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"Naruto…" I whispered unbelievingly.
"Yes, it's me. Are you hurt?" I heard, but did not understand her, for I was so overwhelmed I felt like my heart was going to break through my ribcage. I cupped and caressed her cheeks frantically.
"Naruto, Naruto, Naruto." I kept repeating as if I could not believe my own voice. "Naruto…"
"Um, Gaara, are you drunk?" She asked in a voice that was showing she was not so sure about what was happening.
At hearing her voice again, I felt even more overwhelmed. My head was spinning at an impossible rate; I was short on air and on high on lust. I pulled her in my arms, embracing her, squishing her, inhaling her smell, repeating her name. I paid little to no attention to her tension and her muffled screams. I just wanted her closer to me; I wanted to know it was not a dream.
"Naru-koi, I love you, Naru…" I pushed her onto her back, placing wet kisses on her neck, tracing her whole body with my hands. "Naru-koi, I want you so badly." Before she could say anything, not that I would have heard it in my state anyway, I kissed her passionately on the lips, tearing her shirt and fondling her plump breasts.
I mistook her trashing for eagerness; her screaming and sobbing –for moaning and panting; her appearance –for being my Naru. At that moment, I did not know it was not my fiancée I was holding; it was the "unreal" Naruto I was…violating.
I pinned her hands above her head, me being too heavy and too strong for her to escape. I licked my way down to her breasts, cupping her bottom. I was going fast, my eagerness making me impatient. I flipped her over and licked the weak spots on her neck, still pinning down her hands. I moved against her, feeling her warmth and closeness.
"Koi…" I let out lustfully.
My right hand traveled to the area between her legs, feeling her growing sensibility. She yelped loudly and tried squeezing her legs shut, denying my desire for access.
"Don't!" She cried out, shocked, thrashing underneath me. "Please, let me go…" The rubbing of her bottom against my crotch only made me harden even more. I felt like I was going to go crazy if I did not take her right then and there. If it was not for the alcohol, though, I would have never done such a thing.
I kissed her naked shoulder, only her rent shirt covering her torso. I let go of her hands and flipped her over once again, aiming for her stomach and bellybutton. I licked and kissed my way up to between her breasts, her collarbone, paying no attention to the missing mark. She did nothing to stop me; she only continued sobbing quietly.
"Naru-koi…" I kissed up her neck, her chin, tracing her lips with my thumb. I was blind because of my eagerness and the familiar body I had pressed beneath me. I held her chin with my fingers, my lips aiming for hers. I kissed her passionately on the lips, but she did not respond; even more, she shut her eyes tighter and turned her head to the side.
I stopped dead in my tracks. I forced my vision to clear and my senses to work again. I looked down at the sobbing girl underneath me, suddenly feeling her as a stranger. I gulped, not even daring to breathe. With my hand, I turned her face to me. I had neither the strength, nor the courage to tell her to look at me, but she did it for me.
The girl opened her sapphire eyes, her cheeks wet with tears, her eyes all red and puffy because of crying. I stared down at her shocked, stunned and frozen. I did not realize I was not breathing, I was not blinking, I was not thinking, and yet, so many thoughts traveled through my mind for mere seconds.
Maybe I was going to suffocate for real, if it was not for the loud banging on the heavy metal door. I was startled; I jerked up and threw myself back, my brain reminding me to breathe. I was breathing unevenly, my eyes wide, staring right at the girl lying on the cold ground of the roof.
She sat up and covered her naked upper body with what was left of her shirt. She hugged her legs and with tears still sliding down her cheeks, she looked back at me, fear, horror, and caution in her gaze.
What have I done? Was the only thought in my mind, repeating, echoing, haunting me.
I jumped at the loud bang on the door again; muffled shouts following it, making me avert my gaze. I did not want to stay there; I did not want to meet those eyes that looked so accusing. The adrenaline cleared what was left of the alcohol and I stood up, the girl not so far from me flinching and holding her breath as I did so. It made my heart ache and self-loathing flood me.
I took off my Kazekage robes and went slowly to her, not missing her cautious attitude towards me. I kneeled down and threw the robe over her shoulders, still avoiding her eyes, but feeling hers burning a hole through my soul. I did not know what to say and probably would never think of an appropriate excuse.
"I'm sorry." I let out quietly, not able to look her in the eyes. I stood up and ran to the railing of the roof, jumping on the roof of another building, just to hear the creaking sound of the metal door to the roof opening.
"Kazekage-sama!" Guards shouted behind me, but I did not turn back, nor did I look back. I just doubled my speed, my only wish to get away from there. Nothing ever happened the way I wanted it to though. I heard footsteps advancing quickly, obviously chasing after me. I allowed myself to look back with the corner of my eye, noticing five ANBU and a few more Jonin not too far behind them.
I clicked my tongue in anger; the last thing I wanted was my own shinobi chasing me. I knew I could not run away from them, for I was already too exhausted both physically and mentally, so I decided to hide. Never ever have I thought that there would be a reason for me to play hide and seek with my own shinobi.
