Since when would Edward ask me for help? Lolz... it could happen! If he existed, that is. xD But it's all part of the plot! Now please enjoy this new chapter.
Me: Why can't I have Twilight?
SM: Because you can't.
Me: Not even for all the cookies in the world?
SM: No.
Me: Darn it. *Sulks, then goes to watch an episode of Ghost Hunters*
Haha! Just had to try one of those! I've seen them around, & they're a hella funny! xD
"You need my help?" That's weird. Why the hell would Edward Cullen want my help? Just what can I help with? Not to be putting myself down or anything, but when people ask for me help, sometimes I fail to have what it takes to help them with what they need.
He nodded, his eyes welling up like he's about to cry. Since he's a vampire, it's too bad those tears will never fall. "Please. From what Alice has told me about you, you're the only person that can help me."
"What about the others?" I know what the answer will be, but I have to play innocent so I don't end up telling him the outcome. That'll be a huge burn on them.
"You know Rosalie. She's already planning to defend Bella. Emmett has no choice but to be on her side since she is his wife." I nodded. Of course I knew that. "Alice... she's worried. She can tell that the baby isn't harmless."
"Can she see any visions of Bella?"
He shook his head. "Bella's future is blank ever since she found she was pregnant."
"And Jasper?"
"He agrees with Alice. He's worked with enough newborns to know how dangerous this baby could be."
"Carlisle and Esme?"
"I don't know about Esme. She seems indifferent. As for Carlisle... he's trying to do research to see what he can do."
I already knew all this, but because this part in the book wasn't fully described, I'm sorta running blind. Until we get to the part where Jacob visits the Cullens after Bella and Edward return home abruptly from their honeymoon, I have to be on my careful watch. Who knows what could happen because we're here?
"So please," he whispered, his voice sounding as broken as he was when he left Bella in the forest back in New Moon. "Help me, Dezzy. You might be my only hope of saving Bella."
What should I say? I know the rational part in my mind should say no, but at the same time, I'm curious as to what would happen if I said yes. What would happen if I said yes, which meant taking Edward's side?
You should know. Crystal popped into my mind out of nowhere that I nearly peed my pants. Then again, I haven't done that since I was six. And, in my defense, it was an accident! I really had to go that bad!
Uh-huh. Crystal retorted.
What's that supposed to mean?
Nothing. And don't act like Cat.
I wasn't trying to...
"Dezzy?" Edward's voice brought me back to the present.
"Yeah?"
"It's going to be hard to get used to that."
I smirked. "I know."
"So... will you help me?"
NO! Crystal and Nicole yell in my head.
You better not do it bookworm, or I'll come up there and personally kill you. Crystal growled.
Yeah... you and what army?
Easy. I've got Nicole with me.
Yeah? Well I've got Eddie.
True... but is he a fighter?
He's a vampire, cookie panda monster. What kind of question is that?
A question that can be answered, duh.
"I'll get you two for this," I muttered under my breath.
Edward raised his eyebrow. "What was that?"
"Nothing. Just my friends."
"Oh. So..."
Say no. Nicole said.
"Of course I'll say no!" I shouted. "Gosh, you guys are like my conscience or something."
That was the message. Crystal said with a chuckle.
Edward gazes at me with a hurt expression on his face. "Was that the answer to my question?"
Shoots. I hate seeing Cullen like this. No Dezzy. Don't let his sad face make you change your mind.
I force myself to nod. "Yeah."
"But... why? What makes you want to be on Rose's side?"
Better be careful with your wording, Dezzy. Nicole warned me. You don't want to let it slip to Edward what will really happen to Bella.
"Uh... it's an instinct," I tell him.
"Elaborate, Dezzy."
"Ummm..." Be careful of your wording, bookworm. "Because can."
He rolled his eyes. "You're gonna have to give me a better reason than that."
I huffed "Fine. You wanna know why I'm siding with Rosalie? Technically, I'm not siding with her. I'm siding with what my mind tells me. I'll tell you something, Cullen. You shouldn't always go with what you think the right thing is, because chances are, it might not be what you want in the end. To me, this is one of those cases. Think of it this way: what are the pros of giving up the baby? It'll keep Bella safe right? It'll also give her a longer amount of time of being human, which is what you want for her." I see him nod. "Okay, then what are the cons? Well, without giving anything away, because you do know how this'll all go because Alice told you, didn't you ever think about the drawbacks of killing off a half-human, half-vampire child? What if something would happen to Bella even when you try to get rid of it? What if it does something to her before you could do anything about it? Think about it, Cullen. You might end her life before you get around doing it, if you know what I mean."
Edward goes silent for a minute. Ha! Take that, Cullen!
