Monday morning Jay volunteered to go undercover in a new case. Narcotics had been working on it for months with little success before handing it off to intelligence. It was a major drug sting and Voight had mad a deal with one of his CI's and had set it up perfectly. All Jay had to do was pretend that he worked for another drug dealer and go to the house of their suspect to pick up the drugs. Voight had it all planned out perfectly for him and it should have gone smoothly.
The other officers were stationed in their vehicles around the block listening intently to Jay's wire. Erin was nervously chewing her fingernails. Like she always did when she was nervous and now her fingers were on the verge of bleeding. Jay was taking forever in there. The connection on the wire was going in and out, and it was making her anxious.
"Where the hell is he?" she asked Voight frustrated.
"Have a little faith kid. He's coming."
Just then Erin noticed a suspicious looking vehicle zooming past them and around the corner. Before she could even say anything Voight put the car in gear, and followed them towards the house. When a group of around five guys jumped out of the van armed and ran towards the house Voight immediately called for back up. When they pulled up to the driveway Erin didn't hesitate to jump out of the car. All of the men were already inside and she could hear gun shots.
"Lindays! Stop! You're going to get yourself killed!" Voight yelled after her getting out of the car himself.
"Jay's in there!" She said whipping around to face Hank.
"And you're going to be dead and useless to him if you don't wait for some back up." Dawson, Olinksy, Ruzek, and Sumner pulled up right as he finished.
Erin ran towards the house without waiting for Voight to finish delegating. When she got inside everyone had caught up and were on her heels, except for Ruzek and Olinsky who had went around back. She immediately saw numerous dead bodies. Some belonging to the guys she had seen coming out of the van and some that must have already been in the house.
Shots were still being fired but she was in a trans. She had to find him. She was terrified. She needed him. Rather it was just as friends or something more she just needed Jay Halsted in her life. He made her feel safe, and she was still working out what she was going to do after her conversation with Laura Dawson. If something happened to Jay she would never be able to figure things out. She knew she should have been focusing on trying to find her partner, and making sure she didn't get herself killed in the process. And it irritated her that all she could think about was their life outside of work. She was wondering rather or not she should tell him she still had feelings for him. She was wondering if she was even ready for a serious relationship if she did tell him. Would he even want that? He had told her that he loved her, but she had been so cold towards him since then.
She turned a corner and saw a familiar body lying on the floor of a back bedroom.
This shocked her out of her thoughts. She ran towards him. Blood. There was blood on him. Her heart stopped. Before she made it over there the saw him move and turn his head toward her. They locked eyes and her heart began to beat again. She knelt down beside him looking for the wound the blood had came from.
"It's not mine" He assured her gesturing towards the dead body less then five feet away Erin had yet to notice.
"Then lets get out of here" She whispered.
They made their way back to the group guns draw the entire time. He was fine and had her back again. She was beyond relieved. She wanted to tell him how afraid she had been but it would have to wait until they got out of there.
Ruzek and Olinksy had managed to catch two guys escaping through the back door, and Sumner and Antonio managed to catch another, but everyone else in the house was dead. Jay was extremely lucky to have had a different fate.
When they all got outside uniformed officers were there to haul the perp's to the station. An ambulance was there just in case although it wasn't going to be needed. Erin saw Voight storming towards her.
"What the hell was that Erin?" He yelled. "I'll answer for you. It was reckless and stupid. You could have gotten yourself killed and put the rest of the unit in danger by running in before I gave you permission!"
"He needed back up in there Voight! I wasn't just going to stand around and wait while my partner was in danger!" She screamed back.
"You better get it together Lindsay. There is no room in my unit for detectives who can't listen to me. I'm the Sargent. Remember that. Now get in the car and wait. You have done enough already."
If looks could kill Erin's evil eye would have ended Voight's life right then and there. She got into the car slamming the door aggressively. A few minutes later Jay got in the back seat directly behind her.
"Well you sure pissed him off. I got an earful after you got in the car. Apparently it's my fault you were reckless. According to Voight I am doing a shit job at keeping it professional, we are too emotionally attached, and it's inappropriate for work."
"Don't flatter yourself Halstead. I was just doing my job." She lied. She knew her reaction was and the way she ran in there was too emotional for the job.
"Not very well apparently." He replied back.
"Shut up. You weren't even out here to know what happened." She growled back.
"If he thinks our partnership is inappropriate now it's a good thing he never knew about all the other shit." He said sarcastically in a joking manner. Little did he know Erin would find it the furthest thing from funny.
She whirled her head around the side of the seat to look at him.
"All the other shit." She spat back raising her eyebrows.
That response mixed with the facial expression he immediately knew before she even continued that he had messed up. He was trying to make light of the situation by making a joke. They had agreed to be friends, and friends make jokes. But obviously it was too soon for her.
She continued "Are you referring to when you got me pregnant and then left me Jay? Is that what you meant by all the other shit?"
"Erin I was just trying to lighten the mood. I was making a joke."
"Oh okay a joke. How about the time you knocked me up and I lost our baby? How about that 'Shit" She said placing it in air quotes. "That's a real funny one. And the time you left in the middle of night. I don't know about you but I found that absolutely fucking hysterical. Oh yeah and when you came back and told me you loved me. That was part of the joke too right? Damn Jay why are you a cop? You obviously missed your calling as a comedian because you are a hilarious son of a bitch."
She turned back around feeling the tears start to burn in her eyes. She couldn't believe Jay had just summed up some of the most emotionally challenging months of her life as "all the other shit." She grabbed the door handle and jumped out of the car. When her feet hit the sidewalk she took off running.
At that very moment Voight had been walking to the drivers side of the vehicle to head back to the station.
"What the hell are you doing Lindsay?" He yelled after her.
She didn't stop. She had no idea where she was going but she needed to be as far away from Jay Halstead as she possibly could right now. Not even an hour ago she was seriously considering telling him how she felt about him. She just ran into the line of fire to protect him, and now she felt like an idiot.
Jay knew he should have gone after her or said something to stop her before she even got out of the car, but he was too stunned. He wasn't expecting her to go off like that. What he said might have been insensitive but he never meant for her to take it that way.