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Self harming warning

Gendry stared at the fire ignoring everything around him. It had been several hours since Arya had left with her wolf and she had made no return. What if she's left me again? She has her wolf, the Gods know how much she loves that thing, they could just leave. Nymeria is family to her and thats what she came back for, surely?

Gendry sighed placing is head in his hands blocking out the sight of the world. Everything was so confusing, one moment he was just Gendry and Arya was ... Well he wasn't sure what Arya was but then they kissed and everything was suddenly defined, and that fact that he was Robert Baratheon's son wasn't helping much either.

"So I guess you'll be wearing the stag from now on?" Gendry looked up to see Edric Dayne stood behind him.

"Will I?" Gendry scoffed, he had never liked the boy very much. Gendry couldn't really remember why but he knew he had always disliked Edric for a good reason.

"Yes I'm sure of it, soon you will go to storms end and meet Stannis, and he will grace you with the honor you deserve" Edric smiled softly "oh and then" the Dornish boy's smile turned into pure delight "you will be given lands and maybe even a lady wife"

Gendry couldn't help but roll his eyes at the Lord of starfall, this man i be ruling armies and he squeals like a girl.

"I can't wait to be home" he hadn't realised that Edric way still talking" and soon I will marry and my lady will give me blonde haired beauties with steel grey eyes" All of Gendry's body froze

"What?" He spat, knowing only one girl with grey eyes

"Well its nothing official" the stupid lord blushed" and i haven't even asked her yet but" anger rose in Gendry's body, his blood burned inside of him, so much so that it blocked out the rest of Edric's words.

He wad getting ready to beat the stupid lord bloody but the sound of familiar foot falls made anger leave his body, when he turned Gendry saw he was right and Arya had returned to camp. Gendry hoped Edric would keep talking about Arya so she overheard and stabbed him to death with her dagger.

"What do you think? Would she accept?" Gendry heard Edric ask

Gendry was just about to answer but Arya's voice interrupted "Would who accept?

Gendry had to stop himself from laughing but he was still smirking at the situation. He glanced over at Edric and saw he wad a bright crimson "I erm ... I ... err..." Edric was looking between him and Arya panicking, Gendry started to feel bad about enjoying watching the boy squirm

"His aunt milady, about having a feast in your honor" he intervened, he saw relief wash over the lord of starfall who was thanking him with his deep blue eyes.

"Excuse me, its been a long day and I'm still weary from todays ride" Edric said before Arya could ask anymore and they all knew she would.

They both watched him walk, well more like run away. Arya stood awkwardly behind him for a few moments then sat down next to him and began to fiddle with the dead leaves on the ground. The silence was deafening and Gendry felt like his heart was in his throat, he found himself begging for him to speak but no words came out.

...

No one spoke, everything was still but as silent as it was, it wasn't peaceful. Stupid bull headed boy, he can't even speak.

"So is milady-" Arya didn't bother waiting for him to finish, he should of learned by now.

"DON'T CALL ME MILADY" something in Arya snapped, she lunged at him knocking him on his back. Arya punched and clawed at his chest which only received laughter from Gendry and the other men watching.

"Arry" Gendry chuckled she ignored him "Arry" he grasped between his laughter, Arya carried on attacking him now inserting the random kick here and there.

There was something enjoyable about hitting the stupid bull, like she was removing all the pain she felt and showing him what it was like. What it was like to be alone, to have no one while still be surrounded by people. To have everything then have it snatched away at the last second.

"Arya!" Her body froze, the voice was so commanding it was almost like a voice she had forgotten, the voice of her fathers. She looked up into Gendry's eyes and saw the were full of anger, then his face blurred and Arya felt something hot and wet move down her face.

She jumped up away from Gendry and wiped her tears away. Stop it, stop crying, stop. She looked around for an exit for some sort of escape but found none. The men that were once laughing were now looking at her with concern. Just run! the voice was back, the deep and rich voice of Jaqen H'gar.

Arya bolted, past the men, past the tents, away from everything, away from him.

She didn't know how long she had been running for but daylight was peaking through the trees. She sunk down against the trees letting her back scrape against the rough bark. Arya could feel her skin catch against the tree causing blood to run down her back but she didn't care it gave her a release, a bigger one than she got from taking her anger out on Gendry.

Wanting to feel the release again she sunk her palms into the bark, hard. Letting it cut her, Arya watched the blood move down the tree and pool into the cracks.

Arya thought it was funny, how something so simple as skin can keep us together.

Then everything went black.

...

The men had stopped him from going after her and it had been three hours since she ran. Gendry swore under his breath at the men who had stopped him, what if she's fallen and hurt herself or if she's been attacked. Gendry thought of her beaten and bloody then pushed it out of his mind. The last time he had thought like that it had been years since he saw her again.

He had been to wrapped up in his own thoughts to noitce the large wolf glaring at him as he walked through the woods trying. The grey wolf growled, Gendry looked up finally stopping the wolf but saw it wasnt just any wolf, it was Arya's direwolf.

