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Bellas Perspective

I don't know how long it took me to get to my lesson, but i ended up in the doorway to I.T. 1. The pain in my face numb compared to the pain that was currently making its way through me. My mind was blank, as i walked into my I.T. lesson. God knows how bad i looked, but no-one was really paying attension to me. The teacher was laid back, so basically, it was just a free hour of going on the computer.

My friends were waiting for me, watching me cautiously. I made my way across the room, to my friends, and sat down robotically. I saw their watching me, but i just stared at the blank computer moniter in front of me.

"Bella, what the hell happened, you look........" Sarah said unsurely looking concerned.

I stayed silent. How could i explain this to them? How could they comprehend the pain, that a few people could inflict? How could they understand the war that my emotions were going through. Hate, or love? Easy, they couldn't.

"Bella, hey, come on, talk to us" Prodded Becky, looking genuiune.

The others were in another lesson now, science i think. I don't know where Jess J is, but i hope Jess S hasn't killed her yet.

"Bell-" Becky stopped and looked over my shoulder, taking in an angry breath.

I didn't look behind me, just kept staring at the screen.

"How dare they!" Whispered Sarah angrily, glaring at the people who had just entered.

I knew who they were. I didn't need their reflections in my monitor, or my friends reactions to know who it was. I had thier scents.

They paused at the open door, probably staring at me. The walked in, and took a seat on the opposite side of the class to me. Great! If i wanted to make a quick exit, i would have to go straight them.

My friends didn't do work, or even use thier computers. They turned in their seats and sat staring at the Cullens backs. Of course, they were all on the computers, i mean, i couldn't stop their precious school work could i? Oh no i wasn't important enough for that!! My thoughts turned acidic, but i couldn't keep t up. I was numb, well and completely numb. Only strong emotions broke through my emotionless barrier, but they soon faded away. I must be really confusing Jasper!!

But, i really didn't care. They put me through so much shit, so much pain, that they deserve the pain. of course i don't actually Jasper for what happened on my birthday. I mean, it was bound to happen eventually. But the fact that they left me, that was what made me angry. They told me their secret, brought me into their world.......then left. And i was left to pick up the pieces of their lie.

Becasue i was late to lesson, i only had forty minutes of the lesson left. Forty minutes of torture. Their scent seemed to be the only ones in the room, and it was driving me crazy. Every noise faded away, until the only thing i could hear were their fingers hitting the keyboard.

Me and my friends sat in silence for most of the lesson. I wouldn't answer, how could i?
After a while they stopped asking me if i was alright, knowing they would only get silence as my responce. I had Sarah to my left, and Becky to my right as if they were protecting me from the monsters across the room. They both stared at the Cullens backs continuously, usually muttering something about "assholes" and "bastards". I was grateful to them. I had friends and they would stick up for me. Unlike my "friends" in Forks. They ignored me, blanked me out and blantantly refused to acknowledge my presence, even Angela. But, at the time i didn't really care that much, only now did i see it.

I was actually surprised. In Forks, no-one would dare mess with the Cullens. Look at them...... Emmett alone looks like he would crush anyone with i flick of his wrist. People used to stay away from them, and, well, basically idolize them because they were so beautiful. But here..... here, people still avoid them, but for totally different reasons. Ha! If only they knew the true Cullens!

But did i know them? I mean, everything they had said and done was a lie. Every smile, every hug, was false and forced. So...... I looked in the monitor at their refection, was this the real Cullens? I was broken out of my thoughts as Becky suddenly moved.

Becky got up angrily, but was pushed back into her seat by Sarah. I was glad of it. I didn't want any of my friends any where near the Cullens.

"Are you crazy?" Said Sarah whispering angrily but i could still hear. No doubt the Vampires on the other side of the room could as well.

"What? Look at bella! This is all their fault. I knew something was wrong about them, and after Bellas Story...." She paused " I never thought anyone could be so..... cruel. Bella was right, they are monsters" I had never heard Becky so angry before. Usually she was always laughing and smiling about something. I had never seen her like this.

"I know that. I was there too, and i saw Bella when she came in" Sarah whispered back, trying to be quiet so that i couldn't hear "Something happened, yes. It's their fault, yes. But so we go up to a group of people we don't know and scream at them, no" She actually was right, it would look wierd, besides, they would probably kill anyone who shouted at them.

