A/N So I never thought I'd write something like this. D: This one is long for you reviewers! Thank you so much to Danielle, Leilerz, LoeLoverX, KIBM, and DreamInTechnicolorx. I really like this chapter because it has such a big twist. (x I've written up to chapter 16 and sometimes I get carried away and write TOO much sometimes. I hope you enjoy!

Warning: references to drugs, alcohol and sex.

Disclaimer: I do not own Hanna Montana or the Jonas Brothers.

Lilly's POV

Escape.

I wanted an escape, a getaway. Dancing and skateboarding were like my getaways, but I can't do that now. In this stupid condition. An escape away from reality. I know some people who feel like drugs are their getaway, taking that hit and feeling as if they're on cloud 10. Then the ones who feel like drinking helps them escape their pain. There are ones who use sex as an escape. But I don't want that. I don't want any of that. I want my own getaway from reality. Maybe that's why my mom got me that diary. Maybe she knew that I needed a place to runaway to...

The plan isn't working. Jake's stupid plan isn't working. I don't know what it is, maybe Miley's not jealous and genuinely likes Shane, or maybe she caught on so she's pretending not to notice. I can always catch a glimpse of jealousy in her eyes, but it would go away quickly. I told Jake I'd give him one more week, if it doesn't happen by then, I'm done.

"Bye y'all! I'll see you guys next time! Goodnight!" Hannah shouted into the mic and ran back stage. The crowd was cheering. I looked up only to hear her announce to our friends," We'll be having a celebratory party/ sleepover at my house!"

I knew I wasn't invited. I don't even know why I even came to this concert. I looked up and saw everyone staring at me, but I heard Miley whine about something and they all turned their attention back to her. Maybe I just don't belong with them.

Jake dropped me off before he headed to Miley's, I slowly limped my way upstairs and pulled out my diary.

Dear diary,

Sometimes I feel like I never belong. Like I'm the black sheep out of all the fluffy white ones. I feel like a canary in a cage full of hawks. I don't belong... Mom has been out every night this week, coming home late. Drunk. Dad... He hasn't apologized. He moved away with his now fiancé to Seattle. I want to hate him for hurting me, but I can't. I can't hate my dad. He helped give birth to me. He taught me how to surf, skate and snowboard. He went to all of my dance recitals, to all the games just to watch me cheer. I can't hate a man like that. But he hurt me. He hurt mom. How can I forgive him for that? He tore apart a family because of one stupid mistake. He claimed mom was too busy for him, but she's CEO of Hollywood Records for goodness sakes... I want to runaway and never come back. Runaway from reality. Along with family problems, there's the dilemma with my friends now too. I don't know what to say...

Lilly.

I closed it and placed it in my nightstand. Tears were falling now and I was frustrated. Why do I always mess things up? Why?

Miley's POV

I smiled at Shane and hugged him. While I hugged him, I looked over at Jake. He looked so hurt. I knew what he and Lilly were doing. I'm not stupid. I knew it was a ploy to make me jealous. But two can play at that game. I liked Jake a lot more than I liked Shane. Sure he was hot, but Jake and I had so much more chemistry. Shane was fun, but Jake and I could be so much more serious. I pulled away from the hug and kissed him. I was so angry at Lilly though. Not only are her and Jake close, but she kissed Shane when we are together. She thinks she can have them both. Well she can't. They both like me. The angrier I got, the more passionate this kiss got. I stood up and pulled him into my Hannah closet. I'm glad daddy went on that bonding trip with Jackson...

The kisses grew more passionate, more demanding. We ignored everyone else who was partying in my living room. We ignored the drunk teenagers and ignored our friends who were calling our names. I smelled the alcohol in Shane's breath.

"Is this your first time drinking?" I giggled as I pulled away from our kiss.

"This much," he slurred. He pulled me into a deeper kiss, I tugged at his shirt, pulling it over his head.

One thing led to another...

(A/n you know...)

Lilly's POV

I pulled on my shoes and left the house. After staying up all-night arguing to myself, I decided I should "end" things with Jake. I figured he'd be at Miley's and decided to walk over there. I got to her front door only to see that it was wide opened, I peeked inside and saw passed out teenagers all over the place. Beer cans, beer bottles, shot cups, beer pong, all over her house. I shook my head and went to Miley's room figuring they'd all be in there. Jason wasn't here so I figured he'd be at home sleeping. If he was here, THIS wouldn't have happened. I walked into Miley's room and the scene in front of me shocked me. Miley, was naked? IN BED, with..