Why do you call him Cullen so much? Crystal asked me.
It's a habit. I tell her. I guess it's from reading twilight fanfictions for like two years and seeing more than often Bella calling Edward by his last name cuz she dislikes him.
Uh-huh. So you're saying you hate Edward?
WHAT? No! I didn't mean that way!
Sure you didn't. Nicole popped up.
"Why do you think that way?" Edward questioned me after Crystal and Nicole escape my head. "You said that sometimes what I think is the right thing isn't the right thing in the end. Did something happen to you that made you think that?"
I force myself to nod, bringing myself back to a painful memory of Peaches. He was the reason for the advice I'd just given him. Again, I still question myself as to why he did this.
Peaches is an idiot. I know that he belongs to Wonderland, but he could have at least talked to me about it like a real person instead of indirectly ending whatever connection we had. I may respect Peaches' and Wonderland's relationship, but I still wanna kick his ass as revenge for doing this to me. It's his fault that I'm so unsure of my feelings for Noah.
Noah... gosh I miss him so much.
"Dezzy? What was that about? I heard Peaches a bunch of times. You also mentioned Wonderland and something about a relationship. Are you messing with me?"
I shook my head. "When it comes to Peaches, I'll never joke around."
"It's a he, right?"
"Uh-huh. But I don't wanna talk about it."
"And Wonderland?" he pressed on.
"I said I don't wanna talk about it!" I shout, feeling tears starting to form in my eyes. Damn! Why can't I just get over Peaches already?
"Uh... I'm sorry Dezzy," Edward apologizes in a solemn voice, laying an arm across my shoulder. "I shouldn't have asked in the first place."
I sniffed. Whew! Good thing no tears came up! I do not feel like crying in front of Cullen! "It's okay. It's just that it's a long story and I really don't wanna talk about it. It's a story I'd tell on another day."
He nodded. "Just tell me when you're ready, okay Dezzy?"
"Okays."
"So he was the reason that made you think that way?"
I nodded, feeling the will to cry fade away when Edward shifted back to the main subject. "There's a lot more reasons, but that's the main one. It made me see that our opinions can't always be trusted."
"Are you just telling me this because you know how this all goes?"
"That's part of it. But the whole opinion thingy I just told you also ties to it more than that. Trust me, Edward. If you really wanna do what's right, then I suggest not killing the baby."
"But... it will kill Bella!" he protested.
"No buts!" I snapped. "Remember? I know how it goes! If I were you, I'd take my advice, because if you dare do this wrong, Bella will hate you."
"How do you know that?"
"Have you once considered her feelings?" I fiddled with my hands, looking at Edward straight in the eye. "Maybe there's a reason why Bella wants to keep the baby. If you haven't noticed, you haven't been listening to her needs. And I'm not just talking about Isle Esme needs, if you know what I'm talking about." We both chuckle at my implication of what happened during their honeymoon.
"I don't know," he admitted.
"Well you should. That's a turn off in a relationship, especially in marriage. I don't want you and Bella splitting up because I think of you two as a fuck awesome couple."
"You just sweared."
"So?"
"I'm sensitive when people swear."
I laughed. "Well get used to it. As long as Crystal and I are here, you'll be hearing a lot of it."
He groaned. "Don't remind me! I get enough of that from Emmett and Rosalie!"
"Hey! I get enough swearing in school from the girls in my class!"
"It's worst for me! I have to handle girls who want me!"
"Then they're sluts," I tell him simply. "Trust me, in my generation of freshmen, they're already sort of like sluts before they're even seniors!"
Edward raised an eyebrow. "Really?"
"Yups. Not as much of a slut like Lauren, but sluts like they act so sassy, they refuse to hang out with outcasts and they swear a lot."
"Wow."
"Tell me about it."
Talking like this with Edward felt nice. He's like my vent buddy, but he'll never compare to Crystal and Nicole. Oh, and Alisha too. Completely almost forgot her for the moment. Did coming here already made me close to start forgetting about my missing fourth friend/musketeer?
Forget about Alisha and you're dead before you buy your next box of ice cream. Nicole growled.
Oh relax! I'll never forget Alisha! I scoffed.
You better. She'd probably hit you right now if she was here. Nicole said.
"Vent buddy, huh?" A ghost of a smile appeared on his face.
"You heard that?"
"Yeah. But thanks, Dezzy. What is a vent buddy?"
I gasped. "You don't know what that is?"
He shook his head. "I'm afraid not."
"Dude! That's like your wife right there! A vent buddy is someone, often your best friend or someone close to that doesn't count parents, that you talk to about personal stuff and all that sort of shit. To me, Crystal is my best vent buddy, and Nicole is second to her. A vent buddy is pretty much the first person you'd go to after something really big happens to you."