I made a Sand clone and let him take the lead as I jumped down the roof onto the empty street and hid in the shadows skillfully. I saw as the chase continued, my chasers not noticing that it was a fake me they were following. Feeling somewhat a little less worried, I sighed, only to tense up once again.
"Eagle." I called out in a calm voice, having felt his presence. Not everybody was so easy to deceive after all. He stepped out of the dark corners of the alley, his white mask making him stand out. Three more ANBU guards jumped down by his side. I could feel they were all cautious of me. It made me feel something I could not quite put my finger on.
"Why are you here? I have not ordered you to follow me."
"Kazekage-sama, my team and I follow the orders of Ebizō-jiisama." I furrowed my brows.
"Why are you taking orders from that old man? Do you not have a leader to follow?" I roared, angered and feeling somewhat betrayed. They all turned their heads to the side and looked down feeling uneasily. Eagle's team and he himself are my best shinobi, some of my most loyal people.
"Ebizō-jiisama used his right as a high-level honored councilman of Sunagakure to command each and every shinobi in times of need."
"And this is a time of need?" I snarled sarcastically. "What are your orders?"
"Bring back the Kazekage or die trying." It was enough. I was certain I did not want to know more. I clenched my fists and turned my back to them.
"I need to be alone." I said and started to walk away.
"We will always stay true and loyal to you, Kazekage-sama." Eagle said in a low and obedient voice. I averted my head and looked at them. They were all kneeling, one fist to the ground.
"Hai!" The other three shinobi confirmed –Tiger, Bear and Wolf. The corners of my lips curved upwards, forming a rare smile, which quickly disappeared, unseen to them. There was a hidden meaning in their words.
I took out a scroll of my dark red coat. Kneeling down and unrolling it, I poured chakra in it. A poof of smoke cleared to show my gourd with sand. I lifted it by the sash and placed it on my back where it belonged. Buckling the sash and tying it tightly, I crossed my arms and turned to look at them. My expression darkened. They took out their weapons and got in a fighting position. I spread my arms, a circle of sand forming around my feet, swirling, waiting for me to command.
"Your disobedience will be the death of you." I roared out maliciously and a blast of sand launched at them. They dodged it ably and threw kunai and shuriken at me, but it was all in vain, for my sand protected me no matter what. Tiger started at me with his katana, but I sent it flying and knocked him to the wall, probably breaking a few ribs.
Bear tried to cast an Earth jutsu, but I gave him neither the time nor the chance to do so. My sand was quicker than my thoughts, disarming and knocking out my enemy before I even commanded it to. Sand shuriken stabbed Bear in the right arm and hip, making it impossible for him to use his jutsu.
"Juken!" I heard Eagle shout behind me, and with chakra on his palm, he started to strike me. Sand twined his palm, stopping his chakra-charged jutsu and crawled up his arm, squeezing it, and then twisting it behind his back, making him cry out in pain and throwing him to the side. They were holding back, but so was I.
I decided enough was enough. Forming a few hand signs, the sand beneath my feet advanced from the ground to form a wave. It built up and blocked the little light provided from the moon, making it look even more fearful. I had my arms spread, retaining the sand wave from striking.
Eagle was sitting and holding his probably broken arm, but removed his porcelain mask once he understood my intentions.
"Naoto," I called Eagle by his real name, Hyuuga Naoto. He looked at me readily, the veins around his eyes appearing. "Protect what is dear to me." I mouthed with no sound supporting it. I took the expression of a cold-blooded killer and clapped my hands together. "Desert Wave!"
It was a mere second before the massive wave landed, and I saw Naoto nod. Sand flooded the street and landed on the four men, smashing them with its great pressure. I tried to soften the impact and lessen the damage, but I could not go too easy on them, for there were eyes watching.
Once the impact was over, I kneeled down and buried my hands in the sand. They are alive. I felt relieved. They were all beaten down and with broken bones, but they were alive. They sacrificed themselves rather than betraying me.
I started running again. Now, more than ever, I had to be outside of Suna for both my and the sake of the village. Shuriken aimed for me, but I blasted both them and their senders off. I had almost reached the border of the village when I felt a familiar chakra signature at the end of the alley; he must have known what my intentions were.
"Gaara!" Kankuro addressed me as I passed him running. "The hell are you doing, Gaara?!" He yelled by my side, but received no answer as I was watching the nearing exit of Suna. Kankuro stopped and after a few more steps, I stopped too. "Why are you leaving?" I turned around to look at him.
"I…I did something bad, Kankuro." I looked down at my hand.
"It's not just one thing, lil bro."
"I need some time and peace to think things over and I cannot do it here, where my shinobi are betraying me for some made up laws." Kankuro took in the information and nodded. I caught shadows approaching in the dark. "I am not our father, Kankuro. I will not let some old hags manipulate me."
