bag with a small cat placed inside. Oh god, she was one of those people. She was one of those big time band wannabe girlfriends who loved bling and carried around their feline friends at any opportunity. Amelia then realised something, not only was there a cat, there was something she was allergic to in the bag. Oh shit. She gave Amelia an awkward and patronizing smile as the two approached the reception of the restaurant. Finn greeted the woman with a sickly peck on the cheek that made Amelia want to puke.
"So you must be Alex, your Dad has told me so much about you..." The woman glanced at her with disgust even though Finn didn't see,
"And you must be Rebecca..." Amelia bit, a smile still far away from her face.
There was a brief moment of silence, which was incredibly awkward but was broken by the sound of allergic sneezes from Amelia that worried Finn slightly; she wasn't faking anything, that was for sure. Over the past fourteen years, Finn had worked out when his daughter was acting or not, and she wasn't acting even though his suspicions told him otherwise.
"Should we go in?" Finn asked trying to break the tension, as he awkwardly entwined his hands with Rebecca's as Amelia and her constant sneezes were forced to watch the disgusting public display of affection.
What the hell does he see in her? She looks like a whore, it's obvious that she only likes him because of his money and because he's in a band, they don't have anything in common and the Chemistry is flat between them. No spark, no anything. They just look awkward together, like two separate pieces from different puzzles, but Mom and Dad even thinking about them together is like fireworks and like they would mesh freaking amazingly! What the hell does he see in her?
Amelia thought to herself as she paced behind the couple on the way to the table at the back of the restaurant. She sat down at the table, literally pulling her Dad to sit on the same side of the booth of her, even though that gave Rebecca more of a chance to showcase her feline friend as she placed her bag on the table.
The conversation started up, Rebecca asking Finn about money.
Amelia called her a gold digger under her breath; and then sneezed.
Then the conversation advanced to previous boyfriends and girlfriends, to whom Finn only told her about Quinn and stayed far away from the matter of Rachel, it was obvious he was still in love with her.
Amelia called Rebecca a slut under her breath; and then sneezed.
"So I heard that you just came back from a glee club competition?" Rebecca patronized Amelia, who was now sneezing away,
"Yeah, came fourth." Amelia replied, just managing to make out her words from all of the sneezing she was doing.
"I never bothered with glee club, always thought it was stupid..." Rebecca muttered as Finn and Amelia shared a worrying glance with each other over Amelia's constant sneezing.
"Honey, are you ok?" Finn asked ignoring Rebecca's statement and placing his hand on Amelia's back.
"No..." Amelia sneezed as she watched Rebecca roll her eyes; she knew that she thought that she was only sneezing for attention.
"I'm gonna drop Amelia off at Quinn's house, I'll be back soon, just order me something that has no vegetables on..." he quickly told Rebecca who looked offended as Finn grabbed his coat and took Amelia's bag to carry to his car.
"I'm sorry about this..." Amelia sneezed as the two of them made their way to the parking lot,
"Oh hey, it's fine, is it alright that I go back on the date after I drop you off?" He asked, sincerely worried for his daughter.
Amelia nodded while still sneezing her head off.
"I just hope you're not allergic to Blonde's..." Finn joked as he took to the wheel of his car.
The brief car ride was nice, the sneezing had decreased the further they drove until they reached the Puckerman's house, before getting out the car; they shared the most amazing moment.
"Alex..." Finn began as Amelia turned her head, her hazel eyes a glitter, "You do know I love you, right?" he asked taking a moment.
Amelia nodded immediately, "Yeah, I do. I love you too Dad..." She smiled in response to his grin.
He kissed her gently on the forehead before sighing and getting out of the car and opening the door for Amelia to get out as they made their way up the path to the Puckerman household.
The door swung open to a unsurprised Quinn who had a smirk on her face,
"Yes, Alex can stay here while you go on your date..." she automatically said, knowing what Finn was going to ask.
Amelia sheepishly walked through the walkway into the house.
"Not trusting her to go on the date with you?" Quinn asked folding her arms to Finn.
"She kept sneezing, but like not faking it, can you keep an eye on her?" he asked a confused tone to his voice.
Quinn nodded as they agreed that he would pick Alex up in two hours time.
For Amelia, she walked into the warm and cosy home to receive a high five from Noah, he seemed cool,, well, Alex liked him which meant that Amelia did as well even though he automatically felt like family, but then she heard the booming footsteps of Luke running down the stairs,
"Why the hell haven't you been texting me?" he asked not even exchanging a greeting,
"Maybe because she found a boyfriend who washes more than once a week..." Quinn smirked as she walked past the two of them starting to argue in the middle of the room,
"I've just been busy..." Amelia lied, flicking the ends of her brunette hair behind her shoulders.
Luke rolled his eyes as he ran his fingers through his light brown hair, "Can we talk upstairs?" he asked, already half way up the stairs to which Amelia reluctantly followed.
"Nice Star Wars sheets!" Amelia sarcastically exclaimed as she walked into Luke's room,
"Thanks, why have you been ignoring me?" he asked
"I told you, I've been busy..." she lied yet again, this way getting seriously hard to hide. "Why have you been texting me so much?" she asked back raising an eyebrow folding her arms.
"Alex..." he sighed. "I like you! Okay, I like you, and I want to know, do you like me?" he blurted out his palms now planted on his face in embarrassment.
"I knew it!" Amelia shrieked out of glee, she knew that she had broken her cover now.
"Wait, what?" Luke asked confusingly.
"Luke, you and Alex just go together, it's obvious!" she stated, now referring to Alex in third person that rather freaked out Luke.
"Okay..." confused, he responded elongating his word, "Alex, do you like me or not?" he asked, wanting a straight answer.
"Look, I don't but Alex does..." Amelia sighed.
"What does that mean?" Luke shouted getting more and more confused every time Amelia spoke,
"It means I'm not Alex..." Amelia began, looking at Luke who was now sitting down expression that was baffled as hell, "...I'm the Broadway Song Crucifier..."
Luke let out a slight laugh as he blew a raspberry.
"Kiss me goodbye, I'm defying gravity. And nobody in all of Oz, will ever bring me down!" Amelia sang slightly off key like she did while rehearsing as Luke's expression dropped a mile as the realisation came to him.
"Holy crap!" he whispered to himself to Amelia's bashful expression, "Wh-Wh-How-What the fuck, how?" he asked.
"It's a long story..." Amelia admitted sitting next to Luke on the bed still with a bashful emotion.
"I've got two hours..." he automatically said staring into space, his life just got way more confusing as Amelia started to explain the WHOLE story
I hope you enjoyed this part of the story, I took a long time because I had NO clue what to right and plus I have End of Year Exams last and next week which honestly sucks,
Please R&R because I don't know what to do next and I would love to hear your thoughts.
Hope you liked the story so far.
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