CH 9 TRAINING AND LOVE

*Authors Notes*

I am deeply sorry for not writing for awhile a lot has happened with finals, work, transferring to another school, and pulling the muscles in my right shoulder causes me to fall asleep due to the med's I am on. I just wanted to thank She Wolf for reviewing my first ever thank you for your kind words and encouragement towards my writing it means so much. I don't own Red Dawn just Lilly and William.

*Lilly POV*

Dear Diary,

This war we are under is scary and terrible one we are just kids fighting like grown-ups for our people. No child should ever have to be thrown in this way of life the will to live to fight. A lot of adults would say we are just children scared kids that we have no idea what we are doing what we want to gain for all this. The thing is we train everyday to fight hand on hand or how to handle a gun to shoot to kill someone a stranger. I honestly do not know if I could ever kill anyone I never had to take another's life before the thought of it sickens me so I would have never thought I could be a killer taking a father away from his children his wife but we must if we want a life worth living. I still think about my family the way they died right in front of me my sweet little sister lying there motionless never to walk, to dance, or to ever to write the sweet words down on paper ever again. I am so luck to still have Jed, Mattie, and William they are the only family I have left I know I would be heartbroken if anything where to happen to them. Then I think of sweet kind hearted Robert I do believe I am falling in love with him every seconded we share together. I could not picture a life with out Robert he is the light the happiness that holds my life together during all of this. Well I have to go we are training again today I really do wish the guys would take it easy on Robert he is trying he's just scared we all are.

Love,

Lilly

I closed my book sticking under my covers I know its silly but I don't want to forget what happens here. I lace my boots up grabbing my jacket as I follow the others outside to begin todays lesson. It amazes me how clear the birds sound out here its peaceful but I know if I stop to think like that it will put me in danger it will put the others as well in danger so I must not think like that.

"Okay everyone make a wide circle I want to try something Lilly stand in the middle now the lesson today is combat from all over so I want to two people to step up and come at Lilly then two more until everyone is sparing against her Lilly I want you to defend your self against all of them" Jed as I heard William and Robert speak.

"Jed you can't do that's a un-far fight," said William

"Lilly come here" said Robert as I walked over to him "yes" I said " I can't fight you don't have to do this" he said looking at me "I'll be fine okay and don't hold back on me" I said kissing him softly on the lips. I returned to the middle as Jed called out his name and my brother as they came at I did the first thing that came to my mind I ran straight for them doing a layout as I landed behind them tripping them up as the got up again as Jed swung at me as William grabbed me from behind as I kicked off from the ground kicking Jed square in the jaw as I used all my strength to wriggle free from my brother kicking him in the chest as Mattie and Danny were called in then Toni and the other girl and then her brother and Daryl then lastly Robert. When I saw Robert step up I froze for a second letting just that moment my defense to be down as Mattie tackled me landing on top of me as I looked up I saw him smile as I head butted him then elbowing him in the gut as I got up as Robert tripped me up.

*Robert POV*

As I tripped she grabbed on to my shirt pulling me down with her as I landed on her. I grabbed her arms pinning them down as I hovered over her smiling "Are you okay" I asked looking at her checks where pink from the cold, her hair was starting to fall out of the messy bun she had in, her lips looked chapped and her eyes simply just sparkled. If I where to have known what she was planning I would have moved as I felt her knee me in the gut as I rolled off of her as I noticed everyone else where still on the ground as Jed told us to go back inside. Seeing this vision of beauty walk up to you holding out her hand as she pulled me on to my feet I pulled her body closer to me as I kissed her on the tip of her nose as I softly whispered to her as I brushed a piece of hair behind her ear.

"Are you okay?" I asked. "I'm fine nice job you got me down," she said smiling at me.

"Lilly I need to" I was stopped by her lips on mine "it can wait okay lets just enjoy right now" she said kissing me again I laid my forehead against hers stroking her check "your amazing you know that right" I said kissing her softly not rushed. I was going to take my sweet little time with this girl some how deep down I knew this was not the end just the amazing unbelievable beginning for us. I grabbed her hand pulling her to the hideout sitting down pulling her down on my lap. "Hey Jed is your old guitar in the truck" asked William "yeah should be" he said looking for it as he pulled it out handing it to Will "oh I can't play but Lilly can" he said smiling. I felt Lilly take the instrument strumming a few cords as she started to play a song unknown to me and the others by the looks of their faces as we all heard the last note everything felt calm so surreal to us right now. The whole time I could feel her brother's eyes on me I looked up to see him holding his hand out to her.

*Lilly POV*

I followed my brother out of the opening of the tunnel as we walked to a bunch of rocks "so you wanted to talk" I asked sitting down looking at him. "Yeah so you and Robert you like him a lot don't you?" he asked me his checks turning red feeling embarrassed about the topic. "Are you blushing? "Pushing him with my shoulder "can I be honest with you" I asked looking at my brother for a sign to keep talking I saw him node at me "I think he could be it you know the one I mean I don't know everything is so confusing right now I don't know if my feelings are true or just if I am scared to lose him" I said looking at him " okay answer this how does he make you feel" he asked "safe loved that nothing can touch me as long as I know that there is a place for him here I smile like I never have with anybody else I'm scared, excited, bewilder, and terrified at the same time" "does that make any sense it's hard to put my feelings in to words" I said looking at my brother "it does I understand trust me that one special person that makes everything so clear that everything is so new the feelings, touch, and sight of it all like the fog rolled away and everything is so beautiful that you don't question anything." He said smiling " could not have said it any better myself" I said smiling hugging my brother "thank you for talking to me about this mom usually does this and dad would be the over protective father I miss them so much William that it hurts so bad" I said as a tear fell down my check " Mom and Dad would want us to be safe happy they would want you to fall in love get married have children they would want you to be truly happy and if Robert makes you happy go for it all heartily" He said smiling "come on lets go in" he said standing " in a minute can you send Robert out here I need to tell him something" I asked looking at him as he nodded his head not even seconds later Robert stepped out "Hi we need to talk" I said " Your going to break up with me aren't you" he asked stepping in front of me " Nope om Robert what where you going to say earlier today but then I stopped you" I asked looking at him " Oh om I was going to tell you that I.. I … love you" he said looking down " I smiled standing up closing the space between us " I love you to Robert more then I have anyone else" I said as I felt him grab me kissing me forcefully as we sat down.

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