Sorry it's taken so long to update. I hopefuly will be able to update my other stories soon. Life got in the way slightly, not to mention a bad case of writers block.
I can't help my hands becoming sweaty as my heart rate increases, every nerve in my body is screaming at me to run. To hide away. It that's me back to living with my parents. No one could understand me. Not fully, but Amy tries, not because she needs to, or because she has to. It's because she wants to, she wants to know the real me. The only problem I have is, I've hidden myself for so long I don't know who I truly am. I swallow slightly as I hear them coming down the hall.
I close my eyes slightly in an attempt to block her thoughts, no wonder Amy gets a headache. "Hi."
"Sarah this is Emily." I can't help looking her up and down, as though I am sizing her up. Maybe I am?
"Nice to finally meet you." I don't think I've ever seen someone with a smile like that.
I stretch out my hand, I just need to remind myself. I can do this. "Nice to meet you too." I can feel my skin twitching, the hairs standing to attention as though they are waiting for something. Panic. That's what I feel, a deep seated panic.
"So what brings you here?" I can hear the firmness in Amy's voice as she speaks and I am unsure if it's a nice tone or not.
"I was worried about you." I hear her sigh and I can't help frowning at Amy.
"I told you, I am fine. I promise Sarah." Her arm snakes around my waist as though she is holding on to me so I don't bolt. "I'll go make us all a drink." She gives me one last squeeze before she disappears into the kitchen.
"How's college?" I know I am biting the inside of my lip and I am almost certain she can see it. I take a breath.
"It's going okay." I was grateful it didn't take Amy too long to reappear.
Have I been side-line that much that I truly don't know how to talk to people? All the classes in the world can't teach you that. I relax slightly as Amy sits down next to me, her arm automatically snaking around me, pulling me closer to her.
"What have you got planned for the weekend?" Her mind it like a treasure trove.
"Going to Peters and watching a film, I heard he might even light the barbeque. You should come?" I tense slightly at the offer.
Okay maybe I am not ready for this. Not ready to be judged yet again by people, people which are older than me. And what would happen if they found out. I trust Amy. I know she would never betray me like that.
"I told you Sarah, I want to spend time with Emily, besides we've got to get everything ready, we go away in a weeks' time." Her voice seemed softer this time as she spoke. "And honestly after this week I need some time away." I could feel the tension travel through her body as she spoke.
"Maybe next time?" I chuckled slightly.
"Maybe."
I was still tense I couldn't help it. She was giving me such a headache, it wasn't her fault and as harmless as she is. Her mind isn't. my hand rests on Amy's leg.
"You okay sweetheart?" I close my eyes as she speaks.
"Do you mind if I call it a night." I say it in such a hushed voice it is more like a whisper.
"Headache?" She asks me as I nod. "I've put the pain killers on the nightstand. I smile my thanks before bidding them goodnight.
"Nice to meet you Sarah." I give her a slight smile before kissing Amy on the cheek. "Night." I can't help the slight blush that covers my cheeks.
"Night sweetheart."
"She seems nice" Sarah said softly as she watched Emily walk down the hall.
Amy chuckled slightly. "She is, she just extremely shy," she closed her eyes slightly. "I thought I told you guys I wanted to be left alone this weekend." Her voice had a slightly firmness but she knew Sarah. Sarah worried about everything, her heart was so big, Amy didn't think it would be possible to find another sole like hers. So kind and pure.
"I know, I just."
Amy chuckled slightly as she cut in "Worry." Amy shook her head slightly. "I'm fine. I promise, I know you may find it hard to believe."
"After what happened today yeah. I'm finding it hard to believe" Sarah said softly.
Amy sighed, she cast a glance towards the hallway. "She makes me okay." Amy said with a slight blush.
"you love her?"
"I already told you I do. Sarah, I can't explain it but with her. I'm whole, no matter what happens at work. No matter how bad it gets. I see Emily and all that melts away. The pain the hurt everything just." She paused.
"Your soulmate." Sarah said slightly amused, "thought you didn't believe in that stuff." She teased slightly.
"I don't" Amy mused. "I just know she's the one."
"She's very shy." Sarah said with a chuckle.
"You have no idea." Amy placed her glass down on the coffee table. "I think I need to Call it a night. I'll see you at work. Okay?"
Sarah nodded, "Just so you know boss, she seems nice."
"Good night Sarah." Amy said as she closed the front door, she leaned her back against the hard-wooden door allowing it to ease her sore body slightly.