Chapter 10
Livin' in a world so cold
Wasting away
Livin' in a shell with no soul
Since you've gone away
Livin' in a world so cold
Counting the days
Since you've gone away
You've gone away
Do you ever feel me
Do you ever look deep down inside
Starin' at yourself
Paralyzed
-Three Days Grace, World So Cold
~EPOV~
When everything was so quiet and sad, Alice came along. It was probably midnight when Alice danced into the room. She had her iPod with her and was singing along with Sweet Dreams by Beyonce. "You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare, either way I, don't wanna wake up from you." She sang almost as good as Beyonce, but a million times louder and higher. She sounded amazing and extremely annoying at the same time. But that was Alice to me, louder, sweeter, nicer, more annoying than anyone on the planet.
"Hey Ed, I was thinking. You and Bella should come with Jasper and I to the movies. It could be like an amazing double date! Since you know, Rose and Emmet don't particularly "go out," just "stay in," said Alice.
I knew what she meant. Rosalie and Emmet usually are too flamboyant with their relationship, thus nauseating everyone around them in the process. So they stayed here or at the Hale's whenever they were together.
The hard part was telling Alice about Bella. I decided to use mostly the truth.
"Well, Alice...Bella and I didn't work out. She basically doesn't like me anymore and honestly, I wouldn't be surprised if she never talked to me," I answered.
She just stood there, glaring at me. She didn't even bother to shut off her music. She was so over-dramatic.
"EDWARD ANTHONY! What the hell did you do!?! Bella was going to be my BEST FRIEND! AND THEN YOU GO AND RUIN IT!?!?!" she yelled. "If you don't make things alright with her...no not alright. If you don't make things amazing with her, I will ring your little neck myself you ass hole!"
Oops. Alice was pissed. She was probably as mad as I was depressed. Not depressed yet, but if Bella didn't go to school tomorrow...there was a definite possibility depression would be on its way.
"Listen Alice, I really like her. A lot. I would probably do anything for her, but she doesn't want anything to do with me. Trust me, if I could, I would be on my knees in front of her begging her to give me another chance. So just leave it alone until you see Bella. Stop assaulting me." I explained. The next thing I knew, Alice slapped me- hard.
"What was that for?!" I demanded.
"I just had to get all of the pent-up anger out of my system," she smiled. "All better!"
~BPOV~
They were hunting for what seemed like hours. Heck, it probably had been hours. Too bad I couldn't sleep. I was still curled up on the floor, rocking back and forth. I had been crying the vampire way since I sat down. It still hadn't stopped, many hours later. Edward was in Forks. I was in Alaska. I had never felt this alone in my life.
I hugged myself tighter, wishing Edward was here to comfort me. He was there for me in the alley, even when he was so scared he could barely breath. I thought he would comfort me now if he were here. I stared at the ceiling, wanting so desperately to either die or see Edward. I preferred the second choice, but beggars couldn't be choosers. Relax, I wasn't going to kill myself. I just missed Edward that much, and I was being over-dramatic.
~EPOV~
After the eventful night with Alice, I woke up. It was already 7. I prayed, for the first time in a while, that Bella would be at school. She never showed. Day after day I waited to see her lovely face, to hear her soft voice. I never did. Day after day I felt my heart sink. There was a distinct difference in everything about me. I didn't eat well, or sleep well. I didn't laugh or even smile. I spent the days alone in my room with the door locked. If I couldn't talk to Bella, I wouldn't talk to anyone. I was that depressed and over-dramatic.