Nymeria's eyes gleamed at him with an emotion he couldn't quite describe.

The wolf ran at him. Pouncing through the air, it almost looked like she was flying. Fear gripped Gendry but he didn't try to run from the wolf, for some reason he desided that if he stayed it would prove his love Arya.

Nymeria didn't bite him or claw his skin off, no she nudged his knee firmly with her head them ran off in the opposite direction Gendry was heading. He didn't know why but for some reason he followed.

He followed the wolf through the tree, everytime Gendry had thought he lost her she reappeared again. He followed the wolf through a large steam, He followed the wolf over hills but there was no sign of Arya.

As soon as Gendry decided maybe he was in fact the stupid bull that Arya called him, he saw a small bundle at the base of a tree. Gendry bolted over nearly tripping up over every root on the ground as he ran.

Blood

There was blood everywhere, then he saw that it wasn't just a bundle it was Arya. Her body was slumped on the ground, her once pale skin was now cover they a red dew and slicked with sweat.

"Arya!" He yelled holding her by her shoulders and shaking her

"Arya please! " he felt so weak so pointless, Gendry screamed her name untill his voice became swore. Tears poured down his face. "Arry ... please" he didn't shout this time or shake her, his voice was a whisper. "Arry"

Then a sweet mumble came from Arya's lips, Gendry couldn't make it out into words but it was enough. Enough to give him hope, hope that Arya would live but not just live, love.

He picked Arya up and holding her how the princes did in all the stories. Gendry took one more glace at Arya's weak fame then ran.

...

She was flying, flying through the air. She move past the swirling brown and green shapes. I like flying, I wish I could just fly off, off to the wall, off to the end of the world.

"Stupid, stupid lady" the sky roared "why is it you always run off?" The shapes that were once green and brown were now orange and red.

Then everything went black again

...

Gendry watched her, Sweat was lining her face and chest. He wondered what the hell happened to her, the wounds were all over her hands, arms and back. They were different to cuts from falling, there position wasn't right.

They look like she had... he couldn't finish his sentence as he started to feel sick. Why would she do that? She wouldn't!

...

Her head hurt. Arya brought her hand to her head to try and give some relief know it wouldn't help but she still did it, as she move her arm a sharp pain hit it. She forced her eyes open and found herself in her tent on her bed, undressed.

Arya tried to bolt up knowing she hadn't walked back or undressed herself but the pain doubled and forced her back down to the bed while hissing.

Something moved next to her, she snaped her neck towards the movement and found the bull sat on a old wooden chair face down on the bed. That feeling moved in her again, the feeling that made her want to kiss and hit him at the same time.

Arya smiled to herself but she quickly stopped, no you can't. She studied his face, his tanned skin, the scars and wrinkles he had gained over the years, how his eyelashes brushed the bottom of his cheekbone and his lips ... Arya traced them with her eyes, she remembered how they gave her such comfort and safety. Before she could stop herself she was touching his face, slowly stroking his rough cheeks

Gendry's eyes flew open, Gods their blue. Arya saw how his eyes were soaked in relief but they quickly burned up with anger. He stood up and walked towards to door not saying anything.

"Where are you going?" She asked, Arya had no idea why she was nervous

"To get Paul" he grunted turning to face her

"Why?" Why would he go and get paul, he was just one of Edric's men

"Cause he's the one who healed you, you'd be dead otherwise!" Gendry roared snapping at her

Arya could feeling his eyes burrow into her wounds, he knows. A sudden rush of guilt ran threw Arya, she waited for him to say something ... anything but nothing. He just stood there with his hands clenched.

"Please don't" she gasped, Arya was surprised by how desperate her voice sounded "I don't want to see anyone" She watched as pity flashed through his eyes "just you" Arya patted the side of the bed next to her

Gendry Seemed reluctant at first his eyes dancing between her and the door but he eventually walked back over to the chair and sat in it sighing as he did.

They didn't say anything for a while, they just stared at each other begging for something but she knew she was asking for something different.

"Arya-" Gendry began

"Don't."

"Why did-"

Arya interrupted again "Please, just don't"

He snapped "So what am I meant to do just sit here, is that what you expect me to do?"

"No... I expect you to be my friend and respect what I say and want, its all I'm asking" Arya pulled back her furs exposing her small clothes "please?" She begged

Gendry gulped hard "Arya i don't think-"

"Just lie next to me stupid" she laughed watching Gendry's cheeks flare up. He seemed like a war was happening in his mind but he finally removed his shoes then climbed under the furs with Arya.

Arya could tell by Gendry's body he was nervous but when she nuzzled into him he seemed to relax again.

"Gendry" she knew she shouldn't but ahe wanted to

"Hmm?"

"I did mean what I said that night and I know I don't need to remind to you" Arya moved into him embracing his scent. He smelt like steal, soap and sweat, he smelt like home ... No thats winterfell.

That was so draining

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