Two Months Later

The car whirled around the track as she sat down next to him on the couch, "Okay so I think it's time we got serious about finding a name for our girl" she said opening the baby book.

Stopping the car he looked to her…her beautiful face, those eyes shining with love, "Do you think we should be the ones looking for a name?" he asked honestly.

Her brows knitted in confusion, "What do you mean?"

"Lucky…I know Cameron has been seeing him, he is thriving in rehab, and when he gets out...you two will want to make decisions about your children"

It had been something weighing on his mind since that first night, creeping back every time Nikolas came to pick up Cameron for a visit with his father…it wasn't about jealousy but the life he had built, the feelings that had developed…it all felt like they were crashing down upon him.

Cobalt blue eyes filled with tears, "Are you saying you don't want…that this isn't what you want?" she asked.

His hand came to her face, "No, not at all…I want this, I want you…more then anything…I never knew it, and now that it's here, it's everything…but I don't…Cameron is Lucky's son, and this girl…our girl, is his too…and if you want to make a life with him; I understand" he said each other word plunging a knife into his heart.

Shaking her head, "Patrick…I want you to know something. I love Lucky, I have most of my life but I want to raise my children with you…and Lucky will never be out of the equation, he will always be Cameron's father, and this little girl…but you are the man I love, you are the man I want to be with.

Dimples etched into his cheeks, "Yeah?"

"Yeah"

He wanted it to be true…he wanted to believe that when Lucky came out, when he knew the truth that Elizabeth would still choose him…and he would try to not let the fear overwhelm him…so he smiled and pulled her onto his lip before grabbing the book, "So Dale is still out of the question?"

Two Weeks Later…

Rubbing her hand over her swollen belly she sighed, the nursery was finally complete, the last picture hung on the wall, all the clothes set up in the closet, clothes for the hospital packed away in her carrying bag.

A knock on the door and she walked downstairs, her daughter letting her presence known with a few will timed kicks in the ribs.

"Ow, ow, baby" she said opening the door.

Nikolas stood there looking concerned, "Are you okay?" he asked as she rubbed her belly.

Sighing, "Yes sans the fact that Amelia likes to play soccer with my spleen"

"Amelia?"

"Eh, we're trying it out today…Patrick and I have a bunch of names picked out and we are trying to see which one fits her best"

Smiling they sat down, "So what's up?"

"I can't just come to visit a friend?"

"Nikolas"

"Fine, Lucky is being released tonight…I thought you should know, he is moving in to Wyndamere with me for awhile…Mac is deciding if he is going to give him his job back" he explained.

She smiled tears started to come to her eyes, "That's great, I am very proud of him"

His dark eyes searched hers, "You sure you're okay?"

"Yeah, the baby, just over emotional" she said waving him off.

When he left she went up to lie in her bed…Lucky was coming home…and he deserved the truth…and he deserved it before their little girl was brought into the world…this would change their whole lives, and she wasn't sure she was ready for it.

OoO

"Why are you smiling Dr. Hottie?" Epiphany teased when he brought her his charts.

"Because I am finally, after two emergency surgeries going to pick up Mr. Chow's and lounge on my couch until my pager goes off again.

The nurse laughed, "When's that baby of yours coming anyway? Tell Nurse Webber she is needed around her so not to get use to being a Dr.'s wife and eating bon bons all day"

Baby of yours…he tried to ignore the sadness the words brought and he forced a smile, "Next month…and I will tell her that you miss her" he said before punching the button on the elevator.

OoO

Picking up the phone she dialed the familiar number, "Hey…yes Nikolas told me…I'd like to get together and talk, sure Kelly's, how about a half an hour"

When she hung up she dialed Patrick and it went straight to voicemail, "You're probably still in surgery, but its 6:30, Cameron is with Grams, and Lucky is being released tonight…I am going to go talk to him…anyway, Patrick, I love you, I will see you when I get home" she finished before hanging up.

Grabbing her coat, she locked the door behind her dreading what was in front.

OoO

Jiggling the key in the front door he noticed the lights were off, coming through the door he called out, "Liz? Cam?"

