What
Are You ?
by AkashaLuna
tenth chapter
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Sorry she left ... that kinda thing happens ! If your easily made sad by fanfiction (like myself) .. get your tissues at the ready!
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EPOV
I stood there, staring at the 'sisterhood'
I couldn't believe Bella had treated me like this. I brought her into my home. What a fool!
Bella stood there, looking at them, her fate, good ridence.
Though, i couldn't bring myself to leave.
Victoria slow clapped, patronising Bella, "Well done Bella" she amended happily.
I could tell what was coming, but i was helpless to prevent it. Hell, she deserved it.
Victoria's hand smashed onto Bella's cheek, her nails opening wounds across her cheek. Her hand remained over the wounds.
My mind told me to protect her but my body wouldn't move.
I reached into Bella's mind for an answer.
....
She stopped the healing process ?!?! She would be scared for life ?!?! Cruel, unjust, wrong!
Through this Bella never fought. She stood and took it. So weak.
Victoria dashed the blood away on her tattered jeans and returned to Bella with spite.
"That's for fucking up his life! You pathetic slut! You leave us and look what happens! Whore!" she cursed at her. Smiled and pulled her into a gentle hug, "welcome back, hunny"
I couldn't understand it.
Bipolar vampire ?
My mind didn't understand how to address the words she had pelted at Bella.
Dismissal is easier.
The sisterhood began walking away, holding eachother and laughing. Bella stayed put.
The sob that escaped her lips could have killed me.
STOP CARING CULLEN!
Her hand touched her face then she pulled back to look at it.
Why me? She thought.
Because you deserve it!
Did she?
Her hand was about to wipe itself on her clothing instinctively, she paused
I can't, what would Alice think
Now i came up blank. Why should she care. Every word from her had been a lie. Heresy. Propaganda. Hurtful.
She stumbled to a tree and used leaves to wipe the blood from her hand.
She sighed heavily, dropping the leaves on the floor.
Her body began to turn.
I froze.
Then she saw me.
Her eyes widened. False hope.
I altered my expression to complete hardness. Slight confusion slipped through uncontrollably.
To my utter amazement she didn't try to get into my head.
Why is she doing this?!
She lingered on me, then turned and trudged to Victoria and her sisterhood.
I was about to run when i heard her thought one last time.
I'm sorry for everything and there was one thing i didn't lie about. I love you Edward Cullen.
Liar.
She can't be telling the truth.
She continued after her sisterhood and was soon out of sight.
I couldn't move.
Why did she lie again.
Utter those last words to me.
Letting me believe her many times.
She couldn't break my heart. That hadn't worked for years
However she did pummel my hope. My faith. My trust and my love for her.
She loved me?
I couldn't handle the thoughts.
I turned and ran at full pace home. Lunging from the yard straight through into my bedroom walldoor.
I noticed a streak of black perched on my bed, holding a strangely familiar piece of fabric.
"I'm so sorry Edward, i should have seen it sooner. I could have helped!" Alice shook slightly, holding the fabric tightly, puckering the edges.
All my emotions faded.
My sister was what mattered.
I swiftly darted to her side and knelt in front of her.
Running my hands over her face and grasping her shoulders.
"Alice, it's not your fault. It was going to happen. Don't blame yourself" i begged
"You love her, i could have helped" she refused to let it go
"I know Alice, she would have left anyway. She never loved me, she told me. It's okay, please don't blame yourself!"
Her body stopped shaking. Her hands loosened around the fabric and she stood abruptly, knocking me onto my ass.
"Alice, what the f-"
"DON'T YOU WHAT THE FFF ME !" She shouted at me
I was stunned, i had never seen Alice this angry.
She began stepping towards me menacingly, i shifted away from her with each step she took, afraid out of my mind. Jesus this pixie was scary with pmt!
"Bella Swan loved you Edward Cullen. If you're so retarded as to not see that, then your more delusional than i thought!"
I stood up, ready to stand my ground.
"Alice! That is exactly the point, i'm delusional. Bella said she didn't want me!"
"She also said she loved you!" Alice protested, poking my shoulder hard. OWWW!
Don't give up Edward Cullen!
"She said it meant nothing!!"
For 5foot1 she was pretty dominating right now. Alice fired back at me once more.
"SHE ALSO SAID SHE WAS YOURS!" jabbing my shoulder once more
I remained quiet, partly for the fact i had nothing else to say and partly for the fact she was actually really hurting my shoulder and i didn't want to cry in this situation.
"SHE TOOK A FUCKING CHUNK OUT OF A GIRL FOR HOLDING HER AWAY FROM YOU, THEN! SHE PUMMELED TWO MORE INTO THE GROUND FOR ADMIRING YOU!"
She did?
"SHE BEGGED VICTORIA NOT TO HURT YOU!" she jabbed against my chest hard. I tripped over a journal and fell on my ass.
"SHE GOT HURT TRYING TO PROTECT YOU!" Alice loomed over me and jabbed harder into me.
"SHE SHOUTED, 'HE'S MINE'!" more pokes ow ow fuckety owww!
"SHE LEFT WHEN YOU TOLD HER TO! SHE FOLLOWED WHATEVER YOU SAID!" her face was turning redder and she poked even harder this time, rupturing a small hole in my shirt.
"AND MOST IMPORTANTLY!" she calmed down slightly and stepped back, "She didn't destroy the clothes i gave her!"
I would have laughed but i was still on the verge of shitting my pants.
I was speechless
Maybe she did love me.
I loved her.
So much.
With every part of my body.
I wanted her.
I rejected her.
"And if you can't see she loved you, even after she told you!" she stared at me incredulously up and down, shaking her head in disgust, "You don't deserve her!"
She threw the silky fabric in her hand to the floor, where it drifted and settled.
Alice huffed and stomped out of the room shaking her head. Slamming my door. I heard muffled conversation below me.
Ignoring it i sat up, crossing my legs.
My head fell into my hands.
How could i be so stupid.
She loved me.
And i let her go.
I released my head and took in a big gasp of air.
Her scent was still in the air.
My body still longed for her.
Something caught my eye.
The silky fabric on the floor.
What was Alice holding?
I crawled forward on my knees and retrieved it. Pulling it back into my lap.
I unfolded the off-cream material and caught my breath as soon as i realised.
The nightgown...
I held it up by the straps.
How foolish it looked without Bella's perfect form inside it.
How her blood still lingered in the fabric.
Her scent all over it.
The way she looked at me when i told her the thoughts she wanted to hear.
The way she touched me.
The way she felt.
Everything about her.
All of it was gone.
This was all that remained.
I pulled it to my face and buried myself in the cool fabric.
Breathing deeply
What have i done...
Maybe she was still close?
Could she still hear me?
Bella i begged I love you, so much, i can't comprehend.
come back to me ...
come back to me .........
come back to me ..............