I haven't had much time to myself this week. I have been working on different things for school. I am still trying to stick to my updating at least once in a weekend. I really wish I had more time to write these fanfics but I have other things to write for different classes. Anyway thanks for staying and reading so here is chapter 10.
Flashbacks and Memories
Weeks had passed since Naruto had gotten the news of his bodyguard leaving. Every time the blonde thought about the silver haired man he always wanted to call him his bodyguard. Since Kakashi had left he no longer held the title. To Naruto he was still his bodyguard though.
The blonde had been in his room for most of the week. The normally eccentric happy-go-lucky blonde wasn't his normal self. When school came around he forced himself to go, with help from Tsunade. Even when he got there he never talked to anyone for anything.
When he got home he would got straight up to his room. Neither Tsunade or Jiraiya knew what the blonde would do in there alone. They had their suspicions though that were similar to crying for the most part. Whenever Naruto came out there was no sign something had happened or that he was crying.
The blonde had completely blocked himself off from anyone and everyone. Tsunade kept having flash backs to when she had first tried to explain what had happened.
-Flashback-
Naruto heard the woman sigh over the phone and she tried to calm her son down. "I know Naruto. He left earlier today."
At Tsunade's words Naruto's heart was ripped out of his chest and the phone dropped from his hand hitting the floor with a thud. Kakashi was gone. There wasn't anymore Kakashi. No more silver haired bodyguard to protect him and ... love him.
Quickly Naruto brought himself back from his thoughts and grabbed his phone from the floor. "What do you mean he is gone? He can't leave me yet!"
There was silence over the phone for a few minutes. It was like Tsunade was trying to find the right words so her blonde wouldn't be pissed off more. "Naruto ... he came to my office earlier this morning. You were probably with Sasuke somewhere. Anyway he said that you didn't need his expertise as a bodyguard anymore."
The blonde was dumbfounded. He couldn't think of a reason why Kakashi would think he didn't need him anymore. "Tsunade why would Kakashi think that? Nothing had changed so why would he want to leave all of a sudden?"
Naruto heard another sign come through the phone. " He said that since Sasuke was back in your life then he didn't need to be around anymore. Apparently he thought that Sasuke was back to stay and since he protected you when you guys were younger he could do it now."
After the blonde woman told Naruto why his bodyguard had left he knew that he wasn't coming back. The blonde dropped to his knees and dropped his hands to the floor. He finally figured out that he loved Kakashi. He had finally figured out that he wanted to be with the silver haired man forever. Now the man was gone and there wasn't anyway he could get a hold of him.
After hanging up the phone he told Sasuke what happened and all the raven could do was help the blonde to his room and apologize repeatedly. Sasuke felt guilty for what he did. Maybe, if he wouldn't have tested the bodyguard then he might still be here. He didn't know what to do. All he could think of was to go and try to find the silver haired man for his friend.
Finally deciding what to do the raven left on schedule but instead he went to find the silver haired man that he made run away for his best friend. Sasuke didn't know if he would be ale to find him since he apparently didn't want to be found. No matter what he was going to find Kakashi.
That night Naruto stopped talking. He could only think about his silver haired protector. After Sasuke left his room he broke down. The blonde couldn't handle it anymore he had been holding in his emotions. He didn't want to cry in front of his friend and he didn't want to cry over the phone with Tsunade.
Once he was alone he finally was able to cry and let his feelings out. The blonde finally knew why the bodyguard left but he didn't want him to. Whether Sasuke was staying or not he would have wanted him to stay ... as his boyfriend. Now he couldn't help but think it wasn't going to happen.
Naruto turned over in his bed. He laid on his side looking at his phone that was laying closed on his pillow. He wanted his phone to light up and the name Kakashi to blink on the screen. He wanted to hear the deep voice of the other male.
Sighing he grabbed his phone. Opening it slowly he went to his recent calls and found the bodyguard's number. Taking a few minutes to decide whether he should try to get a hold of his silver haired man. He clicked send and held the phone to his ear. His heart was pounding because he didn't know what to say if the man answered. The thing he knew he did want was the male to come back to him and stay with him forever.
The phone rang once and then instead of going straight to voicemail the woman over the phone said that the number had been disconnected.
The blonde's heart dropped into his stomach. He didn't know where the man lived and now he completely disconnected his phone. Naruto now had officially no way of getting a hold of Kakashi.
Tears again started to fall as he lost all hope. Setting his phone next to him on the pillow again he closed his eyes as tears leaked out from under his eyelids.
That night the blonde cried himself to sleep for the first time since his parents died.
-End Flashback-
Tsunade opened her eyes and thought she should go to the house to check up on Naruto. She still had to go to work but she tried to be at the blonde's side as much as she could. Of course, that wasn't as often as she would had hoped but she thought Naruto would be happy with whatever she could provide.