"They need someone to put them in their place. They need to know thye can't use people like that. I don't care if i don't know them, or if they don't know me, they soon will do. Bella is one of my best friends and i will not see her hurting like this, not when there is some thing i could do to stop it. I don't care if this happened before Bella got here, Bella is our friend now, and no-one hurts my friends. Past, present or future." She said feircly, her voice rising. I was glad that everyone else in the room was making too much noise to pay any attention.

i heard Sarah mumble soemthing in reply, and they both were getting up.

What?! They were going to go over to a group of VAMPIRES and scream and shout at them!
I made myself snap out of the.....thing i was in, and spun around, grabbing anything of their i could. Thankfully, they hadn't risen too far from their chairs yet, so i managed to snag their jackets. They were surprised.

"No. Please don't" I whispered. God, i sounded pathetic!

"Bella?!" Alarm registered on Sarahs face as she heard me, and felt me holding her jacket with a death grip only a witch can possess.

They quickly sat down, both looking at me lovingly, but i noticed, but their body language, that their plans for a confrontation were merely paused and not stopped all together. No, i couldn't let them face those MONSTERS! I won't let my friends be put in that danger.

"Please, just leave it, okay. I'm fine, really. It was just.......shock" I said quietly, willing my voice to be stronger, but it wouldn't comply. So, once again, i was reduced to begging.

"Okay, okay. We aren't going anywhere, 'kay" Said Becky settling back into her seat, glancing quickly back at the Cullens with a hateful glare, before returning her attention back to me.

We all returned to our computers, none of us doing anything. Just thinking, and in Sarahs and Beckys case, glaring.

As the bell went, everyone rushed to get out of the door, oblivious to the tension in the room. Well, mostly everyone.

I logged off slowly, and got my bag. I made a spectacle of pushing my chair under, and turning around, hoping that they had gone.

No such luck i'm afraid.

They were there, all of them. Part of my mind realised that they must all be in the same year then, but i oushed it away, too.....well...to something to care. They were all stood in front of their computers, staring at me with expressions i couldn't place. I froze for a moment, dreading walkign towards them. Would they let me leave? They were so close to the door......would they?

I found my arm being hocked with Beckys and i was being pulled along towards the door, wether i liked it or not. I was right, they did try to stop me. Emmett stepped in front of the door, effectively blocking our exit. The teacher had left a while ago, so it was just us in the room. Great!

I could feel my resolve breakign down, and i was about ready to crumble, but my friends saved me.

"Excuse me, but you seem to be in our way" It may have meant to sound nice, but it was one of the most menacing things i have ever heard. And to have come from Becky! I was shocked.

"We want to talk to Bella" Emmett said, though he sounded unsure of hmself.

"Well, i'm so sorry. But "i want never gets". So, if you will excuse us" Sarah said, standing just in front of me, talking to Emmett stronger then i have ever seen anyone. She was being a bitch to a vampire! She had guts.

Emmetts face held a defeated look, as he stepped aside and let us pass. I dismissed it.

probably just wanted to finally get rid of me i thought acidically.

I went on my way to my next lesson, with my friends pulling me along. I just wanted to curl up on the floor and give up. But they wouldn't let me. I was half annoyed and angry, half thankful and happy.

So, the Cullens are back, they are in my school, my year, in my lessons, and as the cherry on the cake, they wanted to talk to me.

Could my life get any worse?

Well.......

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Lol. I was gunno leave it there, but i aren't that mean. This wouldn't have made much of a chapter. !!!!!!!!!!!

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I was on auto pilot at the moment, just walking, barely aware of my surroundings. I remembered we had science, in Mr Youngs room, so i headed towards the buge building. However, i was stopped my ahand gripping my arm. I froze instantly, fearing it was one of the Cullens, but to my relief, it was my friends voice that spoke to me.

"Bella, we aren't gunno go to class" Sarahs voice sounded behind me, as her grip disappeared from my arm.

I looked at her confused, but then i realised. People who have I.T. together, have science together as well.

"Thanks guys" I gave them a small smile.

"So, what---" My question went unanswered as Beckys phone ding-donged from her sleeve (it's were i keep my phone when i'm at school :)). She pulled it out, and i watched as her face lit up, a smile spreading nearly from ear to ear. To add to the humour, she even began bouncing up and down, whilst turning around. Me and Sarah couldn't help it, we laughed at her.

Hang on, i laughed? Just a minute ago, i was depressed, in my zombie state, and now i'm laughing. Wow, these girls have totally change me.

After about 30 seconds, and Becky was still squealing and jumping in circles, we held her in place and asked her what was going on.

She swayed a bit, her eyes going bog-eyed due to the spinning, but she managed to answer.

"Paige is back, she's meeting us at the gate!" That cheshire cat grin never left her face, and we had to keep a restricting hand on her shoulder.