When there was no response he trekked up the stairs to find no one there either. Shrugging he went down to the kitchen and took the white boxes out of the bag before pulling out a beer. He sat down at the table to eat…but it felt wrong without them there so he took his plate in front of the television and wondered where the hell Elizabeth and Cameron were.

OoO

All her bravado driving over was lost when she looked into those azure eyes…and so many feelings she had felt her whole life came back and she lost her words.

"Lucky" she said a sad smile coming to her face.

A bright smile came to his, "I'm glad you called"

"Me too"

OoO

When the house phone rang he grabbed it, "Elizabeth…oh Audrey…oh she did, yeah well I kind of feel like…it's dead, I should have looked at that…yeah okay thanks again, talk to you later"

Going upstairs he plugged in his phone and dialed his voicemail on the house phone punching in his code. His heart sank after hearing her message…and he sat on the bed…waiting. After a half an hour the silence became stifling and he grabbed the basketball from the hall closet and made his way to Rice Park.

OoO

"Are you hungry?" Lucky asked softly.

Shaking her head, "Not really"

"Want to go for a walk or something"

"That sounds nice" she said as he opened the door and she pulled the coat tighter over her rounded belly.

When they got to Rice park she sat on a bench, "I have something to tell you, and you might hate me for it."

"I could never hate you Elizabeth"

Looking into his eyes she prayed it was true, "All those months ago you accused me of having an affair with Patrick, and I admitted I did"

"It's all forgiven Elizabeth"

"No…I didn't have an affair with Patrick, Lucky"

"What?"

Sucking in softly she felt tears wet her face, "Patrick and I never slept together while we were married Lucky…this baby is yours"

The realization of it all made him stare off in the distance, "You mean, you lied to me about my child?" he accused angrily.

She pulled her lower lip in between her teeth, "It wasn't right…but you scared me Lucky, and after you hurt Cameron"

"I won't ever forgive myself for that" he admitted.

Touching his chin she brought his eyes to hers, "I do, Cameron does…we're so proud of you…I didn't keep this baby away from you to punish you Lucky, I would never do that"

He touched her face softly, "I know you wouldn't"

"I want you to know your daughter…she is yours, and she always will be"

"You and Patrick?" he asked.

Tears sparkled in her eyes, "It started out as friendship but I love him Lucky, I want to build my life with him" she said honestly.

A sad smile came to his face, "So it's over for us, huh?"

"It's never over Lucky, you will always be my first love…the boy who saved me, who took care of me, who taught me how to love"

"I will always love you Elizabeth"

"And I'll will always love you" he said before pressing his lips against hers.

"Goodbye Lucky" she whispered after the chaste kiss.

OoO

Pain radiated through his body as her lips touched Lucky's…and the world as he knew it tumbled down upon him. He bit back the impending tears and turned around, jogging back to the SUV. He didn't know where to go, so he turned to Jakes. Once there Coleman greeted him.

"I need a piece of paper" he ordered.

The older man raised an eyebrow, "A piece of paper man…you come to a bar to order a paper"

"Not now, Coleman" he said throwing a twenty on the bar, "Piece of paper please"

Coleman grabbed a piece of paper from a desk, "Here's a pen free of charge mi amigo"

Scribbling down a couple of lines Patrick slapped the pen, "Thanks man" he said before going back to his car and driving over to the house.

OoO

Her soul felt cleansed and for the first time in eight months, she really felt like their futures were just beginning. She went by Grams to pick up Cameron only to find out that she had already called the house and told Patrick he was spending the night.

In a way she was excited about a whole night alone with Patrick. Pulling up the drive she smiled seeing the kitchen and porch light on. When she came to the door there was a paper stuck in the screen.

Opening it she let herself in the house before dropping her keys to the floor.

Elizabeth,

I know that you went to Lucky tonight, and honestly as much as it hurts, I hope you guys find true happiness…you were the first person to show me what that was, and I would never trade these months that I spent with you and Cameron. Give our girl a kiss when she comes, I know she's going to be an angel.

The house is yours, you made it a home, and I know you wont' want to keep it…but please, I want you to have it.

Goodbye,

Patrick

Shaking her head she ran upstairs dialing his cell phone number…when she heard ringing from in his room as it chimed from his night stand…and her back hit the wall softly, a lump forming in her throat, tears cascading down her cheek…what was she supposed to do without him.