Well, it's been awhile, but here is the next installment! Me and my dear friend hope that you all enjoy it and thank you so much for your continuous support. Have a very Happy New Year!!
Simon: Hey Magnus, it's Simon. You know the guy that drank that stuff at your party and got turned into a rat? I know this is kind of strange for me to be texting you, but I've sort of been sent on a special mission by Isabelle. Apparently Alec's been depressed lately. Now I'm not trying to be a nosy Nelly, 'cause what you have with Alec is your own business, but a couple of weeks ago I saw Alec leave your apartment. He looked completely devastated. I mean he's usually not the most jolliest of guys, but I've never seen him look like that. What happened?
Magnus: Ugh, you too? Why can't you young people just stick to what you're good at: being young and ignorant, and absurdly passionate. Nothing happened, mundane. Nothing that concerns you, or your employer.
Simon: Hmm….something did happen, didn't it? Look Magnus, I may be a mundane, but I'm not completely stupid. You obviously have some interest in Alec, or you wouldn't have given your number to him at the party. You don't seem like the type of guy who would give your number out to just anyone.
Magnus: Define 'just anyone'. Because Alec really was just anyone.
Simon: But he was a "just someone" who interested you, right?
Magnus: Of course I was. Look at him. He has the face of an angel's child. Ha, being born a shadowhunter I would suppose that would make sense.
Simon: So…? Come on Magnus, Isabelle told me how you guys texted all the time. She said that Alec was always texting someone, but he wouldn't tell her who it was. So she checked the phone records and it turned out to be you. So obviously you are or were interested in him as a person. Wow I should be a detective, maybe even the next Sherlock Holmes. But anyways, what do you have to say for yourself.
Magnus:….Nothing. I really have nothing to say.
Simon: So do you like him? I won't tell Isabelle
Magnus: I…I do. Or I did. There is nothing between us anymore. I made sure of it.
Simon: What?!?! But Why? It seemed at least, from what I could tell from Isabelle and what I could see, Alec was happy when he was texting you. And at the party you guys couldn't take your eyes off of one another, like I couldn't take my eyes off of Isabelle, but that's just something we won't go into! So what happened?
Magnus: I pushed him away. I forced him to leave by hurting him so badly that he wouldn't want to come back to me.
Simon: But why? Why would you hurt the person you have feelings for and maybe could potentially fall in love with? Why?
Magnus: Because I didn't want to get attached to him! I didn't want to get in too deep…but I made the mistake of bedding him all too well. I let him in when he let me in. So there's the story. That's why Alec is upset. Happy now, mundane?
Simon: Wait…so you…with Alec…? Are you serious?!!?!?
Magnus: Yes. So what? It doesn't matter anymore.
Simon: Wow, um…that um complicates things. So you kicked him out after having sex with him because you were scared of getting in too deep AKA falling in love with him, have I got it right?
Magnus: Yeah. What's the analysis, doc?
Simon: I'm working on it, but I have a question, what's so bad about being love?
Magnus: Nothing. It just isn't a part of me. Not a natural part anyway.
Simon: But don't you want to try? You've been alive for awhile, right? Have you ever been in love before?
Magnus: No I haven't. It's incapacitating. It scares me. And trying seems futile
Simon: But don't you enjoy spending time with him?
Magnus: I did. Now I fear it would just be too painful. You could never understand how badly I want to see him again. How badly I want to hold him. Kiss him. Make love to him, even if it were to be for the last time.
Simon: Then go after him! Tell him you're sorry. You have a chance, Magnus. Don't be stupid and miss it. I'd give anything to have that chance with Clary, but I don't. She loves Jace. But Alec wants you too. It's obvious the way he's reacted to this.
Magnus: But the trust is broken. I'm sorry about your Clary situation, but this is very different. The say you sex someone hundreds of years younger than you are, then fall so hard for them you can't even function normally, when you destroy the only person you've ever loved, only then can you fathom sympathizing with me.
Simon:…I guess you're right. But everyone deserves to be happy…even you, Magnus…
Magnus: No I don't. This body seeks only pleasure. Happiness is something different entirely.
Simon: But what about Alec? Don't you think he deserves happiness?
Magnus: Yes. But he won't find it with me. I'm sure of that.
Simon: So…you'll be content with someone else making you happy? You'll be able to stand that?! Cause I wouldn't be able to…it would hurt too much.
Magnus: Shut up, mundane! This matter is no longer your concern. I doubt that it ever was in the first place.
Simon: Magnus, I was just trying to help.
Magnus: Help is the last thing I need. I decided, as I lay next to him after the throes of ecstasy, that I would break his heart and wish him the best in finding someone else.
Simon: So that's it, then? You're done with Alec Lightwood for good, and you're okay with it?
Magnus: Sure. Yes. It's written in the stars. Now are you happy?
Simon: Are you?
Magnus: No. But I'm not made to be happy. I've accepted it.
Simon: I feel sorry for you, Magnus. I really do.
Magnus: It means nothing to me. Your feelings are simple and pathetic. So take them elsewhere and let me be. Please…
Simon: I'm sorry, Magnus…
Magnus: In the words of an anime giant: "Apologies are for convicts trying to get parole." He was right.
Simon: Have a nice life.
Magnus: I will. You can count on it.