"Cool, i have totally missed her. Come on" Sarah said pulling me along as they both began to jog to the main gate.

We got there in about 10 seconds. Man, those girls can move when they want something! They leaned on the metal bars that made up the gate, and waited. After about three minutes a girl turned the corner. She was about the same height as Becky, but her hair was so long! I felt like i had seen her before.

I wasn't really sure if this was "paige", and neither of the other two had noticed yet seen as they didn't have "witch" vision. But i knew as soon as Becky squealed really loudly and high pitched right in my ear, and sprinted off towards her. Sarah just laughed with me, and we walked towards her. We witnessed as Becky jumped her, though i think it was meant as a hug, and she nearly sent paige flying.

Paige just hugged her back and they ended up laughing for some unknown reason. Right, this girl was like Becky then. That girl could just laugh about anything, and it seems like this paige was the same. We stopped,a nd let them walk the rest of the way, well, Becky bounced all the way. I saw Paige eyeing me curiously, but i didn't meet her gaze. As she reached us, Sarah hugged her too. Paiges eyes returned to me.

"Sorry, but, have i seen you before?" Paige said squinting at me.

"Erm..... I don't think so" I sifted through my memory for paige and came up empty. Nope, i had never met this girl before.

"Oh, sorry" Becky said, still smiling, the boucning had finally stopped. "Paige, this is a new girl. She moved here like, "she looked deep in thought for a moment.

"Jeez Becky don't bust a brain cell" said paige smirking. Becky kicked her, and had to run to get out of the way of Paiges kick. So this was another one like Jess S then.

"Well, she got here three weeks ago, and we sort of taken her under our wings" said sarah struggling to keep a straight face, probably imagining them all with wings right now.

"Oh my god" She looked seriously at me "They must have brain washed you" She said, with a straight face.

I looked at her confused "What?"

"Well, they are all a bunch of crazy ass fuckers. No-one would hang out with them of their own acord. No-one is that bonkers" She smirked as Sarah and Becky huffed beside her.

I smiled, and she was right. They were all crazy to some level, and i was up there with them.

"Actually, Bella is just as crazy as us, i think maybe a bit more actually" Sarah said poking me in the ribs.

"Bella?" She looked at me again, the same as before.

"Yeah......why?" I leveled her look.

"As in Bella Swan of Forks, Washington?" She smiled a little.

Then suddenly i knew. "Oh my god! Paige Corbidge of Scunthorpe! I haven't spoken to you in like ages" I squealed as i ran up and hugged her. Hang on....i was........hugging.........a girl...........i had never met. Oh!

I stepped back quickly, but still smiled at her.

"Yep, just as crazy" She muttered as she walked back in through the school gates. It hadn't ocurred to me that i had gone off the school grounds.

We were walking towards the bottom gate, the one i go through to get in here, and sat on the field. Becky was back to bouncing and fireing questions at us.

"Oh my god! How do you know each other? when did you meet? how long have you known each other? Why are you friends? Why didn't you tel me you knew Bella? Why were you so long? have you been skiving again? God, it was quiet without you Paige! Only kidding, Bella filled the silence" Did she just say that all with one breath?

Me and Paige looked at each other and smiled. I started.

"We know each other because we were pen pals for a while. We have never actually met, only through letters and photos. Paige looks alot different now. Er.... We started to be pen pals..... five years ago?" I looked at paige for confermation, and she nodded. "Yeah, five years. And we are friends because..." I couldn't answer the last one.

"We are friends because she is just as crazy as you lot, and we get along great!" paige helped me. Then she answered her own questions.

"I didn't tell you i was friends with Bella because i never thought we would meet, and you never asked me. I was so long because.....i was ill" She smirked, making it obvious she was lying. Sarah and Becky smiled and rolled their eyes at her. Must be usual for her.

Well, we are skipping class right now I remended myself.

"So, i guess, yes i was skiving. And......" She reached over and hit Becky on the back of the head "You did totally miss me" She smirked as Becky rubbed the back of her head.

So, for 45 minutes me and Paige caught up. Sarah and Becky have very short attention spans, so they soon got bored and started to play dizzy dizzy dinosoars. I was enjoying myself, i had totally forgot about the Cullens. Until........

"So, why are you all cutting class? I mean, you are usually little angels" Mocked paige. Sarah and Becky stopped playing and came and sat either side of me on the grass, swaying a little as they walked. Sarah put a resuring hand on my shoulder, and she started to tell her the story.

She had just gotten up to the part were Jess had slapped me when Paige shouted.

