So here's chapter nine, though only about a quarter of it was in a school I think… T_T'''. Sasuke is slowly losing his sanity as you will notice.

Chapter 9 ~ New School

I downed the pill that I hated more than Kiba himself, the asshole who had taken to walking with them to and from school and being like Naruto's pet dog. The pills didn't seem to be making anything better, in fact, I'd never even realized that I was depressed and upset until I started taking them.

"Nii-san! You take your medicine yet?" Naruto looked in on me and I smiled faintly at him before stepping out to pick him up. We wore matching tuxedos and his hair was combed off to the side. He looked positively adorable.

Kakashi and Iruka waiting for us in Iruka's car and we climbed in the back. Kakashi had never met Iruka until he had come by to check on us while Iruka was taking care of us. Their attraction for each other was instantaneous and completely obvious. Naruto liked the thought of two people finding love because of us.

"You boys ready?" Iruka asked softly from the passenger seat. I looked at Naruto and sighed heavily. After today we might not be together anymore. I was almost old enough to take care of myself but he wasn't. I'm sure his family will want him, and could probably care less about me.

"As I'll ever be." I said in a subdued voice. I pulled Naruto against my side and rested my eyes on the way to the lawyer's office. I was so fucking tired, making official statements, appearing in court, making burial plans. There was just too damn much to do!

"Alright, let's go." They drove us and we all walked in. I noticed it was only the four of us in the office with the white haired old man.

"Well now, you're here. Let's get started." He said with a grin.

"What about the Uzumakis?" I asked, pulling up a chair and holding Naruto in my lap.

"Naruto is the only living Uzumaki now." The man, Jiraiya, said sadly. "So you two are the soul relatives of Minato and Kushina Namikaze. Now let's begin." He pulled out a folder. "Minato left a little video for you boys." He turned and put it in. I saw Dad's face on the screen beaming.

"Boys, if you're watching this, it means I'm no longer among you. But that doesn't matter. I'll always be in your hearts." He promised. "Now then, I leave Naruto with all my stocks, shares, and bank accounts. Sasuke, you get that house that you love so much. You'll keep your promise right kiddo?" I nodded jerkily and bit my lip until it bled. "Another thing, I highly doubt you two have made it to adult hood so Sasuke, it's up to you to take care of Naruto. I leave you with full unquestionable custody of him until he is of eighteen years old. No one can change this so don't fear."

"WHAT?!" I jumped up, still holding Naruto in my arms. I shook the TV with one foot. "Are you daft? Really?" I growled in annoyance as he just laughed on the screen, as if knowing this would be my reaction.

"I have full faith in you Sasuke, so treat him now. Be good for your brother Naruto. I love you both… and I'm sorry." The screen turned to static and I held the TV with white knuckles.

"Nii-san? You're shaking…" Naruto whispered.

"How could he do this to me?" I murmured to myself.

"The court refuses to deny Minato's request. You will take care of Naruto, and only your death can change that." Jiraiya said. My fists clenched. Only my death huh?

The first time I tried to kill myself was in the bathroom a month after they'd died. I was finished taking a shower when an image filled my mind. Naruto lying mangled and beaten, covered in blood and my semen.

With a shaking hand I pulled out one of Kushina's old razors. I broke it and pulled out the crappy blade. I dragged it across my wrist, watching the blood seep out. My life for Naruto's. He'd be able to go to a good family where he could forget all about me and have a good life. With a big brother who wouldn't have dreams about having sex with him.

"Naruto…" I whispered softly.

What are you doing?!

My conscience screamed in my ear.

He needs you!!

"Shit!" I grabbed a towel to stop the bleeding. I pressed into it and was relieved to see it wasn't all that deep. I bandaged it and went to my room. As soon as I was out, I felt Naruto's presence crawl in bed with me. I smiled and held him close in my sleepy state and dreamed of playing with him in a field until we collapsed and laid, breathless and giggly. In my dreams, we were a happy family. I had no lust for Naruto and our parents were alive. Itachi was there too.