"Okay then." Kankuro nodded. "Do what you gotta do. I will not betray you." I wanted to smile, but now was not the time to do so. I summoned my sand and blasted Kankuro off the roof we were standing on, hearing how he fell to the ground with a thud. Traitors were watching and I needed to put up a show for them to believe in. This way I would be the only one to take the blame; I did not want any of my close people blamed for it.
I jumped on the last roof before the border and then on the ground. The huge sand cliffs that were surrounding Suna offered me my escape. Not that I was going to get out so easily. An ANBU with a black mask jumped in front of me. He attacked me with a fire jutsu and shuriken, but my shield had no weak spot.
Who was he? He was not preferably strong and skilled, but I had never seen him in my shinobi. Moreover, that plain mask…I had no time to think about that then because he placed an explosive tag on the back of my sand shield. Traitor. Sand crawled up his legs, pinning him in place as I enfolded him in a sand embrace, the explosive tag he placed on me in the very heart of it.
"Sabaku kyuu!" I waited for the tag to explode and squeezed what was left from him with my sand. That was the upcoming fate of all traitors.
I took my leave once again, taking the way between the sand cliffs. At the end of it, stood the night patrols –two Jonin. They seemed hesitant and unsure of what to do as I ran towards them. They exchanged glances and got into a fight position that look more of a position to sit and drink coffee rather than fight a crazed out Kage.
I decided to ease it for both them and myself. I formed the hand signs for my transportation jutsu, much like the one Naruto uses, but without its great speed. I turned into sand and flew away.
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It was a few miles outside of Suna that I took my real form again. I was too exhausted to use any kind of a jutsu, so I continued dragging my legs and staring down at my feet. It was late at night, the moon being the only light to guide my way. I was already seeing my wanted destination.
I felt nauseous, tonight's emotion taking control. I felt like throwing up and I dropped to my knees to empty my stomach. Coughing, I wiped off my mouth, stomach acid burning my throat. Never ever was I going to drink again.
Wanting to escape the daily hassles and just be alone, Naruto and I come here. To the oasis. Only a few knew about the place; we always found peace and quiet here. I stepped on the soft grass, hearing it scrunch beneath my sandals. I came into view of the crystal water that was reflecting the moon light.
I dropped my gourd and started unbuttoning my coat. For the millionth time, I wished that she was here with me. I made a trail with my clothing, the cold air nipping at my naked skin as I was left only in my pants.
I stepped into the water, feeling it take me in. But yet, I felt so lonely being here without Naru, this was our spot, our place to be with each other. I breathed in some air and dunked my head underwater. I do not know how long I stayed that way, staring at the rock bottom, so much similar to the one I have hit myself.
With my fiancée gone, the old council members knew I was barely holding my sanity. Did they have to try to take me off my post right now? Did they have no mercy at all? They knew they could not control me the way they did my father, so they wanted me out of their way. Bastards.
The thought of sweet revenge coursed through my mind, but I pushed it away. I had precious people, now, yes, but the most precious was missing, and that made me feel all alone again. I wanted to hold her, embrace her and kiss her. I could not swallow the thought that she was never coming back again.
I felt like screaming out in anger and so I did, bubbles forming around me as I let out the little bit of air I had left. Funny, I thought, it would be so easy to just end it all. Before, I felt nothing but hatred for everyone and I had somehow survived. But now, when the person I love the most was missing, I felt like dying.
Despite the tearing pain in my heart, I could not take my own life and leave her, for I knew she would follow suit. I shot out of the lake, coughing and trying to stabilize my breathing. I crawled out of the water, too exhausted and too dizzy to walk. My pants were drenched and the cold night air nipped at my skin, but I did not care. I was on my hands and knees, watching as drops of water fell to the soft grass.
I looked up to the moon. I have done many wrong deeds in my life, but this was the ultimate punishment –wrenching your love from your arms. I griped fists full of grass, shaking with anger and dismay.
"Naruto…" I whispered in a shaky voice, gripping the grass harder. "NARUTOOOOOOOOO!" I cried out to heavens.
I used what little energy I had left to crawl to my coat. I opened my inner pocket and took out a blue ribbon with an orange naruto noodle attached to it. It was a gift from Naruto, which I always had with me. I put it around my neck where it belonged.
At the verge of my power, I collapsed on my back and stared at the moon, feeling the soft bed the grass provided. Naruto and I often used to sleep here, enjoying each other's presence. I realized I had my palm locked around the necklace. Despite my utter emotional pain, I smiled softly at the memory of Naruto.
I turned to the side, my mind offering me memories of how I had embraced Naruto right on that spot. My eyes closed on their own accord and sleep took me away.
I was known with having an unusually unhappy life, but these three days have been the worst of all, and the sad part was that I knew there was even more to come.
And with that, Gaara's POV is officially over. For now. I plan this whole story to be about 30 chapters long, +/- a few chappies. Sigh, I just wanna go hug Gaara. :(
Some of you may have already figured out where the real Naruto's at. Good, you get a cookie! x)
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