She knew that Naruto had been going out to try to find the silver haired man when he wasn't at school or "locked" in his room. She didn't like it but he would sneak out and try to find him when he thought herself or Jiraiya wouldn't find out.
Tsunade didn't have the heart to tell him no or to stop. She knew Naruto would grow attached to the man but she hoped everything would turn out differently. Now she had to sit back and watch everything plan out. Hopefully, everything would go the way she wanted it.
Again Naruto sat up in his room. He hadn't been out looking for Kakashi yet today. He had called the male's phone again to see if the number was connected. After weeks of trying Naruto wasn't expecting to have Kakashi answer. He just couldn't sit in his room day after day without trying to do something.
Rolling over on his bed he looked up at his ceiling. He put his hands behind his head and looked up into white. He remembered laying like this when Kakashi was still around. He would blink his eyes open to wake himself up but he would always feel a warmth coming from his side. The first few nights the bodyguard started to sleep with him it took Naruto a while to get used to the feeling. Luckily, it didn't take long to warm up to the feeling of waking up to someone else being in his bed.
Now he couldn't get used to waking up alone. He was so used to having an arm wrapped around his stomach or waste. He was used to feeling a strong chest holding him close and protecting him. He couldn't get used to sleeping alone now. No matter what he did he needed to have that warmth back in his bed.
With new found determination the blonde threw himself up and ran to his bedroom door grabbing his coat. It was getting colder out and soon it would start to snow.
Running down the stairs Naruto threw on his shoes and ran out in the cold. He looked everywhere he could think of but it didn't hurt to look in those places again. Over the weeks of looking he had looked everywhere.
Now he had a system of looking. Everyday starting with Monday he would look in a certain spot. With every new day he would look in a new spot that was assigned to that day. The number of spots in a week he would look would be seven. As another Monday rolled around so would the spot he started with in the beginning of the week.
He knew Kakashi loved him or else the silver haired man wouldn't have kissed him. Since he initiated it and then felt foolish after the blonde didn't respond. He knew in the bottom of his heart he needed to find the silver haired man.
Deep in his stomach he felt like something bad was going to happen anyway. He couldn't put his finger on it but he just knew that if he didn't find his male then he might not ever have him.
Walking down the sidewalk the blonde brought himself to the first place Kakashi and him went, the park. Before that he had stayed in the house with the silver haired man.
Walking down a paved path he came to the bench they sat at. The football they found was no longer sitting in the grass. The kid that lost it probably came back a few days later to claim it again.
Sighing Naruto sat down on the bench in the same spot he had a while ago. He watched kids run around the park with their hats and mittens. Their coats zipped up meeting a fuzzy scarf that surrounded their neck.
Looking around some more he saw a vendor that sold hot liquids. A couple walked up to the cart holding hands. They were also bundled up for the coming cold. They stayed close together while they ordered. Once they ordered the man pulled out his wallet and paid for both of them.
Closing his eyes Naruto thought back to when Kakashi and him went to the park earlier in the month.
-Flashback-
Naruto's stomach groaned as the two men walked past a food vendor. Kakashi and his charge had been outside all day. Since Naruto always sat in the house the bodyguard wanted to get him out and do things. It didn't matter if he was just walking around the park admiring the scenery.
The silver haired man looked down at the now flushed blushing face of the blonde he was protecting. "If you are hungry then you can just say something."
Pouting a little Naruto looked up then back at his feet. He had forgotten he was blushing and he knew that Kakashi would be able to tell once he looked at him. "I would get something to eat if I had brought my money."
Laughing a little Kakashi went to the vendor and ordered himself a hotdog and a bottle of water. Then, he turned and looked at the blonde waiting. "Are you going to order or do I have to order for you?"
Taking a few moments to think Naruto brought his hand to his mouth thinking. Kakashi was happy that he had his mask on because he would have been embarrassed if his charge would have saw him blushing. It couldn't be helped the blonde was cute even when he had no idea what he was doing. At the thought Kakashi smiled. He had the blonde all to himself and he couldn't have been happier.
Finally, Naruto decided to order the same thing Kakashi had ordered. After the order Kakashi grabbed his wallet from his pocket and paid for both of them.
"I will pay you back Kakashi when we get back to the house." Naruto said as he grabbed his hotdog from the vendor and a water bottle.
Smiling Kakashi did the same thing. "Don't worry about it Naruto. This date wouldn't be a date if the girl had to pay for his meal."
Naruto blushed when his bodyguard called this a date. Then, it clicked in his head that Kakashi had called him a girl. "Kakashi! I am not a girl!"