The first time I wound up in the hospital I tried to drown myself. While in the shower I thought of Naruto, pressed up against the wall with a look of fear, a look I saw in my own eyes many times reviewing the tapes that my father had kept. My sexual fantasy Naruto had changed from a seductive willing older-seeming partner to a frightened unwilling child.

"Nii-san… why did you do this?" Naruto whispered sadly.

"Because I… I'm sorry Naruto." I said softly to him. I looked down into my lap and he crawled on the bed with me. He looked at my arms.

"You haven't been taking your shots?" he asked quietly. I shook my head.

"I can't reach to get the needle in right." I admitted softly. "Dad never… taught me how to do it right." He frowned sadly and took my arm. As soon as the nurse came in he demanded she show him how to do it. She showed him fifteen times so he wouldn't forget then left with a little smile on her face.

The third and fourth times were about six months in between, but one was the anniversary of their deaths. The third was just a day when I couldn't bring to pick myself out of bed but couldn't. So I laid there trying to starve and dehydrate myself. That lasted up until I got hungry. (A/N: insert sweat drop here… T_T''''')

The fourth time was the day they died. I overdosed on headache medicine and ended up being rushed to the hospital with my stomach being pumped. That was when the cops got involved.

"Sasuke, you can't keep doing this to Naruto." The officer said. "Are you even considering how he feels?"

"I don't have time to talk to you." I said softly.

"We're just looking out for Naruto. He's a great kid. We don't want to see him hurt." I looked at the door. Naruto was in the hallway staring at his feet. I whistled and he came in beaming.

"Wanna get me a candy bar?" I asked, handing him a dollar. He giggled and pulled Kakashi with him, "You think I do want to see him hurt?" I asked stiffly. I turned to the cops. "He is an angel who deserves only the best."

'Then why do you-"

"BECAUSE I CAN'T GIVE HIM THE BEST!!" I shouted. "I'M ONLY THINKING OF WHAT HIM TOO! HE'S THE ONLY THING I EVER THINK ABOUT! WOULD THIS UPSET NARUTO? WOULD HE LIKE THIS? IT MAKES ME SICK TO MY STOMACH!! YOU KNOW WHAT I REALLY FIND AMUSING THOUGH?" I shifted my eyes to Iruka who looked not at all surprised by my sudden outburst. A person like me has to have an outlet. It used to be Suigetsu but now… there was none. "Who's looking out for me? Who's considering how I feel about this whole messed up situation? I'm only fifteen! I'm working illegally in a fucking bar to make sure he's got food. I'm taking money from my special bank account, and it upsets me, but does anyone ask? Does anyone stop and say, "Is it okay? Are you going to be alright doing all this by yourself? Cause I'm not! I can't!"

"Sasuke…" Iruka hugged me tightly. I don't know when I had started crying through my speech but I was. The tears were hot and thick on my face and I was gasping for breath. Naruto came in, his head was down and he was trembling. He handed me a snicker bar, his favorite.

"Naruto…" I scooped him into my arms and rocked back and forth crying heavily. "Naruto… Nii-san's going through some stuff right now but… it's gonna get better… I promise. As soon as he finds out what's wrong with him he'll make everything better." I whispered softly. I opened the snickers for him and he ate it, not looking at me.

"Do you hate me Nii-san?" he asked softly.

"No, I could never hate you Naruto. I love you too much to hate you." I promised. "Nii-san's been feeling weird lately but he'll find out why soon enough. And then things will go back to how they should be." He clung to my arm and started to fall asleep when he was done with the snickers.

"I can't believe Minato-sensei." Kakashi murmured. "Giving such a hard responsibility to such a young unstable boy." I laid back on the bed and passed out tiredly.

"Court orders?" I looked up at the busty woman as she held the paper in my face. "By order of the fifteenth court of justice, Naruto Uzumaki is to stay with Umino Iruka while Uchiha Sasuke is in reform school?" I read aloud.

"You'll have to drop out of regular high school. But this boarding school will help you. And you only have to stay there until everything is in order." Tsunade told me. I took the paper.