"Jake?" I shouted. The two stirred and Jake sat up.

"Whoa." He looked around the room. His gazed landed on Miley and then he looked at himself.

"WHOA!" He shouted, covering himself up.

"What in the world is going on here?" Miley grumbled as she sat up. She looked at Jake, then at herself and blushed. I wasn't angry, I was just surprised.

"Uhm..." They both stared at me a horrid look on their faces.

"Lilly I -"

"Save it Jake. I only came here to say that the deal is off, but I guess it already was," I cutted in, explaining to him.

"Miley, Jake likes you. Jake, Miley likes you. We were only dating to make you jealous," I continued. Miley smiled at Jake. You know, in most cases, Miley should be running around freaking out because she just slept with a guy, but Miley seemed oblivious to that fact. This girl...

"Sorry to ruin this moment, but you realize that there's about 15 kids passed out downstairs?"

Then I saw Shane walked in. A shirtless Shane.

"Miley, uhm I forgot to give you this last night," he said as he came in holding up his purity ring. What. The. Heck. I can't believe her...

He looked from Jake to Miley, a look of anger crossed his face. Then he saw me, it switched to a sympathetic, pitiful look. Wow, thanks.

"Miley...?" Jake asked, confused.

"I'm sorry. I...I was drunk. I didn't know," Miley bursted into tears. Shane angrily walked out of the room.

"Miley, I forgive you," Jake whispered as he held her. Sometimes Jake is as oblivious as a toddler. He was sweet, but he gave in too easily. I made my way in the same direction as Shane.

"Shane!" I called, he kept walking but slowed down so I can catch up to him. When I did, he looked angrily at me.

"What!"

"I just wanted to ask you if you were okay..."

"How would you feel if someone cheated on you?" He shouted as he shook me. Completely hurt, I pushed away.

"Betrayed. You asked the perfect person," I spat.

"What?" He asked softly.

"It doesn't matter," I tried brushing it off.

"Tell me."

"All my past boyfriends have cheated on me. Don't act like I don't know how it feels," I admitted. His face softened a bit.

"You act as if I care." What is wrong with him...?

"You're a jerk!" I slapped him. His face still stayed stone cold.

"I don't care. At least I'm not desperate. At least I don't kiss other girls while I'm dating someone. I'm not you. I'm not stupid and naïve. Maybe if you weren't so high strung, your boyfriends wouldn't have cheated on you," he spat angrily. He walked away.

No POV

The small blonde girl stood there, frozen in that spot. She knew his anger was talking, but all of that wasn't necessary. Tears fell, as she made her way towards the beach. She wiped furiously at the tears, which caused her to lose her balance and fall. She laid there in the sand and cried. What Shane said was half true. Maybe if she wasn't the way she is, she'd probably be happy. She felt someone pick her up and sit her down right. Nate.

He knew she didn't want him to ask her if she was alright, but he knew she wanted him to hold her. Then she blurted everything. Starting from 11 year old Shane to her dad leaving, to her and Jake's fake relationship and to the fight with Shane. Nate found himself getting angrier and more sad because his best friend has been through so much.

"There are days where I like him. Then I hate him. I love to hate him and I hate it when I love him. Little 9 year old Lilly is still madly in love with Shane Adam Gray," Lilly admitted. A small smile tugging at her lips. Her tears were still falling. Shane held her closer.

"I'm sorry I gave you the cold shoulder. I'm sorry I wasn't a good best friend. I didn't even know half of what you told me..." Nate apologized. She shook her head.

"I'm sorry I never told you."

"Its okay, Lilly. I'm here now, whenever you need to cry, my shoulders are here for you to cry on." She smiled and kissed his cheek. She was glad she had her best friend back.

Shane's POV

I heard my door open and slam shut. "I'm not in the mood right now," I said under the covers. I felt someone pull me up and punch me in the face.

"What the hell is wrong with you!" I shouted at..Nate?

"Me? You deserve this for the things you said to Lilly!" He shouted twice as loud. Jason and my mom quickly ran into my room. Jason held Nate back and my mom tried to calm me down.

"Its none of your business."