"What?! What the fuck did that bitch do! I knew she was getting too deep with that Cullen asshole!" She said angrily to no-one in particular.

"I know. Jess wanted to rip her head off, but we stopped her. But, they do have the same lessons...so who knows?"Becky said narrowing her eyes, looking quite evil actually.

I just sat there silently. Becky told my own story for me, seen as i was in no fir state to repeat it twice in one day. Paige was as horrorfied as the others when she was told, though she looked more angry than annoyed. She carried on the story, and i waited for the inevitable question. It came.

"Bella, when you walked into I.T., you looked........ Well, what happened? I thought you were going to get some air." Said Becky quielty.

I gulped and raised my head from were it had been laid in my crossed arms. I stared straight ahead as i spoke.

"I did go for some air, only i never actually got any. back in Forks, i was really clumsy. I could fall flat on my face on a flat surface." I sighed remembering" You know the steps that lead to the gym, near the lockers" They nodded silently "I was half way down, when i tripped. I was about to make a ver nice indentation on the floor, but someone caught me." I was glad my voice had some voice to it. that small thing gave me hope. Maybe i could get through this, if i had my friends and my gran.

I will always be here for you, honey I heard gran say in her head. I must have been blocking her with my emotions again.

Gaining more confidence, i went into the most difficult part of the story.

"I don't know which one it was, i didn't look up, i didn't want to. They put me back onmy feet, and i just turned and walked away" I ended abruptly misisng the little exchange between us.

"But, when you came in, you looked......." She didn't finish.

I sighed. It looked like i was bareing my sould to them now. "When they first left, the doctor said i was catatonic. So basically, i didn't move, speak, eat or drink. When i saw how much i was hurting my dad, i made an effort. It was hard for me to really care about anything anymore. But i tried. So i moved, i ate, i spoke. BUt it was robotic. I was empty. The pain that came when ever i thought of them became physical, and so painful, that i couldn't breath properly. My emotions were.....numbed. I had felt the pain, that was why i was catatonic for a while. I found it easier to deal with when i was numb form my emotions" I told them. I didn't look up from the blade of grass that i was staring at.

"So, when you came in to lesson..?" Sarah said almost in a whisper.

"When i saw them outside, my anger got the best of me. I couldn't help it. But when we were all alone, and they were that close......I couldn't handle it. I wanted to numb the pain" I said ashamed of myself for being so weak.

"And now? You don't look numb" Sarah said hopefully.

I finally looked up and smiled at her.

"It was you lot. You cheered me up. And that is an amazing feet, believe me. " I said from the heart.

"Glad we could help you" Said Paige as the bell went. Though none of us moved. All of their eyes were fixed on me. I rolled my eyes at them and got up, brushing the leaves and twigs off me.

"Come on. Only ten minutes of form left and then we can go home" I said helping Sarah up, while Paige yanked Becky up.

We all walked into school grounds again and we all seperated, going to our various form rooms. However, not before i received bone crushing hugs from them all, i smiled at them all, silently thanking them for their support.

I sat in the class for ten minutes, staring at the door. I hoped to god that none of the Cullens were in my form, and to my relief they weren't. However, i realised that i did have my plp (personalised learning plans. It is were your teacher goes through your classes with you and see's if you need any help). I quickly texted all of my friends from under the desk, telling them not to bother waiting for me.

So, i sat there for half an hour, bored out of my mind. I did my plp with Kate and Sam, two of the girls that i had briefly spoke to a few times. I watched the clock, willing it to go faster. After what seemed like hours, i put my book back and grabbed my bag. I plugged in my i pod, wanting to escape in my wonderful music. My tastes have changed some what. I sifted through my albums. There was Evanescence, Linkin Park, Muse, Slip Knot, Papa Roach all on there. I chose Muse' "Supermassive Black Hole", because for some reason, i find it relaxes me.

I walked out of the class, out of the building, and down the steps. I hummed along to the bassline, and turned it up to get the full effect. Due to my good hearing, the lowest bar would have been fine for me, so the highest was near on blowing my ear drums apart, but i loved it. It blocked out the world around me, and all there was, was music.

I crossed the field quickly, now listening to Evanescences' "Whisper". I was just about to reach the gate that led the path beside my house, outside the school grounds, when i was stopped. Once again i froze, but i didn't relax.

The hand on my wrist was ice cold, hard and soft. oh....good.......god. I didn't want to turn around to face who ever it was. I closed my eyes tightly shut, and begged myself to escape into the music that was blasting into my ears. But i still heard his voice.

"Bella"

It was HIM. It was Edward.

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