"A boarding school…" it would give me time away from Naruto to clear my head, maybe take a nice shower and have some peaceful sleep. I could bury these feelings deep within myself where they would never return. "Alright. But Naruto's not going to be happy about this." I chuckled softly.

"You promise to call me every night?" Naruto asked. He didn't want to let go.

"Yes, and every morning." I said with a nod.

"And you'll be home as soon as possible?" he tilted his head to the side. I hugged him.

"God you're too cute. Yes kiddo, every day and night and as soon as my head's fixed I'll be home and you can come back too. Call me any time you need to talk; you don't have to wait if you need to talk to me." I told him. He nodded and cried on my shoulder. "I'll be here for your birthday, I promise." I said, holding out my pinky. We did the unbreakable pinky promise and he walked into the house with Iruka. He waved to me over his shoulder as I got in the car. I blew him a kiss and he caught it and put it in his pocket. He blew one back and I did the same.

"I'm not sure I want you getting over him, you're adorable like this." Kakashi muttered. I gaped at him. "It's kind of obvious to my Sasuke. I've known you long enough."

I grumbled about smartass teachers and we were on our way to Konoha Academy. It was a large castle like building in the side of a mountain. A whole section of wall was only glass and it gave me a beautiful view to the village rather far away.

"We call ourselves a school but actually, it's more of rehab for minors." I looked over at a polite woman with a kind smile. She had short black hair and eyes. "My name's Shizune, a counselor here. Welcome to Konoha Academy." She shook my hand. Two teenagers ran past me, one of them holding a bag of barbeque chips.

"Catch Chouji!" A skinny boy said with a laugh.

"Shikamaru! Don't entice him with food!" Shizune yelled!

"But we're exercising!" Shikamaru whined. He was a tall skinny boy with hair that made his head look like a pineapple.

"Sasuke, this is Shikamaru and Chouji. Sasuke is our newest family boys, so why don't you run along while he gets settled?" Shizune asked quietly.

"Alright!" They ran off laughing and I stared after them.

"The rooms are shared in fours, two bunk beds per room. Shikamaru and Chouji share a bunk and you'll sleep in there with them. You have one other young boy in the room with you. The girls' wing is on the other side of the building. Boys are prohibited there from nine pm to seven am. It's the same for girls in the boys' wing." Shizune spoke as she walked and I followed.

"What about bathrooms?" I asked.

"Each room has its own bathroom and four cabinets, one for each person in the room. There you will keep cologne, shower utilities, and such. Shaving razors are banned without adult supervision." She smiled sweetly and I smiled back just a little. She kinda reminded me of Kaa-san the way she smiled. "Now let's show you to the room. We support you to become close with your roommates so a friendship can be formed that may even last outside the school. So are you ready?" She stopped in front of a door and stared at me. I nodded slowly and she pushed open the door.

Shikamaru and Chouji were gambling for the bag of chips and there was another form on a dark green bed under the covers. I looked at the bunk above him. Ocean blue blankets. So much for clearing Naruto from my mind for a little while.

"Heey, the new guy!" Chouji said excitedly. The form rolled over and I saw a man about seventeen with grayish silver hair and black eyes (cuz I can't find a picture good enough to see his eye color. If I'm wrong, correct me and I'll fix it). He blinked and looked at me.

"That's Genyuumaru. His family sent him here when he just stopped talking." Shizune explained. I frowned deeply. I walked in and put my bag on the bunk above him. He watched me. "Well I'll just leave you boys to get along. Have fun." She left, shutting the door and I climbed on my bed.

"I win Chouji." Shikamaru said lazily.

"Aw man!" Chouji whined. Shikamaru opened the bag and gave it to him. "Thanks Shikamaru." He beamed happily.

"No problem." Shikamaru laid on his back and looked at me. "If you don't like it up there I'm sure Genyuu would switch with you." He told me.

"No, this is fine." I said. I looked over and Genyuumaru. He was actually kind of cute. He had a bad guy kind of look. "So you wanna talk about it in private or is it okay if I start shooting off at the mouth?" I asked.

