Author's Notes: There are two things I'd like to point out before you read this chapter.

1) The first part of the chapter was 100% influenced by the episode "Swing". You'll find out why soon enough. :)

2) This has nothing to do with fanfic, but I'm currently writing a "Conviction" fanfic(i watched it Friday night until 3 in the morning, and then watched the rest of the episodes in thier right mind cancelled the show!? lol). If you watched it, then good, you know what happened. If not, well, it doesn't matter. Alex Cabot hires five new ADAs for her office, and if you like reading "Sweet Revenge" and this one, I definitely recommend reading the Conviction fanfic as well. I can't say why, because I'll ruin it if I do( I refuse to reveal any major spoilers). Keep an eye on it, it will be posted this week or the weekend(I'm a busy college student for the next 2 weeks. Who knows if I'll have time to do ).

Read and enjoy as always :)

-blueskies723

p.s- It's Diane Neal's Birthday tomorrow. yay. :)

Danielle was sitting in a room with white walls. She was sitting in a chair, and saw someone she didn't expect to talk to in her dreams.

"Mom?"

Her real mother, Elizabeth Rose Novak, was sitting across from her youngest daughter. Danielle noticed how she looked just like her mother with the sparkling blue eyes and the light brown hair. She couldn't believe this was happening.

"It has been twenty years, and I'm finally able to see you for the first time" Elizabeth said.

"This is crazy! Why are you in my dream?" Danielle asked

"You need a revelation, that's why. Your sister is in trouble-"

"I don't care. It's her fault that she got herself in this situation."

"No, you got her in that situation. Let me tell you something young lady, if I was living today, I would have came to that apartment of yours and smack the living shit out of you. How many times have Casey helped you out?"

"Plenty" Danielle muttered "I already held this speech before-"

"Then why isn't it stuck in your head?" Elizabeth asked "Danielle, you need to realize that both of you have a mental illness. She's not the only one suffering."

"The only one that isn't suffering is Dad. The both of us are depressed while Casey is a manic who throws vases at me."

"You know that she didn't mean that."

"She lied to me" Danielle snapped "She lied about taking her meds. That's why I did what I did."

"The last time I checked, you lied about certain things as well .People who are dead watch their living loved ones."

"I...I have nothing to say."

"Danielle, it was hard on your father to deal with me. Your sister was nine years old when I started getting depressed." Elizabeth explained "I had depression since I was 18, but I was completely happy when I married your father and had Casey."

"Then what changed?"

"It was the fact that my medication wasn't effective anymore. That's when my symptoms came back and scared your dad and Casey. Neither one of them knew what to do, but they were there for me. The way I see your situation, is that you have no idea what to do with Casey, so you sent her on her own separate way to being lonely and homeless. Did she ever do that to you?"

"No"

"Do you know why?" Elizabeth asked "Because she was there for me too. She might have been too young to understand what was going on when my symptoms came back, but Casey did everything she could to put a smile on her face."

"I guess...I'm just a horrible human being."

"You haven't been taking your meds either, have you?"

"No, I haven't. I think it's because, kicking Casey out of my life was the worst thing I could have done" Danielle said quietly "I felt so guilty. I should have at least involuntarily admitted her to Bellview instead of ruining her life and career."

Danielle started to cry. Elizabeth reached across the table and held Danielle's hand.

"You didn't know any better" Elizabeth said "You weren't there when I was sick."

"Mom, you have to be honest with me. Was I the reason why you killed yourself?"

"Of course not! At first I was excited to have another child, but then I refused to take my meds. I was afraid that the new prescription wasn't going to be helpful. When I held you in your arms, I had the biggest smile on my face. You made me happy, Danielle. It was everything else in my life that made me depressed."

"That's why you killed yourself?" Danielle asked

"Yes. I love you and Casey with all of my heart. When I held you and Casey was standing right next to me, I knew that the age difference didn't matter. I knew that you were going to be close siblings from the very beginning, and I was right."

"I love Casey too. I wish I didn't throw her out of my life..."

"It's not too late" Elizabeth said "You could find her. The last time I looked, she was still in Manhattan on the streets. Go find her and love your sister like you always have."

Danielle suddenly woke up and hit both of her hands on the piano. Callie was standing beside her.

"Danielle, are you okay?"

Danielle looked startled as she looked at her friend.

"I...I saw my mom"

"You saw your mom in your dream? Okay, now you really need to take your meds."

"There's no time for that now!" Danielle said as she stood up "Call Greyleck and the rest of SVU; we need to find Casey!"

"Whoa, did I just heard you say-"

"Can we talk about this later? We need to find my sister!"

Danielle ran over, grabbed her coat, and left the apartment. Callie stood in the same place, surprised that Danielle all of a sudden, needed to find her sister.

Danielle got everyone from the unit to look in the streets in Manhattan to find Casey. It has been almost a month since Danielle moved out, and Danielle started to worry that the worst has happened to her sister.

They have been looking for almost the whole day when they wanted to call it quits. Danielle screamed at all of them over the radio and told them that Casey did so much for them over the years. That wasn't enough, and Danielle was the only one trying to find her sister at the end of the day.

The sun was setting over the city, and the coldness of the October air made Danielle shiver. She didn't care; she needed to find Casey. She folded her arms around herself as she continued to walk the streets.

A few minutes later, Danielle approached an alley that she didn't go down. She left the crowded streets of Manhattan and walked down the alley. She looked at all the homeless people in their boxes with ripped up blankets, but none of them were Casey.

Danielle was about to turn around and go back to the main drag of the sidewalks when she saw a woman with faded red hair lying against the end of the alley. Danielle walked closer, and realized that it was Casey. Danielle ran over, knelt down, and took the blanket that was covering the woman's face. She gasped when she saw that it was her sister.

Casey's faded hair was the least of Danielle's problem. Casey was the size of a twig, and was shaking from being so cold. Danielle gave Casey the blanket back and picked her sister up. She walked out of the alley with tears running down her face as she continued to bring Casey home.

Callie was surprised to see Casey in such horrible shape, especially when Danielle was carrying her in the apartment.

"You found her?" Callie asked as she got up from the couch. Danielle walked into the room and slowly put Casey down on the couch.

"Give me that blanket over there, will you?" Danielle asked as she pointed to the blanket that was on the matching chair. Callie ran over and gave it Danielle. Danielle took it and switched blankets. Casey continued to sleep, just like she did when Danielle found her.

"Danielle, she doesn't look so well."

"She's been sleeping" Danielle explained as she wiped away her tears "I don't think she remembers who I am."

"Do you think it's because she hasn't taken her medication in a long time?" Callie asked.

"That's a possibility. I'll have to crush her medication up and put it in her food. I can't stand to see her like this."

"I'm guessing that you're taking the rest of the week off?"

Danielle nodded as she took out her cell phone and called Greyleck.

"Greyleck's office."

"Kim, it's me."

"Danielle? Are you all right? You sound really depressed."

"Wouldn't you sound depressed if you found your sister and she didn't remember you?"

"You found Casey?"

"Yeah, listen. I need to take the rest of the week off to take care of my sister. Is there any way you can take my cases and paperwork?"

"Yeah, sure. If you want me to do anything else, I'm here for you."

"Thanks. I'll talk to you soon."

"Okay, bye"

"Bye"

Danielle shut her phone and put it back in her pocket. She looked at Casey, who was still sleeping, and wondered how she could ever put her older sister through this sort of hell.