Alright, next chapter! So this chapter we get to know Hikaru and Kaoru's characters a bit more, I'm sure I made them a bit more OC then I meant to, but oh well, can't be helped!

Anyway, here's the chapter, and remember, I don't own Ouran!~

Chapter 10: Hikaru's P.O.V.

As I waved at Anai while she made her way to her car, Kaoru stepped towards me and starts to give me a look. I rolled my eyes as I stuffed my hands in my pockets, "What?" I said nonchalantly and he shook his head.

"Don't 'What' me, what did you and Anai do back there?" he asked me and I just ignored him, but, being the pestering brother I know him to be, he didn't back off. "My brother got lucky with the girl he likes, didn't he?"

My anger boiled up, God and everyone thought that I was the perverted one! I turned around and grabbed the collar of his blazer and tugged him towards me, "Shut the hell up! Anai's going through a lot of shit right now and I was just there to help her pick up the pieces!" I yelled at him and he raised his hands up in defense as his eyes widened in fear.

"Alright! Alright! Jesus, can you chill out?" he said very quickly and I released him as I turned around again. Using my best guess, Kaoru was probably fixing his tie right now, "Damn, when did you get so strong, anyways?" he muttered to himself.

"So what happened?" he asked me and I sighed as I turned around, "Don't make a big deal out of it, I'm sure Anai would be mad if news got around about this, but…" my voice trailed off as I looked back to where Anai's car was now driving away.

"But?" Kaoru pressed me, "But," I started again, "Honey-sempai and Anai are back together now," I finished and, for a while, it was quiet except for the birds chirping, but then Kaoru decided to break the ice again.

"Well that's great, right? I mean they were like the…the dream couple, right?" he said in a cheerful tone, but all it did was make my heart shatter to bits.

God knows how much I cared about Anai…I've liked her for a while now. Although, it wasn't fair for me to say that because I didn't realize my feelings for her until after Honey-sempai had started dating her, but my God did it hurt.

I don't think I loved her necessarily, but I felt something close to it. I just wish that I hadn't waited this long to tell her, for all we know I could've made her really happy, but….I'm not that man for her, that man is Honey-sempai….that doesn't make it any harder to accept, however.

I felt a hand being placed on my shoulder, knowing immediately that it belonged to Kaoru, but I just kept staring off into the distance, wishing Anai would come back, kiss me again and this time I wouldn't be so timid about it. I'd pour all of my heart into that kiss.

"Hikaru…are you okay?" Kaoru asked me and I scoffed at that, "No," I said as I forced myself to laugh. I turned around as saw Kaoru's face grow somber, ugh I hate when people felt sorry for me. It makes me feel pathetic. I shook my head as I forced a smile, "It's just perfect for them, but here I am, lonely and single, like I have been," I turned as I held my stomach, starting to giggle uncontrollably as I spoke, why am I doing this? It was so odd of me to pour out my feelings this suddenly.

"I mean, of course we both had Raine, but she always liked you better. The bitch never even looked at me the way she did with you, my own brother! Jesus, she can't even tell us apart!" I screamed, still giggling in between my sentences as I fell to my knees. They hit the pavement hard, but I didn't care, my feelings had taken over.

"And for the first time in fucking forever, there was a girl who wasn't our mother or Haruhi that could tell the two of us apart and who actually gave a shit about me and yet…! And yet….," I felt myself trembling as I looked down at the ground. I dragged my hand down my face, pulling at the skin that covered my cheeks and felt wetness. When the hell did I start crying?

"And yet she…she can't be mine because I was…," I snickered as I shook my head sadly at my next sentence, "I was too much of a dumbass to realize my feelings for her…and now it's too late," I finally finished and it was dead silent in the parking lot.

I don't know why our limo wasn't here yet, I didn't care either; it was just a convenience to have. Kaoru's footsteps were making their way towards me to tap me on the shoulder.

I looked up at him and he motioned for me to stand up. I sighed as I nodded and did as he asked me to. When I turned to face him, he placed both of his hands on my shoulders as he spoke, "Here's the truth, when me and Raine were alone and tried to get a little," he stopped to grin at me before saying, "Frisky," which I of course laughed at.

"She would always get angry with me because I was too…nice," he scoffed and my eyebrows rose in confusion, so he continued to explain, "You see, she dated both of us because it was the best way to get the nice gentlemen type, and the teasing, but much more sexual demon type,"

My mouth opened to say something, but soon closed again because I was just shocked. Raine didn't seem the type to want a bad boy, but….I guess there were a lot of things that I didn't know about her.

Kaoru shook his head slowly back and forth, "She couldn't tell the difference between us besides our behavior and wanted a man who could be both a gentle man and bad boy, so she used us…." He looked up at me and smiled grimly, "Do you think that made me feel good to hear? That….that I couldn't be enough to satisfy her? To be able to love her and care about her?"

"Kaoru," I said and he just shook his head as he dropped his hands from my shoulders, "No, it didn't…but that girl," he continued as he pointed to where Anai's car used to be, "She's got someone who will love her and care for her for the rest of her life and she for damn sure is going to do the same thing for him!" he yelled, but stopped to regain his composure before continuing.

"Do you really want to take that away from her?" he asked me and I couldn't help but feel like a jackass when he said that.

"No," I said and he nodded, "Good, because if you really care for her as much as you say you do, then you'd let her go and be happy," he finished and I sighed.

It was easier said than done, but…I could see where he was coming from and…the only thing I really wanted was for Anai to be happy and…I just had to be her friend for her to truly be happy.

Kaoru and I didn't speak much after the limo had finally arrived and not even on the ride home or when we got home. I guess he needed his time alone, he was the one who probably needed to vent more than I did. For Christ's sake, he was told he wasn't good enough when Anai told me that she would've dated me if Honey weren't in the picture, but…my poor brother was 'Inadequate' for Raine. My lord was she a bitch! The nerve of her!

Anyways, so I just went to my room and started to throw away all of the shit that I kept of Anai and I's relationship. I couldn't get rid of the photos, but the countless amounts of doodles I had made during class that consisted of me and Anai's name with a plus mark in between, ugh, those needed to go.

I know, I'm such a girl. I couldn't help it though, it felt as though I had my first crush again, although this time I knew that it meant a lot more than that. She meant something to mean…shit she does mean something to me. After clearing my bag, my closet, and room of anything that was full of me being all emotional and girly, I flopped back on my bed as I stared at this one picture of me and Anai, my favorite picture of us.

She was in her third year of school and boss had made her dress up, like she did today, but not host. Our theme was American Comic Book super villains and heroes. Kaoru and I were Batman and Robin, we had to rock, paper, and scissors to see who was going to be Batman. Needless to say, I wasn't the one who had to wear electric green tights all day.

As for Anai, she was Cat Lady, and my God was she sexy as hell in that tight black leather outfit. We were standing side by side and I had angled the camera down like those dumb ass Myspace photos, but it was still a great shot. She was kissing my cheek as I stuck out my tongue to the camera while winking my eye. Man that day was fun, all we did was play a bunch of ridiculous card games and tournaments to see who was the best villain as well as best super hero.

I sighed as I threw the picture to the other side of my bed, not wanting to remember such a joyous day when I was in no mood for it. I was a little too miserable for it.

So, instead, I just rolled over and closed my eyes as I forced myself to drift off to sleep.