"What are you-"

I cut off Shikamaru quickly. "Was it a friend from school that did it to you? Or a teacher maybe?" His eyes widened just slightly. "They hurt you bad huh? Or do you just hold your tongue because don't want to deal with your questions?" He sat up on the bunk and pulled me down gently, his eyes asking how I knew. "My name is Sasuke." I said simply, making it clear what I wanted. He looked unsure. I pulled his hair back slightly and kissed his jaw. "Does this repulse you?" I asked when he quivered. "Who hurt you Genyuu?" I nipped his ear.

"Sasuke-kun!" he gasped. A smirk covered my face and I pulled myself off him. He grabbed his throat, surprised and I smirked wider.

"Welcome to the land of the talking." I said with a chuckle. He stared at me with wide eyes. "Now tell me what happened." I urged.

"A... A tutor my father trusted very much… he threw me on my desk a year ago and… well… you get the picture." He was trembling. I put an arm on his shoulder before pulling him into the circle of my arms. "How did you know?"

"I've been there before." I said quietly. "Used by other men for their own sick pleasures. But I got away from it on my own. I told my brother." I said with a small grin.

"What did your brother do?" Chouji asked, leaning closer.

"If I tell you, you have to swear not to breathe a word of it to anyone else." I said.

"What is said in the room stays in the room." Shikamaru told me. I nodded in agreement.

"My brother killed all of them. He killed them in their sleep. And I watched." I smirked a little at their astonished faces. "I asked him to do it." They were amazed. A cow bell rang.

"Dinner time." Chouji said. "We should.. get going…" I nodded and he pulled Shika with him. I stood to go and looked at Genyuu.

"Am… Are you gay?" He asked me.

"Would I have kissed your jaw or touched you like that if I wasn't?" I quirked a brow and he blushed slightly.

"Am I gay?" he seemed puzzled. I walked to him and wrapped my arms around him.

"Let's see shall we?" I purred. I kissed him and leaned into him. He moaned quietly and I arched into him, kissing him earnestly. I ground my hips against his and reached my hands down to squeeze his ass. He moaned in surprise. I pulled back to find him panting heavily. "Did you enjoy that? Then again, it might just be because I'm that good." I smirked. He blushed darkly.

"If I wasn't before, I sure as hell am now." He admitted breathlessly.

The morning brought me a massive headache. I rolled out of bed onto the floor with a loud thump and searched my bag, which had been tossed to the floor, for my needles. I pulled out a syringe and a needle and tape. I taped my upper arm, twisted it just the way Naruto showed me, and injected myself right into the vein. I was getting better at this.

"What the hell are you doing?" Genyuu asked groggily, probably awoken by the sound of me falling.

"Taking my meds." I said quietly. This was the only medication they'd allowed me to bring. No antidepressants or pain killers or even unison. All I could do was take care of my B12 and Iron.

"Breakfast time…" Chouji groaned, sitting up from his bottom bed. Shikamaru's foot was right in his face. He squealed like a girl and fell on his ass. I started to laugh a little at first, then I burst out laughing and Genyuu joined in. I snorted and he stopped laughing to look at me. Shikamaru stared at me with droopy eyes and Chouji was wide eyed. But all four of us started to laugh, I was snorting the whole time.

"S-Stop it!" Shika gasped. He rolled off the bed and fell on his face. I laughed harder and snorted more. Genyuu turned me to him and kissed me while he was still snickering. That effective silenced my nasally sounds. This kiss was different from the others we shared. It was sweet and compassionate and it wiped my mind clean.

"You coming to breakfast?" he asked softly.

"No, I have to do something. You guys go ahead." I said. They shrugged and left and I touched my fingers to my lips. "What the hell was that?" I wondered as I picked up my cell phone and called Naruto.

"Nii-san!" He said excitedly. At just the sound of his voice, everything that just happened melted away.

"Naruto." I breathed out. His voice was so sweet. It made my mind blank.

"Know what?" he asked me.

"No, what?" I chuckled at his game.