Laughing the silver haired man started walking back to their house. He couldn't help it when a situation presented itself to piss off his blonde. Half of what he said was true though. If he would have let Naruto pay for his food then it wouldn't be a date would now would it?
At Kakashi's laugh Naruto calmed down. He couldn't help that the man had a voice of an angel. It was rare for him to laugh so when Naruto heard it he tried to remember how it sounded.
Smiling to himself he ran to catch up with his bodyguard eating his hotdog.
-End Flashback-
Naruto's eyes blinked open. His eyes were slightly glazed like he was about to cry. In fact, he was about to cry. He remembered how happy both of them were to just be around each other.
Sadly, he couldn't remember the silver haired man's laugh. No matter what he did he couldn't remember how it sounded.
The blonde took a couple breathes to steady himself. Then he heard a familiar voice behind him.
Quickly turning around Naruto tried to find the mop of silver hair. "Kakashi!"
What he saw didn't make him happy it just made him go back to his normal self. "Oh ... Hi Sasuke."
The raven sat down next to his blonde friend. "Naruto I heard that you haven't been talking to anyone and you stay in your room all day. If you aren't in your room then you are out here looking for Kakashi."
The blonde looked at his friend. "Does it matter? I don't think it matters what I do. All I want his for him to come back."
Sighing Sasuke looked a head watching the kids play. "You can't be tearing yourself apart about this Naruto. He is a bodyguard if he doesn't want to be found he obviously has ways of making it so no one can get into contact with him."
Naruto looked back at the ground. He knew Sasuke was right but he just didn't want to give up. "Sasuke ... I can't just give up. I have a bad feeling like something has happened to him or something will happen to him soon."
"Come on Naruto lets go back to the house. I am going to be staying with you for a week or so. You can talk to me all you want or need to when we get back." Sasuke stood up and waited for his friend to stand up also.
When the raven had saw the blonde he couldn't believe it was Naruto. He looked so unhealthy. His face was skinny to where someone could easily see his cheek bones. They were defined before but now they were too defined. They had an unhealthy look to them like the blonde was starving himself.
The once tan and bright skin was now dull and pale. He wasn't as pale as Sasuke. But, since his friend was already tan the starvation had given his tan a dull look. This made his skin look unnatural.
The bright blonde hair that always stood up in spikes and fluffy as some people would describe it wasn't there anymore. The blonde hair didn't have its normal shine to it. The spikes weren't fluffy and sticking up everywhere. The hair was matted down like something was holding it down like a hat or hood from a sweatshirt. The raven figured it was the later since Naruto was wearing a sweatshirt with a hood. It was like the blonde was trying to hide from everyone including himself.
The last dead give away that the blonde had given up on himself were those eyes. Those bright vibrant azure eyes would always hold so much life in them. They would always hold some happiness even on his saddest days. Now when he looked into them he saw absolutely nothing. He didn't see any life in them. They held no shine and they looked dead. Even when Naruto would lay eyes on his long time friend he would smile and those eyes would light up with excitement. This time nothing happened for a minute when the blonde turned around he saw something spark but when the blonde figured out who he was it immediately left.
Finally Naruto decided to stand up and follow Sasuke. He didn't want to leave his spot on the bench because it made him feel better in an odd way. Sitting on the dull piece of wood made him remember times with his lost bodyguard. Since he knew Sasuke was right he couldn't argue. All he could do was follow his raven haired friend and hopefully everything would get better.
Naruto and Sasuke started walking down the sidewalk to the blonde's house. Naruto was in his own little world thinking once again about his bodyguard. A noise then pulled him out of his thoughts and it made Sasuke turn around to look at his friend.
The blonde was digging around in his pocket for his phone. He then pulled it out but he didn't recognize the caller i.d. He contemplated not answering it because he never really answered numbers that he didn't know. He thought about Kakashi and that he had changed his number. Hoping it was the silver haired man he answered the phone.
"Hello?"
"Hello. Is this Naruto Uzumaki?" Said a woman's voice through the phone.
The blonde had a confused looked on his face. He didn't know may girls and the ones he did know he had the number's for and they knew his phone number. "Yes, who might I ask is calling?"
He heard the woman let out a breath over the phone. "Mr. Uzumaki would you happen to know a man by the name of Kakashi Hatake?"
Naruto's face lit up. Someone knew where his bodyguard was and hopefully they would tell him so he could finally see him. "Yes, I do know who you are talking about!"
Once the blonde heard how the woman sounded he lost his smile. He knew something was wrong and he was about to hear what it was. "Mr. Uzumaki Mr. Hatake put your number down for his emergency contact incase of an accident. I am sorry to tell you this but he was seriously injured in an accident this morning and we haven't been able to get a hold of you until now."