"It is my business. Do you not know what she's going through? Right, you don't care. You don't care that there's 16 year old girl next door crying her eyes out. Abandoned by her dad, her mom. Cheated, lied to and manipulated by the people she loved the most. Maybe if you stopped being so selfish, you would see that! What you said was unnecessary," Nate shouted, tears falling. He shoved Jason and went downstairs. Jason and my mom were just as shocked as I was.

"Poor Lilly," I heard my mom whisper. Jason and my mom left my room.

I'm such an idiot.

Two weeks later

Lilly's POV

I'm not surprised Shane hasn't apologized yet. Give it to him to be the most hard-headed, selfish person I know. I barely left the house and when I did, it was only for school. My ankle has heeled so I don't have to carry those stupid crutches around. I know its stupid to be depressed over what a stupid BOY had said about me, but I was. I've been avoiding everyone, even poor Nate...

I heard my phone ring and picked it up.

"Hello?"

"Li...Lilly?" I heard a girl sobbed, it was Miley.

"Miley, are you alright?" I know I should be upset at her, but she was my best friend, I couldn't abandon her.

"Lilly, can you do me a favor...?" Miley asked quietly, her voice was hoarse.

"Sure, what is it?"

"Come over, please..."

"I'll be right over. Hang on there Miles," I replied softly. Miley sounded so lost, so distressed. I couldn't leave her like that. I got dressed and hurried to her house. Before I could ring the bell, she opened the door and collapsed into me.

"Miley, what's wrong?"

"Lilly, I'm such a screw up. A slut!" She sobbed into my shirt. Good thing I decided to dress scrubby.. Oh yeah! Miley!

"Tell me."

"Lilly, I think I'm..." She started softly, but I gasped. I knew.

"Pregnant?" I finished for her. She let out a loud sob and I pulled her into a hug.

"Baby girl, don't cry. Jake's a good guy, he won't leave you if you decided to keep the baby," I reassured her, patting her back. I felt her body stiffened.

Miley's POV

That's the thing, I didn't know who the baby's father would be. Jake or Shane. The only two guys that I've had sex with. I'm praying, praying that if I am, the baby would be Jake's...

Lilly's POV

"Lilly?"

"Yes, Miles?"

"Can you drive me to the clinic. I - I want to know for sure," she whispered. I nodded my head. I would do anything for my best friend.

"And Lilly?"

"Yes?"

"Don't tell anyone, please. I- I want to tell them myself." I nodded as I helped her towards my house and into my car. The car ride was silent except for her quiet sobbing.

"Are you going to tell them soon?" I wondered. She shook her head furiously.

"Lilly, this has to be our secret! Only at least till I start showing," she said. I nodded.

"So Miley Stewart has another secret, huh?" I joked, trying to lighten up the mood. She let out a small giggle.

"I'm full of secrets," she laughed. We reached the clinic and her smile disappeared. I patted her back softly and we both got out of the car. Before we walked in, I stopped her.

"Miles?"

"Yes, Lils?"

"No matter what happens, I'll always be here for you," I told her as I pulled her into a hug.

"Gosh Lilly, I can't believe I was such a bitch to you, you're an amazing friend," she whispered.

"Ready?"

"Ready.."

We walked in and the environment felt so weird. It was welcoming, but yet it wasn't at the same time. The receptionist looked up at us with a forced smile. I bet she was secretly thinking," Great another knocked-up teenager." I gave her a weird look and gave Miley a little push. She squeaked but went up.

"I-uh, can I get a pregnancy test?" The receptionist nodded, pushing a clipboard out to her. Offering her birth control plans and support groups. Miley nodded slowly, but just wrote down her information. She went into one of the bathrooms and came back out a couple minutes later.

"15 minutes," she stated.

"Whatever happens, happens. What are you going to do if you are pregnant? Keep the baby?"

"Of course I will. I'm not going to kill this gift," she said with a small smile as she patted her now toned stomach. That's when something clicked in my head.

"Miles... What about Hannah?"

A/N Soooo? Did you guys expect that! :D I'm not sure who the dad will be, I have a lot of stuff on my mind, but I'm not so sure about them… Anyways, my life has been pretty hectic and I always find myself completely upset at the end of the day. My cousin, Kyle, had a relapsed. Which means his leukemia is back… he's only 11 and I feel so heartbroken. Please pray for Kyle and my family. 3

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Sally