"I'm in Iruka-sensei's office." He said. He sounded so proud. "He brought me to school with him since he comes here early. And so does Kashi-sensei." He giggled and his voice got quieter. "They sleep in the same bed Nii-san. Like Mommy and Daddy did."

"Oh really. Tell them I said to have fun." I chuckled.

"Mhm, I will. Hey Nii-san, know what?" He asked again.

"No, what?" I smiled and leaned against the wall. The urgency to touch him wasn't there, with only his voice. Just an unending amount of love and adoration.

"Iruka-sensei said I can have ice cream on the way home." I laughed at this.

"I hope he doesn't spoil you too much. You might not want to come back home with me!" I exclaimed.

"Nu-uh. Nii-san will always be my number one!" he said. "I gotta go now Nii-san. Hope you have fun in school."

"Okay, bye Naru. Tell Kyuubi I said hi." I told him.

"I will. I love you Nii-san." He kissed the receiver and I did the same.

"I love you too Naruto." I said. I hung up and turned around. Genyuu was just standing in the doorway with quirked eyebrows. "My little brother." I said with a smile.

"You're in love with your little brother?" he asked, tilting his head. I groaned and hit the desk.

"How the hell does everyone know?" I demanded.

"Well when you talk to him like that, it's kind of obvious." He said with a chuckle. I blushed slightly. "no worries, I won't tell anyone. What goes on in the room stays in the room." He said with a small smirk. "It's good to know you're off bounds."

"Man, you take that waaaay better than Suigetsu did." I muttered. I put on deodorant.

"I'm not even gonna ask. Let's go to group meeting." He grabbed my wrist and pulled me to a room filled with chairs in a circle. Rehab for minors, no joke.

"Everyone, I'd like you all to welcome Sasuke. He's struggling to come to grips with his parents' passing and his sudden guardianship of his younger brother. Sasuke, why don't you start for us today? Tell us a little about what's making you upset." Shizune said with a smile.

"Hmm… I'm not… really… a people person." I said. Honestly, I had a phobia of large crowds. Funny thing for a singer.

"Is there any way you can tell us what's wrong? Maybe without physically saying it?" she tilted her head.

"Er… um… I closed my eyes and thought of the first thing that bothered me recently. What started all my trouble this past year. Music played in my head and I knew where this was going. What kind of idiot sings while he's in group therapy? I do! –excitedly raises my hand and jumps around impatiently- I do!

"I miss you… miss you so bad. I don't forget you, oh it's sad. I hope you can hear me, I remember it clearly: the day you slipped away was the day I found it won't be same." I gulped and felt the two tears slide down my cheeks. "I didn't get around to kiss you goodbye on the hand. I wish that I could see you again, I know that I can't. I hope you can hear me, 'cause I remember it clearly: the day you slipped away was the day I found it won't be the same."

I thought of Dad's bright smiling face and clenched my teeth. "I had my wake up, won't you wake up, I keep asking why. And I can't take it, it wasn't fake, it… it happened, you passed by. Now you're gone, now you're gone; there you go, there you go, somewhere I can't bring you back. Now you're gone, now you're gone; there you go, there you go, somewhere you're not coming back."

Mom's big beautiful eyes registered in my mind and I bit my lip. "The day you slipped away was the day I found it won't be the same. No, the day you slipped away was the day that I found it won't be the same. I miss you…" I clasped my hands and bowed my head over them.

"Sasuke… that was beautiful…" Shizune said quietly. "Well, it sounds like the problem heaviest on your mind is your parents' passing. Can you tell us about it?"

"I don't… I don't really know how it happened… I woke up from a dream and took a shower. When I got out there was noises in the living room. I went in there. There were two guys, twins. I saved my mom from one but a third one came up behind me and knocked me down. I bartered with the leader and he promised me he'd leave them alone. But he made me mad… and I fought him… my dad yelled at him and he shot mom. Then dad started screaming…" My hands started to tremble. "I got away again and covered Naruto with my body… That's when the cops came. If they'd just been a few minutes faster… they might've saved them…" I started to sob softly.

I finally accepted it. Minato Namikaze was dead… and nothing would ever bring him back to me. My saving grace was dead.