"Oh. Now I get it."
I smiled. "You better. If you weren't this emo over the last century, you would've seen that your own adopted siblings are the closest people that you have to vent buddies, excluding Carlisle and Esme."
"Really?"
"Uh-huh. They've been there for you. If you kept your eyes open, you could have seen that they were like your confidants."
"I do know what confidants are."
"Good. And speaking of keeping your eyes open, keep your eyes open for something that I'm about to tell you."
"What is it?"
I gesture for Edward to sit a couple inches away from me. "Come closer." He obeys and moves closer.
"Come closer... come closer..." I sing to myself. I look towards Edward's side and see his confused look.
"What?"
"Were you just singing?"
"Yeah. Why?"
"You didn't sound bad. What were you singing?"
"A Ne-Yo song."
"I think I heard of him. But the song..."
"Oh it's released like two years later in your Twilight world."
He nodded in understanding. "So what were you going to tell me?"
"Oh yeah! I had to get back to the main subject. You know, about the baby and everything."
"Go ahead."
"I was going to tell you that even though I might not be able to help you, I know someone that could."
"Who?"
"Guess."
He took a few seconds to respond. "Is it outside my family."
"Duh."
"The Volturi?"
I slapped my forehead. "I said I'm helping you, not try to kill you."
He chuckled. "I like you. You're funny."
"Thanks. I get that a lot. Now keep guessing. And don't you dare read my mind for an answer."
"Alright. Ummm... the wolves?"
"Getting warmer. I was only talking about one individual."
"Jacob?"
I nodded, giving a thumbs up. "Bingo!"
He gaped. "But why Jacob?"
I sighed. "Because next to yourself, don't you think he could convince Bella to give up the baby? I'm not saying it'll work, but at least he could try."
"Are you saying this because this would happen?"
"Maybe. But that's all I'm saying. But even if I didn't know, I'd still say you should talk to Jacob."
"I don't know... You know Alice is blind against the wolves."
"But what about me?"
"What about you?"
"What if I might be able to see the wolves?"
"Can you?"
"Dunno yet. Haven't had a vision of them yet. But if I do, then I'll tell you."
"Okay. So Jacob?"
"Yups. Maybe wait for a few days or something. Wait till he finds out that Bella's pregnant so we don't provoke him or something."
"You're really specific about this."
"I have to be, don't I?" I stood up and headed for the day, ignoring the dull ache on my ass of sitting too long on the bed. "That's all I got for you, Cullen. Now if you'll excuse me, I'm gonna go find my friends. If I were you, you should be talking to Bella. And before you get pissed at her for what's happening with the baby and all of that, I advise you shouldn't. It'll be straining your marriage. Trust me, I've seen that first hand with my own parents."
"Are they divorced?"
"No. But they argue a lot."
"You must have bad parents."
"Yups. I'll be leaving now..." I was about to head to the stairs when I felt Edward grab my wrist.
"What is it, Cullen?" I asked, turning around to face him.
"Thank you," he told me.
"For what?"
"For your advice. You're like my new vent buddy."
I grinned. "No worries, Cullen. I'll always be anyone's vent buddy, especially for someone like you."
Done! Whew! I'd post this chapter up sooner, but I had like THREE frickin' projects to go through for English, World History & Science! You know how hard is it to do science fair projects at this time of year? You teens have been through it, right? I feel for you, ya'll. Pile that w/ a commercial project for English & cooking lots of food for a project in World History & you've got myself my last month, my friend. So that's why this is like a late update.
Now back to the story. Before you ask, Edward & Dezzy will NOT, & I repeat NOT, be a pairing. I even capitalized NOT so you get the message (This is what English does to me when some certain classmates don't follow directions). Edward will be w/ Bella (Duh!) & Dezzy will stick to having her problems w/ Chef & Peaches. Capiche? I can tell you now that Edward & Dezzy will only ever be friends/vent buddies. Yes, I do want Edward & Dezzy to have a close friendship like Dezzy does w/ Crystal cuz it fits the plot much better. Speaking of Crystal (aka Cookiepandamonster), she has a new one-shot & a multi-chaptered fic up on her account. And guess what? She's finally entering the Twilight fandom, people! Hell to the frickin' yeah! xD The one-shot is called "Back To Square One" (Based on her real life experience w/ someone that I won't speak the name of cuz she'll put me on her notenbook of death) & White (Makes her sound grownup, or at least that's what I think). They're both Jacob/Rosalie fanfics, so check it out. :)
Oh, & don't forget to review review REVIEW! I think I might have a lot of silent readers, & that's OKAY! But I won't bite. Just drop a review so I can know if I need any improvements on anything. :)
